I'm not using this to bash anyone. I just feel like writing about how loneliness swallowed my life again.
Sorry. I've been mostly inactive. I had so much to do in school in such little time and I slowly lost connection to anything that made me happy. Uhm..sorry, most of you probably wish I was gone because I only pop up once every two weeks. I'm sorry if I had to make most of you wait. sorry, if I feel like most of you, my friends, are ignoring me now. Yall made me feel like I had no one to turn to anymore. Slowly, each one of you stopped talking to me. Hey, it's okay, I think I can handle my stuff alone. Even if I am already starting to stare blankly to god knows where—I'm fine. I'm sorry if I was annoying—I know I am always like that and I warned you beforehand but you told me it's fine. I know I ask for so much attention and love but like why would I look for something that even I cannot give to myself.. I just knew that people will leave me. I should've just kept things ic because I can't make connections ooc. oh well—i'm sorry, if I wanted to make friends ooc. I'm sorry if I ask too much. I'm sorry... I'm sorry.. I'm sorry if I'm always apologetic but I feel like I'm always wrong and i feel like yall ignored me when I wanted comfort to tell myself to stop.. stop apologizing. I'm sorry.I'm sorry, I can't stop myself from apologizing.
So yeah—uhh sorry about..all that. feel free to ignore. anyway, I'm used to that already.
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