I'm incredibly happy that I have (sorta) gotten over my anxiety, my heartbreak, my sadness over this guy whom I like (I honestly just wanted to be best friends).
So basically he's an internet friend. I interacted with him everyday (until sometime he stopped talkin'). I didn't have anyone to talk to about my life that time (what a loner-) I know I have the tendency to get attached to my mutuals. Though every time I confess my connections like my real feelings, they ignore me for like idk 1 or 2 months meh then they show up saying they have relationships (honestly i really just wanted to be best friends), It hurts to know that it seemed like they wanted to push me away immediately. But hey—I decided to finally move on. becausehestillhasn'ttalkedtomeyet
If you don't like me then I'd rather spend this wasted love on myself. I asked if you would leave me like the others, because all I knew was that they hated me for being the most annoying piece of , you told me I wasn't annoying until I got attached to you because of how you returned the affection I was showing. I told you how much I loved you, bro, that all the fluff and affection I show is genuine but it seems like all you did was to fake it and to play along. I told you you could talk to me about anything, that it's the least I could do for you since you listened to me when I needed you. But hey, if you really can't tell me what's wrong, I won't force it. Even though it seems like you aren't trying your best to contact me, I know you'd be happy without me. Thanks a lot. I knew you'd end up thinking the same thing your friend did to you. I'm just really waiting for you to tell me to stop trying or ask if there's anyone else I could annoy. Forget me. I'm building up again those walls that I actually brought down to let you into my life. If you still want to talk, my pms, twt dms and kkt are still open.But don't expect me to be all lovey dovey anymore. You broke me.
sorry for that orz feel free to ignoreeee
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