To the Hunger Games roleplayers

Hello my fellow Hunger Games roleplayers, or should I say, my family. Some of you may know that earlier…..I attempted on leaving the roleplay. I don’t want to go into any details or reasons really, all I’m going to say is I acted hastily and in a selfish fit pressed that little “leave character” button. When I pressed it, I had my mind made up that I was going to leave, no matter what I wouldn’t come back. I thought that pressing that button and making that resolution with myself would over all make me feel better and help better my life, though I was quickly proven wrong and left to reflect and cry over the horrible decision I had just made.

I know some of you are probably rolling your eyes and thinking I’m just being dramatic, which to some extent I probably am, but I do hope that you also try and take into account how much this roleplay means to me. Again I don’t want to go into details, those who are close to me know what’s going on and those of you who truly want to become part of our family will probably find out sooner or later.

I do want to state though that even after leaving and deciding it was a bad idea I had convinced myself so was coming back, though I so desperately wanted to. I didn’t and still don’t feel like I deserve to, after riling everyone up only to come back so soon. It seemed….unfair to you guys, especially since another incident like this happened just yesterday. Yet after a few of your kind and incuraging words and the fact that you guys were willing to stand up for me (again to those who know what happened) I decided to return.

But, I will be on hiatus because I have things I must work out. I don’t want an incident like this to happen again and if it does…I don’t think I’ll be able to bring myself to return the next time. Because it’s to unfair to you all and with me being the eldest in the roleplay, I shouldn’t be acting so childishly more than once. So please, and I know Jenny said not to do this….., but please forgive me? Forgive me for acting so stupidly and please continue to stand by my side, because I couldn’t do this without you guys, without all of you.

Thank you so much…..for everything.