muse on an all-time low OTL

I have all these ideas for my characters but I don't put them into action because what's the point? I can't live out the characters properly anyway.

I have all these plots but I somehow am not replying to them because... I don't know, I want to, it's fun, but somehow I still don't do it.

I guess this is a combination of 100% of my past plots (the last months) getting dropped by my partner, and struggling to find people to live out plots with. But the second reason is actually total bull because off the top of my head I know 3-4 people with whom I can rp great stuff, and I'm the one who's dragging with replies.

I'm trying not to feel bad or put pressure on myself, because this is supposed to be for fun, but maybe... I don't know.

Not sure how you feel reading this, but I feel like this all sounds way too dramatic. It's not such a big deal, I'm just in a slump.

Ah.

I need to stop dismissing myself with 'it's not a big deal'.