Rant 1 — You don't have to read this.

Attachment

Oh dear, it seems that I've become quite attached to you.

Your personality is somewhat like a magnet, you are able to draw everyone into you and get along with all people.

People like you are so easy to get along with.

You were really an easy-going person, and your love was so easily given.

I was no exception to your attraction.

You pulled me in right when we first met. 

I've known you for so long, and I go to you for almost everything. 

But why?

Why is it that you don't see me the same way?

Am I just another girl that you don't need to pay attention to?

Do you even consider me a friend?

Or is it just me that thinks that we're so close?

I love you so much, so much more than everyone else.

That might not be true, since so many people love you.

But to me, you are my number one.

So it's painful for me now.

You've shut me out.

You've ignored me.

Everyone else is more important now.

No matter how hard I try to get to you, you always push me away.

Do I not deserve the same love that you give others  anymore?

That's not it.

You just don't care about me anymore, right?

I get it.

I've relied on you too much.

I've been too dependent on your existence.

This wasn't love, was it?

This was an obsession.

An obsession for a best friend's love.

Should I let go?

I should, shouldn't I?

But I can't.

I'll spiral out of control.

My world will crumble around me.

I will become nothing.

I wouldn't be able to handle it.

Please love me.

Please listen to my selfish request and love me.

Sadly, I know you won't love me in return.

I'm just a child that doesn't understand the world.

I'm not even worth your time.

That's okay, I'll just continue to love you in the background.

I'll leave you alone until you learn to love me.

I will wait.

This is how attached I have become to your soul that showed me such kindness.

Bye bye, and I love you ♥