it's sad enough when you can't tell the other your feelings, since you're afraid of rejection, afraid of the outcome.. cause you're a ing coward.
but when you both stop talking for no reason at all, stop showing affection for each other, completely ignoring me.. it's worse like that.
you can even add a new person to the photo, they look like siblings, treat each other like one.. but i see it more than that.
it's painful, ing hurts. watching you talk to her.. while you ignore me, it hurts my chest. i can feel it, how my throat squeezes and how my chest
makes it harder for me to breathe.. why through? did i do something you don't like. is it because i'm too childish? please tell me, cause it's affecting
me so much, that it's just there, always. and i ing think negative cause of it. i feel like compared to that girl you talked to me about, about you
and her having a relationship, how you wanted her back.. you couldn't feel how much it hurt, even if it was just a few sentences..
i remember how i was once your living diary even, you'd always call and text me.. telling me to wake up so we can go to school together..
but we don't even smile at each other anymore, because you'd focus your attention elsewhere..
remember when you sent me a long text? a tbh about your thoughts about me? how about when we played with whipped cream?
or drank and ate each others' meals without even asking, because we knew it was alright..? i remember many things clearly you know..
we never even came or left school without each other, we didn't even care if we got late for class..
the only times when we didn't go to school together is when one of us was absent..
can't we go rewind those moments? because i know they won't be happening anytime soon..
there were even times when i was bullied by my "older brothers", and you'd be there stopping them, since you were so over protective..
i felt safe when you were around back then.. you were the first few ones to crack my barrier..
but because of you as well..
i'm not sure if i can fix that crack anymore.. because even if i could.. the damage can still be seen..
just like a crack in a mirror.
but when you both stop talking for no reason at all, stop showing affection for each other, completely ignoring me.. it's worse like that.
you can even add a new person to the photo, they look like siblings, treat each other like one.. but i see it more than that.
it's painful, ing hurts. watching you talk to her.. while you ignore me, it hurts my chest. i can feel it, how my throat squeezes and how my chest
makes it harder for me to breathe.. why through? did i do something you don't like. is it because i'm too childish? please tell me, cause it's affecting
me so much, that it's just there, always. and i ing think negative cause of it. i feel like compared to that girl you talked to me about, about you
and her having a relationship, how you wanted her back.. you couldn't feel how much it hurt, even if it was just a few sentences..
i remember how i was once your living diary even, you'd always call and text me.. telling me to wake up so we can go to school together..
but we don't even smile at each other anymore, because you'd focus your attention elsewhere..
remember when you sent me a long text? a tbh about your thoughts about me? how about when we played with whipped cream?
or drank and ate each others' meals without even asking, because we knew it was alright..? i remember many things clearly you know..
we never even came or left school without each other, we didn't even care if we got late for class..
the only times when we didn't go to school together is when one of us was absent..
can't we go rewind those moments? because i know they won't be happening anytime soon..
there were even times when i was bullied by my "older brothers", and you'd be there stopping them, since you were so over protective..
i felt safe when you were around back then.. you were the first few ones to crack my barrier..
but because of you as well..
i'm not sure if i can fix that crack anymore.. because even if i could.. the damage can still be seen..
just like a crack in a mirror.
but it must be nice.. to experience love and being loved.. however, i'm not so sure about my current feeling..
is it alright if i'm like this? ..but you don't even talk to me anymore. it's sad how our friendship ended just like this.. we didn't get to do a lot of things..
we were once so close, for the few months of our friendship.. we had adorable nicknames for each other as well.
but here we are now,
not talking, or even glancing at each other. it's like we've never met.
it's sad how our friendship ended up like this you know.. but it's pretty funny..
is it alright if i'm like this? ..but you don't even talk to me anymore. it's sad how our friendship ended just like this.. we didn't get to do a lot of things..
we were once so close, for the few months of our friendship.. we had adorable nicknames for each other as well.
but here we are now,
not talking, or even glancing at each other. it's like we've never met.
it's sad how our friendship ended up like this you know.. but it's pretty funny..
because i didn't even get to say that i like you.
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