Rant

You can ignore this or whatever. I'm just ranting. 

I miss old roleplays. I honestly do. A lot of rps today are so cliquey, and it .  I remember joining an rp where there was a JYP and many characters that weren't popular, but they were still welcome, and everyone came rushing to their side. I just missed the atmosphere that old rps had. No one cared about what group you were in, just as long as you were friendly and weren't a .

A friend and I have done many experiments in our own rps in which we both would join as a popular character and our second character would be someone who wasn't that well known. The results? Everyone ignored the character who wasn't that well known, and everyone came dashing for the "popular" person. It just makes me sad you know? Especially for the people who rp as girls,  it's a hard life out there in the rp world tbh. Everyone thinks you're a thirsty attention who just wants to hook up with your bias. But that's not your intention. You just want to be acknowledge just as much as any others.

I don't know, I just feel like finding a good rp is rare now a days, with everyone face chasing and what not. I just.. I don't know. As much as I love rping, my love for it is fading because of this. I know admins can't do much but "warn" the people. It's out of their hands. I know, I was an admin in multiple rps. I know the struggle. It just makes me sad. 

And when you do approach an admin, all you get is "try harder," approach people more, change to someone more popular. I get it, I've been in their shoes. There's a limit to their "power". But what if you've already approached people only to be ignored? What if you did go out of your way to try to make yourself memorable? Only to be drowned out and soon forgotten by others. What if you tried everything, and your best isn't enough?

Roleplaying is a way for me to "escape" reality. And if I'm being ignored both here and in rp. Then how important am I really? What am I worth? I know I probably sound like an attention , I'm not. It just lowers my self confidence when you can't seem to attract anyone by just being you. Like I'm not good enough for anyone. You know? I don't know if this makes any sense, since I'm probably rambling.