Rant

Hey guys! 

So long time no roleplay I guess and I just wanted to sort of just about everything right now lol 

my heart is like a legit lump in my chest. It feels like it's swollen and it's so ing annoying that literally I'm a crying wreck and I've been holding in these damn tears for the entire day so imagine how it feels. 

Idk. Does your heart ever just heart for the most stupid reasons and then your mind wants to just aid into the torture by like creating ty assumptions in your head. 

Lkterally I was NEVER jealous of couples who got married before I met this ing I currently date. I love him but hate him too. Idk my parents are racist and want me marrying my own ethnicity which Idc because idk I'm just wondering to just simmer down on this stupid heart break. I might as well just leave this idiot who decided to grab onto me in the first place and have my parents go on ahead and arrange my damn marriage. 

KKKKK ITTTT. 

love doesn't exist. 

I might be being overdramatic. 

Life also. 

I wanna just die and go to heaven and be forgiven and just hide. 

Lmao. Better yet I wish there was a feature for not existing. That way I wouldn't be here to feel anytning. 

You know? I have no one who gets it to talk to me. Everyone's a child who hasn't been in a relationship or has been in ty ones. They wouldn't get this ing 50 pound weight just lodged into the center of my chest. 

Hahahahha  

everyone.