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@[B.D. Leader] Boa Hongki pushed the empty bowl aside and leaned back against the chair."hmm"he pretended to give her question some thought"you can wet the bed"oh.. that sounded so weird and inappropriate.He flushed a deep shade of red at his own choice of words.Damn.He was 25 for god sake.He shouldn't be embarrassed about such things but he was like a kid when it came to things like this.It would take time to get used to it.
He was deep in thought wishing the ground to swallow him whole when he felt the female's foot against his.He raised an eyebrow and pulled back his leg before deciding to trap both of her legs between his.Having long legs was definitely an advantage.Though he wouldn't consider himself was tall,he had a fair height and at the moment his height seemed to be perfect for the situation."you will have all the time to play with me.. for now"he let go of her legs and stood up signalling the waiter for the bill.After paying the amount,he picked up the bag and stretched out his hand for the female to hold"lets go home"he gave a smile that promised her the happiness that he was going to shower her.

@[G.D. Cop] Lee Hongki Soon the young woman had finished the ramen and was drinking the broth. She smiled as she set the bowl back down and smiled. It was nice to have someone to eat with suddenly. She enjoyed the company even more because it was Hongki. As she sat there, she stared out of the window and watched people walking by. What would life have been like had she been born into a different family? She'd often wondered that, but knew she'd never know, so there was no point thinking about it. When she heard her new "boyfriend's" words, she smiled broadly. "Well, what if I have to go to the bathroom?" She couldn't resist teasing him, because his arms were right where she wanted to be tonight anyway, so he was doing her a favor. He'd not get any complaints out of her. She was a willing participant to anything he wanted to do. She stretched her leg out and rubbed his with her foot, all the while acting innocent.

@[B.D. Leader] Boa Hongki sighed and went back to his seat and pulled the bowl and starting eating.It was going to be really hard to get it into her head that she was worth it and that she didn't need to degrade herself so much.One talk wasn't enough.He needed to prove it to her.Action speaks louder than words.He had to do something about that.He had to find a way.He was going to make her proud of herself.He was going to believe in herself no matter what it took.He had found a new determination as he thought about his new goal in life.He would do anything for this woman so he smiled"I am not letting you out of my arms tonight"Hongki winked at her and resumed eating.oh now the excitement was bubbling inside him.

@[G.D. Cop] Lee Hongki She couldn't even respond. All she could do was nod. What he said was really sweet, but how could it be true when he was the only one who thought that way. Besides, she'd killed people before. Didn't he realize that. If anything she deserved to die for that reason. She didn't say it though. She'd keep those thoughts to herself from now on. They only had a week together and after that, she could go back to living in reality instead of her little fantasy world. "Okay. I won't say anymore. Let's finish eating, so we can go snuggle." She smiled and began to eat her egg. It was so yummy and it made her happy. Good food always made her feel better and now was no exception. In fact, as a child when she was sad she would eat a lot. No one ever understood how she didn't end up weighing 300lbs. It was a running joke inside their home and her brother's would about it a lot. She giggled even now thinking about it. She really should have been huge, but with all the dancing and training she'd done, her metabolism never slowed down.

@[B.D. Leader] Boa Her words made him more furious but tired at the same time."why do you think so low of yourself?why can't you see yourself the way I see you? why are you so afraid of being happy?"he opened his eyes and brushed his thumb across her lower lips."you are worthy of all the love that you receive.You deserve to be happy.You are the most unselfish and the most beautiful I have ever meet.Trust me when I say beautiful it doesn't just mean your physical.I am taking about your heart that holds so much love for others,so much care.Don't punish yourself.Don't keep playing I-am-pathetic-I-don't-deserve-to-be-happy game..Don't drown yourself in self pity..get a hold of yourself and see the way the people who love you sees you..you are much more worth than you give yourself credit for.. you deserve everything..all the happiness of the world.Don't push it away when its right now.You are not the only one who is hurt Boa.Bring me one person who is happy with everything,who hasn't suffered loss.You won't find one.Just because some people treat you like _____ doesn't mean you are not worth it.Because you are.If they don't understand what they have,its their loss.."he leaned in to peck her lips."you are worth fighting for"

@[G.D. Cop] Lee Hongki The speed with which he attacked her, shocked her. She didn't move, didn't breath. She sat there and stared into his eyes that were so close to her own after he'd bruised with his. Unconsciously, she her lips, tasting him there and loving it. He was furious at her and she could see it in the way his pupils dilated. She remained quiet, like a child who was being chastized by a parent. What could she say? He was right after all. She was trying to push him away, but only because she didn't want to hurt him. A brief smile crossed her features when he quoted Shakespeare. He didn't even know that the man was one of her favorite authors ever. Right now though, that wasn't important. Instead, she nodded. "I don't doubt your feelings. I doubt myself. I told you before that I'm not worth your love and I meant it." Her voice was soft, barely above a whisper, but she knew he couldn't understand. No one could. She had become this way so long ago and it wasn't going to go away. Boa hadn't cared about life since her mom left her with her abusive dad. It had only made matters worse that she'd fallen for a member of a rival gang. In her dad's eyes, she wasn't worthy of anything. He'd even once told her that it should have been her instead of her mom. Little did he know that every night she'd prayed that God would take her and send her mom back. She still did. This life was just too hard for her, but there was no one who could understand. No one.

@[B.D. Leader] Boa Hongki pushed back his bowl of ramen and stood up to make way to the other side of the table.He bend down to meet Boa's gaze furious.He placed his hand at the back of neck before crushing lips against her.He was plain furious.He parted but didn't back away as he rested his forehead against."stop staying nonsense..just stop.."he closed his eyes."you know it as well as I do.. I don't have friends.I never made an effort to make one.I know we can't be together but stop trying to push me away to others.I love you.Which part of it don't you get it? do you think I am gonna forget you,forget my feelings for you and go running to some other girl? don't you see even if I can't be with you,I will never stop loving you.. love is not love which alters when its alteration finds"damn.It was pathetic.He was quoting Shakespeare now."you may not be perfect but you are that stupid woman I fell in love with.And you can't change that.You say you love me too but you don't trust me enough.You think I will forget you,don't you? you think I will leave when the going gets tough,don't you? don't do this to me..don't do this to us.. you doubting my feelings hurts me more than anything else and you trying to push me to others is like death itself so stop it.."he pleaded his voice cracking with the emotion that he held.

@[G.D. Cop] Lee Hongki She sighed. Even if that were the case, he still saved her. How can he not see that. "I don't care why you saved me. The point is that you did." She went back to eating her ramen and remained silent. "I love you too and that will never change, but you could survive without me. There are people who need you." She couldn't imagine taking him away from the people that loved him, but she had promised him that she wouldn't hurt herself anymore. That meant she'd have to take the medicine the doctor had prescribed, but first she'd have to go to the pharmacy and get it. What? Was he reading her mind now? She nodded. "No you don't need to hold back and yes it is fine if you want to kiss me, hug, or do any other number of things to me." She couldn't help, but smile at the look in his eyes. It's what she wanted, but like her he had principles and she wasn't going to push. She'd let him decide what he wanted to do and be satisfied with what she got.

@[B.D. Leader] Boa Hongki laughed nervously."well you just talk nonsense sometimes.. hehehe.. like how you owe me when you clearly don't.."His expression turned solemn as he played with the chopsticks in hand"I saved you for myself.I am selfish Boa.I love you."he chuckled"I guess I will never get tired of saying that..I wasn't doing you any favors by saving you.I was doing it all for myself because seeing you hurt hurts me,if I hadn't saved you,I would have died.."He looked at his ramen.He was about to eat when he remembered something"I keep forgetting that I told myself I would pretend you don't have a boyfriend.That means I don't have to hold back,right? does that mean I can kiss you and hug you whenever I want?"He asked the female,a small hope flickering in his eyes."can I??"

@[G.D. Cop] Lee Hongki Boa talked to the kids. It had been Mila, but she was calling because Young had wanted to talk to her. She smiled at the sound of his voice, but gasped when he called her eomma. She had been debating with herself about whether she should keep the kids or not, but how could she let them go now? That solved her other problem too. Hongki didn't like being around children, so it wouldn't work out between them. After telling him that she loved him and Mila, she hung up. Then she began to eat while smirking. If Hongki had thought she'd forgotten what he'd said, she had another thing coming. "So, what exactly did I say that was nonsense?" She was still deciding if she wanted to bring up the kissing idea. After all, he's said he was going to act as if she didn't have a boyfriend, but he wasn't doing, so. She pouted into her food.

@[B.D. Leader] Boa "I should kiss you senseless so that you can stop talking nonsense.."Hongki voiced his thoughts out loud without intending to.he bit his lips and covered his face with his hands.No he did not just say that.Of course he did.That was so stupid.
Thankfully her phone rang just in time to save him from this huge mistake.Yes he wanted to kiss her and maybe do something more but hell he had decided to draw a line,keep his thoughts to himself and not act on it.This was way harder than all his trainings combined.He let her talk on the phone.The waiter brought their food and placed them on the table.The sight of food made him momentarily forget about the stupidity he made just now and all he focused was on the food.He waited for Boa to finish the call so they could eat together.

@[G.D. Cop] Lee Hongki Boa gave the waiter a smile as he went to get the food. She was excited to eat with Hongki. She felt special for the first time in a long time, but she knew she wasn't. No really. She was just the person he was in love with for the time being. He didn't know it, but that could change at anytime. She didn't want to think about that though. She decided to just enjoy what time she had with him and make the most of it. After this week, she'd go back to being alone and depressed, but for now she had him.

She was looking out the window when he spoke and she realized that she had forgotten about that. "You're right we didn't get to eat, but like I told you then, you don't owe me anything." She though about why they were together now and smiled. "Actually, you've saved me twice now, so I think I owe you." A soft smile touched her lips as she looked at him. That's when she thought about the kids. She didn't like leaving them the way they had always been left. She'd have to go check on them later, but for now, she'd simply let a call suffice. Just as she pulled out her phone to make it, the phone rang.

@[B.D. Leader] Boa Hongki scanned through the menu at hand.He found it extremely difficult to choose.When he heard what Boa wanted,he decided that was what he would get as well.Given his difficulty in chosing,he would just end up starved."make that two please.."he told the waiter who scribbled down their order on his notepad and left with a 'I'll be right back with your order'
Hongki drummed his fingers on the table humming a random song as he waited for their food to arrive."I just remembered"he said his gaze turning to Boa"we didn't get to eat our food the first time we met..I was supposed to treat you but then those children took away your attention and of course that man..I had forgotten about that.."Hongki rested his chin against the palm of his hand.

@[G.D. Cop] Lee Hongki Boa was embarrassed, but then it was natural for her body to remind her it needed food. She didn't eat much, but Yongguk was always yelling at her to take care of herself better, so she'd eat something eache day. When they entered the restaurant, she looked around and smiled. It contained really nice decor and the staff appeared friendly. She'd never been here, but some of her members had and they'd only had good things to say.

As he pulled out her chair, she smiled and sat down. No one had ever done that for her. She appreciated it and it really made it feel like they were dating. She felt another blush and looked down at her lap. She needed to calm down. Anyone would think she'd never been around a man before. Taking a deep breath, she got her mind under control once more.

She thanked the waiter for her menu and scanned it. She didn't see anything that particularly jumped at her, but then she decided she wanted some Ramen. It was one of her go to foods. When she couldn't think of anything else to eat, she'd go straight for her stash of Ramen at home. "I want veggie Ramen with an egg." She grinned at the thought. Just thinking about it had watering. "What are you going to get?"

@[B.D. Leader] Boa Hongki could only chuckle as he lead the way looking for a restaurant for them to eat.Her growl seemed to act as a reminder to him that he was hungry as well.All the fear and anxiety of losing her had made him forget all about food and then there was the plain fact that he was enjoying her company way too much,his happiness overriding his feeling of hunger.
Spotting a restaurant that looked well enough for the two,he made his way towards it with the female by his side,his hand still holding onto her.It wasn't that hard to find a seat inside since it was way past lunchbreak.
letting go of her hand,he pulled back a chair for her like a real gentleman.He had seen it in tv where the male character did this for his girlfriend.He smiled and took a seat across her placing the bag on the vacant chair."so what do you wanna eat?"he asked as the waiter handed them their menus.

@[G.D. Cop] Lee Hongki She was excited, very excited and not just because she was getting to leave the hospital. She was still somewhat lightheaded and pretty dizzy too, from the blood loss, but she didn't care. She just wanted to be alone with him and give him anything he wanted. That gave her a sudden thought. For the next week at least, it would be like they were married. It made her smile. He'd go to work and come home and she'd be there to take care of him. It was a nice thought, but was she even housewife material. She didn't know, but she was very active, so she wasn't sure.

When he grabbed her hand, she smiled and nodded. "I know. And I don't mind that at all. Like I said, I'm not really sure I even still have one, but feel free to do whatever you want. Jae doesn't exist." She squeezed his hand and smiled. Another giggle bubbled out of and she leaned into him as they walked out into the bright sunlight. "We can do that, but can we eat first? I'm starving." As if to confirm what she'd said, her stomach chose that moment to growl.

@[B.D. Leader] Boa Hongki stifled a laugh at what she said and backed a little to let the doctor check the female.He wore an amused expression as he successfully managed to not laugh out loud.She was just so cute that he wanted to pinch her cheeks again.
After the doctor was gone,he was amazed to see Boa hurriedly go the bathroom to change.This brought a smile to his face.So she was just as excited as him.
He saw the slight hesitation in her movement as she stopped when she was probably going to reach out for his hand.He looked at her hands for a while before reaching out and holding it in his."I told you..I am going to just pretend you don't have a boyfriend.. "Hongki looked straight ahead and pulled her"lets go.. and I hope you haven't forgotten.. I want to cuddle cuddle with you"He grinned playfully before taking the bag from the female and continued to walk out of the hospital.

@[G.D. Cop] Lee Hongki Boa sighed and nodded. "I'm sorry. I can't help it, but I will try when I'm with you." She gave him a smile, hoping that he hadn't noticed her burning cheeks. When he pinched them, she looked up into his eyes and felt herself getting lost in the beautiful orbs. How was she supposed to resist this man? And for a whole week? Ugh! Life was so cruel to her. Every time she'd ever wanted something really bad, there was always a good reason she couldn't have it. This time the reason was that she knew she needed to officially break up with Jae, even if they already seemed to be broken up.

"Okay okay. I know it's not a prison, although you can handcuff me if you want." As soon as she said it, she slapped a hand over and closed her eyes in exasperation. She couldn't believe she'd just said that to him. "I'm so sorry. I should not have said that. That was really inappropriate of me." She apologized profusely and was happy when the doctor made an appearance. She smiled at him and answered all of his questions. After a bit, he gave her a prescription and told her she could go. She immediately jumped up and ran to the bathroom to change clothes.

When she came out, she grabbed her phone and bag and looked at Hongki. "Let's get out of here!" She slid her shoes back on and reached for his hand, but stopped. Would he even want to hold her hand? She wasn't sure, so she'd let him make the first move.

@[B.D. Leader] Boa He saw her blush and wondered if they were thinking about the same thing.It was weird and all too new for him.He needed to control and draw up a line.But being around her,he wasn't sure how much longer his self control would work.He didn't like how inappropriate his thoughts were of someone's else girlfriend and he felt guilty for even thinking about it.But she was the one he loved.It wouldn't be bad if he didn't act on it,right?He just needed to be more careful.
He shook his head"you need to worrying about silly little things Boa.You can use my stuff and I told you,you can do whatever you want there..its not a prison.."he pinched her cheeks and grinned"now stop worrying.."
It was at that moment that the doctor decided to walk in.Hongki never thought he could be this happy to see a doctor.It meant they could finally go home and cuddle all they wanted.He was getting rather immature.

@[G.D. Cop] Lee Hongki If the woman had known what was going on in his head, she would have laughed and told him not to worry. Her thoughts were just as bad and the thought of her sleeping in his clothes only made them worse. She was imagining him slowly stripping them off of her one by one. Her face began to get warm, but the warmth traveled down to her collarbone. No one made her blush and she wasn't new to these thoughts either, so what was wrong with her? She needed to stop acting like a school girl who had never had _____, but was anticipating her first time. For goodness sake, nobody even said they were going to do that. One thing she didn't want to do was take his ity if they weren't going to be together. That would just be wrong and she still had her morals and principles. It would be hard, but she'd behave. Realizing she still hadn't given him an answer, she turned to him and smiled. "Thank you, but are you sure. I'm not trying to inconvenience you." While Boa appreciated the gesture, if this was going to make things difficult in any way for him, she couldn't do it.

@[B.D. Leader] Boa Hongki sat down beside her as the female went through her bag.He was busy enjoying the little expressions on her face when a frustated sigh escaped her lips and the reason became clear with the next sentence that came out of .Hongki thought for a smile and rubbed his nape as a small blush decided to creep up his cheeks"you could use mine.."he said quickly and turned away.Thinking about her in his clothes brought some inappropriate thoughts in his head.Those thoughts made him blush harder.This was so stupid.He never had such thoughts about a woman before,he didn't even think of women before.Duh!
He struggled to keep his thoughts at bay but shackly kicked it off and locked it in some dark room and threw off the key with a relieved sigh and his inner self wiped his sweat.Mission accomplished.

@[G.D. Cop] Lee Hongki Hearing him say how much he wanted to do with her made her sad all over again. She felt the same way if she were being honest about it. "Well then we may have to take more than a week and do everything you want to do." She grinned up at him, because she meant what she'd said. She already knew that a week wouldn't be enough time for her. What was she to do though? How was she supposed to know what was right in this situation? She genuinely loved both men, but because of her childhood, she was terrified of the unknown when it came to the opposite gender.

"Okay. Thank you. I think I'm finished though." She didn't want to add anything else in case he didn't want to extend their time together. It would be too hard to see the list later and know that she hadn't completed it with him. When he left to get her bag, she played with the phone in her hands and for the first time in a very long time, she let herself dream. Just a little bit though. It wouldn't do to get carried away. She imagined the two of them having a candlelit dinner with soft music in the background followed by a bubble bath together. It made her laugh since she'd never bathed with anyone before. Plus she was embarrassed by her body. It was so small and inadequate. When he came back in, she giggled. "You're so silly." Taking the bag from him, she thanked him and went through it. Everything she nodded was there including her toiletries. Well everything except one of the most important things. She sighed and shook her head in frustration. "How can he forget my pajamas? Now what do I sleep in?" If she'd been alone, she would have slept and then she realized that was what he probably thought. It made her giggle softly.

@[B.D. Leader] Boa Hongki got out of the bed stuffing his phone back inside his jeans."there's way too many things I wanna do with you... the time is too less"he ruffled his blonde locks in frustation and pushed back his glasses.Thats when he remembered he had a new pair.His favorite was crushed about a month ago.He had been using his old ones which needed to adjusted quite a lot of times.He should put it on reminder.
"I will be back..you continue with the list"He shuffled out the door thinking of more then quickly shook his head.No more.It would be sad if he couldn't do most of the things because of the too long list.He made his way to the reception and asked if anyone had dropped off anything for Boa.The nurse nodded with a smile and handed him a bag.With a word of thanks,he walked back in."here's your stuffs milady"he saw with a wave of his hand and a bow before showing off the bag in his hand."just check to see if you have everything you need"He wondered how much time had gone by.He wanted to go home.

@[G.D. Cop] Lee Hongki Boa was about to answer when he answered his own question, so she nodded instead. "Yes. He is, but he's also a really good friend to me." She smiled thinking about the crazy stuff the two of them had talked about. It made her blush, because she'd love to do some of them with him, but they were too inappropriate. Instead, she closed her eyes again and shrugged. "You can if you want to." She was actually curious about what he had brought her since she hadn't given him specifics. As long as she had her pajamas and undergarments though, she could make whatever else was in the bag work. Looking back down at her list, she couldn't shake the idea that had popped into her head, but she knew she couldn't write it. He would think she was _____ed and that wouldn't be good. She wasn't of course, but she loved water. That thought did give her an idea though. Maybe they could go skiing with jet skis or if time permitted, they could go to the mountains and have a nice, cozy weekend in front of the fire. She knew many off her ideas weren't plausible, but she couldn't resist mentioning them. Even if they didn't do them now, maybe he would one day in the future and think of her. No. That's not what she wanted. She wanted him to forget her and move on to someone worthy of his love. Looking at her list, she sighed.

@[B.D. Leader] Boa "Jongin??"Hongki looked momentarily puzzled before realization dawned on him."oh yea..I have heard about him..he is your second in command,right?"he looked at her before adding"should I go bring your stuffs??"He had filled most of the list.There were full of things he mostly did as a kid so he wondered if it was too immature.He wanted to eat mushroom roasted on fire but that was big no no.He lived in an apartment with no backyard of sorts where he could build a fire.Fire made him remember bonfire making an image of him and Boa cuddling in front of him flash through.It was a shame he won't be able to do it.For a moment he thought of buying a house just for the occasion then reminded himself he swore never to use his inherited money for himself.

@[G.D. Cop] Lee Hongki "Okay. Let's do it." She unlocked her phone and began to type her list up. She wanted to go to the beach, but wasn't sure that would work. Go to the Namsan tower, walk along the Han River at night, and so much more. Just as she looked up at him to answer, her phone pinged. "Oh Jongin just dropped off my clothes and yes. I'm typing babe. I'm thinking at the moment though." She was sure what else she wanted to do, at least not specifically. She wanted to do everything she could with him. It was important to her that she made him smile as much as possible in case he wasn't with her later. Oh, they should definitely go dancing. It was one of her favorite things, but she didn't have time to go anymore or anyone to go with.

@[B.D. Leader] Boa Hongki nodded pulling his arms from around her to pull up his phone."lets save our list on our phone..you write yours..I will write mine and then we will work on it.."He grinned excitement bubbling inside him.A week was way too less time but they just needed to make the best use of it."alright"he said unlocking his phone and starting to type.He bit his lips trying to think of various things he wanted to do.Watch a movie most probably a horror.It had been long since he had done that.Cook for Boa.Maybe a food eating competition.That sounded fun but wasn't sure if the female would like it.Camping was on the list but since they couldn't go far,they could just camp inside.He chuckled at the thought.Go on a date.He smiled sadly.It could be their first and probably the last one.He thought of more and looked at the female beside him"are you writing?"

@[G.D. Cop] Lee Hongki "That's what I think too. Only the fates know what our destiny is. I will make as many memories with you as I can. I don't ever want to see you sad my love." She d his cheek absently, reveling in his closeness. Knowing that she wouldn't be able to survive on memories alone, she knew her heart would break, but she kept that to herself. "Okay. Should I write them on my phone?" She had some ideas already, but was curious what his ideas were as well.

@[B.D. Leader] Boa "I guess..If we are meant to be,we will be.If not,well there is nothing we can do but accept.It will be hard but I will try to accept the truth.For now I will think otherwise and just be with you.Lets make memories so that we can cherish it later.Memories keep me going"Hongki said truthfully.He didn't like being hold up in the past but whenever he thought about his family,he felt all the exhaustion and pain disappear from his life.He had managed to hold onto his most happiest memories and he intended to do the same with Boa.He was 9 when he was separated from his family.He was a kid and he managed.He was 25 now,all grown up.He was sure he could do it though it might take longer than he hoped for."if or when we part ways,lets smile at each other because we will have way too many precious memories to smile over than to cry.. Lets make a list of what we want to do and then do it all within this week.."