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@ilhoon Minzy keeps crying softly and nods as Ilhoon touched her back. She wanted to turn around and hug the man but she was already hurt at it is. "G-goodnight.." She slips out of , her voice cracking at the same time. The woman didn't want to sound so rude but she couldn't help it.
"Sorry, that sounded rather bad then I intended it to. I love you I can't hate you.."Minzy was tired and her eyes were starting to hurt. She turned around and look straight into her husband's eyes. Her hands roaming down his cheeks, moving closer to then kisses him softly before closing my eyes to fall asleep in his arms. Falling into heavy sleep, she holds his hands tightly so he doesn't leave her. Not now, not yet. She wanted him to stay with her forever. No matter what.

@Minzy (sh) The male rolled his eyes as he heard the female's voice. He wanted to push her away, he wanted to act like he didn't know her and like he didn't want to be with her but deep down he knew he was hurting himself every time he pushed her away. He wanted to bring her closer if that was possible but due to the current situation, that was certainly not possible; he couldn't even bring himself together and do things right for himself, how would he stand up for the both of them? He wanted to tell her what his real job was but he couldn't; she was in danger every time she was next to him and he didn't want her to be hurt in the end; he knew someday someone would discover this and take advantage of it.
During this time, he sighed quietly, feeling weak as he knew he couldn't simply turn his back on her and go; he wanted to make himself pick up the bag and walk away but it wasn't that easy. Without another word, he got under the covers and wrapped his arms around her, pressing soft kisses down her spine until he reached the end of her neck; she was his everything but she also would have to understand that in order to protect her, he would have to hurt her and stay away from her. He hugged her tightly ''I wish you could hate me as much as I love you'' he whispered quietly, resting his forehead on her nape.

@ilhoon Hearing footsteps, Minzy gets up and puts on her robe. Slowly going down the steps and turning on the lights. As she does that she spots a figure and softly smiles to notice to was her husband she loves so dearly.
"Welcome home, honey." She says with a sleepy voice and presses her lips against his before heading back upstairs. She really didn't know what to do after learning he will be leaving soon. She put the bag next to his shoes and fell back into the bed.
Minzy felt like crying again, but that would only make her feel weak. She starts wondering if Ilhoon ever loved her at all. With that in her mind tears started to fall down her cheeks and onto her pillow. She didn't want him to go away for so long. What if he meets someone new? All this was too much for her.

@Minzy Hearing her voice made the male freeze for a second. He was talking to his wife, not his boss. Mentally, he cursed himself for being so dumb and giving away this easily. '' he thought, knowing he was hurting her, something he didn't want. But he had realized, he would hurt her a way or another, after he was gone, she would be hurt. He knew there was no use in explaining anything to the female. He would only burry himself deeper in the hole he had been digging. Ilhoon sighead heavily as he decided to leave the bar; probably he should simply head home and sleep before anything worst happened.

The male didn't need the bag actually, he always took it with him so she wouldn't find out what he actually worked on, his 'job'. Just the thought of it, drove him crazy. How could he be so dumb and marry someone? He wasn't going to be there every time she needed him, he would end up getting caught someday and he wouldn't be able to go home. It was stupid of him for marrying the female out of love. In times like this, he remembered his mother who was strongly against them when Ilhoon told her about it. How he regretted it now, how he agreed with his mother. Damn.

Once he arrived home, everything was so quiet that he tried to keep it that way but of course he tripped over his own feet as he didn't want to turn the lights on, so the female wouldn't be bothered as she was probably asleep.

@ilhoon Hearing him say those words changed her slightly. Minzy had no idea what to say after that, her mind rushing to figure out what he was talking about. She was coming up with excuses for him to say those things. Words starting slipping out of and into the phone. "Ilhoon.. W-what are you talking about? You must be really drunk." She was forcing the excuse on him for him to agree. Minzy wasn't so confused she hanged up the phone and placed her book on the table. Her emotions were scattered, she wanted to cry but her mind was saying don't. The night was going badly for here.
Standing up from the couch she headed upstairs and got her man's bag for him and starts packing for him. Minzy thought her was leaving her again so it was her way of saying goodbye I love you. She made it her little tradition to show how much she loved him. After packing everything he will need she heads off to the bed they both slept in and tried to fall asleep.

@Minzy Once he heard his phone ring, his eyes dared to look at the screen, trying to read what now seemed an alien language from him as he couldn't even see straight. He closed his eyes and sighed, knowing he was expecting a call from his boss and possible it was him. The male picked up the call and sighead heavily ''Don't worry, I'll be there soon, I'll just pack my bags. She's already out of the way.'' he mumbled quietly. He didn't hear any answer and his boss was the one to speak loudly, even before Ilhoon could say hi. Was he not talking to his boss? He pulled away from his ear and took a look at the screen, trying to read but again, it was useless. The male shrugged and brought the phone to his ear once again, waiting for his boss to speak; little did he know it wasn't his boss who was on the other line.
He made his way out of the bar, bumping on the walls occasionally and even tripping over his own feet. He decided to walk home insidead of taking a minute to call the taxi; it was like he didn't want anybody to be part of his life, he knew he could do everything by himself; he didn't need any help.

@ilhoon After sobbing for awhile, she knew she couldn't stay here any longer. He wasn't coming it seemed, Minzy wasn't going to wait in the cold car. She already looked like a fool in the bar. Starting the car up, she looked out the window with slight hope Ilhoon will step out of the bar.
She could still see her husband sitting down and she sighed. Driving off from the location and heading home. She looked in her rear view mirror to find the meal her husband loves sitting there in the back seat. Minzy bought it for both of them to eat at home and talk like they usually do. Getting closer to their empty house, memories flood her mind. She was remembering things that made her husband happy. The way those things made him smile. But those things were soon out of her mind when you opened the door to the dark house. She sat in the living room and started to read the book that she got from the library. Minzy was not waiting for him to come home, she wanted to get her mind off him. But her mind was always slipping away from reading the book to wondering what her husband was doing, or when he'll arrive home. She wanted to call him but after what has happened he won't answer. Picking up her phone, she didn't care. She wanted to say the words that were on her mind. The words, I love you so she calls and waits, wanting to hear Ilhoon's voice no matter how angry or drunk he was.

@Minzy Once his wife had left, he felt so light, he could swear everything would go back to what it was, normally but deep down, he knew it wasn't going to be that easy; especially because of his mission. Who'd say he would be in so much trouble? Who'd say his simple life would be so complicated. By this time, he was questioning himself, wondering if the choises he made in the past would be the best, not only for him but for the female also. Taking it all on him seemed the perfect plan but knowing Minji, he knew his plan was just not going to go the way he wanted it to. Probably he'd end up hurting her more than he hurt himself through all of this.
Still, the alcohol seemed to have no more effect on his brain which meant he was thinking and probably would be sick in some minutes. His eyes landed on the waiter who had been staring at him, as if telling him to go after the female but then again, Ilhoon knew if he did go after her, he'd be begging her for forgiveness and that way he wouldn't push her away. He would keep her closer, which was just not the smartest move of him, especially because of the situation she was in.

@ilhoon "I don't care.." Tears start rolling down her face and she looks deep into your eyes. She never thought that he would say those things to her. She was truly disappointed that she could help her husband. "Is that what you want? You want me to go? Because I really don't want to leave you in this kind of state." Searching in your eyes, wanting the truth from you, but knows she won't get what she really wants from someone so drunk.
Minzy soon walks away, wiping her tears away and sighs. "See you at home then. Come back soon okay?" Saying those words as her voice cracked. It hurt her, it seemed to break her into a million pieces but she tried not to show it. She soon opens the door and slowly steps out of the bar and walks back to her car to cry softy to herself.

@Minzy Ilhoon was done with this conversation. He slammed his hands on the counter and stood up ''Why the are you married to me? Uhm? It isn't because you love me, certainly. Your parents set this up, along with mine because I was a lost kid, because never had I had one friend'' he started, staring at the female, rather hurt with his own words. He had to make her hate him sooner or later and in that moment, she wasn't collaborating with him; how he whished she would give up on him like everyone else did, how he wished she would ignore him and go home. But he knew that wasn't going to happen any time soon, not even if he hurt her, she would still be by his side.
Just then, he noticed how she was feeling hurt with his actions ''You should leave'' he told her quietly, looking away from her. Both of them knew, that in that state, if they kept talking, Ilhoon would probably end up saying something he didn't want to. He would hurt her more than it was necessary when he simply needed to get to her mind and change her thoughts. ''Being near me right now won't be good to you '' he whispered quietly, frowning.

@ilhoon In complete shock, Minzy looks at him in confusion. Not wanting to listen to what he is saying. She couldn't stand see her husband who she dearly loved act like a monster. "Don't try to play little games with me. Did you forget you married a doctor?" Ordering a drink for herself she stayed near the man. "I'll just wait until you sober up." She starts drinking and looks at the male who seems to have lost his damn mind.
"Why are you drinking so heavily? Is work hammering you? I can fix it, I can talk to the bosses for you. I really don't like my love being like this. Confusing me and making me wonder. Just tell me what wrong."
Her voice soon softening and jumping on her feet. "Let's go home. You don't want to have a hangover later. I know you don't honey." Minzy rubs your back and sighs then looks at the ground. Seeing no use for you to come with her. She gives up. She never thought Ilhoon will say these things to her.

@Minzy Ilhoon yanked his arm away, feeling suddenly pissed at his wife's behaviour. He for sure was drunk but her attitude was just not helping the situation; it was hard for him to get pissed at something but in that moment, he could explode any moment. A smirk came to his lips as he shook his head ''I meant every word I say, Minji'' he told her, rolling his eyes at her attitude ''I drink how ing much I want, you're not going to stop me from drinking'' he started coughing, sitting back down as she tried to pull him away to their house. He turned to the waiter ''Another drink, if you do not give it to me, I'll get it myself'' he growled, weakly as he really wasn't made to drink. Even though he had gown through trainment, alcohol made him act weird, he would never release an important information but it was better for people not to give him alcohol, he wasn't himself when he was under it's effect.
He watched the female by the corner of his eyes, shaking his head ''What are you still doing here?'' he stood up and faced the female, leaning slightly to the side ''You'll throw me away sooner or later'' he mumbled what she could misunderstood as nonsense since his conversation was just not something she could understand. The male stared at the female, wondering if playing psychological games with her would help her part from him. ''What if I'm only an illusion?'' he whispered to her, looking into her eyes with his lifeless eyes.

@ilhoon Looking at him with disgust from his drunk behavior she tells the bartender so stop giving him drinks. Then turns to him with her hands across my chest. "You don't want to see me?" A little heartbroken but knowing it is probably the alcohol talking and not her man. She stays ignorant and smirks. "You don't mean that, I know you don't. If you did you would've never married me." She was being sassy and was fed up with all the drinking her husband has doing. "If you want me to be hurt, you should try harder. No more drinks for you tonight. You already an ."
Minzy, takes his hand and holds it tightly. "Let's go home, shall we?" Holding to a little hope that you will say yes. She puts a little cute face that she knew made her man feel happy.

@Minzy Even though there was some background music, the male's head was so off, he didn't even bother to try to follow the rythm. His eyes stared at the empty glasses on the counter as the male coughed, knowing sooner or later the liquid would make its way out from where it came in. He felt sick; his head started to ache as he quietly let his eyes close for a while before his ears caught the sound of what he could swear was his wife. Her voice rang through his ears, making him understand it was indeed the female he didn't want to see in that moment. The male bit down his bottom lip and stared at her as she sat beside him, his eyes empty. ''I don't know'' he laughed quietly, rather drunkly like as he spoke. He didn't actually think about whatever he was saying. He simply had nothing on his brain, the alcohol he drank, was fullfiting his wish; he didn't want to think and his brain seemed to let him be that way.
''Why are you here?'' he asked his wife, quietly as he stared at her ''I don't want to see you right now'' he continued, laughing as he rest his arm on the counter and rest his head on it. Ilhoon kept giggling, tapping the counter to have another drink; his head was hurting pretty bad and every time he spoke, it was worst so he kept himself quiet, knowing if he said something in that state, probably he would regret it later. The next words came out of his lips without his permission though ''Minzy~ You'll hate me so soon~ Why did I even marry you?'' was what his lips spoke before he broke down, giggling.

@ilhoon Always at work, Minzy finally gets to leave and see the guy she always loved. Walking through the Main Street to pick up some food she spots a guy that looks familiar to the man she'll see at home. She gets curious and slowly walks into the bar and walks closer to him.
Her eyes widen and she runs to him. "Hubby!! What you are doing here!?" In a panic, she looks at the glasses and sighs. "Why would you do this?" Looking at Ilhoon, she pays for the bill. Thinking of what to do she sits down next you and sighs. "My baby.."

@Minzy Being a spy was never easy and hidding this from his wife was not easy either. He hated this life of his; he was stuck on this because of his mother and father and sooner or later, he knew he'd loose his wife because of this. A smirk came to his lips as he rest his elbow on the counter, resting his forehead on his palm before his fingers pulled part of his hair. All of this was pulling him to his limits and he hated the fact he couldn't do anything about it; sooner or later he would have to go on a mission and Minji would have to stay behind. He didn't know how to tell her this.
''Give me something strong, three shots'' he ordered, rather pissed and bossy. He didn't want to think in that moment and even though he didn't get along with alcohol, he still wanted to take it, in a way he could forget everything. He groaned, taking the small glass between his thumb and index finger, letting the alcohol drop on his mouth and slide down to his stomach. His throat was burning but that didn't stop him from taking the second and the third shot. He simply gulped them down, feeling frustrated at the situation he was in. He ordered a fourth, that fourth already left him dizzy; he was drunk by now. Before he could think of anything else, his index finger was tapping the counter, asking for another shot. Perhaps it would stop his brain from thinking.