@wonsik k. 〈 ravi Little noises of pure bliss leave my lips, enjoying the warmth from your body at such a close distance, hands roaming the expanse of your back as our lips never leave each other. My hands find their way back to your face though, and soon running digits into your snowy locks. The rough but careful touch isn't ignored and it leaves me breathless and wanting for more as second pass and we're still all over each other, taking each other's breath away, needing each other's body, needing the warmth.
My head's tilted back and a small whimper leaves me as love bruises are beginning to coat my skin. A certain spot, though, creates an arch in my back and a small moan.
"T-there..." I breathe out, fingers curling tightly, latching onto your locks as I keep you close. I needed to feel that again, the dizzying pleasure that followed the sting. But instead I weaken my grip when you pull back, face even more flush and pink as before, swollen lips parted as I pant.
"Y-you really think so?" I blink, the compliment throws me off guard, and a wave of emotion passes through me as a result.
@jimin p. 〈 jimin |H| It should scare me how easily you lift me and pull me closer, but I only find comfort in being at such a proximity. My fingers curl around your hip as I pull you impossibly closer, listening to the straining of the fabric caused by the soaked fibers. But my lips meet yours with fervor, hands cupping your waist as I bite possession into your bottom lip. As I dig my nails along your sides and lift your body onto mine. Slowly, my body pulls back until my shirt hits the sand, pulling you with me. My chest pressing to yours, my heart beating with yours.
The steady thump sounds like a drum in my own ears, blood rushing through my body with vigor, like my brain didn't know where to send it. "Likewise," And although it wasn't the 'l' you needed to hear, it was the one I could bare. My lips move to mouth along your jaw, creating temporary tattoos of my devotion onto you, trailing bites along the side of your neck. Taking the pressure point between his lips, mouthing and until red and purple breaks under beautiful melanin.
I grin at my work, a salacious smile splitting my features, before I'm tilting my head back to look at you. The features soften, my fingers moving up to cup your cheeks, rubbing at the softness under my calloused palms. "You're gorgeous, Bubblegum. I need you to always remember that." Even if I wasn't here, you needed to remember that ..
@wonsik k. 〈 ravi It was crazy how even after the things I've done, after the things I've told you, you still had that look that I was the most pure thing in your world. I knew in my heart that I wasn't as pure and innocent as I seem, only in society's standards was I innocent, but I've killed people without reason and tortured too just for practice. I hoped to never show you that side of me and keep being this pure being in your eyes even though you knew who I truly was. You only saw the naive little boy who was trying to get by in this world, a new born experiencing things for the first time, and we both knew that these experiences would be shared and that we'd be together for a very very long time.
It felt so good to be back on dry land but the light wind was cutting through my soaked clothes and making me shiver. I needed your warmth more than ever now, and with a bit of my unusual strength, I bring you close and press my shivering body again yours. Warmth radiates off you like a mid day sun during the summer and it's the most comforting feeling in the world. I never want to leave you, leave your warmth, I just want to hold you like this forever. I relish the look of pure adoration in your eyes and return it with a look of my own, love. I loved everything about you, the good and the bad. I felt so safe and secure around you, I didn't even know how I was able to get through living outside the lab without you. You were reasonable, logical, and /rational/ all the things I wasn't because I was always the one taking orders and not thinking on my own. You gave me choices and possibilities, you taught me things that I would have never considered without my programming. You gave me feelings and emotions I would have never dreamt of without my programming. I felt so /human/ when I was with you. So alive and... loved. I felt loved when I was with you, something that I never got from a parent or a friend or a lover. Now hat I've got it, I can never get enough of it. I was in love, I was obsessed with you. I wanted to have you all the time and I didn't care for he consequences that might come with it. All I wanted was you and no one else.
I let my hands think on their own, fingers grazing over the ink on your skin as they make their way to your face and I pull you close for a passionate kiss. I let my body think on its own and now my legs are straddling your hips as our lips melt together perfectly.
"I love you," I say it like a mantra every time I part my lips against yours, ragged breathes sound as I become feverish and hungry for your touch. I loved this man under me, I loved the way he makes me feel when I'm in his arms, I loved his his smile and I loved his tattoos. And right now, I'm loving his warmth against my shivering body and his lips against mine.
@jimin p. 〈 jimin |H| My eyes are drawn to how plump your lips look, how your cheeks puff and give the softest appeal. How you near constantly have a bedroom look present on your face, that face framed perfectly by cotton candy hair that I found myself running my fingers through more often than not. Tattooed hands holding a gentleness I never knew I could achieve as I cradle your face in my palms, my adams apple bobbing with the slightest fear that I wouldn't be good enough. Even though you'd done something that most would call unforgivable - you were still so good. Despite that past that you kept hidden, only letting small scenarios play out here and there, you were still so good.
I could see it in the way you pouted, the way you glared at me, the way you had this innocent aura flickering on and off around you at ever twist and turn. The concept of life so lost to you but still so very clear. You knew something wouldn't come back, but the gravity of that situation? You were stunning, and I wanted to be there as you grew. Strength coils under the ink on my arms, biceps and triceps constricting as I lift your body up onto the bank, my fingers twitching and body yearning as I let go of you.
You were like a drug.
A sweet, horrible drug that was constantly messing with my head. And I loved it. I craved it. I craved your tongue on my teeth and your bottom on my lap. I craved your hands on mine and your body squeezed under my arms. The sappier side thought you could save me, the more rational knew that you would tolerate me. "Park Jimin," I whisper as I push myself up onto the bank next to you. Softness crosses my face, jaw relaxing, eyes not so guarded, and expression sweet. So sweet as I looked at you with adoration twinkling in my eyes. One day Park would be no more.
And there would be Kim.
But that day had to wait, right now, I just wanted Park Jimin on my lap. My fingers press against the wetness of my pants, the fabric soaking into the ground below me, before looking to you with a long-winded smile. I may not have a loquacious way of speaking, I may not be the Romeo to your Juliet - honestly that would be bad, we all know how they ended up. I might not come to you with a rose always in the palm of my hand and chocolates outstretched to you, but I would come to you.
@wonsik k. 〈 ravi I need your lips on mine as much as my lungs needed oxygen, with my arms closing in tightly around your neck, it was clear that I wanted to keep kissing you. I didn't care if we drowned.
I let myself float with you, legs just bobbing in the water as we share a passionate but sloppy liplock amongst the currents. A small noise of protest leaves me as you break away to swim to shore, my nose pressing against your inked neck. My lips grazing over the skin lightly and breathing hot air onto the spot.
It was crazy how fast my emotions can change. From guilt, to passion, to neediness within the span of thirty minutes. I try to kick with you to get us faster to the bank but my assistance was weak and I end up giving up and letting you practically lug me along. My pink hair was wet and plastered over my forehead, obscuring my vision, and I swipe it back so I can stare at you again. I can never get enough of your beauty, you were absolutely stunning.
@jimin p. 〈 jimin |H| "Good boy," I whisper, and with this, I'm dipping my head low. Emotions spilling from my lips as I press them to yours, bobbing in the water. Liquid making the kiss sloppier than I intended, and the constant need to keep you above surface being the only thing on my mind. It was slowly losing the battle though, as I clutch you close to my chest. Hands searching fervently along your body, like I needed that reassurance that you loved me back, even though you were screaming to the heavens just moments ago.
My lips part yours in the searing kiss, feeling my heart swell as I kiss you with the sweetness I didn't know I had, hands finally finding where they need to be. On your hips, tugging you closer as my legs kick weakly, leading our bodies to the shore. I break the kiss, too short for my liking but I needed to get you out onto the bank. Needed to press you into the sand and wipe away all of what he did to you. I would ask what he did, so I could replace the memory with my own..
@wonsik k. 〈 ravi A small smile plays on my lips for the first time since... I don't remember. All I can remember is your touch, your smell, your warmth. It's all I can think about when I'm with you. I felt as though I was being cleansed in this water, with the running currents and the waterfall right beside us, this place seemed like it could wash away all my problems, wash away my sins. I'd probably come here more often with you.
As we rise to the surface, the burning sensation of oxygen entering my lungs makes me cough a little and gasp. I keep my arms around your neck afraid to let go in fear of you drifting away from me, your lips giving me great comfort and your hands give me reassurance that you weren't going to leave me. I felt so safe in your arms, I wanted to be like this with you forever.
"I understand," my voice comes out soft and nearly lost with the sound of the waterfall.
@jimin p. 〈 jimin |H| You look stunning under the water, the pink in your hair turning from a pale color to more saturated as water engulfs you. My fingers trail along your cheeks, inked knuckles running along your jawline and the smallest smile pulling at my lips. Like this, I didn't have to think of him on you. Like this, you were becoming clean. Like this, it seemed .. Good. Like everything was going to be okay. My lips place a soft kiss on your cheeks, before air is bringing us to the surface, the need to breathe burning in my lungs. I surface with you, breaking the peaceful area with a soft gasp, in the oxygen that my lungs yearned for.
But my forehead presses gently to your neck, fingers gently rubbing at your hips, feeling the soaked clothes clinging to your form.. My nose presses against your neck, running my nails along your sides, gently scratching along the flesh. "Jimin, if you ever have any questions .. You are only to come to me, understand?" My tone is even, and soft, and even though it doesn't have the tone of the demand, the words themselves were the demand. Dripping from my lips with hidden lethality, coupled with the sweetest smile.
@wonsik k. 〈 ravi I let you pick me up, me legs instinctively wrap around your waist as you walk farther and farther from the building.
"I've always trusted you," My words are mumbled though, as I bury my face deeper into your neck. You scent was addicting, I didn't understand why I didn't go to you instead of him. You were obviously the one I loved, why wasn't I under you your name? I let out a sight and flutter my eyes closed. I don't ing know.
I hold on tightly, feeling your pulse against my chest. Daylight blinds me the longer we stay in it's brilliant light, clouds above us are faint but help a little with the rays. I stare up at it in mild amazement, like how can a day look so nice on such a depressing time. Even when I can hear the falls roaring behind us, I felt tranquil.
A dark thought passes through me as we both fall into the frigid water. What if we die here? I answer: As long as I'm with you, dying didn't seem so bad. I stare, pink hair flowing freely under the water's currents, as you mouth those three words I've been telling you non stop these past few days. I'm still, ripples in the water making your tattoos come to life and they dance as if something wonderful has happened. And something does. A silent 'I love you,' is the response I give as we're like seaweed floating with the currents. Right here is where I want to be with you, nothing but each other and the peaceful silence.
@jimin p. 〈 jimin |H| My arms loop around your waist as you sob against my chest, despite you pulling away I didn't want you to go. I wouldn't let you go. I wasn't going to let you do his - you didn't have a choice in this. I pull you close to my chest, my lips finding your hair once more. "Trust me, Jimin. I need you to trust me." I say this as I lift you up, arms going under your knees and my eyes looking towards the water.
"Just .. hold onto me." If you didn't know the basics of , or feelings, then I could only assume.. I walk slowly towards the water, arms tight around your frame. It hurt to see you like this. I needed you to understand that I was .. Fine. The sting was still there and the urge to punch someone's teeth out was apparent, but I was fine, all in all. I lay a small kiss on your forehead before stepping off the edge and jumping into the deep, cold water with you. Not caring about the electronics that might be in our pockets or the frosty bite. I hold you close to me, hair softening and flowing in front of me, obstructing my vision.
'I love you,' is the only thing I mouth as effervescence leaves my lips. And even though I couldn't /hear/ myself say it, you needed to know it
@wonsik k. 〈 ravi Without a second thought my arms wrap tightly around you and I bury my face in the crook of your neck, forgetting about the smells and my tear soaked face. The relief of you forgiving me was enough to regain some strength, tears slowly but gradually stopping and all that was left now was hiccups and quiet sobs.
I had to pull myself together for you, but the idea of explaining why I was so curious makes me panic. I bury myself deeper in your warmth in hopes of disappearing but it was stupid and cowardly. I had to fess up if I wanted you to trust me again. I pull myself away to face you, red, irritated eyes stare up at you in shame and guilt. God, this was going to be painful.
"I--" I pause for a moment, "was curious. I-I've never done or felt that kind of thing before so when he offered... I... I went with him." I drop my head and pull back completely, once again feeling dirty and disgusting. Fearing that I was tainting you with his scent lingering on my skin. "I should have waited for... the right moment do it. Do do it--" With you. I stop myself as tears start to form again, and soon I had my hands over my face as I sobbed.
@jimin p. 〈 jimin |H| My hands run soothing along your sides, feeling my heart break and crack with each sob that pulls through you, but I can't form the remorse on my expression. I gently kiss your cheek, trailing kisses up until I place a soft kiss on the purple, puffy bags under sleepless eyes. "Please, stop." I plead, fingers trailing path's of 'it'll be okay's and 'i forgive you's until I cup your wrists. Pulling them from me, but only to wrap them around my neck.
And I hold you.
My heart thundering slow and with purpose in my chest, my breath fanning across pale rose tresses as I rest my cheek on the crown of your head. It hurt worse than anything to see you like this, my mind calming and instead of fighting with my heart, they're holding hands. Holding each other and comforting one another like I attempt to do with you. My lips press against your scalp, hands smoothing the sweater that's on you, and even though I could smell some cologne that wasn't yours on you, I could still smell you.
"When you calm down, tell me why, Jimin." It's a soft command, but demand is dripping from every syllable, voice falling to a dimminuendo so that I wouldn't shake you to your core. It was going to be okay.
I forgave you the moment you stepped out of that room.
@wonsik k. 〈 ravi I choke. Your towering figure makes my body freeze up in fear of the unknown, the fear that you might hoist me up and throw me away or just walk past me. I saw the hurt in your eyes, and it only sent more nauseating waves of guilt to the pits of my stomach. The guilt was crawling up my throat like bile and I had to swallow hard to avoid vomiting at your feet, giving you more reason to hate me.
Fear washed over me as your arms held me close, leaving me no room for escape. Like I even wanted to run away from you warm embrace in the first place. But this time your warmth burned me, guilt comes at me in every angle and all I want to do is run away and never hurt you again. I'm dirty, I'm disgusting, /I smelled like him/. I wanted to push you away so you didn't smell the scent of on me. It was painful in your arms, you lips felt like it was burning my scalp. I didn't deserve any of this affection, I took advantage of your love. I broke your heart.
"W-wonsik--" I was getting ready to plead with you, beg for you to let me go. Tell you that I didn't deserve any of this, my words were cut off and a yelp replaces them as my chin was tugged harshly. I was forced to look you in the eye, the hurt in them makes tears immediately form, blurring my vision even more.
Despite my currently impaired vision, I hang onto every word for dear life. This distance between us makes me hold my breath, I dare not to breath as your eyes bore in to mine. Salty tears stream down my face finally and I was a sobbing mess. I try to speak but words come out in jumbles and I soon give up trying to talk, small hands coming up to grip your shirt tightly until my knuckles turn white and I stand there, sobbing loudly at your face. Shaky 'sorry's and 'I love you's leave my trembling lips but my lips never touch yours, as the guilt still lingers feeding off my misery.
@jimin p. 〈 jimin |H| Shiftings in the gravel alert me to your form long before I'd stood up, my back straight and I was hoping to be menacing to you. But .. I couldn't bring myself to do it. I couldn't bring myself to glare at you and growl at you and tell you to leave. My heart ached more, knowing that you held guilt, remorse, and I tried to find some bit of sanity in me to not crumble under your fingers and forgive you wholeheartedly. There was a longing in my chest, and even though I didn't feel you like you felt out for me, I still was drawn to you in my own way. Bleach blond locks shift ever so slight as I look over my shoulder, towards the one that was permeating guilt and shame. To the tears falling from your cheeks and--
I found myself turning completely, feet shifting on the earth and gently pushing away the leaves. They crunched so easily under the slihtest pressure - I was not going to be a leaf. A newfound surge of power rushing through me, lifting my shoulders and making my heart beat once more for you. There was still pain clearly etched across my face, and the need to murder the one that had touched you was there, but I refrained. I refrained because such a beautiful person shouldn't be crying. Let alone crying for me.
"Jimin," I whisper, the words carried along the wind like a lover's missed caress. My feet make soft shuffling sounds towards you, not caring about the rocks that press pain into the soles of my feet, not caring about the way my mind screamed at me. Telling me to turn back. Telling me to at least walk past you. To brush you off and leave you here without a second thought because you'd done /that/ without a second thought. Only until it was over and ..
My arms encompass your form and my lips press against the roots of your beautiful, pale rose of your head. Just a budding flower, I needed to remember. And although I was budding with you, we both had our own types of thorns. Yours just .. developed a bit quicker than mine. My fingers hold fast to your chin, forcing you to look at me, hoping to strain your neck and keep you gasping for air, wanting you to hang onto my every word because this was so important. Important to me, important to us - the us that could very well end as soon as it had happened.
"If I ever," The words are hissed, "hear you moan someone else's name.." My nose presses to yours, eyes hard but glassy. Like I was trying so hard to hold back tears. "I will surely lose my mind," And it's forgiveness that ends my sentence. Even though the pain lingers, it lingers like a newly smoked cigarette, long burned out - stomped to the ground - but that stench of cancerous sticks clinging to ones clothing ...
@wonsik k. 〈 ravi Dread filled within me as I stumbled out of the dorm after a heated game of truth or dare, once hazy eyes now wide with shock and the sudden realization that you were the new resident to this dorm. Guilt washed over me and it made my already weak knees buckle, my body falling hard to the ground next to your duffle bag.
Accusations and insults swam through my head as I pulled himself up and nearly sprinted out the building in search for you. Tears of guilt stung my eyes which made my vision blur, causing me to wipe at my eyes furiously while I looked for you. I could sense you but your presence was faint so that meant you weren't close by. Maybe outside. I ran for the doors and nearly slammed myself against it trying to get it open. I felt a bruise starting to form on my bicep but I kept going. I ran through every building, using my senses to pinpoint your exact location but everywhere I looked, your aura seemed to get stronger but then weaken when I was actually there. I didn't understand.
I almost gave up. My body was tired from the strenuous activity and was about to give out any minute but then I remember your duffle bag still by the door, and I stood straight up. I ran around the facility looking for you, sweat dripping from everywhere as I went through every door and every room but you still weren't there.
"Wonsik where the hell are you?" I pant out, walking around aimlessly in front of one of the entrances in the facility. I felt like I've lost my home. I felt panicked and terrified at the thought of actually losing you but with such a reason as this just makes the thought become a reality. I was scare to lose you, but it was my fault for it. I can't look for you expecting forgiveness, I just wasn't logical. But my heart yelled at me to keep looking, telling me that you will forgive me and that everything will be alright.
I clung onto that last shred of hope and ran for the falls, your aura there stronger than ever. But it was dark. As I ran, I found your seated figure hunched over, knees up to your chin and shoulders sagged. Guilt washes over me, the nauseating pain makes me crumble t the gravel path was just few feet from you and I'm rendered immobile. I say nothing to you, just stare at your back with longing but knowing that you probably didn't want to seem my face keeps me where I am. I'm a , an overly curious one. I left my ity to the hands of that man in the dorms and ran for you, hoping you'd forgive me but I'm tainted, I'm dirty, and no amount of holy water can fix that.
@jimin p. 〈 jimin |H| Rushing water hits the area below, angry, thudding, thunderous and roaring. So disruptive to all thatwas beneath, concealing the jagged rocks behind and the hidden alcove that led to a place he had yet to find out. So serene, so beautiful, so chaotic and it reminds him all too well of what he'd heard. What he'd heard standing outside the door to his supposed new room. Monachopsis clear in the soles of his feet, the strings of his soul, like he was standing in the wrong classroom -- he'd only seen this on movies. Who had an education anymore. -- Disbelief clear across his features as a bag hung loose on his shoulder, hand poised to open the door. The giggle he'd come to adore in his few nights and days spent with the other. He had given everything he could possibly give in those moments, and he was met with this. An angry rock is flung across the water, disrupting nature's balance.
Disrupting him.
A scream echoes throughout the falls, drowned out by the rushing of the water cascading along the cliffside. Feet are flat against the ground as a body collapses within itself, arms tight around knees and looking so much like a high schooler. He couldn't recall the last time he felt this kind of pain. His sister's death was a shock, no doubt, but he'd barely known her. Only knowing that their blood was shared and that it was carelessly slewn across white snow, the hot liquid melting underneath the splatters. But .. Did he really know the man that was the cause of this? His shirt was discarded to the side, tattooed back plain to the sun's mottled beams, the foliage above giving little protection. What a piss poor canopy.
Everything on this island was piss poor.
Embarrassment, rage, apathy, melancholy, all flooding together and giving him the worst headache he'd ever seen. He'd never felt his heart ache so much, his entire body shutting down with just the smallest thing... Just the smallest moans. Moans that didn't belong. Moans that were gasping out a name that wasn't his.
Wonsik's hand clutches tight over the tattoo over his heart. Altschmerz coaxing fingers to his temples, fluttering over the evil that's written so plainly on his neck. Words whispering into his ears that had been embedded them over the years, words that fueled anxiety and self-loathing. No better than anyone, uncapable of living. Why did the thief let someone steal something so precious? He felt like he'd never get it back. The betrayal written so clearly in words that were left unsaid, eloquence out the window because he did not know how to respond to this.. This man. This man that had swooped into his life and had said I love you all to easily.
There was no nepenthe offered to him, no hand holding out to him and lifting his chin up. No reassurance that it was going to be okay - he didn't know many people here. And everything else .. Was just hiding. Focusing on hiding throughout the day so that they other would forget him. Would go back to whatever he had been doing behind that closed door. He refused to cry. He refused to. He wasn't hurt -- not at all. He'd felt bullet wounds and knives slicing through him like he was a stick of butter. He'd felt electric shocks to his body and barbed wire lodged in his thigh.
Defenstration was clear on his mind, though. If he ever found out the proper name of the one that Jimin had moaned out to... Someone was going to wind up with glass embedded in their skin. Ravi in air through his teeth, so cold despite the sun being highest in teh sky - noon. How long had he been out? His body cracks as he straightens, toes curling in the imprints he'd left, gently nudging the pebbles that were barely concealed under the earth now. How long .. Since the night before, he'd been moving. Constantly moving. He forgot his bag at the door, having dropped it when ..
He closes his eyes, hands coming up to hold himself together - or attempt to, anyway.
A grown man, with muscles and tattoos, with a history of possessions stolen and many kills under his belt, reduced to near nothing at the soft moan of someone he had given his everything to. He couldn't let him go. He couldn't let this princess go - so he'd force him to let him go.
@wonsik k. 〈 ravi *Slowly, twilight covers this side of the earth, darkness almost consumes us but the artificial light of the lamps turn on and illuminates the path before us. The color of the light is as yellow as the sunkissed sky and it shines down on the fallen leaves covering the pebbles on the gravel walkway, everything to me was beautiful. Some things seeming so mundane and boring brings the slightest hints of smiles to my face, like a newborn gaining its sight for the first time and was hit with so many new colors. It could be overwhelming at first but it's all worth it end you've learned to appreciate such art within nature. Before my vision darkens along with the sky, I steal one last glance to my home. My home that was carrying me to bed, Wonsik...*
@jimin p. 〈 jimin |H| /My gaze is soft as I stare at you, regarding you with silent agreement. Only in the form of tightening fingers around your body, curling you closer to me as I walk back towards the compound./ I'll stay as long as you want me to, /And that applied to so many unsaid things. It wasn't love, I was too afraid of that, but in time .. Given time I would whisper it to you. I could see myself brushing fingers through your hair, and I wonder briefly if it was natural. Stupid, I know, but .. You weren't .. Born like the rest of us. It could be plausible./ Try and get some rest, I've got you, Bubblegum.
@wonsik k. 〈 ravi I promise, I'll keep myself safe. *I whisper against your chest, palm gently placed over the bandages. The fatigue of past events finally catch up to as the lingering adrenaline rush starts to dissipate, and it makes my lids heavy and words slightly slurred.* Can you... can you stay with me? I don't want to be alone. *Drowsy eyes stare up at you expectantly, and a sluggish hand reaches up to brush its fingers over the intricate ink covering your neck. Good and Evil on opposite ends of your neck. There's a little evil in all of us I guess...*
@jimin p. 〈 jimin |H| /My hand moves from yours, already missing the touch. My heart fluttering in ways I still didn't understand, my fingers lifting delicate at the graphic tee that looked misplaced on your body, with only the best intentions. Making sure your bandage wasn't bleeding through, fixing you with a hard stare before, with body aquiver, I press my nose to yours./ Береги себя лучше, когда я не вокруг. /It's a plea that's barely concealing the demand. My body shifts, lifting my foot from the water and my other hand grabbing the shoe. Quickly putting it on before I'm standing and, without second thought, scooping you up like the princess I thought you were-- no, believed you were. But I was far from a prince./ You're going to lay down, Bubblegum. Alright? I don't want you messing up the job I did. /I don't want you hurting yourself-- why couldn't I say what I wanted to./
@wonsik k. 〈 ravi Vous n'avez pas vole-le, je l'ai donné à toi. *The words spill from my lips like silk, a soft smile adorns my lips as our gazed meet. It was crazy how fast I fell for you, but the feeling was wonderful and I didn't regret it one bit. I loved you and that's all that matters right now. I've found someone that can make me human, teach me how to feel, to see things in a new light, to /understand/. You say you stole my heart, but I was the one who willingly gave it to you and in return, you gave me yours. It was an agreement that neither of us regretted and I couldn't be any happier*
@jimin p. 〈 jimin |H| /I did. I shared the same feelings, written through stars, passing through like the wind but I was never fleeting. And it frightened me, brought fear to sit in a pit deep within my stomach but given time, given time .. I would start to let myself fall for you more. Your hand is brought to my lips, and a chaste kiss is placed on top./ Я не вернуть то, что я ворую.. /And your heart was now mine. Placed with all other priceless artifacts held close, held dear to me. And I would give you mine in return./
@wonsik k. 〈 ravi *As we pull away, I give a grin. My first genuine grin, not programmed to deceive. I take your shaky hands in mine, lifting one to my chest. Where my heart is.* Mon cœur. *I whisper, light chuckles flutter out of my parted tiers* I promise I won't hurt myself anymore. I have you now, to protect me. *The last statement was soft and timid, gaze cast down again, a sliver of doubt shows in my eyes again and I wonder for a split second... If you shared the same feelings*
@jimin p. 〈 jimin |H| /Wonsik. It sounds right coming from you, and I'm about to pull away. My heart thumping slow and heavy in my chest but your arms are around my shoulders. My eyes are wide and the air is nonexistant, but it isn't distaste for this bold action. My hands come to settle soft on your sides, ever so mindful of the wound in your abdomen, and I kiss you soft. Unsaid promises falling from my lips and I stay like this, with you, for seconds that felt like eternities. And slowly, I pull away, and I never thought that in real life there would be a trail of saliva connecting our lips but there it was ../ Only you can call me Wonsik, okay? Just .. Just take care of yourself better though. No more glass.. Or I throw you in a pool. Somewhere. /I'm nervous, and it's clear from the way my hands are shaking./
@wonsik k. 〈 ravi *Your words didna number to my heart. Accepts drips from your tongue and lands on my heart that swells and swells until it's so full of happiness it explodes.* W-wonsik... *I let the name sit on my tongue, get familiar with my mouth before leaving again with more confidence* Wonsik. *This man, Wonsik, is definitely someone I want to be with for the rest of my life. It didn't matter if we've known each other for a short amount of time, I want to know him, and love him. I wanted to fall in love with his smile, his laugh, his story. I wanted to feel your love. The next ten seconds were a blur. My arms flew around your neck and my lips pressed firmly against yours. I didn't loosen my grip one bit and I ignored the pain in my abdomen. I knew who I wanted to be with, I knew where my new home was. My new home was you.*
@jimin p. 〈 jimin |H| /Subject 158. I tilt my head and pull away to look at you properly, not letting go of your hand just to let you know that .. Everything was alright. My free hand reaches up, that smile pressing gently against your face, fingers taking your chin as I guide your face to properly look at me. Not allowing you to turn your head away./ Kim Wonsik, it's nice to meet you, Bubblegum. I have a little secret for you, /My head descends, lips poised next to your ear. Emotions struggling against the stifling nature of my enitre life code, being pulled apart by you. Not even carefully pulled apart. You were tearing all the witing out, tearing the pages from my code and leaving only remnants clinging to the spine of the book that was .. me./
The real you is who you are now. I don't care what you say, about feeling, lack thereof, or .. Being a number. Because somewhere, in life, we're all a number. /Like the tattoo that was on my forearm.. My first tattoo.. LXD. 540. The 540th child stolen for .. Anything and everything./
@wonsik k. 〈 ravi *I turn my body so I can face you properly, the tears that were welling were soon wipe away with the tips of my fingers. I sniff, look up, and smile. I finally have those images that people were talking about, where you imagine spending the rest of your life with the person in front of you. But it was already going to fast, I was planning to far ahead. There are other possibilities that might keep me from you. I can't bear the thought.* I'm-- *I pause. Was I really going to reveal my true identity to you? I trusted you enough to do so, but that feeling of dread and doubt surfaces from the pits of my stomach and claws at the words in my throat, keeping me from speaking. What if you hated me after I told you? Would you think that I'm a freak? I shake those thoughts out of my head and focus my attention to you.* I'm Subject 158.
@jimin p. 〈 jimin |H| /I thought I knew better than everybody, that I would die alone, that things were going to end with me laying either in a pool of my own blood or in sheets, wrinkled with age and a cold space beside me. But now you were added to that picture and my gaze cuts down. You felt happy. It was .. Odd how I didn't flinch at the human comment, but there's a very small smile pulling at my lips and I have to turn my face away from you./ I'm stuck on this island for a long time, Bubblegum. Don't .. Don't say such things without meaning them. I disappear a lot and, /I look over to you, gently pushing my elbow against your side./ you may find me in your bed some nights, holding you, or you may not find me at all. ... /I bring your hand to my lips./ What's your name then?
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