spam.

@♦ Kim Kibum cuz WORK! ugh I hate work... ;-;

Dishonor on my cow

I thought I was being smart by doing that

I walked out of both of them questioning my life and wondering how the I thought that it’d be a good idea to schedule both math and science together, ON THE SAME DAY, FOR THE REST OF THE SEMESTER

Y’all I had a chem and a trig exam today within 15 minutes of each other

@♦ Kim Namjoon Being at school gives me a mental breakdown in and of itself because there is so much ing work just ing stop i am actually autistic and being here makes me want to kill myself and throw these stupid desks each day it gets harder and harder to not punch every dumb nigga in here in the throat.
Nothing can in.g fix me i am ing retarded no gay going outside or drinking ing water can cure my ing cancer
I want to unironically ing die
Nigga I'm talking about real life. Not ing rp. I want to an asian in real life.
On rpr all these niggas retarded as hell and I have given up putting any effort into these people. None of them respond. I don't care anymore. A nigga bout to deactivate and it's not like how the generic bp ppl that say it every day
These niggas are never replying
I'm just here to refresh and imagine how a ing reply would be it's stupid
I just need to deactivate

@★ Lee Hongbin I'm sorry to hear that you're having a ty time :T
Even if you're my beloved tybean you don't deserve to have to deal with that
Do you want to go outside and do things? Or do you just not know what you want to do
Idk, if you're seeing a psychiatrist there's not much I can tell you that they probably haven't
I think you can do it. But even if you can't, that's ok. I'll be here to yell at you and put off replying to you for another 3 months
You're gonna be ok
Kiddo :D
but for reals
I think you're gonna be okay. Just like. breathe. One step at a time. and if you want to a hot asian then you should stop scaring the children so you can get someone to rp with you that doesn't take goddamn forever like me

someone rp with meeeee ;;;

/sprawls out on the floor/

he was not happy

i took a pic of it and sent it to him

i found my friend's name written on a trash bin today at uni

@♦ Kim Namjoon Both are important aspects of my life.
I take college courses. But the problem is my highschool classes. They are so much more work. Every day. It feels like college should prepare you for highschool instead of the other way around.
I wake up and go there, disassociate, come back home, sit in my room and contemplate suicide while watching some type of cancer or bullying children on the internet, and then go back to sleep and restart it. It never ends.
My psychiatrist basically tells me "nigga go do smthn"
I just have no will to stand up or walk
Let alone go somewhere with my friends
But my friend's bf's birthday party is like in a week and I can't dip out now so I have to go and be unhappy
But that means I have to finish my rlly good 5-7 page midterm for a gr8t educational college course that gives me a lot of educations so i can go there and not flunk that course. I never even started yet and it's due on the 13th.
I am hoping I can get my at some point.
Unironically i want my penus i will eat for free. I wanted an asian but i have no more standards buddy my options are already limited enough bc im in the hood. It'll most likely be a young african american male.
That is my goal for this month. Get a young black to and then yeet.
look I am improvingment already god i want to ing die
My parents and everyone gives me so much anxiety bc they say i have no regular high school fun and just have depression
But i only have 2 more years of hs
And i wasted the first year of it being depressed as usual
And this is the beginning of my second year and I am still depressed
It seems like I have to be as cancerous as possible RIGHT now before my youth ends
But i cant
Bc social anxiety
And no will to live
And no self esteem
So i just sit here and look at memes and and pray that God ends me sometime soon
And then like 3 years from now i will regret being like this and wish i had more fun
But i cannot get myself to do anything
I dont enjoy anything
My life is literally void of any emotion
There is no one i actively want to around me so i have literally no incentive whatsoever to do anything.
Isn't it funny how that's one of my key problems. Every guy is ing black. Everyone is black. And i want to an asian so i have no motivation whatsoever to try to do regular highschool stuff which we all know is ing ual activities kek
But how great would that sound in therapy
I don't do regular hs things bc i ize asian twinks and there are none of those in the hood so i have no point in parties
That would be my only reason to go to a party
Not ing talk to ppl i will never be social
Frick
I am cancer personified
My mind broke why tf am i sayin g this in a inh rp spam room what the

@★ Lee Hongbin You know I can listen to that stuff too if you make a clear distinction between that and telling me to shove a in my mouth
I'm really only good at giving 1st pov style hugs and potatoes but that's not your style
There's more to you than your grades though. There always is. All that grades do are reflect some kind of knowledge or skills you've been able to obtain. You want to do something more, then you can do it. But you kinda gotta go for it. And I understand that .
College is better. I'm like. So much less stressed. I can skip classes. I can afford to not study. It gets better I swear.

It's ok. I'm fine with having a heart to heart with my beloved tybean.

@♦ Kim Namjoon I wrote a full paragraph about how mentally unstable I am and the time I had at the psychiatrist and therapist today, but then I remembered who I was talking to.
In reality I have no will to live.
I wish everything I type and say was a joke.
My grades are all I have to offer, and they are even slipping. I truly cannot do anything. It's the only thing I can do. A's are the only thing I am capable of. And I am ing that up in one specific class.
Not only have my teenage years thus far been wasted in dread, but they will also be worth none of the suffering.
I wish God had the mercy to end me. I can't do this for 2 and a half more years.

I don't think that was what you were expecting.

@★ Lee Hongbin My most beloved tybean
how are you today

@♦ Kim Namjoon You're just jealous.

@♦ Kim Namjoon I'm a al .

@★ Lee Hongbin tybean please stop. I'm gonna puke.

@♦ Jung Daehyun I hate you!!!
*runs to the bathroom and cries on the toilet*

@★ Lee Hongbin I take it back

...short,,,,,,,,

@★ Lee Hongbin But you're not a modest

@♦ Jung Daehyun ...Ok.
Inject your cummies inside of me!!!
Oppar, aren't you short? I'll sit down so you can reach.
Can't waste oppar's precious seminal fluid!
Oppa's children...

@★ Lee Hongbin UHHHHHHHHH I love you I'll give you cummies??????

@♦ Jung Daehyun *cries and kisses my oppa on the massive lips*
I love you oppa!!
But you didn't say it right...

@♦ Kim Namjoon No. Because I already wrote that fic myself.
And I prefer modest .

I feel good, it is true, life is colorfuuuull 〜(￣△￣)〜

FEELS LIKE THE HONEYMOOOOOOOOOON (〜￣△￣)〜

@★ Lee Hongbin hey tybean
you wanna read a fic
where your bean gets ed in the
like a ty ?