(∝) alpha residence

@∝ oh sehun S-sorry.. I’m just not myself right now.. Just keep that money for the boys and their future.
-sniffles as I talk about our pups growing up, crying softly before hiding my face with my hands, trying not to cry anymore and I breathe out shakily-
I’m just… Overwhelming myself with the future thoughts…
Sorry
-mumbles-
T-thank you.
-wipes the tears away-
Smells good
-smiles weakly-
M-my appetite isn’t fully there again.. I’ll eat what I can.

@Ω kim jongin - den mother I see… then I wont push this offer and keep on insisting. I will wait for you to decide if you want help from me with that
*sits at the edge of the bed and looks over at you seeing how you are beginning to tear up*
Jongin… I know it feels hard knowing that one day the boys will end up growing and have a family of their own… but that doesn’t mean they will no longer acknowledge their parents.
In the mean time, dont worry about it, enjoy the time when the boys are still pups.
* stands up and points outside the room*
Imma go get you your porridge so you can eat. Wait one moment
* excuse myself as I walk back to the kitchen to get a bowl and pour the porridge in the bowl. Comes back with a spoon and the meal for you*
Here you go… have some of this, it well help you gain your energy.

@∝ oh sehun No..
I won’t accept it. I’ll find my way..
Just take that for the boys.
-nods and smiles a bit-
That’s for the boys future.
Soon they’ll be off to school…
Have their own family.
-tears up-
They might even leave home…
So just save it for their future.

@Ω kim jongin - den mother As a friend and as a mother to my boys I am willing to help you pay for your therapy sessions
* shakes my head and stares directly at you*
Even if I am not your mate I am willing to offer.
* gives a reassuring look*
Ive been saving up money for the kids especially when they were still in your belly. All the hours and separation as I work were saved for the boys future

@∝ oh sehun N-no it’s not your responsibility…
I’m not your mate.. I’ll find something to make it for my therapy sessions.
-mumbles softly-
Save your money for the boys.

@Ω kim jongin - den mother *frowns a bit as I continue to learn more about what happened, shakes my head*
I will take responsibility and help you with that. Dont think about the money. It will be best for you so that you can recover from this trauma.

@∝ oh sehun I w-was given wolfsbane so I couldnt reach out to anyone.. N-no one noticed… Until he released me. I don’t know where that man is now..
-whimpers and hides in your hands-
Trauma?
B-but I can’t afford it…
-mumbles softly-

@Ω kim jongin - den mother *Frowns a bit when you mentioned being taken away*
So what did you do? Did your mother realize about your missing? What about Chanyeol?
* Looks at you when hearing you whimpering softly, lets out a sigh not wanting to pressure you from remembering the past, and clasp your hands together*
I feel like it is best to schedule an appointment to go to therapy. It will be beneficial to help with your trauma Jongin... As for you being captured... I'm sorry to hear about that.. It must have been a terrible experience, but now look we are you are now, you are safe now... Safe from danger. The pack moved someplace else now..

@∝ oh sehun I w-was taken…
For a week and no one noticed..
-jolts a bit as I look around, whimpering softly, looking at you-
I’m scared

@Ω kim jongin - den mother Taken...
*Frowns a bit when hearing something that I never heard of from you*
You are not going to be taken again.. you are at the alpha residence... My apartment
The boys are safe as well as you
* Brings my hand over to rub your back gently until slowly giving you a comforting hug*
Look see, everything is safe here. No one is going to barge in and take you away I promise.

@∝ oh sehun S-scared…
W-with everything
-mumbles and follows you, slowly sitting down and breathing out shakily-
I w-was taken again…
By something or someone..
T-they were hurting me. T-threatening on hurting the boys..

@Ω kim jongin - den mother You are safe and sound Jongin...
* Decides to bring you back to the bedroom so you can lay back down this time with me probably staying until you rest*
You wanna talk about your nightmare?
* By the time I entered the room, goes over let you take a seat on the edge of the bed*

@∝ oh sehun H-help..
Scared..
-mumbles and groans as you hold onto my arm, clinging to you, I whimper. Sweat easily visible as my bangs stick to my forehead-
N-nightmare..

@Ω kim jongin - den mother *after having the satisfied look suddenly hears noises coming from the hallway*
Hm?
*walks out the kitchen to see you digging your claw on your arm*
Jongin!? What are you doing being up? You should be in bed
*quickly moves over to hold your arm and help support you, looks at you a bit concern when feeling you shaking in my arms*

@∝ oh sehun -falls off the bed, swallowing as my claws dig into my arms, I sluggishly walk out of the room, supporting myself against the wall. Biting my lower lip-
A-ah..
H-hun..

@Ω kim jongin - den mother *continues doing my work as I check the time humming to a song that is stuck in my head, by the time I finished closes the laptop and leans back against my seat*
Ahh finally done… I wonder if the porridge is done too..
*looks over at the stove as I stood up to check, starts mixing with the wooden spoon and tasting it*
Mm needs a bit more flavor
*starts adding a bit more salt and pepper before smiling with satisfaction*
Perfect~

@∝ oh sehun -wakes up gasping for air, looking around shakily, breathing out and I start digging my claws into my arms-
S-Sehun?
-whimpers softly-

@Ω kim jongin - den mother *lift the lid of the pot to mix the porridge, adds the chicken soon after and lets it simmer until fully cooked. Takes a seat once more to finish up summarizing patients before closing my eyes letting out a yawn*

@∝ oh sehun -my body shifts into its wolf form, being too weak I stay curled up and nuzzling into the pillow-
-breathes out shakily, my breathing labored-

@Ω kim jongin - den mother *remains at the kitchen as I prepare chicken porridge, prepares by cooking the chicken first to add into the porridge, sets chop scallions on the side for later as well as ginger to help put flavor for the porridge. Prepares the rice porridge making sure to season it and placing the cut ginger, close the lid letting it boil in the mean time, leans against the counter as I check my phone to see if there are any notifications before looking out at the window wondering I can do to provide help for you and for the boys*

@∝ oh sehun Markie.. Markie will most likely know where to find them.. I’ll ask them when I’m home
-mumbles softly, falling asleep almost instantly as the tiredness I was feeling made me sleep quickly. Curls up on the bed, hugging a pillow close-
-shudders in my sleep, small quiet whimpers leaving me-

@Ω kim jongin - den mother You should ask him again so he can hand his papa the letter… if anything maybe while I look after them, you can check their room and search for where seungmin hides the letter
* smiles softly and nods*
I will keep that in mind..
*listens to your words as you close your eyes and fall asleep, closes the door and go back to the kitchen to clean up the blood on the table cloth. Moments later checks the cabinets to check the food I stocked up deciding to prepare porridge I learned while at the orphanage*

@∝ oh sehun Yeah
-smiles tiredly, biting down on my lower lip, chuckling as I remember helping Seungmin write some words he didn’t know how to spell-
He hides them well..
-mumbles softly, nodding my head slowly-
Be a father to them Sehun…
They hardly see you.. Thankfully they don’t ask me where you are or if you’re coming home… It broke my heart every time they asked..
-closes my eyes, nuzzling into the bed as I start falling asleep-

@Ω kim jongin - den mother He did that…?
*raises a brow a bit when you mention about seungmin writing letters to me even though I didnt receive any of them, press my lips together*
You should hand those letters to me so I can read it. I wanna know how he is feeling knowing how shy he gets around me.
* nods after helping you drink the medicine, helps you by taking the glass of water away and playing it on the beside table*
I want to spend time with the boys… I was thinking about paying a visit after giving myself a break from work.
*shakes my head and helps cover you with a blanket*
No need to apologize, you can make it up by getting better okay? Now go get some rest.
*thinks to myself wondering what to make for you once you wake up*

@∝ oh sehun That pup gets jealous.. He has letters for you but he never gives them to me.. He misses you Sehun.. A lot.. Please spend time with our boys.. Even if it’s a few hours every other day.
-struggles to keep myself awake, my hand clinging to your shirt as a means to keep myself composed. Whining softly before trying to hold onto you, shivering hard. Nuzzling in close I start dozing off. Groans softly as I try staying awake-
Mmkay
-takes the Tylenol and water, swallowing the pill I drink the water, setting the glass down I nuzzle into the pillow-
I-I’m so sorry..
I’ll make it up to you.

@Ω kim jongin - den mother I will keep that in mind then especially for seungmin.
* furrows my brows when seeing cling to my shirt, stares at your expression as I bring a hand over to tap your cheeks before kneeling a bit to wrap my arms around you and carry you over to the guest room so you can lay there in the meantime*
Stay with me Jongin
* releases my eucalyptus scent that helps relax the body, by the time I went to the guest room, helps lay you down making sure to have your body elevated with the pillow*
I feel like its best to get rest, I will get you medicine for your head since you feel dizzy. Just lay down in the mean time.
*steps back out to the kitchen to get the Tylenol medication to help ease with the headache and let you rest in the mean time. Comes back carrying the pill and a glass of water*
Here drink this..

@∝ oh sehun Seungmin might not want that.. Last time we met he smelled Yoochan on you and he got jealous.. So just take it slow with them meeting.
-nods-
Maybe a full depth look. Blood work. Scans. I feel weak all the time. Maybe lack of iron?
-my eyesight blurs for a moment and I cling to your shirt, weakly keeping my head back-
D-dizzy…

@Ω kim jongin - den mother Of course I wouldn’t mind doing that Jongin, I was thinking on having them bond with their little cousin Yoochan if I take them to Myeon hyung’s place
* nods and curls my lips into a smile, sits back on my chair after withdrawing my hand*
Just a regular checkup with the doctor? Hmm You should start looking after yourself… for some reason it looks like you havent been consuming a good amount of nutrients. If anything they might end up prescribing you with supplements to prevent from being malnourished.
*eyes widen as I stood up to check up on you, automatically help tilt your head back and apply the napkin toward the nose that was bleeding*
No its okay don’t worry about it, I can clean it in a bit.

@∝ oh sehun -looks at you, wiping my tears away. Trying to calm myself down but it’s a bit more difficult than I would like to admit-
-blows my nose again with a new napkin, crumbling it up before nodding-
C-can you look after them.. Maybe for a few days? I just.. Need to focus on myself and my new pups..
-smiles weakly-
I haven’t been taking care of myself Hun… I’ll probably go to the doctors soon I’m not okay.
-sips my tea, flinching as I feel pain in my body, covering my nose as I felt warmth dripping out-
Crap.
-uses napkins to stop my nosebleed-
I-I messed up your table cloth..
L-let me clean it..

@Ω kim jongin - den mother I don’t believe that. Hanuel, leo, Seungmin, and Mark would disagree about you failing them.
*shakes my head*
Even if you are known as the den mother, you can still ask for help. Don’t let this heavy weight tire you.
You can ask for help.
*slowly sits on my chair*
You mentioned earlier about asking for help from me, so how about letting me look after the boys? They can stay with me while you take this moment to take a breather and have a moment for yourself