⤿ junmyeon's room

@∝ oh sehun /I get into my room and bring out the bassinet to put it in the guest room. Then, I come in again my room, checking on the trolley to make sure everything is there before I bring it out/
/seeing you're walking to the guest room while carrying Yoochan in one arm and eating the cookie at the same time/
Have your rest, okay? I'll clean up everything.
/smiles at you before I enter the guest room with the trolley, put it beside the bassinet/
Everything is here now.

@β kim junmyeon -the peacekeeper *takes note about that when gazing at the direction you pointed for his milk*
If you need help on bringing the trolley to the room then I am more than happy too myeon hyung.
*watches you end up leaving the living room, reaches to pick up my mug and gulps down the rest of the hot chocolate as well as picking up a cookie after setting the mug down*
Lets go to the room yoochan okay?
*takes a bite of the cookie while carrying yoochan securely in one arm, starts walking over to the guest room to see if there are spare clothes I can change into later*

@∝ oh sehun Okay, if you say so.
/points to the kitchen/
I have a medium container on the kitchen counter with the label "Yoochan's milk". I keep the milk and his bottles in there.
/hums softly/
I will bring out the trolley that has his diapers and other things like wet tissue and such to the guest room.
/nods/
Okay, I'll do it now.
/leaves the living room after that/

@β kim junmyeon -the peacekeeper I can handle it. Im not usually a heavy sleeper so I can wake up to change the diaper of yoochan
*smiles softly when being allowed to stay over the night, sways yoochan a bit in my arms*
Where do you store his baby formula if I may ask? As well as the diaper so I wouldn’t wake you up during the middle of the night
*hums momentarily while thinking*
Maybe we can have the bassinet place in the guest room.

@∝ oh sehun /looks at Yoochan when you mention him and smiles softly/
It seems like that, huh? Mhm, I'm fine with that, Sehun.
/nods my head/
If you want him to sleep with you, I'm okay. But, he tends to wake up in the middle of night because of hungry or dirty diaper. Will you be fine?
/looks up at you/
I can bring the bassinet here or to the guest room

@β kim junmyeon -the peacekeeper *Thinks quietly as the smile slowly fade momentarily when wondering if it really is a good idea to stay over for the night or if its best to go home, looks down at yoochan this time gently caressing his cheek*
Hmm it looks like yoochan doesn’t want to be away from his uncle so I probably will just stay over for the night. I will leave after breakfast if you are fine with that.
*thinks of some excuse to stay for the night not wanting to be alone or I may end up carelessly drink again*
Still want to spend time with him… even though he fell asleep… I should probably lay him on his bassinet? Is it in your room? I can place it in the living room, unless you plan on resting early

@∝ oh sehun /is still looking at you and knowing that I hurt your feeling by rejecting you, sees the smile that you show to me/
No, no! It won't make us feel awkward with each other.
/bites my lower lip as I don't know what to say more, changing the topic/
Umm... are you stay here for the night or you go back to your apartment?

@β kim junmyeon -the peacekeeper *listens to your response as my gaze falls back down at yoochan, chews on my inner cheek knowing that being rejected by someone you like hurts*
No its understandable hyung…
*after taking a moment for myself finally looks at you this time flashing a smile*
At least I don’t lose you as a brother… I’m sorry as well for suddenly kissing you without your consent. I hope my feelings for you doesn’t awkward our relationship.

@∝ oh sehun /doesn't know how and where to start, still staring at you and staying silent for few seconds, takes a deep breath before I say it/
I'm sorry, Sehun...I-I can't accept your feelings...
/is feeling bad that I have to do this but I don't want you to put hope on me/
I only think of you as my little brother... I'm sorry that I can't return the feeling back to you...

@β kim junmyeon -the peacekeeper *keeps myself busy by looking after Yoochan. He remained resting on my chest until I turn my head over when being called, looks directly at you this time standing up from the couch*
Junmyeon…hyung..
*rest my hand on yoochan’s back ready to accept your response*

@∝ oh sehun /I take a good amount of time to think about you, my own feeling, Yoochan and other things too, gets up and opens the door, walking back to the living room/
/seeing you still holding the sleeping Yoochan in your arms, bites my lower lip/
Sehun...
/looks at you/

@β kim junmyeon -the peacekeeper *stares through the window as I see a bit of my reflection when carrying yoochan, turns my head over to go back to pick up the mug of hot chocolate, brings it to my lips to drink the hot chocolate made by you, my lips and sits back down*
No matter what happens.. I will help look after you yoochan… and your mommy…
* sets the mug down as I wait for you to come out your room*

@∝ oh sehun /my heart is still beating fast and my mind is racing right now when I remember back the kiss and the confession/
/sits down on the floor as still leaning against the door, thinking what should I do and say to you, I still can't believe you feel that way to me when I thought of you as my brother only/
What should I do...?
/brushing my hair to the back, burying my face on my knees, deep down I know your feeling to me is genuine and sincere, but, for right now, I don't want to have a mate yet/
/I'm still in the process of moving on from Junsu and slowly letting him go from my life, having Yoochan in my life now is really helping me move on but I don't think I'm ready for another love, another mate/

@β kim junmyeon -the peacekeeper *feels your lips pulling away as the heart that was racing suddenly clenching momentarily*
J-junmyeon…
*watches you as run off to your room, looks back down at yoochan unsure what to react or prepare myself later on*
*decides not to chase after you but to wait for you to step out of your room when you are ready, stands up with yoochan in my arms, starts walking around basically pacing myself while carrying a sleeping baby in my arms*
Your mama is probably flustered at your uncle. You can beat up your uncle for making your mama flustered too.
* talks to yoochan as I bring one hand to take one of his arm to smack my shoulder as he remain asleep, in the end kiss his forehead*

@∝ oh sehun /calm down a little now and I stare at you as you're explaining further when you started to have feeling to me and why, eyes widen when I learn that you had crush on me before/
Sehun...
/looks at our holding hands before I blink my eyes few times when I feel how close we are right now/
Sehun, what-
/my eyes grow wide open once your lips on mine, my body is freezing there for few seconds before I pull away, looks at you in shocked/
S-stop...I-I need to-
/gets up and runs away into my room, closing the door and leaning against it, my hand is resting on my chest as I could feel my heart is beating so fast, wondering why I feel like this/

@β kim junmyeon -the peacekeeper *lift my head to look at you when you remained with a flustered expression as my eyes showed a bit of hope that my true feeling will be returned by yours*
Its true… Hyung-
*before I got the chance to explain why its you I suddenly grew quiet when you said to wait. Stays silent for a while as I watch you calming yourself*
You helped me back up to my feet when I felt lost. Seeing how you cared for me slowly brought me to unbury these feelings I had from you way back as a kid… you were there always until you had to leave for college and thats when we both separated… I kept my crush on you when we were kids a secret but it brought me in regrets… Now that I came back into your life again I couldn’t help but develop feelings again.. the nurturing behavior you have for yoochan, the boys back in the orphanage/home, as well for this pack… I want to see your warm smile again..
*once yoochan drift off to sleep, I bring my hand over to take your hand to place it down on your lap, keeps my gaze at you as I slowly lean in*
I understand if you don’t see me more than just a little brother…
*whispers softly as I felt a tug deep inside my chest when saying that, scoots closer till our face are close distance away enough to feel our breath against one another*
But just this once… you can push me away if you want…
*leans over to plant a kiss on your soft lips I once touch back at the orphanage the other time*

@∝ oh sehun /opens my mouth to say something after you admit it that you've feeling for me but no words come out, my brain is working on what to say to you/
I-
/I'm so shocked and flustered right now after I find out about your true feelings to me, is trying to say something to you but I don't know how to respond to that/
Is this true? I-I mean why me? Wait!
/puts one hand up and takes a deep breath, trying to calm myself down so I can think properly/

@β kim junmyeon -the peacekeeper Its true…
*eyes widen when it looks like I caught you off guard when asking this as well as confessing, chews my inner cheek and looks down at yoochan as a distraction when he started to close his eyes and slowly fall asleep*
I-I do… I like you more than a hyung..
Its been during the time when visiting you while I was still living in the province… I started to develop feeling for you…again
*mutters the last word since I had a childhood crush on you when kids*

@∝ oh sehun /drinks the hot chocolate and chokes on it because I'm shocked by your question, coughing few times as I'm putting down the mug on the coffee table, reaching for the tissue box and wiping my mouth/
What?
/looks at you with a slight frown, wondering why you suddenly ask me that and confess to me/
Y-you like me? You m-mean more than...a hyung?
/flustered a bit/
W-why? When did you start to have feeling for me?

@β kim junmyeon -the peacekeeper Letting fate decide..
*mutters quietly to myself as I chew on my inner cheek*
What if… what If I can be Yoochan’s father figure?
*questions out loud while taking a glance at yoochan and then over at you this time with may expression looking a bit serious*
What if this someone is actually the one sitting beside you…?
*focus my gaze at you*
I like you hyung.

@∝ oh sehun /my eyes are still on the TV while waiting for your answer, warming up my hands by holding the mug with two hands/
/listening to your answer and nodding my head few times/
I understand that...
/is caught of guard a bit by your question but I remain calm after that, thinking about your question and how should I answer it/
I would say let the fate decide on it...if one day someone comes into my life and he could make me feel the love again, I will accept him to be my mate. For now, Yoochan is my focus. I know he needs a father figure but maybe I just let the fate decide on it.

@β kim junmyeon -the peacekeeper *runs my fingers to gently rub the back of yoochan, gives him small pats as I gently press my cheek on top of the head of the baby boy. Stares over at the screen when you turned it on until I heard something that caught me off guard*
H-huh?
*raises a brow a bit as I appear slightly flustered at this sudden topic*
…Well in the beginning I thought maybe its best to just remain single but at times I did wonder what would it be like when finding a new mate.. I guess you can say I'm waiting..
*nods a bit before turning my head a different direction unsure to stare at you, I could listen to my own heart beating once I ask you the same question*
How about you? Have you thought of finding a new mate?

@∝ oh sehun /looks at you when you say that and sighs a little, nods my head and smiles/
Okay if you say so.
/puts down my hands and turns around to face the TV, takes the mug again, taking a sip of the hot chocolate from time to time while watching the TV/
Sehun...have you ever thought of finding a new mate?

@β kim junmyeon -the peacekeeper But yoochan is already getting comfy in my arms its okay I can drink a bit later until yoochan falls asleep
*looks back down as yoochan seem to be busy with the tips of my hair*
Im not sure when but eventually he will…
* continues holding yoochan while I saw you reaching for him, keeps him close*
Noo hyung continue enjoying your drink and cookies~ its okay

@∝ oh sehun Okay, I'll make those two for them.
/replies you and takes another small sip, looks at you and grins/
Mhm, yes~ You should try it, Sehun.
/puts down the mug on the coffee table again before I reach my arms to take Yoochan/
Let me take him so you can enjoy your drink and cookies.

@β kim junmyeon -the peacekeeper Nothing in particular~ my hands are just occupied looking after yoochan thats all
*grins sheepishly before leaning to take a bit of the cookie when offered*
Thank you~
*muffles a bit after taking a bite, chews in the meantime before swallowing*
Maybe we can go for sandwiches or mac and cheese. I know markie love that the most.
*cradles yoochan while leaning back against the couch, notice from the corner of my eye your smile after taking a sip of hot chocolate*
You enjoying your hot chocolate?

@∝ oh sehun /looks at what you're doing before I laugh, shaking my head/
What are you trying to get from me by doing that, huh?
/gets up a little and feeds the cookie in your mouth, sits down again and eats one too/
I wonder what should I cook for your boys when they come over.
/picks up one mug and brings it closer to my lips, taking a small sip of it before I smile in satisfied/

@β kim junmyeon -the peacekeeper Mhm he sure does but once visiting the province, probably yoochan will lover father
*yoochan brought his small hand to grab a few strand of my hair*
The boys would be really excited to spend time with you.
*notice the little sigh you had, wraps my arms fully on yoochan to make it look like my hands are occupied and parts my lips*
feed me instead~ ahhh

@∝ oh sehun /Yoochan scrunches up his face a little when you tap his nose, staring at him being comfortable in your hold/
You like to be with uncle, don't you, baby?
/smiles softly and nods my head at your idea/
That would be really nice. I can spend time with the boys too. It's been awhile since I met them.
/sighs a little before I take one piece of cookie, gives it to you/
Here.

@β kim junmyeon -the peacekeeper Nope you should already know that I have a big appetite thats why father pushes me out everytime he is preparing food.
*focus my attention at Yoochan, tilts my head at him when he stared with his round orbs and makes small babbling noises, lightly taps the tip of his nose to see his expression*
I know right? He is getting all comfy with his uncle.
* yoochan kicked a little bit as well as moving his hand to pat my shoulder*
Maybe next time I will ask Jongin If I can take the boys so we can all spend time together. Would you like to spend time with your cousins Yoochan?
* nuzzles the tip of his nose as I inhale his milky breath*