*his mind is still reeling as he nods slowly* thank you I suppose…for this time… I shall go for now. I do think I was right. I need time to really explore. And I wouldn’t ever see his life and think it was a good example to live by… *he walks off*
It is up to you who you decide to be. One of the two previous Taehyungs or a new Taehyung altogether. One thing is certain. Your fate shall sway depending on your choice. Whether you choose your loner self, your fate will be similar suffering as before. Choose the non au self, a different fate. Decide on a new self? A new fate I nor you would notice. I would recommend though, if you do choose the third, Jeongguk may be a better guidance not to follow but understand. His life is nothing but tragedy therefore I would not recommend you follow everything he has done bit by bit. Only take pointers
*he smirks in pain at the open-ended answer, sarcasm in his gratitude* thanks. Even I knew that myself because of hobi Hyung- er nonau hoseok… *he sighed* to hear you the demon lord still don’t even know is disheartening. I continue to smile to others and be a good host yet I’ve already begun to feel dead inside. No wonder I have felt pain when the people I have taken an interest in are with another. Is that it… *chuckles dryly* I never had a soulmate to begin with and now even I have no fate or future of my own- unless I return to being one or the other. The loner otaku or the nonau…? But I doubt I can be the nonau as my whole life I’ve felt like the other more…
*he noticed Taehyung had started to break down due to taetae’s good but tainted nature but knowing that you are still half of him, he had no doubt you would continue to function for now.* I suppose… you do and you do not. Rejoice, having no fate has led you to share a freedom not even I have obtained. At present, your fate depends on you. However, now you are aware of why this is and why you behave differently than your former self yes?
*he took a while. Then eventually he spoke with a deep inhale* then..my fate. What is it now…? Do I not have a hope in despair anymore…? Am I forced to live this life alone…? Do I not have a hoseok…? *he gripped his fist to keep calm*
I suspect as you have slowly started to remember taetae, you too will remember and become half of each. You will have both. Memories of Kim Taehyung of private university, a demon and loner sophomore student. As well as memories of Kim Taehyung of non au, a famous kpop idol from the famed group BTS. Yet I am not certain if you would tie yourself to which of them or become a new one altogether
*Taehyung continued to stay quiet as V spoke. As V was speaking, Taehyung was already concluding these things on his own through the new facts of nonau Taehyung only he was supposed to be aware of*
As a psychology major yourself, you are aware of the ship of Theseus yes? At what point does taking the parts of one ship to build a new one become a new ship entirely? Is it a few parts. Half? Everything? In the end, Taehyung, you have become two souls joined together into a different identity. I believe you have regained both sides of yourself at this point. I have yet to see though the point when and if you decide on a completely new identity.
Without being conscious of it, you gave yourself the same face as the deceased taetae for your demon form and continued to behave as not one and not the other
Though I destroyed his soul and his future for good, his memories still lingered with me. When your private university world started to die, I began to construct a new vessel with my face, combining our powers and status with his nonau down to earth yet tainted good nature and created your first version to live between worlds here
*he stared at V* in the end, though, that’s what it became. Whether you planned it or not, you gave me his memories and made me different enough to the others
you were but a byproduct of my promise to my beautiful to never kill you- though I still to this day do believe you were better off to die than suffer alone
Taetae refused to be reincarnated. Yes that is true. However his memories, my experiences when I controlled his body have lingered in me. It was in that world I met and took my beautiful as my own. And in that world I had found someone who had the potential to be my queen for eternity and rule alongside me. Hoseok himself has given me such hope in despair that I have longed for since the very beginning.
So then… *he swallows* you saved those memories into me to become someone who wasn’t you nor was him. Someone who could truly have the ability to rewrite their own fate…
*he stared into the lifeless eyes of V, starting to understand why V was terrifying. V had the ability to destroy a soul so easily. Yet he stayed firm and did not cower* that is quite an abhorrent thing to do *chuckles dryly*
However you alone are aware of the truth of his final words. In the final moments of nonau Taehyung, or who we prefer to refer to as Taetae’s, death, I showed him his fate was to be reincarnated to live another life of suffering as all Taehyung’s with our souls do to search for happiness. Unfortunately, he refused steadfast in his decision. Once I took his soul, I destroyed it to the point it could never be reincarnated again.
Indeed I did take that nonau Taehyung’s life. The nonau world is quite fragile though. No nonau being can truly be killed that easily. Therefore as soon as his soul died, another soul had already begun to take its place
Then what? Why do I have memories of a different nonau Taehyung? The same nonau Taehyung that was originally your hoseok’s…? Unless it’s true *he stared towards V* you killed that nonau Taehyung..
*he answered matter of factly* yes as you were me and met a hoseok, it was a necessary measure. Unfortunately, my hoseok had saved you a demon. I was not allowed to end your existence by fate. By that moment, you began to walk a different path
Yourself..? So it’s true. I was..you in a parallel universe…and I was predestined to become a demon lord as well
But I never could as you were planning to kill me
Began…? Meaning it changed. When did it start to change… *his eyes narrowed* Halloween. I was supposed to kill my lover and ascend to king rather than just the world’s ruler
..up until this point I should know your behavior is quite ruthless. If it was any other man, we would be the types to kill our lover if we couldn’t kill the other. Unless… it was fate…?