― in public

@「jung hoseok」• nonau ʲʰᵒᵖᵉ Well I am not as relieved hoseok. There are now two possible demon kings if I can recall my own plan once I had my yoongi. Do you not feel in trouble? For him to even be a demon king, similar to during Halloween, he must… *his eyes look down when you tell him he’s looking at it wrong* it is not less worthy. I am more evil than him. I’ve hurt you more than him as well…more than less worthy it is less burdensome…

*yet his eyes soften even in his unemotional face before breaking down when you finally had shown him desperation. Insanity without a reason. Yes he will still repeat he is more burdensome and the worse one comparing the two. But if you desire him around, that gives him his hope in despair you want him. His eyes falter as he sniffs trying to calm down which thanks to the confusion he was faster* what…what do you mean your mind forgets and your heart stops…?

@「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ I am glad that plan didn't work out actually… *His shaky hands covered his entire face as he takes two deep breaths in.* I was scared it will be like Taetae all over again, and I wouldn't be able to survive it. I don't want to lose you or him. *When he calmed down enough, pushing away the difficult memories, he looked at you once again.* You look at it wrong. You are not /lacking/ anything, you are just a different person. I want you to stop comparing yourself, stop seeing yourself as less worthy, less anything.

*He moved closer, hands gently cupping your cheeks, thumbing them. He holds you gently with so much care and love, as you cry without tears.* You do, you matter. My dear, you will never be unloved by me, you are too well tangled in my soul. You see, I don't love you with my heart and mind, but I love you with my soul. In case my mind forgets and my heart stops. You are so wanted and needed, my Lord.

@「jung hoseok」• nonau ʲʰᵒᵖᵉ *looks into your eyes* I know you desire me but will it be worth it is my question. Will it be worth loving me when you have a much better copy in every way in Taehyung. Yes…you are right. My plan was always for him to love you and you to love him. However I had no plan for him to take his own body. I planned to merge him with me so I may be able to give you both sides. Especially the side I lacked due to time. But now moreover he has become his own identity. Even assumed a demon image of his own that he can claim…

*yet as he’s mulling everything, he stares at your shaking eyes. His cold hands suddenly caress you before barely smiling. Oh yes, those were the desperate in despair eyes. Maybe that is all he needed; to know you yearn for his despair. To yearn for him despite how anyone would look and ascertain he is not needed any longer.* I am not leaving you beautiful. Especially as you’ve now looked at me with eyes like these. *his voice grows low and weak in vulnerability* I still matter…d…ont I…? *it was obvious he looked about to cry yet the tears could not come* very…y well. Since you…u still care about me so deeply, u…until you do not, I sh…all stay…*sniffs despite no tears falling*

@「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ *Sighs, gently reaching out to hold your head.* My poor Phantom, why do you worry so much. My dear. I am all yours. Never doubt me or that fact. I want you *Hoseok guide you down, to kiss you softly.* He is different, not touched by those tragedies. But you wanted me to love him. You wanted me to love you both. Do you regret that? *He leans closer, his eyes scared and shaking.* Don't leave me V, please don't leave me.

@「jung hoseok」• nonau ʲʰᵒᵖᵉ I do not know…when I can. I only truly prolonged this thought process because of Taehyung. Taehyung’s existence is but an anomaly. He has never truly lost a hoseok enough to experience through all grief steps in losing that step. Because he had you. But because of that, he has all of which I lack. That ability to sympathize for example.

@「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ Even If I don't have anything to worry about, I will worry. That's who I am, and I want to worry about you. *He patted your chest.* When will you see that there is no going back? That I want to have everything with you, that you are mine for a reason? I could leave on countless occasion, but I stayed. When will you let me love you properly, my dear? My heart is singing songs for you.

@「jung hoseok」• nonau ʲʰᵒᵖᵉ *he is still at a loss for words at your anger before his eyes warm, barely smiling* I see… I have no say in what you deserve even if I know more than anyone else that you deserve a happy and no challenge life correct? Do you not want to stop worrying about everything?

@「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ Why do you think I would even want to replace you? You, who I fought so hard. *Points to the white scar on his hand,* you who I tied to my very soul. You who is always putting me first, even now. Why? Why would I ever want to replace someone so dear to me. Yes, you are a demon, Lord demon even. Yes, you are not 'good' but guess what, that I can be good for us both. But you don't have a say in what I deserve. Because I don't give about that. I want you. I choose you time and time again.

「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ [A] 32 minutes ago Reply
…*looks down* because I do not know what you are asking for me to believe. Do I believe you love me yes. Do I believe I am not replaceable? No

「jung hoseok」• nonau ʲʰᵒᵖᵉ 39 minutes ago Reply
Then why you don't believe me?

「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ [A] 44 minutes ago Reply
You have become my hope in despair hoseok. I could never regret that

「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ [A] 45 minutes ago Reply
never

「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ [A] 45 minutes ago Reply
-no

「jung hoseok」• nonau ʲʰᵒᵖᵉ 51 minutes ago Reply
What happened is sad and I am sorry. But if it didnt happen you would never meet me. Unless... thats exactly what you wish for. Do you regret meeting me? Would you prefer never knowing me?

「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ [A] 52 minutes ago Reply
Not something inherently me. You see this in Taehyung. He’s quite rash is he not?

「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ [A] 53 minutes ago Reply
That is because of my past, beautiful

「jung hoseok」• nonau ʲʰᵒᵖᵉ 53 minutes ago Reply
You always treated me gently. Always took good care of me.

「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ [A] 54 minutes ago Reply
I know. But only because of this am I able to be gentle towards you as a hoseok

「jung hoseok」• nonau ʲʰᵒᵖᵉ 54 minutes ago Reply
*gasps* I have nothing to do with your Hoseoks deaths. Nothing.

「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ [A] 58 minutes ago Reply
Or at least- the resulting changes in me because of that

「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ [A] 59 minutes ago Reply
So you love the fact I have experienced many hoseok’s dying in my arms?

「jung hoseok」• nonau ʲʰᵒᵖᵉ 59 minutes ago Reply
You shouldnt doubt yourself, my love for you never changed.

「jung hoseok」• nonau ʲʰᵒᵖᵉ 59 minutes ago Reply
What do you mean... you asked me? There is way more things I love but those are most important.

「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ [A] 1 hour ago Reply
I see…but what is the reason to do that?

「jung hoseok」• nonau ʲʰᵒᵖᵉ 1 hour ago Reply
Own your qualities, or accept them.

「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ [A] 1 hour ago Reply
What do you mean by own this?

「jung hoseok」• nonau ʲʰᵒᵖᵉ 1 hour ago Reply
You are as much worth my love as Taehyung is

「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ [A] 1 hour ago Reply
*tries to raise them*

「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ [A] 1 hour ago Reply
My apologies

「jung hoseok」• nonau ʲʰᵒᵖᵉ 1 hour ago Reply
Eyes up, please my love

「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ [A] 1 hour ago Reply
Own? What do you mean..?

「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ [A] 1 hour ago Reply
My apologies… it is just…that *looks down*

「jung hoseok」• nonau ʲʰᵒᵖᵉ 1 hour ago Reply
Own this

「jung hoseok」• nonau ʲʰᵒᵖᵉ 1 hour ago Reply
Stop searching for excuses

「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ [A] 1 hour ago Reply
You must know I am gentle with you because I know how fragile a hoseok is in my arms *he excuses himself*

「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ [A] 1 hour ago Reply
*he barely smiles touched, hearing words* and Taehyung?

「jung hoseok」• nonau ʲʰᵒᵖᵉ 1 hour ago Reply
You can put my mind at ease, even the loudest most hurting words and thoughts means nothing when I am with you I feel safe with you, protected. You are gentle with me. You can dance with me. Despite emotional struggle you always putting me first and trying your best to understand me.

「 v 」∶ human ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˡᵒʳᵈ [A] 1 hour ago Reply
I yearn to know though hoseok… *looks into your eyes as you raise his chin*