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♣ yoon baek ᵈⁱʳᵉᶜᵗᵒʳ 22 minutes ago Reply
aa healthcare is such a scam
♣ yoon baek ᵈⁱʳᵉᶜᵗᵒʳ 22 minutes ago Reply
aa healthcare is such a scam
♣ yoon baek ᵈⁱʳᵉᶜᵗᵒʳ 22 minutes ago Reply
aa healthcare is such a scam
♣ yoon baek ᵈⁱʳᵉᶜᵗᵒʳ 22 minutes ago Reply
aa healthcare is such a scam

aa healthcare is such a scam

I was over diagnosed jdbfjfnfnfn
I was stuck at a clinic that I didn’t really like cuz I didn’t have insurance. But once I got insurance I changed to my current place and they brought me down

OLIVIA BLAKE WHAT DO YOU MEAN 13 PILLS A DAY WHO PRESCRIBED YOU 13 PILLS

shower well!!
If I disappear I probably passed out (again)

Nah fr I’ve been there a ton of providers atp and these have definitely been the best I’ve worked with so far across the board and it really does make a huge difference. Cuz I like to do my own research too which is both good and bad but they still listen so fjfbjfnfnfnf

ok brb gtg shower!!

AJSHDGSAHJDG FRL .... sometimes im like nah that song too sappy but then other times im like HUUUUUUU T___T

yes resilience! that's the correct term, thank you! yes it does... people like to see quick fixes and improvements. i think that's understandable. a lot of mental health has negative stigma so voicing symptoms is a difficult convo to bring up. being honest and open in general i think isn't easy to begin with. also glad your providers are seemingly listening to what you're saying, bless healthcare workers who really listen.

i cry just from the songs and then you watch the drama and it's WORSE and you're like HELLO?????
Other songs too though like I sometimes just look up "emotional" or "angsty" music on YouTube when writing

nah kdrama OSTs really be on something sometimes lmao

I'll openly admit that it does take a bit of...I'd like to say resilience rather than strength, to stick to it. Especially when it feels like you're doing all this work and nothing is getting better (which happens more often than people will admit). I also have had a really bad habit of severely downplaying my symptoms which is something I actually STILL working on but I'm being much more open. So on one hand it may seem like I've gotten worse but the truth is I'm just being more vocal, especially with my providers, so that I can get better care/help. It's only been a few months of me doing that so idbfjfnfnfnf

thank you to kdrama osts like damn some of them are actually so heartbreaking hhhhhhhhhhhh

SDASDHJG THANK YOU ;; YOU CAN!! (maybe not this instant, but i'm sure you can!)

you're really strong for sticking it through, especially for so long. definitely a sign of strength.
somebody told me depression / mental health conditions there's no cure? it's a chronic condition, just have to manage lifelong.

LITERALLY I SAW YOUR REPLY AND DISNEY SIGHED AND TEARED UP CUZ IDK IF I CAN EVEN DO THAT RN BUT I WANT TO DJFBFNNFNF

Takes time is an understatement fr djfbjfnfnf
I've been on this journey on and off since I was a teen but it's only been the last...3 or 4 years? that I've been doing it diligently and consistently. I went from being over diagnosed and over medicated (with like 13 pills a day) to now only taking 2 so there's definitely been improvement. And I'm more stable now than I've been in my whole life but there's definitely still a lot more to be done. It's one of those things that personally I think never truly ends it just gets easier. But it's by no means a straight line it's definitely up and down, but those ups and downs aren't as extreme as they used to be.

✵ olivia blake〘ɪᴠʏ〙ʳᵉⁿᵘ 1 minute ago Reply
oh I’m barely in the chats, they get WAY too fast for my fried brain lately. If I’m in a chat it’s during the slow periods when barely anyone is there. But I’m mostly in tags with like one or two people, or just on walls/pms. And again I keep it to like…only a few people otherwise I get overwhelmed :sob:

But I do lowkey miss having to use google docs to type up my replies lmao

thisssssss

still good to hear! mental health for sure a thing that definitely takes time. the fact that you're even trying to do something regularly and have the idea to get back on track is still something to applaud for.

oh I’m barely in the chats, they get WAY too fast for my fried brain lately. If I’m in a chat it’s during the slow periods when barely anyone is there. But I’m mostly in tags with like one or two people, or just on walls/pms. And again I keep it to like…only a few people otherwise I get overwhelmed :sob:

But I do lowkey miss having to use google docs to type up my replies lmao

I’m doing a little better? Still not 100% I’ll be honest about that but definitely way better than I was even a few days ago
The new meds are definitely working, and I’ll be started adhd meds soon so that’ll help too hopefully.

not nonaus tho**

not nonaus there... the constant chatting is still too much work for me ><"

sdjhgadhjsg no judgement there i'd do the same LOL

i feel like it's a good time right now to maybe work on that! cuz i see a lot of fantasy rps going up and people having muse for them

:( i hope you're doing better now
but for sure gotta tc of yourself first then

Yeah me too. I've been kinda hiding in like...2 nonaus and some privates where I haven't had to do much thinking djfbjfnfnfn
But I highkey miss the character building and world building fr

Got sick; then was depressed, then got sick again, then got my meds changed, so it's been one thing after another that's had me feeling blah too so I felt that

That's why my fantasy rp been sitting in drafts still :clown:

i think slowly it's coming back? seen more blog posts this past week