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@❛ b. christopherʰʸᵈʳᵃ you sound absolutely insane right now and my feline hates you… /whispers enough for you to hear/
But you’re right… but I just… my ing god he’s in my dreams… I think I wake up to him almost every morning and it’s driving me insane…

@❛ l. felixᶜᵃᵗ ʸᵒᵏᵃⁱ I know it sounds crazy right now and very impossible...but you will be okay eventually.
It just takes time. Let your feelings out, process how you feel. And learn to forgive yourself

@❛ b. christopherʰʸᵈʳᵃ I know it wasn’t.. I know him and that’s what makes it worse… I cant forgive myself right now that I hurt someone so much.. and in turn… /I scoff, sniffling/ I can’t see myself without him…

@❛ l. felixᶜᵃᵗ ʸᵒᵏᵃⁱ I'm sure it wasn't easy for him to let go...and it won't be easy for you either. It'll take time. Maybe it seems like it was easier for him because months have passed already.
*Pets your hair*
Don't force yourself to interact with him or his lover. It would be ideal if you got to a point where you could but you really don't have to. You need to heal first.

@❛ b. christopherʰʸᵈʳᵃ I hate everything… /I say with an extremely tired voice. More tears were coming in/
He’s forgiven me but I.. I can’t seem to let go like he has…
/my head lowered on your lap more as I started to lightly sob/
I can’t even… talk to his new lover because I-It feels like my heart is in a vice grip. And it *hurts*. Everything *hurts*.

@❛ l. felixᶜᵃᵗ ʸᵒᵏᵃⁱ *looks down at you and frowns a little, caressing your head*
Poor lix...
*Gently brings you to lay on my lap, rubbing your back*
It's okay to let it out.

@❛ b. christopherʰʸᵈʳᵃ Felix's eyes barely opened above his pillow at the sudden movement of his bed and a familiar voice. No, no he wasn't okay. And that was evident when his head lifted up and the skin around his eyes were irritated from crying. "No..." He spoke, barely.

@❛ l. felixᶜᵃᵗ ʸᵒᵏᵃⁱ *walks in, peeking over at you as I make my way to my bed*
Hey lix
*Drops myself onto your bed, not enough energy to climb up to my bed*
You okay?

Felix crawls into his bed, not even attempting to take his clothes off. He just felt so... empty. He's never felt like this in a long while and it was foreign to his body until now. He couldn't do it. He couldn't face either of them without his heart feeling lashings from a simple stare. Everything felt hollow. And Felix was tired.