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"Thank you so much for listening to me I actually felt heard you know." He said smiling he was feeling so much better. Maybe he could come to Felix for advice but there are somethings he will keep to himself.

"I felt like I only talk about myself. What's going on with you if you want to tell me about yourself." He knew he was a yokai and really beautiful yokai, but he doesn't know him well at all.

"That's the spirit~" Felix cheered softly. "Thank you for opening up to me. I'm okay with taking advice whenever you need it, yeah?"

"I'll be careful with my body don't worry"

He said as he looks at his sketchbook. He protects his body with his life. He tenses up a bit at the part he was worried people would take advantage of him to make him give in to them. He had learned to say no easily and he could handle it. He looked at him and nodded.

"I understand I no longer won't let people take advantage of me I will say no when i have too." he was very strong willed and know he can do this and make sure that everything goes smoothly.

"Try everything that you can as long as it's safe for your body." He nodded. "I'm sure you'll fall into the groove of things. And please be careful doing these things online, a lot of people want these things for free and you gotta say no."

HyunJin thought about what he likes and what he can handle then he spoke.

'Well, I do like the bigger and wider toys even though i use the normal size toys. I always fantasize about using something bigger I get really excited thinking about it; I will look into both I know Bad dragon because of my ex i heard of lovegasm but never tried their products.

He grabbed his sketch and on a new page made a list of everything he was going to need. He wonders about his aesthetic he should go for or color scheme he wanted. He might do a black and white theme since he like those colors.

"Ok I think I have my plan to make this work, Hopefully I don't get cold feet and decide not to do it because I do tend to start something and never finish but this is something I really want to do."

He said feeling pump and ready to start this new chapter of his life it will be hard since he has trust issues still but that won't stop him from doing what he wants to do anymore.

"Wellll..." Felix thought about it. "What are you into? And what can you handle? Can you handle big things? Bad dragon and lovegasm is really good."

"Thanks, I might need,it and I might have to go shopping. Luckily, I been saving up money for this without my ex knowing of course I should have enough for a complete set up and other things of course. What are the best toys to get I only have one it's the standard one, but I might want to explore other options."

He said excitedly. He couldn't wait to get started. Hyunjin like toys but he always uses the normal ones. He wants to go out his comfort zone and try different toys. He not scared to try new things at all and was super excited.

Felix was shocked at how that worked. Even his own heart did a little flutter. Hyunjin was just totally gorgeous.

"See!" The feline said with excitement, ears to the skies. "I told you it would work. Now you just have to practice, and if you need anything, I have a lot of knowledge of toys."

"So, you need a good PC just like everyone else. But the most important thing is your lighting. You need a good ring light and a portable camera to get alllll the good angles." He giggled.

To Hyunjin that sounds embarrassing but he does that all the time.So he thought eye contact shouldn't be that hard. He looks at Felix, but he was starting to feel awkward looks down quickly. put move his hand behind his ear and look back at him. It actually works.

"Wow that actually worked. I'm shocked not going to lie." He said smiling. He actually felt that was the eye contact he had in a long time. Now he was feeling confident about this. He felt he can do this and not be afraid or awkward about this.

"Thanks for the advice but now I have to go look for the supplies to do a stream like that. I have some knowledge about computers but like I don't know what to get to do a stream." Hyunjin felt like he doesn't know much about technology. He seems like really cool setups for streams and felt like he wants something cool but has his special touch.

"Some people really like shy people, but it comes in handy when you can rebound." He said with a nod. "Example. When you look at me and you want to look away, just do it for a moment, maybe put some hair behind your ear, and then look back. It gets them every time."

Hyunjin covered his face with his hands. He thought he couldn't get any redder well he did. He spoke.

"Thanks, but I always had a hard time with eye contact. I can barely look at you Felix."

Hyunjin eye contact is almost nonexistent but he willing to try to work on that. He felt confident about his body, so he had a chance of doing a stream really well, but his eye contact must improve.

"How can I look at people without getting embarrassed or awkward? I do tend to make things really embarrassing awkward when I make eye contact for longer than a few seconds." He spoke. eye contact was his biggest flaw but was it a fear to look at people though. He had thought about this for a long time.

"Well, first things first." He started. "Confidence." He nodded. "Is key. Whether you fake it or not. You fake it until you make it." He smiled. "Eye contact should be the first thing you work on, beautiful."

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Hyunjin looked at Felix.He was shocked that he thought he was even pretty.Hyunjin didn't know how feel about that. Then he thought about how he was going with this thing.

"I have some experience with work, but it's been stale lately i wanted to I guess spice it up with my art but, I won't do art all the time. My ex thinks i have a pretty face and I should do only fans. I wasn't sure because I was self-conscious about my eyes, but my trust issues with my art making me not want to do the stream."

He said while feeling conflicted.He didn't know what to do and wanted some advice.

"Any advice would be great I just need a way to start." He said looking at him but looks down after a few secs he can't keep eye contact for long.

"They're unique. And you're welcome. You're very beautiful, Hyunjin." He smiled, taking in the other with no issue. Their next question was a shocker. It made Felix blink.

"Well, that was random." He chuckled, running a hand through his dark hair. "And you've come to the right person." Felix nodded. "I actually have experience in work, but I'm not sure if it's /exactly/ what you're looking for. Do you want to look y as you do your art work?"

Hyunjin took out his compact and look at his eyes. Their light pink with a hint of red he was an albino ferret he felt like his eyes were ugly since his ex always said they were. He smiled knowing that someone like his eyes.

"Thanks for liking my eyes I started to hate them because of my eyes but their hope for this world. Its a dark place for me right now but I see light at the end of the tunnel"

He said as he put his compact away. He felt a little more confident about himself put his sketchbook on the table Infront of him and look at his hands especially his nails. Every now and again he would paint them their black and white for now. He spoke.

"Hmm my polish is chipping time to redo them oh and question I want to start doing an y artist streams how should I go about it."

He asked curiously .

"Why would someone say something so hurtful to you like that?" He asked. "Especially someone that, I assume, claimed to love you?" He would never understand why people would do such a thing. Deliberately hurting others they claim to love.

"And please, don't worry about that. Your eyes are beautiful, by the way." He smiled. His own were a crystal blue with green sharding around his slitted pupils.

Faced red Hyunjin was embarrassed he open himself readily to Felix. He didn't mean to do that he was trying to be cautious but with Felix something about him gave Hyunjin hope that not everyone like his ex. He spoke up

"I know i was supposed to take it slow but with you um I guess you giving me hope that not everyone like my ex."
He smiled though he was looking down he still wasn't good at eye contact; He was never good and looking people in the eye he felt self conscious about his eyes.Then he spoke again.

"I'm sorry for not looking at you when I talk I can't really looked people in eye I always felt self-conscious about my eyes. My ex said he hated my eyes."

He said looking at his sketchbook. That was the only part of him that he hated was his eyes. He feels like if he could change them he could feel even more confident.

"i think you always should limit who you trust. That's also life. Sadly, you cannot trust everyone. But that doesn't mean to give up trust entirely." He nods, ears twitching. "I'm sorry that happened to you. Truly. Your work is always important to your heart and for someone to take advantage of that is totally vile."

"Not everyone is vile like that. So give some people a chance." Felix smiled. "Like me. You're giving me a chance and you opened up enough to tell me what your sorrow is."

Hyunjin listen to him, and he understands.
" I can move on but its trust issues someone stole my hard work from me those paintings took me a week or longer to finished. I'm scared to trust. I gotten over love i have no love for them anymore it's the trust I'm having a hard time with."

he said looking down. He feels like if he let his guard down it will happen again. He wanted to believe Felix he really did but was afraid. Then he spoke again.

"I will try to trust people again but limited who I trust." He said confidently.

"Moving on his hard in general. But when you do, it'll be more rewarding than anything." He smiled, sitting down next to Hyunjin with enough space between them. "It's painful, but necessary. We can't just be afraid of everything all the time after something hurtful happens, you know?"

Hyunjin thought Felix was right. He had to move on, but it was so hard to trust people. Then he spoke.

"I understand but its so hard I been with them for a long time. If you want too you can sit next to me ."

He said looking at his sketchbook. He felt Felix would harm or steal from him, so he gave him a chance.He looked up at Felix he was a really handsome man so much better looking than his ex. He gave a genuine smile. He wasn't feeling as awkward anymore he felt like he can relax a tiny bit

The felines ears lowered. Hyunjin’s emotion was… souring. And rapidly. Felix wished there was something he could do, but it almost seemed like they were in the same boat, emotionally. “I understand…” he said softly with a nod. “It’s hard to recover from such pain..”

He then said. “But.. in life, you must move on with it. It doesn’t just take a day, or a week. It takes time. But as long as you change and love all the same, you will be fine…” Felix smiled. “May I… sit next to you?”

"Only the trustworthy ones "He said in sad voice. He doesn't want to remember his past, but he simply can't help it. This hurt him dearly. He saw Felix getting up and coming over it made him nervous as he got closer and notice his hand. It was a long time since he touches another person. Hyunjin slowly brought his hand closer holding the other hand. His hand was soft, He slowly move his hand. Hearing that part of meet somewhere worth your heart I was numb to that I spoke.

"Hmm love more like someone can easily use you, steal from you and just throw you away like yesterday trash." He spit like venom, yet he was trying not to cry he didn't want to show tears. He felt use, and no one believe him when told people that his ex-stole his paintings, realized what he said he stop and spoke again.

"I'm sorry i i just I'm going through something right now and that just came out I'm truly sorry." he said wipe his eyes trying to smile again through the pain.

“Hyunjin.” The feline repeated with a smile. “It’s nice to meet you Hyunjin.” He said with a nod. “It’s always exciting to meet new people at the COLLARS Mansion.” Felix then proceeded to get up, the covers moving on their own to slide off of him. When he got to his feet, he started to fix his mess of black hair.

“I hope you enjoy your time here and meet someone worth your heart..” A lonely smile rose on the males lips as he approached them. He held his hand out for them to shake. “Have you settled in well yet?”

HyunJin turn the page of his sketchbook. He finally got a name to the pretty face he saw Felix his name. Mm he never heard of that name before it's a really nice name. He looked up at him trying to keep eye contact he spoke.

"I'm Hyunjin nice to meet you too Felix." He said then decided to stop sketching close his sketchbook. He thought about it and he should be so negative about trusting people, but he will be more careful, and he will keep his paintings under locked and key to make sure it never happens again.

Felix nodded. The drawing must look beautiful then. But he didn’t want to pester them further with how even more nervous they were being. Was Felix doing something wrong? No, don’t think so negatively. They’re new. It’s probably because of the change of environment.

“What’s your name, by the way?” He smiled a little wider. “I’m Felix, it’s nice to meet you.”

"its nothing much just a flower and." Hyunjin stopped midsentence when he looks under the flower and saw he was starting to draw the other person. His face started to heat up cheeks redden. What was Hyunjin thinking of just unconsciously started drawing the other person.He was truly embarrassed he spoke up.

"Um j-just a flower nothing e-else." he was starting to panic why did he started drawing the stranger he didn't even know who he was. He forgot about the what the other said about the remote control. He tried to calm himself down and it was slowly working.

“Oh…” He shifted in his spot a little bit. “You aren’t bothering me. I promise.” He smiled as much as he could. His eyes looked around for the remote. He lifted his hand to make it float and it slowly made its way to the new collar in the room.

“You can use the remote if you’d like. I’m not exactly watching anything…” he said with a little smile, looking at their sketchbook again.

“May I… know what you’re sketching? I draw sometimes myself…”

Hyunjin hear his voice again. It did something to him, but his anxiety makes it difficult to understand what he was feeling. He lookup but made sure not to make eye contact with him." it's.......ok..." he said looking at his drawing and the quick glance he was beautiful. After hearing the question, he spoke.

"I'm new yes, and I'm just doing random sketching I wasn't trying to bother you." He spoke. He felt kind of awkward since it been some time he saw another person, but from his presence he felt like a nice person and wouldn't do what his ex-did to him.