Rooftop

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@Lay the Awesome Yoonjo nodded and abruptly stood up. She bowed and spoke "I should go now... thank you for your hospitality." And with that she turned and started to the door.

@Yoonjo Lay chuckled and patted her head softly. "Don't worry about it. It's just tears." He smiled softly and tipped her chin back up. "Really, it's fine. DO you feel batter now?"

@naeun(Well would YOU want a 47yo to hug you? js xD)

@♕ naeun (get out of here naeun
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@Lay (OTL)
Yoonjo's sobs neared to a end. Her breathing turned from pants and gasps of pain to slow, heavy breaths. She released her hold from Lay and frowned "I'm sorry" she mumbled "I made your shirt all wet." She rubbed her eyes lightly and bowed her head in apology.

( He wouldn't want a 47 year old to hug him...no, just no.

sweating profusely. )

@Yoonjo (idk either man, I'm kinda at a loss here Dx)
Lay patted her back lightly trying to soothe her. The tears were beginning to stain his shirt, but he tried to ignore it. "Hey, it's okay. You don't need to cry." He tried to make her feel better, but he wasn't sure if he was doing such a great job.

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@Lay (annnnnd im likie i haz no clue what to say)
Yoonjo started crying, she didn't know why. The tears ran down her face and she clutched onto Lay like a baby, she didn't know what she was doing. All she knew is that she need somebody to hold her.

@Yoonjo Lay was surprised by the sudden hug, but he accepted it. He wasn't one to turn down a hug, no matter the occasion. Well that was a lie. He wouldn't want a 47 year old to hug him...no, just no.

@Lay Yoonjo blinked out of her reverie and looked at Lay, she suddenly missed the warmth of his touch like on the rooftop. Without thinking she leaned down to hug the older and closed her eyes. Even though after she had hugged him her mind started sending out signals to separate herself as quickly as possible but her heart told her to ignore it. And she did.

@Yoonjo Lay could see that Yoonjo was thinking deeply, and decided not to interrupt her. He was unaware that she was thinking about him in that way, but he felt a little sad to know that she couldn't find anything to make her happy. He hoped he could help her, she seemed so lost, it was the least he could to. Not to mention there has got to be someone out there to make her feel happier, there is someone for everyone right?

@Lay Yoonjo looked at Lay with teary eyes, his words resonating in her head. Her lips parted slightly and her eyelids fluttered open and close. But she didn't know what would make her happy again, "find something that can keep you happy... instead of pretending to be..." she whispered softly. She set her cup down, fearing that her shaking hands would break it and looked at Lay again. Maybe he could, no. She pushed the thought out of her head but it still lingered stubbornly at the back of her mind. She repeated the words he spoke and kept thinking, but the thought still was there, she didn't know what would make her feel more happy to put it plainly, other than him.

@Yoonjo Lay leaned closer to hear the small whispered words. He looked into her eyes, knowing that whatever had happened in her past was bad enough to where she wouldn't mind jumping off a building. Since they had sat on different chairs and couches, Lay had to get up and walk to the chair she was in. He lowered himself so that he was looking up at her and took one of her hands softly. "Maybe you don't need to go back to the old happy self, but find a new one. Maybe you need to find something that can keep you happy instead of pretending to be." He said softly, it wasn't much, but he knew she needed to hear something positive at the moment.

@Lay Yoonjo looked at Lay and opened but closed it. The words were on her tongue but she could not bring herself to say something. She took a deep breath and the only thing that could come out was a desperate sounding whisper but she kept on speaking anyways "You know when I was near the rooftop? I... The thing that was going though my head was if it would hurt falling to the ground... And I know I'm not supposed to think like that, but I never even thought about that until now... It had been years from when that happened and I thought I was stronger, happier, more confident now but when I stood out there the image, the personality I tried to use... The happy carefree sweet tooth lover. It dispersed and then I realized that even if I wanted to shed that image I can't because it was a part of me and... No matter how hard I try, I found that even if it's just a small part of me... It's weak and tender and that part of me I don't know how to control it... I don't know how to go back to my happy self..." And a small tear escaped her eye and landed on her cheek.

@Yoonjo Lay nodded and sipped his tea again, noticing how nervous Yoonjo looked. Her hands were even shaking slightly. He set his drink down and leaned towards her, trying to read the look on her face. "Yoonjo...are you okay?" He knew he had asked before, but this time he was really worried. She looked distressed, like something was on her mind that she really needed to let go of, he just hoped she could do so.

@Lay Yoonjo nodded silently while mumbling "I see." She brought her cup to her lips again and thought more on what she should do. She wanted to tell him but, she had no clue when. Would he believe her? Would he understand? Would she finally find a person that could understand her or was it all an illusion she was creating to protect herself. Her eyebrows knit together in thought and she brought down the cup from her lips after taking a good long drink. But even she had just drunk, still felt dry and her hands trembled lightly.

@Yoonjo Lay sipped his tea for a moment, trying to think back to when he started. "Well to be honest. I really can't remember." He chuckled and looked over at her. "You see, I always took pictures when I was in high school. Even if they were just on my phone. So I really can't say when it was that I started."

@Lay "I see..." Yoonjo nodded lightly, "it is very pretty at night.". She mused with a soft smile. "How long have you been doing photography?" She asked politely. She really thought he was a good photographer even though she's barely seen the pictures he had taken. But the two he showed her was enough, it captured what she felt real emotion and not just a scene but a display of emotion, a display of a refection of what the scene was she felt trying to tell her. She liked that very much about him.

@Yoonjo Lay listened, nodding when he needed to. He smiled at the nickname, he thought it was cute, although it didn't seem to fit the personality that she was showing to him. "Well, I like photography, as you have already figured out, And I like to spend time outside, especially at night." He smiled, thinking of all the times he spent on the rooftop just lying under the stars. Sometimes it felt more like home than his apartment.

@Lay Yoonjo looked over at Lay again when she heard him speak. "Lots of my friends call me the queen of sweets... I think its because of my fondness of sweet things." her soft voice voiced. She felt kind of embarrassed about this nickname but she learned to accept it because it truly reflected her as a person. She set her gaze back down on her cup of tea and drank more of it. She spoke once more her voice echoing in the air "How about you? I don't know much about you either..."

@Yoonjo Lay smiled and nodded, following her to the living room and found a seat on the couch. He pulled his knees up onto the cushions and sipped his tea, humming happily at the taste. He looked up just in time to see Yoonjo turning quickly away. He tilted his head, wondering if she was being shy, "Okay so since I hardly know you, tell me something about you." Lay smiled, hoping to regain her attention so that she would lose the depressed daze she seemed to be stuck in. Maybe if he got her talking about things it would help.

@Lay Yoonjo nodded "Sure, that sounds good." She wandered over to where he was featuring and took a seat on once of the chairs. She delicately sipped her tea and relished in the taste and in the warmth of the cup it brought to her hands. She looked over at Lay once more, and quickly turned her head away and sipped her tea again. She then set her gaze unknowingly at the cup watching the warm liquid swirl around, her mind's thoughts and memories became a daze once more. Her eyes never left her cup and one thought popped into her mind suddenly, keep dreaming Shin Yoonjo... Keep on dreaming.

@Yoonjo Lay smiled back at her and sipped his own tea, humming at the warmth it brought. Looking around he sighed, he should have cleaned up a little better, there were books and papers cluttering up the shelves and tables. "Well would you like to sit down? It might be more comfortable than standing." He chuckled and gestured towards the living room, he was still curious about what was making her so sad, but decided to wait a bit longer before he asked again.

@Lay "People, they say I look the nicest when I smile." She couldn't help but chuckle but with a hint of bitterness, she never considered herself pretty. She smiled and quietly thanked him when he brought the tea, she took the cup and blew on the top on the tea to cool it down. She brought the cup to her lips and took a tiny sip, it was still hot but not enough to burn. She turned to Lay "The tea's nice." She mumbled unsure of what else to say. She was never this shy around others after that happened, why did she feel this way again, she had no clue.

@Yoonjo Lay was busy making the tea and only glanced over his shoulder once, seeing her still smiling made him happy. "And who is they?" He asked, wondering what she could possibly be talking about. He finished making the two cups of tea and brought one over to where Yoonjo was standing, careful to approach her from the front this time, and held the cup out for her, "careful, it's hot."

@Lay "That's what they all say." Yoonjo said masking a small sigh. She turned back to the photo and let her eyes trace over the captured scene with a sense of longing, but also a sense of hope and maybe even joy. Her heart warmed at the scene but then the thought of the memories she had remembered at the rooftop dampened her mood again. But she mustered a smile again, Lay thought she should smile more, she would try to smile like she did before, to bring herself a thin cover of delusion that everything was alright. But it wasn't in her life, maybe in someone else's but not her's. And the smile on her face became a hint duller.

@Yoonjo Lay was surprised when he Yoonjo turned and ran into him, he reached out a hand to steady her. "No don't be sorry. I shouldn't have stood so close." He smiled at her, remembering the smile that had been on her face moments before, "You should smile more often you know." He chuckled and walked back to the kitchen to check on the heating water and pulled out two cups for them.

@Lay Yoomnjo, unaware that Lay had walked near her and nodded. 'I love it... It's beautiful." She whispered loud enough for him to hear. A smile appeared on her face and her eyes curled into haft moons again. She turned and with a small gasp she found herself face to face with Lay, bumping into him. "Didn't know you were here, sorry." She muttered in embarrassment and took a step back.

@Yoonjo (lmao it's totally fine xD I will do /something/ with it)Lay nodded, "Yeah I do." He reached up to the top shelf, missing the box by a hair. He frowned to himself, He didn't want to climb on the counter, but he also didn't want to make an idiot of himself. So he hopped awkwardly and tipped it with his finger, it was close enough to grab now, and Lay did so happily. He glanced over his shoulder to find Yoonjo looking at one of his photographs. "You like that one? That was one of my first photos that I got published." He put the water on to boil and walked over to her, looking at the photo with her. "I took it in the park down the street."