✽ in every lifetime, i have loved you.

in every lifetime, i have loved you.

i have had you, and i have lost you.

in every lifetime before this and in every lifetime after,
i have held you, and i have let you go.

i have seen your face before.
i have kissed those soft lips.
i have held those tired hands.

i know you. and you know me too.

you come into my life easily. then leave just as quickly.
and in every lifetime, i am unable to hold the weight of losing you.

so i leave too.

in the sharp impale of a dagger.
in the swinging, swallowing waves.
in your eyes, i lose myself.

in every lifetime, i crave us enough to hold on.

but in this lifetime,

i wish for us to stay. i want us to stay.

i want to let go and be held.

i want to look into your eyes and know with indubitable certainty,

that you'd want me enough, in every lifetime, to hold on to me too.

© 2024.

and in a similar fashion..

running my fingers through your hair, so years after i have gone,
when you are laying alone in the quiet of the darkness, you will still feel them there.

kissing your lips, breathing air into your life, so years later after i am gone,
you will suffocate from the absence of me.

speaking poems to you, singing you goodnight every single night, so after i have gone,
the nights will haunt you with the memory of a voice that no longer sings to you.

if i cannot have you, the ghost of me will.

© 2024.