Well everyone else has one so I want one too. /huffs xD The different sized pictures in this post are pissing me off but i don't care enough to fix them. i'm tired.
Um um...tiest year ever. Was my graduation year. My senior year got ED up by my home life, threw me off my fast track to college. Parents got divorced. My dad's the biggest I know. My horse and I experienced every injury you can think of. I now live in a ty house with mom's boyfriend and his two ing snot nosed kids. I miss my beautiful property, the green grass and trees, the miles of riding/hiking trails, the creek, the blackberries, my almost tame raccoon Linh and her five adorbz babies...It was so nice and pretty...Now I live in nasty looking oak trees, sticky clay mud, and depression. I hate it.
Pictures taken at the old house that I miss....
My raccoon and one of her fluffy babies
More pics from the old place.
Oh yeah and 2/3 of my cats got eaten by coyotes....Those two up there where them...Marshmallow and Squirrel :( RIP.
And while we're talking about depressing things, my dog who I have had since I was nine also died. She was a Great Dane named Luna and she was the best dog we ever could have asked for....I cry about her all the time....She was old but she bloated and did not make it...
Graduation...ugh. Probably the only good thing of the year. Check out my stuff guys, it's k-pop like...
Brittney (12shadesofgay) and I had matching outfits made.
I wish I had pics of us in our outfits...They are still on my camera and I can't be bothered to take them off. We glitter glued white skinny jeans with kpop symbols and our shirts had our names w/ our ultimate biases on the back. I really wanted to do this because through everything, everytime I wanted to quit, something about these ridiculous, asian men and women yanked me back by the collar of my shirt and said "Hey, stupid, you don't want to die, you want to keep going remember?"
So...yeah.
Umm...I guess I did break a time record this year with my best girl, Selena. I know it doesn't really mean much to you guys, but it means a lot to me. I ran on the biggest barrel racing pattern in the world and had an amazing roadtrip with these girls I'll never forget.
Leaving high school also meant leaving Equestrian Team...One of the hardest things I've ever had to do, leaving behind a district of girls and boys who I practically grew up with, knowing I would never come back to spend those three day weekends competing, playing games, and being a family together. I made our school's team, and stuck with it even when I was the only one there. I was proud to ride with green and white for our school colors, even if it meant wearing a ty helmet...lol.
Our senior recognition decorations on our pony's lol
Going into the ring at State, knowing it would be my last time as a member of Oregon High School Equestrian...I was crying during my run and trying not to show it.
But I guess...I learned a lot. I don't know. I learned not to trust anybody. I learned that life is too short not to take it by the horns and make it mine. I learned that lives are more important than anything, and I will do anything to save one, no matter how far away they live. I learned that drinking doesn't fix anything. I learned that sometimes happens and you have to roll with the punches, even if it hurts. And finally I learned that I'm a lot stronger than I think I am...But at the same time, a lot weaker too.
I know you guys don't understand this sometimes but when I look at my horse, she's the one keeping me grounded. K-pop idols too. They are a strange as combination, but they work for me. I look at Selena and I see myself mirrored in her. Every little quirk, every attitude problem, every hug, every small movement. She's just like me. I can see it in my biases too. We have similar traits, similar ways of addressing people and problems, similar ways of thinking. We may not be perfect, but in my mind we're a team.
And with that, I leave you with a couple pictures of my ultimate bias, Yesung. He's in the military right now as you know, but he kept me hopeful and happy for so many years that it's time I gave him proper recognition.
So yeah...I guess this is just a way of saying OFF 2013. I DON'T EVER WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE AROUND HERE AGAIN.
and haiii 2014 as long as you're better than your overly obnoxious sibling we'll get along famously.
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