freaking the out.

okay so i'm really scared guys.

going to the dentist by myself in the morning.

I have the worst dental anxiety you can imagine I am literally in tears thinking about it and i shake and completely freeze up.

my dentist is a condescending . she always just looks at me like i'm worthless and tries to push me into braces all the time because my teeth are super ing crooked but i can't even handle cleaning ok i can't ing do braces

i don't even know what i have to take to the dentist. like do i need insurance? they know i have insurance...do i need to show the card? I've tried googling it but it's ing unhelpful.

I have like, zero money, I'm out of checks, idek what kind of money is on my debit card. i can't afford to go to the dentist but my mom is making me. 

My teeth aren't great ok. no one in my family has good teeth. they are crooked and just ing ugly. i brush and floss and mouthwash and all that but i can't fight genetics. and my dentist acts like it's all my fault and like i'm a ing failure at life.

oh yeah and I have to be there at seven am so that means I have to get up at 4:30 or so because I live so ing far away, and I have work immediately after, so I am going to go to work in a bad mood.

I normally take calming meds before I go because I literally can't function but I can't take them because I can't drive when I'm drugged up like that.

I'm so scared. I've never gone by myself before. Guys what do I do ;-;