Everyone please don't worry about what I was saying last night. Steph and Lore, thank you for you kind comments and my lovely friends who PMed me (Including my lovely little brother <3) please don't think anything of the post. I was just a little frustrated and late at night things can get a little out of hand. I am not a danger to myself anymore, and have not been for several years. I'm just at that stage in my life where I don't know what I'm doing or where I'm going, but this is the part everyone goes through at some point.
I wanted to explain something about my job a little bit, since I said something on Skype last night that ALSO managed to set off a couple of you into fits of worrying (Which I totally appreciate but lol guys really)
I work with horses. I am an instructor. My horse and I are a seperate entity, we are not the same as the horses I train.
I train horses to be like this: Click 4 The Badasses
My mare and I, while we HAVE done that, have decided that we are better as a team as barrel racers. So we do that instead.
I spoke a lot about the things that have happened to me, the times I've gotten hurt, and the times I've seen others get hurt. I showed some people THIS video, which is also another thing I do. I deal with problem horses. (Because the young stupid kids are the best at that, before they grow older and develop a sense of self preservation). Let me make one thing clear though: While, yes, anything can happen...I'm not gonna ing sustain a massive head trauma or break a limb everytime I go to work, Loool. The horses I have are generally NOT that aggressive because I can handle them properly, and I have been around them long enough to know that if they even hint at aggression I have to do something about it. I've been in many situations chasing a horse backwards because they've attempted to take my ear off. Generally, they stop that after the first try.
So yeah. I'm not gonna overdose and the horses aren't going to kill me.
So stop worrying. lol
On a side note I do wanna share this video of me and my horse during our high school days. Now THIS time in my life was when I was overcoming my suicide issues, and if it wasn't for Selena (aka the biggest little pain in the ever) I don't know what I would have done.
So click here if you care.
I love you guys, don't worry so much. <3
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