It's highkey been a while, and I've been dead to a lot of people, but I've found myself coming back here a lot recently, if only to read past plots and conversations. This website in all gives me a lot of nostalgia, and it's almost hard to believe I've managed to be inactive for so long since I used to boast about how quickly I could reply. But honestly, a lot has changed from summer to now, senior year has given me quite a beating, and for some reason RPR is therapeutic.
I've been roleplaying since middle school, so since I was about 13 years old. Which is a total of five years. It's hard to believe I'm 18 already, and as cliche as it may sound, time has passed by faster than I thought it could. I started out on Facebook, then went to AsianFanFics, and shifted to here. I've met a lot of people through this site, people from all over the world, and I honestly attribute roleplaying as a whole to why I'm such a strong writer today, it taught me creativity, preseverence, and how to turn even the most menial of ideas into full on essays. I'm not sure how many people are still here, or if any of my past friends are here at all, but if you've known me, and we've talked before, just know I remember and cherish those times.
I'm honestly writing like I'm on death bed, but it has been kind of feeling like that lately. Life has had its major ups and downs lately. So it only feels natural to give you guys an update, whether you care or not, especially since the last you heard from me was around 5 months ago.
I've lost family members, I've moved in with a friend, and I've lost two of my closest friends this school year already. I've had to learn the hard way that not everyone will always have your best interests at heart, and that it takes a lot of courage to cut people off, but sometimes it's for the better. If you haven't gotten to your senior year of high school yet, then let me tell you that you'll one day understand that with maturity comes loss, and that it'll hurt but it's only natural. Senior year brings about a lot of realization and awareness, but it'll only be useful in the future.
On the bright note, I will be attending college at a rather high ranking school in the nation. I don't want to give away the name for privacy reasons, but it has only a 10% acceptance rate and while it's usually $70,000 a year, I somehow managed to get a full ride. Which is something that pushed quite a few of my friends away, but I guess if they are driven away by my success, they aren't friends to begin with. So yeah, that's great honestly!
It's wild to think that I'll be graduating soon, it honestly feels like it's still the first semester, but I'm ready to go. I'm ready for a fresh start.
This is honestly a post, but I just wanted to write, as it's always felt like this is a safe place, in which I'm somewhat anonymous, but I still have people who care. I'm not sure of when I'll be back again, but just know that I'm here, occasionally rping through pm, but mostly just lurking. And I know I've left a lot of you hanging, but you're still dear to me whether you know it or not. We have a connection, and that's all that matters.
I would love to hear about how you guys have been doing though, so if you're even vaguely interested, just leave a comment pls.
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