I Believe in Fairy Tales (BAEKTAO) (Para)

@Channie "Ah, yeah.. You have a point there. As usual. Such a smart one you are." Tao chuckled, lightly tickling under Baekhyun's chin. "You got that right. I wouldn't want to put you through this again, no matter how cute puppies are. With any other intimate encounter we have, I'll use some protection so you don't have to worry about it. Or just not knot you. Whichever works." Tao shrugged, leaning back on the chair to let it a yawn.

"Do you two want to take a nap with me? I'm sure you've had a long day." He asked after his yawn subsided. With it came the overwhelming wave of tiredness, spawning the question he'd just asked. A nap wouldn't hurt, right?

@Tre "A lot of children's wish for sibling yes. Usually cause they're lonely or want someone to play with. But the kids who are less socially inclined quite often don't. Too much change, another whole person to deal with." Baekhyun chuckled lightly, curling into the others. "Aemi was so shy, particularly before she met you... And I was as a kid too."

Chuckling at that note Baekhyun snorted. "Sorry Shinhye but you got one shot. If it was a girl she was going to have to deal. I'm more than happy with Aemi, Kovu and whatever this little rascal is gonna be~ that's more than enough for me.

@Channie "I sure hope so.. Usually kids ask for a sibling, right? At least I think so.. Puppies usually come in litters, so maybe not." Tao mumbled, brows furrowing slightly. He put an arm around Baekhyun, leaning down to kiss his cheek.

"And you won't have to worry about getting pregnant again, either. Shinhye's getting her grandson; she got what she wanted." Tao laughed lightly, shuffling a bit so he was lying down with the other. He cuddled him gently, peppering light kisses on his face.

@Tre "For the first week or so whilst I rest yeah, they'll look after things for me. Then I'll teach part time until Mingliu is a little older." Baekhyun nodded before rubbing his hand on the others thigh soothingly. "Aemi will come round, she was always a shy baby, change doesn't sit well with her. In time she'll come around. Until then she just needs to adjust."

With a chuckle Baekhyung shook his head, heaving himself up a little closer. "I'm okay, for now I'm happy with cuddles and the promise that I won't be pregnant for much longer."

@Channie "Maternal leave, right? Shinhye and Taeyeon will take over the school? I'm looking forward to spending time with you three.. I just hope Aemi feels the same." Tao sighed the last bit, still rubbing the other's stomach. He paused after a while and gently touched Baekhyun's cheek, tracing a light line down his jaw.

"Do you need me to get you anything? Maybe a massage?" He asked, realizing he didn't ask earlier. "Maybe something to drink or eat? Ming, are you hungry? Thirsty?"

@Tre "It all depends on how this ones feeling, he's not even born and he does what he wants." Baekhyun chuckled, resting his cheek against Tao's thigh. "We'll just have to see. The plans are flexible for a reason."

Smiling softly at the mention of spending a day together, Baekhyun nodded. "You always know I'd rather have you around. Although not sure it'll improve the work ethic. That won't change until the wedding his out the way and Mingliu is in our arms~"

@Channie "Oh, that's right.. Mothers are strong." Tao frowned lightly, continuing to pet Baekhyun's hair. "But it wouldn't be good to have him the day before, because you'll need to rest. And having him the same day could warrant you having him at any time.. But then again, we don't really decide. He does. Mingliu? Can you wait until after the wedding? We want to see you, we really do, but grow a little stronger inside mama first, okay?" Tao cooed, his words eventually being directed towards their son.

"My day was normal, nothing really special. I would have rather spent it with you, Aemi and Ming, though." Tao rubbed his hand soothingly over Baekhyun's stomach to calm their son down, knowing the size of the baby moving would cause pain or discomfort to him. "Do you want me to come help tomorrow?"

@Tre "On our honeymoon hmm? That might be a nice gift your you but you forget giving birth hurts like a ." Baekhyun chuckles, eyes falling shut contently as the other petted his hair. "I don't know when he'll come... is it amusing how the mother is the only one without an opinion?"

A soft groan escaped Baekhyun as his son started kicking again, the mother huffing because it was just typical his father set him off again when he'd finally seemed to settle down. "You sound like you had a nice productive day, I'm glad... My day was a bit everywhere, all the kids are too excited to focus.. the parents don't help." He chuckled. "But it was still a good day."

@Channie Tao hummed peacefully on the couch, reading a Korean book to brush up on his skills in that language. When Baekhyun came in, he gave him a bright smile and fingers were almost immediately carding through his fiancée's soft locks of hair whilst he listened to him. "If you ask me, I think he'll be born after. On the honeymoon, as a gift. Wouldn't that be nice?" Tao smiled, leaning down to peck Baekhyun's lips. "My day was good. I did some errands, practiced a bit and was reading." He continued, moving one hand over to rest atop Baekhyun's over his stomach.

"Other than your happiness with the contest, how'd the rest of your day go, my beautiful wife-to-be?"

"Tao, you'll never guess what~" Baekhyun mused, shrugging his jacket off before slipping over to the couch. With a soft groan he sat himself down, head in Tao's lap and a hand caressing his stomach. "Not only am I going to look fat and terrible but on our wedding day, the parents in the school house now have bets going about when this little rascal is going to be born. Before after or during the wedding." He snorts lightly before glancing up at the other. "There's prizes and everything..... Even Shinhye is in on it! Aish..." Once he'd finished his little rant, Baekhyun's eyes caught the others and he smiled, lifting a hand to caress Tao's cheek.

"But what about you, how was your day my soon-to-be-husband?"

* rolls dice * gets a 3

* rolls dice * gets a 6

@Tre ( Haha okey dokey, can do ^^ )

@Channie (Dice roll to decide? I think after the wedding would be good, though, cause his birth could be their wedding gift. Born on their honeymoon and all.)

@Tre ( /stalks replies
So they never actually decided lol )

@Tre ( I miss this lot tbh. And I'm happy to do a post but, was Kai gonna be born before the wedding or after. I remember baek complaining he was gonna be fat but not if they changed the date or not... Orl)

It broke his heart, though, due to the fact he wasn't there for Baekhyun's pregnancy and it occurred to him so long ago.. That familiar scent with the foreign one must've been Baekhyun when he was entering his first month of pregnancy. Taeyeon smiled on the side after ushering the united family into her home, shutting the door to block out the cold. "I'll go get us some refreshments while you catch up." And she walked off with a smile, leaving Tao, Baekhyun and their daughter alone for the first time ever.

(WAEEEE I'M CRYING CAUSE OF THEIR BABY OMG. HELP.)

Everything hurt after that day, after he was dragged off and away from Baekhyun and Shinhye, dropped into a cell with just the hypocritical promise of warm blankets and pillows. Tao didn't want that, he didn't want their pity, he just wanted to be by Baekhyun's side again and, even after the bond was forcefully terminated, Tao had fallen incredibly ill soon after. They removed him from the cell, away from the stagnant air of criminal wolves doomed to die slowly on the makeshift deathrow and into the open fields. With a collar. The collar send a mild jolt through his nerves when he tried to escape and Tao learned then that he would probably never be allowed to see Baekhyun again. And he howled each night for him, just to let Baekhyun know that he was still going to bid him goodnight from afar.

It was a strange morning, Tao had recalled. He had got a whiff of something familiar, but also something foreign.. He couldn't pinpoint it and before he could get to the source, it was gone in a struggle of limbs, workers pushing out a figure before Tao could see him or her. And with a wilting tail, Huang ZiTao retreated bck to his dorm where he lay for the rest of the day, resting for tomorrow when his reinitiation would begin.

It wasn't long until something else sprang up, murmurs of a new school opening in the upperclass territory where both wolves and third class humans could attend together and Tao had no doubt it was Baekhyun's doing. But even though he was happy, he was also saddened even more, heart heavy with unshed tears and caged emotions. He wanted to teach with Baekhyun, to be there with him and Shinhye, but now he was locked back up in the center. And it was the last place Tao ever wanted to be. As wolves snuck out with their pups, Tao was forced to stay behind his personal electric fence, snarling at officials who tried to chase after the fleeing wolves who'd always come back at night, carrying their played out puppies by the scruff of their neck. If there was anything Tao could do to help, it was to help them escape at day and back at night unscathed.

Continuing on for nearly two years, the crystal blue in Tao's eyes dampened into a dreadful navy and Tao became known as the silent white raven, wolf form a gleaming guardian at night while his pitch black hair was a warning flag to any scouting wolves. Sensing his selection coming up, Tao quickly trained and taught another wolf who was against the system how to defend the older wolves and growing puppies from getting caught.

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Although her parents wished for her to be a house wife, to perhaps shelter her from the wispy limbs of darkness, Taeyeon managed to do just the opposite. She was picked up by Shinhye one day with a proposition to be trained to run the company her son didn't want to take over. She had agreed and the Center, aware of her change in occupation, scheduled Taeyeon to come pick out a wolf. When the night struck in the concrete room she was instructed to go into, Tao's gleaming fur that cradled moonlight caught Taeyeon's eyes first and with the oath sworn, she and Tao walked out. But he wasn't happy in the least because.. Well, because Taeyeon wasn't Baekhyun.

Taeyeon, however, was happy that she had a wolf somewhat, especially an elite one such as Tao. Even as he seemed disinterested in having her company, lounging around the fireplace in a depressed mood, Taeyeon thought she would at least introduce him to some neighbors. And a friend of sorts. So she invited Baekhyun and his daughter, telling him of the white wolf she acquired and realizing she did something very important. Huang Aemi was her wolf's daughter by Baekhyun, the two forcefully separated before Tao knew he was even going to be a father. It was set then, and when she opened the door, she couldn't help but smile gleefully. Tao, who had accompanied her to the door, stood there in extreme shock as he first took in the sight of the little girl, just before Baekhyun began to speak. In his mind, Tao felt betrayed.. Baekhyun had a daughter after he was taken away? Well, that was- Wait.

And Tao listened to Baekhyun's words, forms splitting between each other as his eyes brightened and glistened to their original ocean blue. The ocean blue his daughter inherited. /His/ daughter. He had became a father. "B-Baekhyun.." Tao stammered, Korean stuttering a little over the single name. He couldn't help himself when he scooped up the little girl, his little girl, and hugged Baekhyun along with her with buckling knees. After two long years, Tao was somewhat reunited with his love and their child, a beautiful little girl they created together. "I missed you so much.. I-I didn't know you were pregnant, I'm sorry! B-But she's so beautiful, look at her.." And Tao looked the little girl in her bright blue eyes, spotting the freckles of hazel and green floating around.

(ITS SO BAD SHOOT ME )

Baekhyun was broken for the next few days, his mind throbbed and his stomach queased, leaving him to throw up every morning for a good week. There was never much in there, Shinhye not managing to get much down him as the young wolf now had a tendency to lock himself in his room, buried in books in a hope to find an answer to freeing Tao... and all the other wolves for that matter. Every night, he would ask Shinhye to tell him his favourite childhood tale, the one of how wolves came to be, and as he slowly got adjusted to more of the civilian laws and his own wolf form. Baekhyun gathered the courage to actually to do something.

It was all pushed back however when Shinhye dropped her pan one morning, bursting into tears and announcing an "Oh God, Baekhyun sweetie you're pregnant."

That upset Baekhyun a lot, and he'd stormed down in a flurry to the center to try and get them to let him in at least just to tell Tao. But as always when he tried, they pushed him away; shoving him the dirt and telling him to leave.

But Baekhyun didn't give up. If he couldn't get Tao out by hand, he would with many. And so with the help of Shinhye, Baekhyun put together his school house, bringing the pups of mistreated wolves in to learn, along with those of the more third class humans. It was a mixed class, wolves and humans learning and playing together. Sometimes even parents came, touched by Baekhyun's story and fascinated by the tale of how wolves and humans used to be. Baekhyun was a building a community, a rebellion against the normal society, and in nine months time; another little girl became a part of it.

Baekhyun had cried when he first saw her, sobbing over the swirls of beautiful blue in her eyes that reminded him so much of her appa. The chinese shaping to her features, the midnight black hair; everything just screamed Zitao and it routed Baekhyun to the ground. Huang Aemi was beautiful.. just like her father.

The pup grew up as a sweet girl; calm, sensible, caring, but so shy at first she cried when anyone came near her. She didn't like new people, or new places, they scared her. And despite all the effort Baekhyun had put into raising her. Brushing her /very/ long black hair each night and pinning it up in the morning, cooking, cleaning. Telling stories. He just couldn't seem to break her out of her shell. He supposed the surrounding rising tensions weren't helping.

The high class humans didn't like their wolves sneaking out to go to Baekhyun's now too small classroom. They didn't like the growing whispers through the third class area either and Baekhyun wondered what he had started... instead focusing on just teaching pups, letting the snowball roll itself.

Two years after however, a wolf brought him news that had him crying before he finished. Tao had been selected, and as heartbreaking as it was that he belonged to someone else now, Baekhyun...and Aemi now had the opportunity to see him.

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Waking up before dawn was not something Aemi was used to and she wasn't happy to be ushered into her coat so early, scarf tucked neatly around her neck and hair clasped in piggy tails by her chin. Her umma seemed on edge too, nervous as he flitted around and made sure they were both ready. Aemi soon was too as she was told "they were going to meet someone important."

Aemi practically slept the whole way there, cuddled up in Baekhyun's arms, clutching her favourite book as Baekhyun trudged to the house through the snow. The older knocked timidly, placing the child down when the door opened and at the sight of new people Aemi hid behind Baekhyun's thigh, clinging.

"Taeyeon?!" Baekhyun's surprised squeak even caught Aemi off guard, the child peeking out to see her noona... and a looming white wolf. Baekhyun's breath caught at the sight of Tao, and tearing up, he bent down, brushing off Aemi and detaching her from his leg. A-aemi? Aemi baby this is you a-appa." smiling weakly, Baekhyun pointed to the white wolf, nudging her towards him. "Go and give him a kiss."

Promises grown and humans bundled safely inside, Baekhyun had never felt more claustrophobic. Not as he paced his bedroom, his eyes long caught the last sight of Shinhye disappearing into the distance. He just felt so useless, caged in his bedroom like a canary who couldn't escape thanks to a hawk. Why must he be so weak! Why was this darkness so tantalizing that he could not even step outside to right a wrong. He swore he could feel tiny wisps of it sneaking under the door, lashing at his arms and cheeks as if to . Taunt him. Remind him of the pain that was eating him from the inside out, and probably killing Tao... especially as rain started to lace his window.

Baekhyun paced and paced, back and forth until he eventually he collapsed in exhaustion by his window, thoughts swirling an chin resting on the window sill. He stung all over from a pain unregistered, his back still ached, and he could feel the pain Tao was and he just wanted to die. For what he had done, he just wanted to fade away into to nothing.

But then there was still the issue that the wolf was his mother... that his father was dead. Baekhyun could only sigh as he rested his forehead against the window, the first few rows of sunlight leaking through the glass and chasing away the whiplash against his cheek. He didn't know what to think anymore, just that when the sun rose, he found himself on the front steps, arms wrapped around himself as he waited for the wolves to return. He decided that he would sort the rest out later, for now just focus on Tao and the oncoming envisionment of him being returned.

Shinhye would eventually pull it off. She had run endlessly through the dark of the forest until she'd heard Tao, nose tracking him through the mud until she found the battered wolf, she'd heaved him up, using her teeth to pull the bloody carcus of his form onto her back. It would have been so much easier if he was human but that wasn't the case and Shinhye was soon moving at a plod, half dragging half carrying Tao through the darkness of the forest. It had taken time, but eventually she'd gotten back to the grounds eventually, stumbling through the pebbles until a Baekhyun fled to help, tripping and sliding the last few metres. Shinhye gave him a look and he quickly replied. "I was only out here after the sun was complete out I swear, okay."

Motions out the way, Baekhyun's eyes soon fell the white wolf, tainted with blood and dirt and the other started to cry again, tangling his fingers and face in the other's fur for a moment, softly crying. "I'm sorry Tao... I'm sorry. I didn't m-mean any of it. I didn't mean it.... Let's get you inside, and patched up" the smaller boy nodded, decided making sure the other survived came before long winded apologies and so with the help of Shinhye, they shuffled to get the wolf inside.

HS_Lu Han: @nH_Park Chanyeol {HIATUS} He was cold, wet and Tao could literally feel an infection forming and spreading through the laceration on his back. It stung and burned as the cold rain pounded against it. Tao couldn't even curl up, the pain so excruciating.. But it's what he deserved, wasn't it? Karma didn't take its time for everyone.

From a bloody rose to a poisonous purple the gash turned, exposed veins and nerves becoming inflamed and Tao could only whimper pathetically as he tried to take his mind away from the pain, Claws dug into the mud, eyes squeezed shut and fangs baring.. Maybe Baekhyun's father was exacting his revenge. It hurt, it was so painful..

Tao howled lowly and, with everything he had, pulled himself out of the mud that was swallowing him whole. If he passed out there, he would drown in the mud or be buried alive. He had to get away from it, but it was everywhere. What could he do? Tao whimpered with each step, pain shooting up his spine with each step.. Somehow, with a bit of miracle working its magic, Tao made it deeper into the forest where the canopy was thick enough to prevent rain from seeping into the ground. Tao collapsed there, limbs numb, and faded away into a dark dream.

He hurt Baekhyun, he hurt Shinhye, he disgraced his elder, broke the code of wolves.. And he murdered someone. Tao was a bad wolf and he couldn't help but firmly believed he deserved to die for his wrongs, his sins.. But that would hurt Baekhyun. Tao just wanted to receive the pain and, because of this, the snow white wolf stayed alive.

nH_Park Chanyeol {HIATUS}: {Soundtrack; NELL - Run}

Baekhyun could feel the movement before he saw it. He screamed before he could hear it. He hadn't meant what he'd said to go through like that, he hadn't meant to be harsh...the only parent he'd known for years was sudden;ly gone...and he was hardly in any state to open his mouth, let alone let out anything true, coherent or even plausible. And now...and now Tao was gone before he could stumble after him.

He tried. By hell he tried, as fast as his jelly-like legs could carry him he flew after the other, stumbling across carpet until his cries met the gaping back door and the silence of the night.

A white blur.

"TAO! Tao! T-tao..." Baekhyun was down to steps when arms pulled him back, dragging him away from the clouds that didn't seem so monsterous when they were clouded with sweeping tears. In fact he wasn't scared, he didn't care if he ran out there and they teared him to shreds. At least he tried, and least he'd be pulled apart and the other could know that he came after him...that he cared enough to.

He didn't mean to hurt him like that.

He didn't mean it...

"TAO! Let go of me you wolf just, Let me go! L-let me go...I have to go, h-have t-to t-t-try..." if Baekhyun hrashed anymore he was pretty sure he was going to conincide whiplash, and he was moving so vigourously that Shinhye was having an awfully hard time keeping him restrained...but thankfully she was a wolf, and Baekhyun really wasn't that capable in the physical compartment, so somehow she mannaged to drag him back inside, her foot pulling the door closed to keep the darkness out. She nuzzled his cheek desperately.

"Baekhyun! Baekhyun, shh baby."
"N-No! T-Tao...TAO!"
"Just calm down a little, you can't go out there! You'll be killed before you get fifty metres...Do you think he'd want that?"
"I-I don't care! I have to t-try...I have to.."
"Baekhyun just stay still a while, I'll go after him okay! But I can't if I can't trust you not to run straight outside as soon as I turn my back! Do you understand!"

Baekhyun didn't, cause he was shattered. His whole aura seemed to change then, from angry desperation to pure shattered emptiness and Shinhye seemed to sense it, her arms enveloping Baekhyun now as opposed to restraining him, holding him as he sobbed in her arms.

A parent for a parent? Is that what they'd granted him? Had his life long wish truly been granted, but only as a trade in.... Baekhyun didn't know, he was still too shocked by the fact the man who raised him was truly dead, and the mother he thought had passed on, was alive.

"U-umma....umma....u-umma..." a sentence wouldn't even form in Baekhyun's head now. Just mutterings about how worthless he was that seemingly poured out his mouth. He was so stupid, how could he even create something to say that would send Tao away? How could he be the one to hurt the other....

What if he was injured out there?! What if he was hurt? Stuck? Lost? Trapped by the very darkness that was keeping him from running after the other. He snorted.

He was even too weak to chase. Pathetic.

"U-umma he's gone....g-gone..." Shinhye wasnt particularly sure of who Baekhyun was referring too. She thought perhaps it was a combination of both, and she decided to go with that idea as she cradled him.

"Shhh, Baekkie. I'll go get him, I'll find him...but you have to stay here all safe okay...? You have to lock yourself in your room and seal all the openings. And wait....I..I know it's hard. But that's the best I can offer, unless you want to wait until morning.,.

"No."
He couldn't wait until morning, that was too long; especially considering it was raining.

Especially since after Tao's confession...he had one to make too.

xHS_Lu Han: Tao shattered. He broke, he splintered, he cracked, he crashed.

Nothing translated right; it was just a blur of harsh words. Nothing played out in his favor, Baekhyun didn't trust Shinhye, Baekhyun was heartbroken over his father, Baekhyun hated Tao. Sure, Baekhyun may not have said it, but that's what Tao heard, and his heart dropped, it fell into a swirling abyss of salty tears and hatred.

He didn't hear Baekhyun's response to his confession; his mind blocked that out. Everything was an acidic and explosive backfire. Why did he do that? Why was he being selfish? He wanted to save Baekhyun, rid him of that horrible man and bless him with the mother he desperately needed, but no. Everything was the opposite. Baekhyun's words cut him like a rusty, unmaintained blade and it hurt.

"No.. No.." Tao curled up into a tight ball and pulled at his hair, bit down and through his lip, slammed his eyes shut. He was stupid, he was selfish.

He was a monster, he was a killer. Murderer.

Tao screamed bloody murder into the air, pulling and ripping at the skin of his face, his cheeks, trying to tear that title away from his very soul.

Heartless bastard. Selfish wolf.

Tao shifted and ran, barreling into the door several times before snapping at the knob, tearing it out, and running out into the night.

Murderer.

Rain began to pour as the moon hid, refusing to look at Tao.

Killer.

He went straight to the nearby forest. Baekhyun didn't need him; he needed a wolf who'd protect him, obey him, not a selfish one. Not one that put love before his duties. Not Tao. Definitely not Huang Zi Tao. No, that was a selfish, heartless wolf who killed people. Baekhyun didn't need that. Tao kept running, the rain mixing with the tears slipping out of his eyes, masking them. He didn't deserve to cry, didn't deserve Baekhyun, didn't deserve his rank.

He should've died during the slaughter of his pack.

His paws sank into the softening ground and he tripped at one point, mud caking and coating his fur once he got back up. He was dirty. A dirty killer that even the moon and stars rejecting, something the sun wouldn't want to waste previous energy on.

Tao didn't know how long he ran, but his body called quits before too long. His limbs trembled as he moved to an empty hole in front of a tree. It was probably flooded, so he fell in front of it, rain pounding against his body, and closed his eyes. "I'm sorry, Baekhyun.."

xnH_Park Chanyeol {HIATUS}: "I can't." the words were simple, bland even as they rolled off Baekhyun's tongue. But it was what his shattered soul truly thought. He couldn't forgive his mother, even if his own wolf, the one who loved him and he loved him in return, was howling I distraught behind him. The confession wasn't what had caught his mind, for it wasn't the time for that. It was the time for setting things right, not getting tangled in a mess of feelings.

"She may be biological related to me still, but that doesn't make her the woman, the mother she was twelve years ago. She can't just snap her fingers and demand that back. Not after everything she put me through. Everything she put you through..." Baelhyun snuffled gently, hugging his legs tighter. He was tired, and mentally broken. He wasn't sure he had the strength to deal with this anymore. He hadn't even turned to face Tao and his whimpering blue eyes, cause he knew it would break him. So he left the other with the sight of his lacerated back, the mark somehow representing the scratch his father had left across his heart when he left.

"I cried, every day down at her gravesite for two years. I refused to eat, to move for three days after she supposedly "passed away". I still go down to the bottom of the garden once a week, you've seen me Tao, you would know...." another shaky breath, and a whimper. "Every second, I prayed for her to come back. And now I found out she was there all along, stooping around and helping to torture me over the years. My mother is still dead at the bottom of the garden. And I don't know if I'll ever get her back."

It was true, from the age of five Baekhyun had lost count of how many times he had trudged down the hill with a hand full of daisies, how he'd knelt at the gravesite and pressed his hands together, spilling every worry to the body of his mother with sunken eyes. Her spirit was sound here, and until that dog upstairs could prove she was what she wast twelve years ago, he was not going to have anything of it.

"My father was more of a parent than she was, at least he was there. At least he was trying to teach me and help me grow up, he may have been doing it in the wrong way. But it was what he thought was best....he was just trying to do the right thing...... And now they're both gone. Y-You have to think a little more before you do things Tao. There's a reason for everything, a way around everything. If you just stop a little and try and solve it, you shouldn't jus rush into things....taking such drastic measure at such short notice is..."

Baekhyun have a frustrated growl, it sounded more like he was explaining to a puppy not to inside then telling his own protected that killing people was way to far out of what he expected, and it irked him to the point where he was tearing at his hair and curling into a fetal position, his gaze lifting to the ceiling.

"I l-love you too Tao. I have for a long time. But I love the you that laps at me feet as I'm trying to study, or tells me stories about squirrels when I'm crying in the corner again. Not whatever went outside and killed my father. That wasn't you....not that I know..... Call me selfish but I dont want you to go, I don't want you to /change/. Change is a concept I've never had and it scares me...... Tao...." Baekhyun didn't know what to say anymore, so instead he dragged himself over and buried his face in the others fur. "You. That's what I'm left with now, I don't hate you. I don't want you to go.....I want the proper Tao back. And as soon as possible."

xHS_Lu Han: Love.

That's what his decision circled around, orbited. His love for Baekhyun was just so unnatural, feelings building up under pressure that he couldn't release with the older's father around. Selfish, stupid love. He took this boy's father away from him, knowing damn well losing a parent hurt, especially when you've only known and loved one for so long.

Tao's life was a and karma ed it.

Tears welled in his eyes, his mouth opened, but nothing came out as the salty droplets fled from their confines. Everything hurt; mentally, physically, everything. Even the bond whipped him with Baekhyun's hurt, but Tao accepted everything with open arms. He was a killer, something he never wanted to become, but now he knows why his pack elder told him love was a dangerous thing. Tao began to grow dizzy.

"When.. When I had this collar put on, she told me.. Told me she was your mother as I was locked up in that room," Tao whispered, his Korean collapsing, "I wanted you two to be free from then on out."

Tao fell forward to his hands and knees, burrowing his face down.

"Everything got so bad! He put you through so much.. T-then he was going to force you to m-marry and.. I.." Tao stopped, form shaking. This would be his only shot, his last moment, but it had such terrible timing. He had to do it, say it before Baekhyun wanted him out of his sight, wanted their bond to be no more, no matter how strong. So Tao looked up, ocean eyes crumbling under a high, vicious tide of hurt.

"I didn't want that to happen because.." Tao clamped his eyes shut, gritted his teeth and let out a choked sob before he howled:

"Because I love you! You hate me, I know, I understand. I killed your father, but I want you, I /need/ you to forgive your mother. She had no part in this, she probably barely resisted killing me as I killed him, just so she could reveal herself to you.. Please, Baekhyun, forgive her. Do what you want to me, I just want you both to be mother and son.." Tao covered his mouth with trembling hands. "Please forgive her.."

nH_Park Chanyeol {HIATUS}: {soundtrack; J-Min - Dream on}

A seeping howl pierced the the shrill clouds of the night sky and Baekhyun began to sob gently, at least knowing that Tao was coming. Everything was still arranged in tangled rushes though his mind however, and he was still incoherently trying to piece them together. He didn't know...he didn't....and he silently began to tremble as a cloud of darkness breathed freezing air down his neck.

It seemed though after a flash a light hit the behind of Baekhyun's closed eyelids, he was flying and judging by the warmth he was laying against it was Tao who was helping him. He hung limply, laying his head against the other with a terrified release of air. This was alll stupid, a hideous mess and he was thankful once they were inside again. Away from at least the darkness.

But there was still the fact that the unconcious wolf upstairs was supposedly his mother, and his father was dead.

Tao may have been gently lapping at the leaking wound on his back, but Baekhyun was too numb to feel it and he merely dragged his legs into his chest, resting his head on it gently as his eyes stared blankly in front of him; trying to see what he was obviously missing. There had to be a reason for this, a reason everything he knew was collapsing out from under him. Everything ran in circles, everything balanced itself out eventually and Baekhyun couldn't have fathomed what had happened to have all this destruction be the balance. What was the good on the end of it?

His gaze never moved and he didn't flinch, just stared at the curtains that were no longer billowing in the open breeze. He was just.....shattered. He in a breath, releasing it soon after before he spoke up in a trembling voice, gaze never moving.

"Y-you did, didn't you... The wolf. She wasn't lying" no one would have liked how quiet Baekhyun's voie was, how unmoving he sat. "You really did it...... why Tao? Why, goddammit why?" he couldn't think as to why his own wolf would attack his father, and unless something had happened in the those few minutes Baekhyun had been sorting through the pictures, he had no idea as to why. He'd taught Tao better than that, he knew he had....his poor father..... Baekhyun started to cry again.

"Why.."

HS_Lu Han: @nH_Park Chanyeol Tao froze. His blood stopped, his heart ceased to beat. Everything came to a screeching halt as he felt something in his bond, something was wrong with Baekhyun. Something terrible, and he soon felt himself trembling, shaking, crying as he leaped down the stairs, not giving a damn about breaking anything, causing a disturbance. He leapt again, crying once he saw the open door, and flew out, His feet were pounding into the cobblestone, the ground, and he soon melted into his wolf form, claws seeping the light he was born to protect with. His fangs gave off an eerier glow as he barreled through clouds of darkness, tearing them apart with a searing light.

Baekhyun screamed his name and Tao howled in response, crying to the moon and following the mental map his mind conjured up. He tore through clouds, bit through the swirling masses and snarled as he leaped into the alley. He was in front of Baekhyun in an instant, snarling fiercely before he clawed at the creeping cloud, threatening to steal Baekhyun away from him. Tao wouldn't allow it.

He refused.

He swiped wildly at the Darkness, snarling and hissing before he shifted. He couldn't protect them forever, not with this much darkness around, so he picked Baekhyun up and promptly ran. He held the boy tightly to him, glowing claws tightly securing him and putting up a barrier around his body. He still, however, couldn't look him in the eye. it was near impossible; he didn't want to see the hurt and betrayal set in those pretty irises that he adored.

The darkness lashed at him and he hissed, the scythe of the floating reaper cutting into his back, but getting Baekhyun back into the house was his main priority, so he did just that.

Tao rammed the door open, careful enough not to break it, and set Baekhyun down on the nearest soft surface. He slammed the door shut, locked it, and made sure everything was closed. The blood seeping into his shirt burned his nose, but Baekhyun was more important here.

"Baekhyun.." Tao weeped, instantly at the teen's side. He opened his shirt immediately, frowning at the gash, and spared the hesitation in his throat before he at the wound, cleaning it, and pouring the light from within his body into the cut. His eyes remained there the entire time, making sure he didn't miss any section of the laceration. Tao lapped up all of the blood and dropped backwards onto the floor, feeling tears well up in his eyes, and hung his head.

He was breaking; his decision almost cost him his master's, his friend's, his love's life, and it was all because karma was a . Sorry wouldn't help anything, so Tao merely stayed silent, waiting for anything Baekhyun would say or do to him. He'd accept it with no argument.

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It was a few minutes into Baekhyun's explosion that Shinhye collapsed, her form trembling before with a small puff of air her tiny form collapsed to the ground. It was pulsing, coursing through her mind, she could feel every bone snap and as the soul began to remove from his body her eyes fluttered closed and she whimpered. She was too weak for this, not after the way that man treated her. And that was what she kept reminding herself, to keep her awake.

She didn't love him, he wasn't her mate. He didn't deserve her protection.

Stay awake, stay awake....

Baekhyun was oblivious originally to Shinhye's pain, and it wasn't until the soft thump of her collapsing that his gaze raised. He was a mess, cheeks flushed and tears pouring down his face, his eyelashes caught together as he repeatedly shook his head. "N-No...." he voice trembled, the once velvet tone crumpling to a raspy wool until he was heaving for air. He clutched his hands in his blanket before slipping off the bed and crouching down by his umma's side. "W-wolf? U-umma...." Baekhyun didn't know what to call her anymore, he didn't know what he believed...

"What's wrong? Is he hurting you, d-do you have a collar like Tao.." Baekhyun began to fret, because despite the fact he didn't trust the being in front of him, he was incapable of leaving someone to suffer. He only fretted more as she shifted in habbit.
"C-can't go protect him from it, have to protect you instead..." she all but whimpered, pawing at the carpet in obvious pain.

That was enough for Baekhyun, and he was already running.

She wasn't lying, she'd just prove that and just as untrustworthy she seemed, just as distraught as Baekhyun seemed. His father was still his father and he was already fleeing down the hallway. He ignored Shinhye's calls for him to stop and desperatley wiping at his face to try and clear his tear clouded vision he all but fell down the stairs, not even realising that Tao was scrubbing himself red in the bathroom.

"Appa!" he yelled as soon as he slammed into the front door, finger desperatley trying to the turn the handle. He hadn't called his father that in years, it was too childish aparently, he wasn't supposed to use it. But being in such a incoherent and terrified state it was automatic for him to fall back on such childish responses.

In a moment or so of clumsy fumbling the door finally flew open and a waft of night air blew over Baekhyun, cooling all his senses and paling his skin for reasons unknown to him. He took a moment of glancing around under the dark cloud before he stepped out, jogging down the path somewhat as his eyes searched for his parent. He stumbled along, eyes tearing again when he saw nothing but black.
"Appa! Is the wolf lying? Where are you? Appa!" Baekhyun kept, moving, kept walking, Unaware of the deadly danger he was in.

A few steps on, he began to grow startled however, cause a misting sensation was growing over his shoulders. He pouted and slowly turning, Baekhyun let out a scream and instantly started to backpedal, his legs tripping over each other out of fear.

There. In front of him, was the substance he had been warned all his life about, eeping, slothing, and reaching out to send a lacerating gash across Baekhyun shoulder blades. He shrieked again before suddenly full of adrenaline he sprinted out of the yard and as far and fast as he could.

They were everywhere tonight, lurking in every corner, floating like a death cloud behind Baekhyun as he ran and no matter what corner he turned there was always more. It eventually came to the point where he backed up against a wall, hand meeting cool brick as he watched the darkness cloud closer.

He cried, curling up into a ball on the ground as he waited for it to drone closer and destroy him, like he assumed it had done to his father earlier. But it was at this point he remember a name that had slipped his mind for quite awhile now and he screamed it into the air as he hid against his knees.

"Tao!"

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Shinhye on the other hand was passed out beside his bed, her wolf head lying flattly on the ground. You were left rather broken when your partner gets their soul out, and with her weight mass which she usually hid well under her fur. She was far gone.

HS_Lu Han: Tao sat there, at that door, motionless as the sickening cracks of bones died down and a ghastly whisper of the reaper caused him to shiver. Tao shook as the temperature dropped, plummeted, before it all returned to normal. His soul was gone, dragged down into the flaming pits of hell, dropped off at Cerberus' door. Everything was going to play in reverse for that man and Tao should have been happy, ecstatic.

He wasn't.

He killed his master's father. The one he wanted to be with would never forgive him for this and it broke Tao's heart. But he had done it for him, for both of them. Tao opened the door slowly, peeking out to see if that cloud was gone, and he nearly gagged. The body was bleeding from every orifice and it appeared deflated, outline of organs showing through the clothes. Tao had to get rid of it, so he steeled himself and went out.


It took a while, but Tao eventually removed the body and cleaned up the blood, throwing up as soon as he reached the bathroom in the house. He scrubbed blood off of his body desperately with a grimace until his skin was nearly raw. Only then did Tao stop, shift, and made his way to Baekhyun's room. He was scared of what would happen, terrified of Baekhyun's reaction would be when he saw him, but he couldn't avoid it. He had to see him, had to make sure Shinhye was with her son, had to see that they were at least reunited before Baekhyun banished him. Every strand of fur on his body wilted as he padded up to the door.

Tao trembled, he'd never been more terrified in his life; but he'd also had never been in love. With a pathetic whimper, Tao nudged the door open and walked in a few paces. His eyes began to leak and the surrounding fur was eventually slick with his salty tears. The crimson was gone, the bloodlust diminished, and all that remained were the leaking crystals of blue. He saw a woman, Shinhye, and Baekhyun. Baekhyun's expression alone caused Tao to collapse in on himself and he fell to the floor in a quivering mess, shifting to his human form involuntarily.

"Baekhyun, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.. I wanted to set you and your mother free, I'm sorry. I-I had to kill him; I couldn't watch you and Shinhye suffer anymore," Tao raised his head, but stayed down. "I'll leave if you want me to. I'll leave and never come back, just please forgive your mother, she had no part in this,"

Tao looked up, tears flowing, and whispered.

"Please.. I did this because I love you, but you probably hate me now." And his head dropped once more.