@Joy The kids will be gone ?
/raises an eyebrow when you mention that suddenly and then chuckles as I take one more bite of the bimbimbap and then leans in forward to match your stance similarly/
I think I can be free one day next week yes .
@Jay Park Well, duh. There IS a lot to makeup. Talk about that, are you free someday next week? The kid's will be out of town for a week with their class, and -places my hands together, elbows on the table and rests my cheek on the back of my hand with a smile- I'd love to ask the man who's with me now on a date.
@Joy Uh huh got lots of making up to do right ?
/raises an eyebrow at you as I ask this and chuckles , also nibbling on my lower brim since now I’m feeling confused bexause I did miss you and I do want you back but it’s not fair to me to make it so easy /
@Jay Park But I have to say, I definitely enjoyed the kiss.
-chews my own bottom lip and looks at you with a rather disappointed look since it felt rather short, and says bluntly-
I kinda wish it lasted just a little tiny mili-trillion seconds longer. Just a bit more
@Joy It really was .
Because one second you’re kissing me and the other you’re hiding from me .
/nods at you playfully and chuckles , reaching to pull away your hands from your face so you aren’t hiding anymore /
@Jay Park Ugh. I don't even know where I picked it from.
-peeks from between my fingers, thinking real hard about the hows, whys, and especially whats-
Kind of like a sudden boost out of nowhere and then poof -makes a poofing gesture- it's gone the next second.
@Joy /watches you turn red and hide your face, letting out a light chuckle before I take another bite of the food while still looking at you/
I don’t remember that confidence at all
@Jay Park -breaths in sharply when you return the kiss, undoubtly wanting more of it, but stays quiet when you pull away-
-looks at you and bites my lip, face bright red up to my ears, not having expected the outcome, and then hides my face in my hands once realization hits me-
Oh lord, where did my confidence go to?
@Joy /let’s out a groan against your lips when you kiss me and tell me you love me , feeling definitely more conflicted now , giving you a quick yet somewhat feverent kiss in return before pulling away/
Okay
@Jay Park You can shame me now too, if you want.
-chuckles and looks at your lips, lightly brushing my thumb against it so you won't bite it again-
One more thing. I'm not sure if it'll be of any help, though and you don't have to say anything in return.
-takes your hand with my free one, giving it a squeeze, and narrows my lips to yours, leaving a lingering, soft kiss, saying in a hushed mumble-
I love you. You don't have to believe me now tho.
@Joy Fool me once shame on me
Fool me twice shame on you .
/looks at you and bites my lip , fighting the urge to kiss you because it’s also mixed with the feelings of pulling away and walking out the door\
I don’t know what to do
@Jay Park Baby steps, Jay.
-rests my forehead against yours to have you look at me again-
Even if we're able to recover only this much, it's still worth something. You may not believe me now, but I won't go anywhere this time. And I'll do whatever it takes to have you believe me again. Not only for us but for our children too.
@Joy It’s sad
I don’t know my ing kids and I feel too awkward around them to even try to be a father to them .
That’s ing sad excuse my French.
I didn’t just lose you I lost them too and that’s not fair
/leans into your touch and sighs , glancing at you for a second before looking down instead
@Jay Park Which is okay. It's fine.
-hesitates for a spare moment but lifts my hand anyway, reaching for your cheek to caress it gently, talking quietly-
You don't have to figure it out now. And you can take all the time you need. I already took the opportunity of you seeing the two grow up and from them to be with you, which I regret a lot. At this point I just want to save what's humanly possible.
@Joy /picks at some of the food with the fork when you say that , letting out an obvious sigh since I don’t know what to say or do, not even having any relationship with my kids that I even feel awkward around them thanks to you /
I’m torn .
Honestly.
I always hoped you’d come back but now you’re here and I don’t even know what to do or feel
@Jay Park -stares into blank space, having a hunch why you said that but doesn't pursue the topic, instead, sits up and turns to you, placing my hands on my lap-
I know you have a lot on your mind, and I probably don't have an answer for everything. I also know you won't let me off this easily for...basically saying " you" -makes airquotes, nodding my head along- and disappearing into oblivion. Which is why I won't ask for anything. I wasn't the greatest and never will be. I've done enough damage at this point and, if ever, there is anything to save, I'd be more than obliged to make it right.
@Joy Mhm
/doesn’t have much else to say on the matter now since I know if I let myself fully speak my mind I’ll probably be rude about it, taking the fork myself and taking a bite of the food silently
@Jay Park Damn, you're one hell of a son. Although I didn't expect any less.
-chuckles softly, about to grab another spoonful for myself, then stops any movement, head lowered as I slightly snicker at your words-
-lifts my head and sighs, leaning into the seat while feeding you more as I talk-
Of course I didn't. I wouldn't even think about it. That's...the only thing I could never do in my entire life.
@Joy Anytime I’m in the USA I pop in to see them even if it’s only a day .
/nods at your words and eats what you’re offering me , taking a second to chew before speaking /
I’m glad you didn’t leave the kids too
They at least need one parent
@Jay Park -waves them goodbye, already used to it, and brings my hand to your cheek, wiping some food off with my thumb-
That's fine. They're probably alright with it so long as they get to see you. When was even the last time you went home and saw them?
-tilts my head as I eat another mouthful and holds it up to your lips as well to continue feeding you-
@Joy /opens my mouth for what you feed me but looks at our son confused because I’m not sure what he means but he eventually gets dragged away by his sister /
Mhm they would .
Although honestly I’m too busy to stay for long
@Jay Park -looks at while swallowing, not even thinking twice and opens my mouth at your offer, continuing to talk-
Well, you will definitely be able to visit home more often if you do. I'm sure your parents will love that.
-wipes some dust off of your shirt and holds out a forkful to your lips-
You should eat some too
JD: Very big fields of water with rice in them. -gestures the size of the fields before he gets dragged by Jamie-
JM: We will go to the garden!
@Joy /watches as you feed yourself and snorts as you speak, holding another fork full to your lips right after /
Yeah Seattle .
Even maybe an apartment .
Just got to give me a reason to visit home more often
/turns to Jayden again when he speaks /
With rice ? She has rice too ?
Your grandma is really cool then
@Jay Park -widens my eyes and nods slowly as I feed myself some, talking with a full mouth-
That's sounds great. In Seattle, right? Or do you plan to get it elsewhere?
JD: -is being helped by Jamie with his hoodie's zipper and nods at you- Grandma has a house up in the mountais with lots of rice.
@Joy I probably have too much money one human could possibly need right now
I’m thinking of getting a property back home in the states /chuckles as you instruct me to sit and then does just that, taking the chopsticks to have a bite of food right after /
I’ll try it yeah ?
You guys like those ?
Is it sweet candy ?
Is this from where momma is from ?
oh my god, i can't believe it's been so long and i still remember hanging out with all of you and just laughing carelessly. admittedly, i got curious because the sudden 2ne1 reunion made me want to walk down the memory lane and this was the earliest memory i had of being a blackjack, oddly enough. i've grown up during the long period that i was away from roleplaying but i still write, for my pleasure mainly. it was nice to make online friends from here, i don't regret meeting all of the og members and i don't regret this being my first rp on this site. i hope all of you are living life and having fun!!
cl here sending virtual hugs and kisses! miss you all !!
My, oh, my. This place has been around for 10,5 years and I'm still not over it. Good things are meant to remembered, I guess? Too bad it's closed now, but all good and bad things take an end. But since the admins are being generous, I shall take the opportunity and humbly ask of thee to reactive RaNia's Joy.
I has to pause for a moment seeing this place under active rps today . It truly shocked me, and although I’m not overly around anymore I do pop in often enough and have never seen this place with any engagement . My first introduction to role playing, to friends and an amazing k-pop community, to diversity and love … Thank you CAKR
Wow I’m sitting here right now reminiscing about this place . I don’t roleplay as frequent as I did in my days XD but I do pop on for certain characters on the occasion.
This was my first roleplay on here and frankly no other roleplay every will compare . No fancy coded was needed for this place because the people just made it that good . I miss all the friends I made here . CAKR is the best !
wow hi... it's been years since i've been here and it feels bittersweet remembering everything, all the good memories that i can't get back because i was always inactive after a while. but i'm grateful that this was the first rp i joined, that i learned so much from it even though i was still a dumb kid at that point.
and i've grown so much since that time i started as jeongmin, and got to meet mina, it was a great time. i had a lot of fun with everybody way back when and if it weren't for the warm family here i probably wouldn't have decided to carry on rping and improving my writing skills. it's sad to see it closed, and i probably will never be able to look at all the wall and pm memories again since i can't get into my character profile, but this place will always have a good place in my heart. thank you to the admins, and everyone whom i met here. i hope you're all doing well and having fun whatever you're doing!
hi. just passing by to check up on the very first place I've ever rped in my life. it's sad to see it's closed, but then again, im glad it lasted for like five years. i feel so nostalgic out of sudden.
i found out about role-playing back in early 2013, i don't remember how but i somehow ended up in roleplayrepublic. i had no idea what role-playing was, but my curiosity told me to try it out. so i did. in this place. my first ever character was Sungjong. the one that dated Xia (i miss you Xia). then i joined as got7 Jinyoung too because i loved this place so much.
this place taught me so much about role-playing. and helped me to improve my english too. especially with all that literate para plotting. i stopped rping on rpr in around the end of 2014 due to some issues. but since then i started to rp on twitter and facebook too. it was all thank to rpr, that i learnt to roleplay and managed to meet alot of people through roleplaying. CAKR will always hold a special place in my heart. thank you so much for all the memories.