♢ TEACHER LOUNGE

@✤ BANG YONGGUK Jiyong smiled at the other. He could show him an outlet that he learned to get his mind out of things. "Dont worry and its not a human. We will be consuming some of their food. And you will help me prepare it." He continued to walk and pulled the other with him. He was going to bring him to the city and have fun.

@✤ KWON JIYONG Yongguk was a bit cautious hearing the word food but he trusted the teacher. He knew that things would be okay especially since Jiyong seemed to understand him. "Lead the way Mr. Kwon."

@✤ BANG YONGGUK "I think we should go get some food and then you can visit my place, it might be nice to get away fro the school for now."

@✤ BANG YONGGUK Jiyong had a bit in mind and thought they would have alittle fun. He didnt know what exactly yet, but it would be nice to leave the school. He could tell the other was willing to do anything. He smiled at the other and put the cigarette behind his ear. He nodded some. "I am, but i wont smoke right now. I dont want you to stand over there. Lets go find something fun to do yeah?"

@✤ KWON JIYONG Yongguk shrugs waiting to see just what the older vampire had in mind. He was still in his submissive mindset meaning he honestly didn't mind as long as Kwon liked it. He was however not too happy about the cigarette Kwon had. He didn't like strong smells but the product itself did not bother him. Only the smell.
"You're a smoker? ...I can stand over there if you need to smoke or something. I don't mind it at all. It won't bother me to do it."

@✤ BANG YONGGUK "There is always somewhere to begin and the puzzle will slowly start to figure itseilf out." THe elder listened to the story and nodded to him. "Well... thats a start. We will know aobut everyhting sooner or later. There is no need to relive it right now." He pulled out a cigarette from his ear and looked at it.
"It could be a mix, that is common too. The fine line is there but they can fuse into one another. What your ex did was unexcusable in more ways than none. Enough of this talk. Lets do something enjoyable and you are gonna follow me"

@✤ KWON JIYONG "We can? How? I've been trying really hard to figure out stuff myself. ...I know that I was locked up in the Room. My ex come in with some other human saying that I was no longer needed. I remember trying to get away...then nothing. I woke up to my parents and they said...well they said some not nice things."
He sighs scratching his head. "Maybe it was a mixture of Rage and Lust? ...I mean my ex did starve me to get his way...but I was also mad at him..."

@✤ BANG YONGGUK "I see. There is a wonder why people dont want you to know. Its being told of many things. But it isnt in your control you know. People viewd me as a monster for 20 years before things finally go to normal. If you ever want to talk more about anything i can help."
Jiyong looked at you and rubbed his back softly. He didnt say anything else and pulled out a cigarette. "Well you will never know and sometimes its time to just accept some things, but for your father that might be a mystery.
"Ill still try to help you because you are not alone. We cn try to slowly figure out some things here."

@✤ KWON JIYONG "My parents found me afterward. ...I tried asking my father but he said it was better I didn't know. My mother won't even talk to me if I ask. ...I don't know where my ex is. His little brother goes here though. B-but they don't talk so..that probably isn't helpful."
Yongguk sighs biting his lip. He honestly didn't have anyone to talk to about it now that he really sat back and thought about it. "...maybe it's useless to try to figure out. I just wanted to know why my father had to punish me. Why I was covered in blood..."
He looks up at Kwon smiling slightly. "I guess you can't help me with this problem huh Mr. Kwon?"

@✤ BANG YONGGUK "I know that feeling dear. The best you can do is talk about how you feel. Who are you in contact with still maybe I can help you understand better too."
This poor soul wanted an answer that was all he wanted and he needed one too. He only got glimpses of what he had done. There was much more damage to it as well. He needed to know just as bad as him.

@✤ KWON JIYONG "I want to remember what I did but I can't. I really want to. It just won't come to me. ...is it that bad? I just don't get it."
He felt like that was the problem. He just didn't understand so much. There was so much he just couldn't wrap his head around. His blackout. Why his ex dumped him. Why his parents punished him. Why Brian gets so mad at Junhong. Why Junhong gets jealous so easily. Why couldn't he feed on humans like a normal vampire.

@✤ BANG YONGGUK Jiyong looked at the other and took his hands into his. "You know the difference. I have been in both unfortunately. It's not a run feeling."
He remembered all the damage he had done. Lust he was slightly aware. They let him go in a crowded room of humans to see how fast he could go draining them off their blood to quench his thirst. Rage... Rage was when he fought and he lost his mind when he mourned his lover. That's when he personally blacked out. "Lust... Lust is just wanting blood the taste the feeling of it going down into your mouth filling and sliding into your stomach. Anything to have it. Rage. Rage is purest of the primal anger of a vampire. Wrath of the mind and hunger mixing together. I blacked out when I was in rage. I slightly remember when I hit blood lust."

@✤ KWON JIYONG Yongguk blinks looking down at his hands. "How do you tell the difference between the two?"
He couldn't remember much but he did remember the blood. He remembered the thirst. He was so thirsty. He'd just wanted him to let him feed. That'd been all he'd wanted. Just a few drops of blood. Just a little bit. He wouldn't let him have any. He said such awful things to him. Yongguk had been so good despite his awful words. He listened so good. He did. He really did. Yongguk covers his ears whimpering softly.

@✤ BANG YONGGUK Jiyong pulled out a cigarette and stared a it and put it behind his ear. He would enjoy it a bit later. He sighed to himself and knew he would ask. "It's hard to tell which is lust or rage. They are so close together there is almost no difference but there is still one." He looked up at the sky and looked to him once more. "Lust is the easier one to fall into my dear. Lust is humans dry for blood. Having a hunger that hasn't been satiated. You everyone down to the last red cell and going to the next not caring. Lust is something crave down and you just want more. Rage... Rage is harder since it's also a drive. It's the scarier of the two I should know... Rage, you're more than primal. You kill everyone and anyone. Any supernatural being and any human. Taking blood from whoever but you are also just killing anything in your path. You become the true monster in rage."

@✤ KWON JIYONG Yongguk sat next to him curious about the two things. Knowing that he himself had experienced one or the other. "What's the difference?"
It was a morbid curiosity. He wanted to know which one he'd gone through. Which one had caused him to hurt so many humans. Rage or Lust. He thought maybe rage given he was locked in a room chained to a wall. The occasional scent of blood to . "How can you tell just which is which?"

@✤ BANG YONGGUK "I see. Well if you don't want to depend on your parents. I can help you. The blood bank gets donations and well vampires work there and supply it to our clan since we need it to live. No harm all given by choice. Less guilty that way." He tilted his head at the other and nodded a bit. "Actually there is. You just have to learn about it. It's ok to drink from the bags. Helps to mix it with something to you know. I usually do that." He had done other things and he had been drunk with blood before and well that was in his past. He knew how to control himself now. "I have drinked from people before. I mean there are humans who are aware of us and are not scared and enjoy it. It's not to bad." He found a bench and sat down. "Sit. Rage and Lust are two different things but it happens when our clan doesn't drink blood after sometime."

@✤ KWON JIYONG "My parents send me blood bags. I don't wanna know where they get it from." Knowing his parents, it was probably better off that way. He looks at Kwon wondering if he would be able to help him. "Is there a trick to getting use to drinking from people or it is okay to drink from bags?"
It was something that had been on his mind since Brian forced him to drink from him. If it was so bad then was Kwon doing it. The older vampire seemed to be doing just fine. Nothing bad had happened. Maybe it wasn't so bad. Maybe everyone was just trying to scare him into drinking live blood. That seemed likely. "Rage? I don't know if I've felt that before."

@✤ BANG YONGGUK Jiyong said nothing and nods about it. "I see. It makes sense then there is no problem there. I use to have a problem with it sometimes. I usually just get my blood from the blood bank"
He shook his head at the other when the other had asked him if it was against the rules. "No there is no reason for it to be against the rules. As long as he wanted it then there should be no problem. You know its fine to feed off one another, but it gets messy in . Just be careful not to fall into blood lust or rage ok."

@✤ KWON JIYONG Yongguk laughs, "Feeding on humans isn't an issue. I freak out trying. The only thing I managed to feed on was Brian. ... apparently my drive is."
He remembered Brian forcing him to feed on something. Pushing him until he had him drink from him. It was the first time in a long time that he'd actually feed on live blood and not blood bags. "That's not against rules is it? Feeding on each other? ...I hope not. It's not like I plan to feed on all the students. I just did it that once cause...well Brian ordered me to. I know that doesn't make sense but... that's why I did it."

@✤ BANG YONGGUK Jiyong raised a brow to the other and laughed a bit with him. "A day is a start. Why dont you try for another day. When you think of try putting your energy and mind somewhere else." He knew when he was in that position prying on humans for and blood and vampires and all this other werid stuff in his younger years.
"Well write me something and ill sing it for you. Youre voice is deep and tense maybe singing isnt your route, composers are also recongized and get paid well." He smiled and nodded to the other. "Well it takes practice to work on it you know. To work on humans and saitate your hunger for blood. I know that feeling. You could do it and i belive it."

@✤ KWON JIYONG Yongguk laughs, "I was doing that. Going a week without. I fought with Brian...Does going one day count?" He'd spent the day on a date with Junhong trying and failing to avoid thinking about having with Junhong.
"I like it but my voice isn't exactly singing material." His naturally deep voice didn't sound like it would be good for singing. "I do like music though...I guess it is hard to make a career with animals as an Orlean vampire. But..I just...." He still had a hard time wrapping his head around the concept of going without it. Maybe Kwon was right and he was a addict. The thought didn't bother him at all.

@✤ BANG YONGGUK Jiyong nodded to the younger. "Yes just a brief moment without sec and thinking about something else. Yongguk, you could be a addict to you know." He sighed and laughed a bit to himself when the other was having trouble with all that it. He patted the others head a bit. " i know it does but you could try your best. How about aim for a week, but try your best and ill reward you how about that."
He hummed a bit when the others parents wanted to write music." He took a breath and looked at him and sat down infront of him. "Write music. Well that sounds nice. Youre in school, why dont you take muliple classes and figure out what you wanna do youre still young." He smiled a bit

@✤ KWON JIYONG Yongguk blinks slowly, "But no ..." He frowns more until his jaw hurts. Yongguk couldn't go a day without need to at least get a . The idea of none at all. He whines scratching at his head. "That sounds so painful! I-I couldn't do that!"
"I don't even know what I want. My parents want me to write music." He squats down growing more and more frustrated. He hated thinking of the future. Yongguk just wanted to worry about today. He could care less about the future.

@✤ BANG YONGGUK "Well I would hope so you know. But everyone thinks someone is not doing bad until another points it out you know. Junhong is a young boy to. Maybe you should put a haitus on and see how life is without it. can be attaching whether one likes to admit or not." He sighed a bit and he knew that to well. He had both vampire and human lovers that got him into trouble before he went monogommaus.
Jiyong continued to walk forward and nodded. " i understand that. Who says that one has to be in a relationship. But flings can get a bit personal." He tilted is head. He was a young vampire and didnt quite knoe the life yet, but that was life. "Just remeber that your happiness matters Mr. Bang"

@✤ KWON JIYONG "Brian is nice. I like the stuff we do. He doesn't make me do the bad stuff. ...Junhong. He gets mad when I talk about Junhong or my ex or any human. It's not like me and Brian date. I mean we have ....is that why he gets mad?" He pouts tilting his head. It didn't make sense no matter how much he thought about it.
Yongguk shakes his head, his pout still in place. "I don't want a relationship. I just want to keep having flings with people. It's so easy." He looks down thinking everything over. It really did feel better to him just to have the random flings.

@✤ BANG YONGGUK "That i have. Youre not the only one that has expeirenced those things." Jiyong looked at the other and smiled reassuringly. He knew the feeling of waking up in a stupr and covered in blood. Not only that he was in his part. He wasnt to sure what happened but he could feel the blood mated on his skin. "BOyrfriend for a wekk? That seems rather interesting."
"Why does he get mad at you? Does he just want you for attention or something more." He rubbed his back once more and tried to comfort him some more the best he could. "Thats not healthy dear. You are nuturing what you escaped from and reliving is not the same even if Brian is nice." He took the others hand and rubbed your hand softly. "Because is easy. Its easy to be lost in love and lust but it takes work to have a relationship. I know that for sure."

@KWON JIYONG "Y-you did too?" Yongguk blinks slowly feeling himself relax just a bit more. He'd gone through it too. He'd found someone who'd blacked at too. He clears his throat. "Brian is. Junhong is supposed to be my boyfriend for a week. I'm not sure what will happen after that week though."
"Brian doesn't judge me...he gets mad at me." Yongguk hands his head in his mind it wasn't hearing what his ex had done to him that upset Brian. Just the fact that Yongguk spoke of his ex. "But the things we do... they're the stuff I did with my ex. Brian is nicer than him but we do the same stuff." Confusion making him ruffle his own hair. He truly was confused as to why Brian got upset with him over it. "Why does stuff like this have to be confusing... everything is easier when it's just about ...."

@✤ BANG YONGGUK "Well then you have more ual encounters than dating it seems. So are Brian and Junhong friends with benefits or what? I would just like to see your train of thought. I see and what did you get with Junhong. Im want to know that back story." He smiled a bit and nods. "Vampires and Humans still have animosity toward each other so it makes sense and maybe Brian is jealous but who knows." He rubbed his back some more. "You can talk about your ex with me and i will never judge you on it."
He stopped in his tracks and looked at the other and cupped his face gently. "You arent alone there. I have blacked out for about three. When my lover was killed i went on a rampange in the early 19th century. It happened. So please understand you arent alone."

@KWON JIYONG "I don't know if just having once counts as seeing. If so then a lot more... If not then just them. I didn't plan on Junhong. I spread the rumor around school that I'd do anything if people agreed to have with me afterwards. That's how I met Junhong." Yongguk sighs looking down. "Brin doesn't like him. Whenever I talk about my ex or Junhong he gets mad at me...I can't help but talk about my ex..." He pouts his gaze still on the ground beneath his feet.
"I can't escape what he's done to me...I don't know how. My parents said I didn't kill him when I snapped. But if I didn't hurt him then who did I hurt? .....have you ever blacked out for two weeks and woke up bloody? ...it's not normal right? W-why..." He couldn't continue with that train of thought. Yongguk just sighs heavily.

@✤ BANG YONGGUK Jiyong was good at praising others. He loved smothering someone with love and his long lost lover was apart of that until he died. He treated him like a prince. He wanted more than anything in life to have him back but it was ok. It taught him more how to help others and bring the best in them. He rubbed the others back some.
"Anything you wanna share. Im open to anything dear." He smiled to the other some and continued to walk. He wanted to keep it abstract and wondered what else he really valued right now. He continued to hum as the other ponders about whats going on. "Two? That seems nice and is it Junhong and Brian? Anyone else you are seeing. Its interesting that you want to partake in both species as lovers."
He wanted to know more and know that he was interested in his life.