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walks in with my baby blue guitar, sits on a bench,
settling the guitar on my lap and takes a deep breath before strumming the strings in soft tones
in an effort to comfort myself, feeling the strings vibrate underneath my fingertips, closes my eyes and begins to hum a little

I lightly smile but my insides are twisted without anyone knowing about it

SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love
SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love
SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love
SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love
SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love
SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love
SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love
SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love
SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love
SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love SPREAD THE LOVE spread the love

@ahn jaehyun • "nanny mcjae" (*flashes a smile at you.
pressed reply too soon lol)

@ahn jaehyun • "nanny mcjae" mm, he really did. /laughs softly to myself and straightens up, walking back to your side with a nod of my head. i think we should, it might not be the best idea for him to stay put in the cold for too long as well. /flashes

@kim jungyeon • "mama" -keeps the smile as we keep quiet until you went to check on jonghyun. did he now? -chuckles and takes a peek at the sleeping baby, happy to see him hold down on the plushie. do you think we should head back to your place? he would sleep better in his crib like usual. -grins and gazes at you

@ahn jaehyun • "nanny mcjae" /looks up at you just in time to see your smile, making me do the same as i nodded my head. of course, i will be sure to tell you, hyun. /blinks a few times as i noticed the silence that hung over us. jonghyun has been quiet, don't you think? /waljs in front of the stroller and looks down at jonghyun, only to see him asleep while hugging his plushie. ah, someone fell asleep. /leans down to adjust his position in the stroller and pecks his cheek.

@kim jungyeon • "mama" okay, ill be waiting for that time then. -looks down on you as yoo kissed my knuckles, making me smile a bit wider than my usual smile. anything for you, but im not satisfied with "little". if theres anything more that i can do for you, let me know. -caresses your cheek with my hand lightly

@ahn jaehyun • "nanny mcjae" well, it depends. maybe i will tell you, just not now. /chuckles to myself and uses my free hand to holds your hand that was on my arm, bringing it up to my lips as i lightly kissed your knuckles. thank you, hyun. that made me feel a little better.

@kim jungyeon • "mama" -listens well to your words and smiles softly, keeping the same expression til i can speak again, keeping you close to me as we walk around. Not even to me? hmm i respect you but you know, humans are basically made to be dependent on one another for survival. adam felt lonely and so eve was made so they could support on one another. So relying on others as well as them relying on you is a normal flow. -nods

@ahn jaehyun • "nanny mcjae" i know that, hyun. yet it still doesn't feel like it's the right time to tell anyone. heck, i don't think it's supposed to be shared with anybody. /once again, i could feel my cheeks grow warm by your words as i unconsciously leaned against you. that's nice to hear. i feel weak because.. it feels as if i'm relying on people too much. /chuckles to myself and shrugs my shoulders. maybe it's just me.

@kim jungyeon • "mama" -chuckles. we could always talk about it somewhere else. i dont speak much but i always keep my eyes on you, wanting to know what happens and what not. Youre welcome, yeon. -rubs your arm up and down while walking. why do you feel weak?

@ahn jaehyun • "nanny mcjae" now you are the one making me curious. /i slowly shut my eyes upon feeling your lips on my forehead, smiling slightly to myself. and i appreciate that. thank you, hyun. /sighs out of content this time and wraps my arm around your waist as we walk. yet sometimes i would think that i am pathetic. feeling like i'm the weak one.

@kim jungyeon • "mama" i am not referring to yesterday. i have something new in mind but didnt we just agree not to talk about it now? -stops in my tracks and looks down on you. pressing a soft peck on your forehead for a while. and when it gets tough, i'll still be here. -pulls my arm from you only to wrap it around your shoulder.

@ahn jaehyun • "nanny mcjae" if it's about yesterday then no. it's not that. /smiles apologetically at you and leans in to lightly press my lips against your cheek. i'm sorry for worrying you, hyun. i promise, i'll be alright. it's just.. there's so much for me take.

@kim jungyeon • "mama" -stares at you for a moment before nodding, a small smile on my lips. i think i know what it is but okay, maybe next time. sorry for being a bit of a nosy one. it worries me a lot seeing you like that. -looks ahead and sighs softly

@ahn jaehyun • "nanny mcjae" /grins gently up at you and pinches your cheek gently. i will tell you when i'm ready but now, let's just enjoy today hm? i just.. don't feel like bringing the reason on why i'm stressed at the moment. /avoids your gaze and admires the flowers instead.

@kim jungyeon • "mama" you do realize that stress has a reason. And thats what i wanna know. -smiles a bit and nods at you, letting you pull me as we walk on, looking down at jong from time to time.

@ahn jaehyun • "nanny mcjae" /looks at you and chuckles, rubbing my nape gently. nah, it's nothing really. just a bit stressed, that's all. /shrugs my shoulders and pulls you gently to keep walking.

@kim jungyeon • "mama" i will just google that one later. -chuckles and stares at you once you sighed. your sigh looked like it came somewhere deep. are you troubled? you could tell me. i will listen. -nods at you, a bit worried.

@ahn jaehyun • "nanny mcjae" /smiles as i listened to your words intently, nodding my head with pursed lips. i remembered that i saw one before but it was probably back when i was travelling for a photoshoot. can't seem to remember where ot was though. /looks up at the sky and emits a little sigh. i just want to be in peace.

@kim jungyeon • "mama" exactly, thats the word i was intending to use. -laughs a bit and nods. Cliche, but they are pretty. Mine is the same, only it would be white ones. the color relaxes me, and the meaning shows a lot. -thinks of what an iris looks like. i doubt ive seen that flower yet. -breathes slowly

@ahn jaehyun • "nanny mcjae" to keep sane, you mean. /chuckles to myself before returning my gaze to the flowers. i honestly like red roses, for love. cliche, no? /looks over at you and laughs softly to myself. but lately, iris has grown to me. the flower where it says you cherish your friendship so much. /my smile softens as i walk slowly along the path.

@kim jungyeon • "mama" -grins back at you and nods. once in a while i want to escape from that chaotic place. and i thought it would be best for you and little kid. -smiles, looking at the surrounding taking little steps. Do you have any favorite flowers?

@ahn jaehyun • "nanny mcjae" /stands beside you and holds onto your arm as we started walking, my gaze fixated on the various colours of the petals while the sound of birds chirping cheerfully filled my ears. it's so peaceful here, i'm glad you suggested here. /grins up at you.

@kim jungyeon • "mama" -watches carefully as you put jong in, standing by in case you need help but smiles when you finished. lets go, -offers an arm at you as i went to the stroller's handle, holding it with my left hand.

@ahn jaehyun • "nanny mcjae" /nods my head and watches as you went off to bring the stroller closer to me, walking near it and putting jong inside the stroller; once he's all settled, i straightened up and looked up at you. let's go.

@kim jungyeon • "mama" -looks around as you mentioned you brought a stroller. then a stroller would be way better. Im sure jong wont mind since he will be distracted with the surrounding. -runs to the stroller and brings it to your front, patting it with a grin. were off for a ride little buddy!

@ahn jaehyun • "nanny mcjae" /at your words, crimson started to paint itself over my cheeks as a sheepish grin appeared on my pinkish coloured tiers and noting to myself that you looked good as well. sounds good to me. but are you sure? i brought his stroller along as well.

@kim jungyeon • "mama" Dont say sorry at all, i didnt even wait that long. -nods and smiles as i look at you from head to toe. Uh, you look good by the way. i mean, great. And yes, i'll be good -nods as i was wearing a polo underneath my black knitted sweater. want to take a walk? I can carry jong for you. -nods, offering a hand to the baby.

@ahn jaehyun • "nanny mcjae" /i pointed at the colourful fishes that swam calmly in the small pond underneath the small bridge until i felt a hand on my shoulder, tensing up slightly; i relaxed once i realized who it was and smiled. sorry if i made you wait long. /looks down at my attire which consists of an oversized white sweater and black skinny jeans underneath then up at you. i'll be fine, don't worry. what about you?