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@⏳Jung Hoseok past:
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[was it the superior blaming you thing that you resolved by standing up for yourself? *_*
I don’t know either lol XD I was imagining it to be too...or maybe I touched one wayyy back when we were able to pet neighbor’s animals? I’m not an animal lover myself so I have no idea what I was even saying. That’s what happens when I’m tired; I start to ramble and my thoughts go further out of the box lol. But yeah, imma go with puppy’s head is soft still in my awake phase since it looks soft XD and yep babies are fragile like u said
Yes! After I started rping through a subscriber recommending me to rp with them, I too had difficulty. But with close attention to what others did, my rp writing grew and I learned a lot from the rp norms to writing tricks. Then I was able to apply that in my own writing and started to re-edit my fanfic I made because of how bad it was lol. I guess it’s a lot of being aware of the other writer and the tricks they do, too /nods/ and if u want, I can copy and paste that lesson again so you’re able to have it to look over? : ) ]

/sadly, he doesn’t know why you’re so silent after pouting, so he can’t help but think he did something wrong. He bites his lower lip, not sure to continue because it might make him look even worse in your eyes. Still, with a hesitant determination, he tries again./ ya know~ /he nudges you softly as you eat with a forced chuckle/ cause jiminnie’s a idol an /still/ he’s got the nerve to go ‘gainst his diet!~ /nods with a shake of his head as he sits back with arms crossing his shoulders/ Jin Hyung’s also a pig but he’s lucky he got a faster metabolism...so jealous~ /he sighs before chuckling, quickly glancing to see if it helped your confidence/ but you’re not a pig, Hyung. ‘Hope ya know that /nods as he tries to tug at your shirt with a nod/ cause ya don’t have to eat any kinda amount /he hopes he helped. After your words telling he’s good like this, he quickly changes the subject because he’s not good at taking compliments/
/he lets out an exhale he had no idea he was holding in. Ah, that smile. He thought he wouldn’t see it again...his own smile grew into his heart shaped smile/ eyyy but- /then you add how you eat greens too and he pats your back/ that’s a good Hyung~ I remember ya always ate a lot o’ junk food an take out when ya were ya know... with me /nods placing a hand back on his burger/ so I’m glad you’re lookin out for your health now~ /he hums as he bites into his burger happily. But at the tap to his cheek, he stiffens before turning towards you, blinking a bit before wiping a finger on the cheek. Then his smile widens into a grin/ oh, ya done it now, Hyung...~ /he says with an almost too innocent but definitely mischievous grin/ oh! Look! There’s Superman!~ /he says as he points a finger in another direction away from him. But typical him with his not so convincing jokes. Still, he’s grinning eagerly when he’ll be able to take his revenge. He’s excited. Armys call him the Hyung that the Maknae Line gets along with because he’s able to play and go along with the younger members’ antics/

(So, since this is paused, should I still reply or? And lately I've been stuck again in writing my fanfic or anything else. Sometimes it's because the lacking ideas. Sometimes it's because I don't have a leasure time I need to write. And the other is I'm too tired to write or my laptop need to be changed, or I'm just too lazy to move even my fingers.

But well, I'll reply to this though)

He laughed in glee when the younger man fall for his prank; clapping his hands like a seal. He keep laughing until the younger pointed at his back while saying something that he didn't catch, so he just turned around out of curiousity.

"Huh? There's nothing, though, Hoseokkie." He said while still looking around and found nothing. Shaking his head, he then turned back to face the younger man. "There's-"

@⏳Jung Hoseok (if you not sure what to do, I'm not sure whether I have replied, supposed to or another thing. I think my brain still in vacation mode eue)

@⏳Jung Hoseok (Hm, I think it's about my method of comforting other? i forgot it myself eue)

@⏳Jung Hoseok Yeah, we need to gather and keep our ooc in one place so we can keep track and replying accordingly. Should we use pm or something?

Well, when I don't like things I will always tell people that. So, if I didn't say anything or just accept it, it's mean I don't have problem with that.

And well, because I'm getting tired of people stepping over me just because I look kind and innocent. They fight with the wrong person eue

@Gene [present: I don't really know what exactly I wanna do with this rp. It's one of their first official dates but because of something more serious, I'm thinking to at least pause it until the more serious rp is answered /nods/ ]

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Gene spam
[was it the superior blaming you thing that you resolved by standing up for yourself? *_*
I don’t know either lol XD I was imagining it to be too...or maybe I touched one wayyy back when we were able to pet neighbor’s animals? I’m not an animal lover myself so I have no idea what I was even saying. That’s what happens when I’m tired; I start to ramble and my thoughts go further out of the box lol. But yeah, imma go with puppy’s head is soft still in my awake phase since it looks soft XD and yep babies are fragile like u said
Yes! After I started rping through a subscriber recommending me to rp with them, I too had difficulty. But with close attention to what others did, my rp writing grew and I learned a lot from the rp norms to writing tricks. Then I was able to apply that in my own writing and started to re-edit my fanfic I made because of how bad it was lol. I guess it’s a lot of being aware of the other writer and the tricks they do, too /nods/ and if u want, I can copy and paste that lesson again so you’re able to have it to look over? : ) ]

/sadly, he doesn’t know why you’re so silent after pouting, so he can’t help but think he did something wrong. He bites his lower lip, not sure to continue because it might make him look even worse in your eyes. Still, with a hesitant determination, he tries again./ ya know~ /he nudges you softly as you eat with a forced chuckle/ cause jiminnie’s a idol an /still/ he’s got the nerve to go ‘gainst his diet!~ /nods with a shake of his head as he sits back with arms crossing his shoulders/ Jin Hyung’s also a pig but he’s lucky he got a faster metabolism...so jealous~ /he sighs before chuckling, quickly glancing to see if it helped your confidence/ but you’re not a pig, Hyung. ‘Hope ya know that /nods as he tries to tug at your shirt with a nod/ cause ya don’t have to eat any kinda amount /he hopes he helped. After your words telling he’s good like this, he quickly changes the subject because he’s not good at taking compliments/
/he lets out an exhale he had no idea he was holding in. Ah, that smile. He thought he wouldn’t see it again...his own smile grew into his heart shaped smile/ eyyy but- /then you add how you eat greens too and he pats your back/ that’s a good Hyung~ I remember ya always ate a lot o’ junk food an take out when ya were ya know... with me /nods placing a hand back on his burger/ so I’m glad you’re lookin out for your health now~ /he hums as he bites into his burger happily. But at the tap to his cheek, he stiffens before turning towards you, blinking a bit before wiping a finger on the cheek. Then his smile widens into a grin/ oh, ya done it now, Hyung...~ /he says with an almost too innocent but definitely mischievous grin/ oh! Look! There’s Superman!~ /he says as he points a finger in another direction away from him. But typical him with his not so convincing jokes. Still, he’s grinning eagerly when he’ll be able to take his revenge. He’s excited. Armys call him the Hyung that the Maknae Line gets along with because he’s able to play and go along with the younger members’ antics/

@⏳Kim Sungkyu [present: I have no idea what was funny; I tried to read the history and I still dun get it XP ]

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[HAHA! Sorry, that was funny. I even laughed out loud saying “what kinda comforting is that?!” But thanks for the not as comforting comforting words lol at least : P Yeah, there was bare minimum guidelines (basically, select which use case to implement) for the internship project. It was hard but even harder bc we weren’t all on top of things. But anyways /exhales/ lets hope it’ll work out : ) for both of us! : D /smiles/]

@⏳Kim Sungkyu [present: I agree with my past self on gathering our oocs together or something. Especially since once I get busy, it'll be harder to keep up and I'd rather reply than be too stressed to not reply /nods/ ]

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[broooo you think we need to gather our oocs and put it all together or something? I mean, I used to be okay with it but because my motivation in general hasn’t lifted yet bc of all that drama I’ve experienced, now it’s a lot of stuff to reply to. But I don’t wanna stop everything either bc this is also how we’re able to catch up and still encourage that friendship kinda bond /nods/ so just a thought. And maybe you’d prefer it too since ur also busy and sometimes don’t read our previous replies while I still do heh /rubs nape/ : ) anyways, onto the reply!
Danngggg! You sound so sneaky! And evilllll! /mimics mermaid man/ XD but that’s great that you confront them first before going with ur full blown out revenge /nods/ but those superior’s had it coming for them if they’re blaming their subordinates when in an ideal situation they should be taking the responsibility even if it’s not their fault /nods/ but at least don’t blame someone innocent! Smh...I can see why you have some intelligent related nicknames for them. It’s common sense for sure : ) /pats u/ hey, if u ever get mad at me, just tell me to my face yep? I don’t wanna get ur venomous bite XD

I just really like the fact you stand up for yourself tho bc I see ppl who don’t /nods patting u/
Ur so cool~ keep doing you bruh : P ]

@⏳Jung Hoseok (Yeah, things happened before, now all peachy though eue
Hahaha, I didn't know that puppy head is soft, but well, I always think that all animals babies are fragile so we have to be careful when handling them.
*nodding* I see, it's the same when writing stories. But there are some different, so the only way is I have to get used to it I guess eue)

"jsiaiiadhdshhsa" he grunted in gibberish when the younger pinched his cheek then pouting slightly. He is upset, not with the younger or his replies, but with the condition that he can't help it but to happen. He sighed softly and continued his eating and tried to not think and just focusing on his food. "huh?" he said while looking up at the younger and grinned. "Ramen, cheese, and rice with meat is still the best food ever." he said then added, "Though well I have tried to eat more that green things."

He picked his fries then looking at the younger; mind whirring to live with many ideas and one of it is: to play prank on the younger. He smiled in glee and dipped it into the sauce and when the younger turned his face slightly away from him, he pokes the younger cheek with it.

@⏳Jung Hoseok (When you are working in a real work setting, they have some guidelines too but mostly just a vague one, so yeah, you have to search, learn and understanding it by yourself if you want it to work perfectly. But there also so many factor affecting that. If you have good leader/superior who can guide you onto the right path, then you are lucky, but if not, get ready for hell will greet you. But worry not, there will always be a way to make real work fun and good experience, besides, I think you are capable and will do good even if you have ty bosses who are incapable of guiding their underling. *high fives* eue)

@⏳Jung Hoseok (There's no perfect human being. Well, my definition of starting fights have wide range eue and yep, that's is one of starting fights too. And yeah, it's okay, I already forgot about it. It's no use to keep brooding or angry about it anyway.
Well, I have a lot of bosses and most of them is the type who will put the blame to other to escape from being scolded. One of my revenge method is to make people see what he actually did. Confront him directly and since he keep trying to making a fight with me I'll be more direct and point out all of his mistake and stupidity with words full of venom concealed by polite sentences that even when my good manager call me savage eue and if he have brain, he will be ashamed of his action and will stop picking fight with me. And thanks god, one of that stupid head had his contract ended and well, I'm not a nice nor kind human to begin with, so, I keep pointing all his mistake out in savage way to the end since he keep trying to sweet talk other, picking fight with me and talking like saying he resigned when the actual truth was his contract is finished and the company didn't want to extend him because his poor work performance.

And yeah, even if I'm that mad, I will restraint myself, but he broke my patience and letting out my savage self. Anyway possible like making his future end without get my hand dirty directly. I may seems like ignorance and peaceful person but if people mess with me the wrong way, there's no come back unless it's their demise)

@Gene Spam gene
[nice! You summarized what I was trying to describe in one word smh, my habits... but yeah! I just hope you’ll tell me that you’re being distant with me if and when that ever happens in our friendship as well bruh. But don’t worry, I’ll also make sure to tell you too if u want : P hmmm so many strong words in these ooc replies...there must be something really big that happened, I swear you’re normally not this verbal in ur dislike. I’m all ears if you wanna vent : P but yeah, it can be hard but try to push on without giving too much of yourself at first /nods bc that’s how I do it/
Well I mean.../pats your soft puppy head bc apparently, puppy heads are really soft (I feel like if I rub too hard, it’ll break lol)/ sometimes you kinda have to write it by ear. Like just have a good feel of how a natural flowing convo would normally go and stop when it starts being stranger. They don’t continuously keep on talking but also, they don’t try to give one word answers unless they want the other person to go away /nods/ but sure! Lemme see /reading response/ so far, not too bad~ /thumbs you up for now/ : P]

/he smiles slightly at your comment. He wishes he could see that but all he sees is he’s not enough as during bst; the next comeback he’s wearing a black almost skintight shirt and he’ll have purple streaks in his hair so he knows he has to lose enough weight so when he dances, his nose can make his body look even smaller. He knows that most fans really like it when he looks hot and dangerous rather than round and soft so soon, he’ll have to start. Right now during love yourself: her or after the dna comeback, he hasn’t fully reached that skinnyness ratio but he’s not too far at least. But yeah, he couldn’t say anything to agree with your words/
/ah, he didn’t realize what he said could’ve been taken the other way around. With widened eyes, he chuckled it off before leaning forward/ no~ you’re cute~ /he smiles as he pinches your cheeks with a/ gwushi~ /he wipes your cheek then he sips some of his drink before casually uttering/ Jiminnie’s the pig, you’re normal /nods since he never thought of you as the opposite of him in the physical way. And the reason he thinks Jimin’s a pig is because the guy eats even when the guy sometimes shouldn’t because of some comeback’s concepts, not because he thinks the younger is actually fat in the negative way. It’s one of those things where it’s more a negative self-image rather; he doesn’t see anyone else as actually fat except his band colleagues which he considers sometimes are fat when they’re accidentally letting themselves go. All 7 of them are idols and have to hold up standards or otherwise, make themselves accountable by making sure their colleagues will follow the guidelines. So yeah, not really applying his standards to others outside of the sphere. Sadly, he has yet to notice that Jimin is actually what every idol should strive to be, as in, happy with himself and enjoying food when they can,but yeah, trainees go through so much that for him, it twisted his perception. Jimin was able to get out of that rut after the younger’s own self negativity had been too much but hoseok hasn’t. But then when you said he’s good now, he widens his eyes before forcing a chuckle as he puts his hands between his legs shyly. He changes subject really quickly with a soft laugh/ but ya started the ramen thing?/ you know, when all you eat is ramen because it’s the easiest to make and eat/ What bout now? Do ya eat better stuff now? /he asks with a concerned smile/

@⏳Kim Sungkyu Spam sungkyu1
[oh wow! That makes so much sense! So because you know the subject, the project is more bearable because you have guidelines and a much clearer understanding of what to do but you don’t have that in a real work setting bc projects are mostly all about the unknown so it’s even harder! That makes sense! /shivers/ I’m not ready to go into the real world. And to think, we finally finished a similar project to the real world in my capstone class (it’s an internship project)...that was so hectic and I found myself scared and almost sad because everyone was so busy *_* smh...I’m not ready but /exhales/ at least I know what to expect when I finally get a job /nods/ for now, it can wait bc yeah, applications. But really, thanks for telling me your thoughts. It makes more sense now I see all of it and experienced something close to the real thing : ) /high fives/ ]

@⏳Kim Sungkyu Spam sungkyu
[hmm I still think you’re a good person, just not a perfect one. But I mean, I don’t think any human being is perfect anyways. And that’s good that you try not to start fights though I feel like our definition of starting fights is different. You seem to define it as intentionally starting fights-which is probs the correct way to define it. Mine is broader I guess because I’ve seen fights happen even without a sharp argument. Something like what happened btwn (do I dare say his name? Are you healed enough?) Yongguk and baekhyun. /nods/ but I think that kinda thing is a healthy form of starting fights since you’re trying to clarify the other’s feelings. But man, ur boss is...for him to blame you /smh/. I wouldn’t let that go either so that’s good that you can stand up for yourself. : P I’m curious, what did you specifically do for your revenge? : ) lol but that sounds so vengeful~ the way you said multiply XD /visualizing a virus or harmful bacteria rn/

Yep /pats you/ sounds like something happened tho bc normally you don’t say say ppl are blank unless ur really triggered. Anything else happened other than ur manipulative boss? : ) ]

@⏳Jung Hoseok (yeah, caution. Once my trust broken, most people didn't even realize about it, but I tend to draw the line and stay away as much possible from them. But yeah, I tried to be more open with new people though lately I've been thinking to give it up altogether. People tend to be stupid and s, lately, I dunno why even though we do nothing to offend them.
Well, I purposely extended it though what you said probably will have more impact than the one I intended to do. Guess I still have to try harder, so, please tell me more guru~ *give you puppy eyes*)

He frowned when he heard the younger reply and stopping to stuff his mouth with fries. He looked at the younger; head tilted to the side slightly, observing him from where he sit while slowly start chewing again and as soon as he gulped it down, "But you are already thin..." he said while wiping his mouth; smearing it more on his face. "And I think it's not bad to eat this kind of food once in awhile. Well, unless you are living on this like I did with my ramen." he muttered and scratching his cheek. "You have weight goal too? wow..." he said a bit speechless. He once again look at the younger then at himself and end up frowning more with his lips jutted out. "If you are fat then what am I? A pig?" he grumbled and stuff his mouth once more with fries. "I think you are good as you are now." he muttered again, ignoring the playful picking from the younger as he feeling a bit upset with some idol related facts. He have heard about it and even get on his lazy but to research more about it. But hearing it from the younger mouth make him feel upset with the fact that he already expected.

@⏳Jung Hoseok (Well, more than dislike, I tend to stay away for it. And to be honest, school teamwork is too, but at least they are more tolerable comparing to my work colleague. And yes, work teamwork and school teamwork is exactly the same. There will always be inefficiencies and peoples that are too hard to deal with. And grownups can act like kid too. Especially the working grownups.
School teamwork is tolerable because mostly the projects revolving around things that I'm actually excelled in it, so I myself alone can done it easily. And people at my school also tolerable, though they didn't exactly helping, they still listen to my explanation or my command and they know that when I told them to do their part, it's never beyond their arsenal. I can still manipulate and utilize their skill to the max. Even with people that I don't get along that well with. That's why school teamwork is far much tolerable than work teamwork for me.)

@⏳Jung Hoseok (Nah, I think I know and understand what you mean. Well, I'm not good person to begin with and my temper ain't the best either. But I have a policy that I always keep in mind no matter what and that's to never start a fight first. And after that the three time chances before reacting or plotting revenge eue unless they really messed up so badly like what my new superior did, he want to divert his mistake to me so that people will blame me for it. But man, he was in for a hell ride eue his mistake is simple, because he mess with me when I have been blatantly ignoring all his wrong doing including telling people that I'm a stingy person for not telling him about work when in all honesty he never even ask me about it. I can ignore all his wrong doing and badmouthing me but blaming me for his mistake, nope, I won't stay still eue and when I did my revenge, I never hold back, I will multiplied it even. And especially when he is so brainless.

And yeah, I approach others to address a problem and trying hard to be a patient man. But then, there will always be a certain people that stupid enough to dig their own grave and become an exclusion.)

@Gene Spam gene
[hey no prob though I really don’t think it’s a bad trait. Maybe because I tend to do that too, though not by being fully harsh, but I think that it helps us not get too hurt by not trusting everybody. That way it gives us more caution. Of course the downside is everytime we’re wronged in some way we er- I (i can’t speak for you tho I assume it’s probably similar if not the same) tend to be that more hesitant in being as open with people I meet after it and maybe even towards the people I already know-if I didn’t know them enough to begin with. So! I guess we have to try our best to not close ourselves to some potentially really great people. : )
And ey I should be saying that for you! Thanks for being so patient with me as well. Not to mention that we have a lot of plots than one or two so it takes longer in addition to my new attitude towards rping : ) add that to how busy and demanding this year has been, it becomes a lot so! Thank you bruh : )
And feedback for your reply. Unless you purposely tried to extend it more, you could’ve stopped at “what do you eat?” Or “Is it true that as idol have to go to extreme diet?” and you’d still have done okay in giving me enough to respond to /thumbs you up/. Basically, why I keep emphasizing flow is because the end goal of flow is to give the other rper enough to respond to. Sometimes that can be done by a simple action or question but other times it’s a more complex one. In this case, simply just asking hoseok what he ate and if it’s true that an idol has to eat like this is enough : ) hope I gave more clarity. But again, if you purposely extended it, u can ignore this. I just don’t know personally what you meant to do so I addressed it just in case you still may be figuring it out : P ]

/he realizes he’s been eyeing the burger enough to make you notice and after quickly widening his eyes, he forces a chuckle with a light wave of his hand/ h...nah, that’s your food. Don’t pay no attention- idol habits /forced a chuckle though he did want to try it as he forced himself too look at his burger then took a big bite, humming afterward of how long it’s been. Then at your next words, he had to widen his eyes at the first coherent thing you said today before chuckling dryly/ yeah, nah we’re not allowed to. /he thinks about it as he looks at the burger/ But gain it’s not like we have a knife up at our neck forcing us not to eat /shrugs/ at least, not how bts’ label does it... it’s not that kinda thing /he laughs interested to share something/ once Jin Hyung, one o’ my members, wanted to dye his hair an when the company said no, he even threatened to dye it himself an guess what, they agreed to it knowin that they couldn’ do nothin bout it so better to do it with consent ‘guess...but yeah... /he picks at his food knowing soon he has to work on the next comeback/ it’s not like we’re forced to obey on every single thing. An for the weight, it’s kinda the same but different /shrugs/ cause o’ our trainin in our predebut years, we learned how to lose weight an why it’s important to a idol. An yeah, for some comebacks, we’ll have weight goals to meet. /then he remembers how thin he has to be for the next comeback which will have a y concept too/... For our next comeback, it’s gonna be more harder /he says eating a fry while thinking out loud/ ‘this be the only meal I’m eatin t’day or I’ll get fat ‘gain. If I ever go over my meal plan, it’s jus water. /he smiles slightly knowing that that’s one of the negatives about being an idol, not to mention the negative self body-image you get. He nods more, letting the silence rest there before grinning/ so imma enjoy this!~ /he takes one more big bite with a hum before realizing something with a light chuckle/ but I dun remember talkin bout it ‘n detail with ya. Jus sometimes mentionin it.../he hums before teasingly lifting a brow/ Hyung, did ya research it on your own cause ya were concerned?~ /he says playfully though it didn’t expect you to since it didn’t make sense to him for you to do so. He was just picking on you now playfully~/

@⏳Kim Sungkyu Spam Sungkyu1
[interesting...you seem to dislike teamwork in a work setting. Just trying to figure out why you think school teamwork projects are fine because I have trouble with those whenever I’m assigned to a group with members who don’t follow a deadline, etc. Ah the most stress I have is the group projects lol. Would you care to share what you’ve dealt with in school projects? It might give me insight into why you think school may be ever better. A lot of my colleagues who work and attend school say that group projects are just the same in the real world as in our classes. There’ll be inefficiencies and I find that a bit sad because you’d think grownups would act more grown up, you know? So insight please! : ) ]

@⏳Kim Sungkyu Spam sungkyu
[sorry for being vague. Yeah, I mean fully aware of the emotions-especially when ur feeling it boil within you /nods/ and as long as you aren’t holding ur emotions in, in general, I approve of that. Anger can get the best of us and make us say things that we don’t really mean but say at the moment. With writing, it’s better because we have the opportunity to think before sending but even texting as well as any other writing methods aren’t exceptions. And I agree with the fact that provocation is harder to hold in. Still, always good to use the experiences to grow your own patience even when provoked. What I do is take a step back, exhale then come back if that happens-harder to do in actual talking tho smh. Welp I can’t attest to the fact that you don’t start fights since I mean, approaching the problem can be in some cases. But I do too. But from what I’ve seen, we’re not approaching others to fight but address a problem that the other may be avoiding and that’s really important too; to bravely say what’s going on or concerning us at times : ) /pats your back/ so it’s fine bruh~ ]

@⏳Jung Hoseok (Hahaha, okay. I'm sorry for that. Yeah, I can admit that one of my worst trait is that, I can forgive but I won't forget. And once my trust are broken I will be like that, cold and harsh.
Thank you for being patient with me *hugs*)

he noticed the stare and looking up at the younger halfway. "mwhat? want this?" he said-half muffled as he motioned toward his own burger. He plucked one fries and dipped it into the sauce before popping it into his mouth. "I'm curious, hoseokkie. What do you usually eat? Is it true that as idol have to go to extreme diet? Are they even allowed to eat this?" he asked curiously; once again pointed at his burger and continue to munch on it messily. "This burger is delicious though. I want more..." he muttered while looked at the half eaten burger.

@⏳Jung Hoseok (Yeah, work often come with team work, right? or the results need cooperation with others. While I don't have problem with team work or cooperating with others, I dunno why but people seems like to mess with me or getting intimidated by me when I'm actually do nothing about it. While in school, I can do it perfectly by myself and when team work needed, they are the one who need my help eue
And if people taken out, I don't have any problem with school work or work workload. I can handle it both without being stressed eue)

@⏳Jung Hoseok (Fully aware of what? I'm fully aware of my emotions and anger. Too aware that sometimes I get frustrated because of it. And I'm aware of how I will act when I'm mad including the sarcastic or hurtful remarks. I always held it in and keep myself in check even when I'm mad, but when I keep being provoked and poked, well, they can't blame me if I'm reacting like that. Because they asked for it. But I'm trying to be extra patience but sometimes people can be too much and stepped all over me so I retaliate with that. I'm never go berserk without a reason and I never start thing like that. So, I only defending myself. It never me who start the fight. It's always them. So, I'm perfectly know when to pull away eue)

@Gene Gene spam
[mm well I didn’t think you were venting to me that first time bc you held the anger in and talked but yeah, the rest of the times after I called you out you were : ) bruh, I think that once you admit something, you can move past it. And yeah, that first time in pm didn’t feel like directly venting bc I personally felt uncomfortable, remember? : )
And no prob! It really is like a learning progress so it takes a bit of guiding : ) ]

/at your answer he parts his lips into an “ah~” while nodding. Then he takes a bite of his own burger and closes his eyes with a light moan. Ah it’s been way too long. When he opens his eyes, he blinks at you getting up and smiles, turning his head slightly/ where ya goin? /but when you come back, he chuckles because you didn’t wipe yourself and already got a cup of chilli/ so hyung’s a chilli head...~ /he hums before deciding to bring it up/ it looks real good for sure... /he says while staring almost longingly at you eating the burger. It looked really delicious. Sometimes chilli can taste good. But he had to remember not to attract too much attention. I mean you’re not an idol so you took him to non-idol places afterall. Luckily, Korean fans aren’t as physical as international ones though so the only thing he should worry about is dispatch starting a rumor-not that he’s popular enough in the group for it. He just continues chewing with a smile before taking a fry/ wow it’s really been too long though...

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[that makes sense~ And ah~ because with work you have to worry about people and ur relationships with them huh? That also makes sense, too : ) but I have a question for you. Take out people from the equation. Then do you find school more stressful or work only by evaluating the actual work by itself? ]

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[oh! You're admitting you weren’t actually full aware? I get it, sometimes anger and emotions make us relatively blind : ) and again, you don’t have to change yourself to act differently; you just stay aware enough to stop urself from hurting others and urself too much /nods/ but as long as the sarcastic remarks won’t be too much to make others uncomfortable, aight bruh~ just hope you know when you should pull yourself away ]

@⏳Jung Hoseok (It's not at you, but yes, thing about him left a bitter taste that I can't help make a sarcastic comments whenever I remembered. But it's not for you. I'm not mad at you but it's probably more like I vented about it and you happened to be the one who get to listen it.
Ah~ I see~ sometimes that detail escaped my mind. I'll try to be more careful thank you *hugs*)

He poured the ketchup inside and ready to bite but paused. "Huh? Ah, that~ yes, I like it extra~" he answered while smiling and took a bite of it. He hummed in delight before looking around again. "I like cheese but I don't like pickles on my burger. And now I think I need some chili sauce." he said while standing up after spotting the place where he can get it; not caring the smear of ketchup on his mouth and chin.
He take the little cup and goes to take the extra sauce. He put the extra sauce down and seating himself back. He pick his burger again and pouring a small amount of it before eating it again; humming softly. "Excellent." he murmured while grinning; sauce and ketchup smeared on his face.

@⏳Jung Hoseok (yeah, I just need to focus on my study since it's the main things if I ever did get my master degree. And yes, I do think that learning things in university in general subject is easier than facing my life. With study, I can be less emotional (?), using less emotion and I can be detached emotionally. For me, it's less stressed than when I have to think and do about everything at once that related to non study matters. I don't have to think about human relationship either.)

@⏳Jung Hoseok (Nah, I did take a step back and think about it. And maybe now I have to change myself not to be the pushy type *shrug* I just using this chara to comment unimportant things for awhile, since yes, I'm still bitter about that things, that I can't help other than make a sarcastic remarks whenever I remember and that's not good.)