president's room 。

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ hoseok。 we'll start with the jurassic park movie. the one that started it all.
bounces on the bed with a big grin and tilts my head up to catch your kiss with a growing smile.
hoseokkie. i want to spend all the time in the world with you.
catches your hands and drags you down onto your bed with me

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@ΝΓΤ ⁴ ten。 leans over with a cheeky grin before hooking my arms around your thighs, tossing you over my shoulder while humming a small tune.
to my room we go, to my room we - what are jurassic world movies about anyway?
questions while cocking my head to the side, fishing out my key from my back pocket to unlock the door. leaning down, i set you down on the end of the bed while nudging the door shut with my foot and pecking your lips

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ ten。 did i? seems like me. i'm really a messy drunk, and i don't drink much so when i do, i'm kind of a lightweight.
reaches up to rub upon the nape of my neck with a soft laugh, gaze slowly raising to meet your own whilst i lean into your touch. my fingertips gently tap against your ankles, a shy smile growing upon my tiers.
.....do i? ah, that makes me really happy. you deserve to be smiling all the time.
raises a hand to nudge a few strands of hair out of your face before leaning into delicately press a kiss to the corner of your lips
let's take things slow.. is that okay? i -- i haven't done this in a really long time, so.. i want to get this right. i want to get to know everything about you.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ hoseok。 oh, that's true. i know you're just super nice to a lot of people.
scrunches up my nose and leans in to peck your cheek.
well, it's because you seemed to immediately glue to me when you were drunk. and you said i was one of the few that really cared about you.
reaches up to place my fingers against your cheek to bring your eyes back to me.
well, you can see it whenever you want. you make me smile, you know.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ ten。 popular? well, i don't know. but i'm very peculiar about.. these kinds of things.
gently nudges myself up so that i can lean back against the headboard, the mention of the football game causing my hand to raise and rub at my forehead with a soft laugh.
god, the football game. what did i say? to give you the idea, i mean.
rests my hands in my lap and glimpses up at the ceiling, all worries now covered in relief
yeah.. i really like your smile.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ hoseok。 i know but... i thought you were popular. being a great president and all.
fiddles with the hem of my shirt, unable to hold back the brilliant smile working onto my face.
i honestly had no idea until very recently. around the football game. but i didn't want to be too confident, you know
glances up at you with a bit of a laugh
my smile? huh. i guess that is one of my redeeming characteristics.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ ten。 the fifth? oh god, no - i don't go around kissing just anyone, y'know.
gently bites down on my lower lip while looking up at you, all the while soon releasing a soft breath of content.
a good bit actually, but it kind of came full swing when we started talking. and all thanks to..
raises a finger to tap against your lips
your damn smile.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ hoseok。 wait, am i really? i thought i would have been the fifth or whatever.
smiles sheepishly and lets a little chuckle. runs my tongue over my lower lip as i feel my own cheeks warm from the heat of a blush.
how... long have you had your "eye on me"?

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ ten。 pulls back after a few moments, lips parted to allow soft pants to fan over your own. my forehead knocks against your own and i'm unable to hold back my growing smile, or hide my tinted cheeks.
you're um, the first person that i've kissed here.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ hoseok。 kisses you as slowly and deliberately as possible, meaning every movement and second spent on the kiss. tilts my head, deepening it between us with a hint of a smile of your lips. presses my chest to yours, not ready to part with you. my hands move to grasp onto your shirt, bunching it in my fists.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ ten。 yeah... i was just worried ab--
quickly catches myself on my elbows as you push me back, a jolt of initial shock running through my veins before i pull away to look at you.
ten..
mutters before raising one of my hands to pull you back in, my lips pressing against yours once more.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ hoseok。 oh . i was right.
says with widening eyes, my mouth parted slightly. stays silent for a long moment, soaking in what just happened.
hoseok--
reaches up to cup your cheeks and pushes you over so i can press our lips together in a kiss. squeezes my eyes shut as i kiss you, hoping and praying i didn't do the wrong thing.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ ten。 rests my chin in one of my palms while looking at you, my head soon dipping forward as the fingers of my free hand fidget lightly with the fabric of my socks.
oh.. i uh, its --
lightly bites down on my lower lip before pressing my lips together.
i thought it'd take a little bit longer for you to guess, but... you're just a smartie, i suppose.
pokes at the mattress lightly, my other hand now lightly rubbing at the nape of my neck.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ hoseok。 well this is gonna be a little weird and awkward but here it goes.
in a breath with my eyes closed before opening my eyes.
i... okay i think it’s me. just because of what you’ve been saying. but i’m not sure. you called me a friend so...
drops my gaze to pick at the comforter.
and i know you’d be worried about liking me because of what happened to me before.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ ten。 squints my eyes just the slightest while staring at you, my hand soon falling to rest in between my crossed legs.
it won't make things awkward, unless you make it awkward. or as you would say, just don't make it weird.
raises a brow with a hint of a smile, my fingertips tapping against my ankles.
say it.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ hoseok。 stares after you as you leave, a hint of confusion all over me. stays perfectly still, trying to think on what to do and say.
startles when you come back to me, you fingers right in front of my eyes.
oh. well. im not sure. i have an idea but feel like it’s way off. i don’t like guessing because it makes things awkward.
worried my bottom lip.
im not sure if i want to day.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ ten。 releases a sigh and pushes myself up, carefully setting the food down before requesting for 'one second' as i slip into the bathroom. i exit a few moments later and take a seat across from you, resting my elbows on my knees.
ten.
points my index and middle finger to your eyes before facing them towards my own.
tell me. who do you think it is?

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ hoseok。 you said i wouldn’t support you. so i guess i assumed.
shrugs my shoulders and sends a smile at you.
well, that’s on them. just don’t make it weird. just get it overwith. it might be a little awkward at first but if it’s barely a crush then it won’t be too bad.
rubs your cheeks and then late them
you can do it.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ ten。 no, i never mentioned you. you mentioned yourself.
raises a brow before releasing a heavy sigh and closing my eyes, fingers raising to rub over my face.
yeah, but what if it makes things weird?

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ hoseok。 yes. please take care of yourself.
rubs your shoulder and pecks your head.
well, you said i’d be upset or something like that.
squeezes your shoulders again.
well, you can’t find out until you talk to them. it’s better to ask instead of assume. please trust me on this. it may hurt if they reject you at first but it’ll help you move on and it'll take a weight off your shoulders. plus you won’t be left thinking and wondering about the what what ifs.
pecks your forehead again with a little sigh.
be kinder to yourself

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ ten。 i guess i do have a problem with that, huh?
releases a shaky laugh while raising my free hand to rub at the nape of my neck, still nibbling upon the inside of my cheek as my head rests upon my shoulder-- but i raise it again stubbornly, only to sigh and rest it back down.
i didn't say that i thought you'd be hurt.
mumbles and rests my hands in my lap
all of this is just, stressful. what's the use of doing this when i pretty much know where he stands? when i'm only just.. i just have a small eye on him. it's not even really anything anyway.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ hoseok。 then you need to get it out instead of worrying for others. love yourself a bit, hoseok.
puffs out my cheeks and shakes my head.
it still applies. it’s a crush. they’ll get over it. the quicker you can let them know where they stand, the better.
pauses to glance around at the bed to make sure it’s still clean.
reaches over to put your head on my shoulder.
i’m still not sure why i’d be hurt though.
turns my head to peck your forehead.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ ten。 i believe it.
lightly chews on the inside of my cheek, soon shaking my head while looking down at the box of food in my hand.
no, i wasn't talking about you or taehyung but -- that's good to know, i suppose.
releases a quiet 'oof' as you tug me back down, cursing quietly under my breath because the food could've spilled all over my blankets? but i take my seat next to you again, slumping my shoulders.
just because i try to stay away from things like this.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ hoseok。 it’ll be fun. im sure.
furrows my eyebrows and follows you walk back and forth.
hoseok... it’s okay. kyunsang is a big boy. he is strong and can handle his crush not liking him. and well, if the second person is me, and it better not be, i can still say the same thing. there’s plenty of fish in the sea. if they like you then they can move on. there’s many good guys here. you’re just a sweet guy. and if you mean taehyung, he’s already over you.
grabs your wrist and tugs you back down.
relax. you really think too much.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ ten。 y'know, i might have to take you up on that offer. i've never been out of the country.
speaks with a wide smile, continuing to eat with a cheerful hum. but as you begin talking again, i nudge myself up and begin pacing back and forth anxiously.
uh. if you do figure out who it is..... i just kind of have my eye on them. it's not a full blown... crush yet. see, i'm just not good at talking about this kind of thing. i keep things to myself most of the time.
rambles on before leaning back against the door, food in hand while i stare at you -- heart beat picking up while i look back down at my food
first person that i know would be hurt, kyunsang. and well... we all know why. the second person maybe i shouldn't name... i just kind of feel like maybe.. the way that i am, i feel like i could've lead them on, somehow.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ hoseok。 shush. i like your boring name.
grins at you you try the pad thai and i knock our shoulders together.
you should come to thailand and have my mom’s homemade food then.
both of my eyebrows raise at your frozen face and i sit back a bit to look at you, skeptical.
uh... sure? but you really gotta stop keeping things a secret. keeping it all to yourself is no good fam. but fine. don’t say if you don’t wanna. you could start by saying why you think i’d be hurt if you want.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ ten。 oof, i suppose it does. it's a nice name though, nice and lengthy. mine is boring, compared to it.
watches you for a moment before taking a bite, soon humming with widened eyes.
ooh! this is amazing, wow.
continues to eat while listening to you, slowly nodding along before pausing mid-chew, some noodles still hanging out of my mouth while i blink once, twice, and a third time.
do i have to go through everyone specifically? then it'll give things away.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ hoseok。 yeah, i’m thai. my name gives it away. it’s chittaphon leechaiyakul.
shrugs my shoulders and takes a seat with you wirh a box of pad thai. starts attacking it with a fork and spoon.
i think part of your issue is that you’re worried that the person you like won’t like you back. liking someone to you is all risk and no rewards. not only will your friends be hurt or so you think, but you also won’t get love out of it.
pauses to put the pad thai in my mouth, chewing slowly.
you can start by telling me who you think will be hurt and why. we can debunk those thoughts first.

@ΝΓΤ ⁴ ten。 oh -- i've actually never had thai food. you're thai? i didn't know that. the more you learn, i suppose.
bites down on my lower lip while watching you sit next to me, all before nudging myself up to begin looking through the bag full of the take out carriers.
what do you think it is?
questions curiously while peeking at you from beneath my lashes, my fingertips grabbing one of the boxes.... i didn't know where to start, but you gotta start somewhere, right?