Beach

@Takahiro Tasaki -giggles softly and looks up at you-
I am~?
-leans up to press my lips against yours softly-

@Takahiro Tasaki -leans into you happily-

@Takahiro Tasaki It’s been a while since I’ve been to the beach~

@Takahiro Tasaki -tugs you out to the beach-
daddy~ it's such a nice day out~

@Choi Seunghyun /I have now heard you say the words quite a few times today, but I am still not used to it, I still blush and burn, and my voice shakes when I return them/
I love you, too.
/there’s something sinful about the way you pull away from my hard and pout, I bite on my lower lip as I refrain myself from trying to push my into your mouth again/
I’ll work less if it’s for you...
/I frown a little/ it feels different for everyone... I will prep you properly but if it hurts you can just tell me and we’ll stop...
/I squeeze your hip gently once you hand me the lube/
I’m sure it’ll be fine. Although I really can’t believe Dae is an expert at this... /I say with a chuckle, my voice failing when you turn around and get on your hands and knees for me. Your looks amazing right now, every part of you is amazing and I feel so lucky you want to try this with me.
There’s nothing to mess up... there’s no wrong way to do this, Seunghyun...
/I kiss down your back as my lubed fingers start to prod at your entrance/
You trust me, right?
/I ask gently as I slide one finger inside, testing your reaction. I prep you slowly, and carefully, making sure to go easy on you whenever you tense/

@Choi Seunghyun /I can’t help but reach out for your face when you look up and say you’d do anything for me, my fingers tracing your cheek adoringly/
Same here, Seung. Same here.
/I groan a little in protest to your words, they are romantic but there’s one part I protest/
I don’t want to be apart...
/my voice breaks as you take more of me into your mouth, the feeling is overwhelming and I press my head back into the pillow as I moan loudly. I almost forget about your request, ready to on your lips, when you pull away and I blink confused/
Oh?
/I watch you roll the on me and remember what you requested. Right./
Uhm...
Hands and knees is easier probably... especially since it’s your first time...
/I try to move and not show how impatient I’ve become, I really want to get things going again/
You can tell me to stop at any time... if it gets too much... ok?
Did you get lube?

@Choi Seunghyun /there’s so much love in my eyes when I look back at you, it feels so big in my chest that it’s overflowing and I hope you can see it/
Thank you, Seunghyun...
/it’s all I need to hear right now, your voice has always been soothing to me and I don't think that's going to change/
We got all the time in the world to explore it... I’m open to anything with you... /my eyes flutter close at your lips on my skin, it feels so good/
Ah- /I grip your shoulders as you my tip, it’s tempting to just unravel right here, but I also love to watch you right now, going down on me, it’s a dream come true/
Can you...? /I ask with a small chuckle, but my breathing is irregular as you take more of me in your mouth. My hand turns to grip yours/
It feels good, baby...

@Choi Seunghyun Don't let me forget it~ /I whisper back, because I know I'll need you to tell me over and over again. You'll need to help me quieten the negatives in my mind. Although right now they feel like a distant memory, it'd be naive of me to think them gone for good/
I probably would... yes... /I hum right back as we kiss, I could imagine so much, but right now I just want to be in this moment/ would you?
/my heart beats loudly in my ears as you take my to your lips, I never quite thought I'd see this happening and it's absolutely beautiful. You're mine, and I'm yours, and it's all I want/
nngh-
/I shiver/
good different? Or bad different? /I ask with a breathless laugh/

@Choi Seunghyun My idiot, that's true~ /I your cheek, and smack a kiss on your lips/
lots of fun for sure~
/I smirk at your words, some of my swag coming back/
My sweet boyfriend is dessert~
/I my lips slowly as I watch you come closer, desire and expectation coiling in my belly. I grunt when you grab my , my hips rolling slightly/
it's good, baby...
/I your wrist softly, encouragingly/
do you want to know what it tastes like?

@Choi Seunghyun /my eyes widen in shock initially, and then I burst into a laugh/
you idiot!
/my smile only widens when you kiss it/
I wouldn't hate it either, but you will be sore by the end of it, I hope you realise~
/my breathing hitches as you move down my neck and I hum/
what's for dessert?
/I raise myself to my elbows to watch you undress, I let my eyes linger on your body, taking it all in, and then I comply. I push my swim suit down and throw it to the side/
happy?
/I crook my finger to goad you closer and part my legs/
how about this dessert?
/I ask as I run my hand up my thigh, my standing to attention/

@Choi Seunghyun /snorts/ my would disagree with that~
/the way you touch me allows me to get back to being serious, although there's still a smile on my face, it's relaxed and happy/
I love you too..
/I whine at your suggestion, I don't know if I could survive that!/
if you want me to tie you to the bed and not let you go until you're not blue-haired any more, go ahead~
/I giggle in between smooches, I don't know what I want more, to kiss you or to talk to you, it's all so good I feel like I might stop functioning some time soon/
/I huff as you drop back against me, just to grin at you/
oh please~ eat me up~
/I am definitely not scared, and it's becoming more obvious that the effect you have on me is localised to my crotch area/
I think we both know I can make you listen~
/I reply with a lower tone, my hips rolling again/
I will happily grant your wish~
Take your swimsuit off now~

@Choi Seunghyun /I chuckle at your joke, just to roll my eyes/ who knew you were such a ~
/I gasp at your accusations, just to aw a little when you say you wouldn't want me any other way. As much as we are joking around, it's such a relief to have you by my side, you know all of me already, the good and the bad/
Good. Cause you're stuck with me~
/I laugh as well, my chest shaking as I try to stay in control and not end up giggling as you make farting noises/
I think you need to work on the y a little~ /I tease you even though I know you know exactly what to do to be y/
y, yes, but badass? I beg to differ~ /I comment with a daring tilt of my chin, just to hum at the way you pin me to the bed/
I'm not scared at all~
/I wrap my leg around yours and roll my hips, rubbing myself against your thigh as we kiss/
mm~
should I order you to sit on my ?
/I ask while pulling on your lower lip with my teeth/
would that be bossy too?

@Choi Seunghyun /It's overwhelming for a moment to just hear you say it again, the feelings you have for me are so beautiful and bright, I have no way of denying them any more and I am so overwhelmed and happy/
I guess it's not a competition, but I feel like I've definitely won the lottery right now~
/I see the look of love in your eyes and how beautiful everything is in this moment and I am filled with such bliss I can only lean closer and kiss you again/
/my eyebrow curls as you throw my words back to me/
I was ually frustrated, you know?
/I mumble with a little pout, just to squeak when you pick me up and clearly stumble/
Hyung!
/I whine and laugh as we find ourself on the bed/
I'm fine, luckily... you're such a wimp~ /I tease you, brushing back your hair, and then stroking your cheek to get you closer/
You're lucky I love you and I need you to kiss me right now~

@Choi Seunghyun /I chuckle at your protests/ are you sure? Cause I want you to love me A LOT, duckie~
we are~ it's gonna be impossible to ever top today, mm? /I your hair back/ I am so lucky...
/I lean in for a slow kiss, your dumb smile can do things to me/ thank you~
/I let out a sigh, I don't know if it's the situation or the words themselves, but I'm getting very /
please do...
/I kiss down your neck/
I want to see it all...
/I fall silent as you let me into the yacht's bedroom, I didn't expect for it to be candle-lit and there's an audible gasp on my lips/
wow...
/I look around in awe, just to then turn towards you/
you spoil me so much...
/I cup your cheeks, leaning up to kiss your lips/
thank you, Seunghyun...

@Choi Seunghyun /I chuckle amused at your reaction, and attempt to come in between your collar and face so I can kiss all over your blush. I don't know how you managed to make this part of me bubble out, but it's happening/ you're the cute one, bubblegum~
/I kiss your timid smile/ Today is already amazing... but I also can't wait to go out to dinner with you as my boyfriend~
/I chuckle against your lips, my own on your tongue before I move a bit/
mm, you taste good no matter what..
but cream is special for sure~
/my lips twitch into a grin/ Jiual... sounds like what I want you to be...
/I leave soft kisses along your jaw/ knowing you touched yourself thinking about me makes me feel so hot, baby...
/I take your hand, gently, overwhelmed and happy about what we're sharing today/
let's get to the bed...
/I whisper with what I hope is a sultry look/
I just want to see you and under me...
I've been craving for your body since I woke up...

@Choi Seunghyun You sure you mean worst? /I ask as I see the red on your cheek/ my honeydew sugarplum? /I whisper as I peck your burning cheek with a growing chuckle. Adorable. It's difficult to want to stop when you're this pretty. I've never seen you quite like this and I want it all for me/
Dinner? How many things did you cram into today? /I ask curiously, my eyes sparkling slightly as I look into yours/
/I do my best to pin you down with my body, but you keep teasing me and I'm confused between amusement and arousal as you cover us both in cream and I your neck and lips until it becomes a sloppy make out session/
You taste good with cream~
/snorts a little/ you and your rationalisation...
/I trace your chin with my index finger/
did you touch yourself thinking about it?
/my smirk melts into a sweet smile when you tell me not to hold back/
I can't say I know how to do that already... but I'll learn... I want to make this work, Seunghyun...
/chuckles when you call me oppa, but I also feel a little too aroused/ damn you-
/I blink confused as you tug on my hand because it takes me a moment to understand what you mean, when it clicks, it's an instant rush to my nether regions, my bathing suit tenting/
oh-
really?
/I swallow hard and cup your cheek/
You want this? You're sure?

@Choi Seunghyun /you call my name, but I am ruthless, more names pop in my head and I just use them/ yes, sugarplum?
/I tease you in between kisses, overwhelmed by bliss/
I might be into some food play- /I almost snort into the strawberry when you push it in my mouth and my shoulders shake in a silent chuckle as I try to chew and not choke. It becomes incredibly hard when I see you cream off your fingers, shivers of arousal running down my spine almost instantly/
unfair-
/I protest, and I climb half on you in an attempt to your lips of any trace of cream/
mm, it's a good thing it's just me... you're -my- baby after all... no one else's...
/pouts a little, just for show/ it's not made to be ...
and I like ... you know?
/smirks/ Are you good with your tongue?
I think you're going to have to prove that~
/just the way you look at me, the love and want in your eyes. I want you to always look at me like this... is it possible?/
/my breathing hitches as you shush me and lean closer/
you remember?
/my tongue comes out to flick your finger/
did you like to see me rubbing against you?
/I the hair at the back of your head/
I'm thankful too...
/I whisper against your lips, cheeks burning red when you allow me to be obsessed with you/
I won't stop myself from feeling things any more...
I'll let you become my everything...
I hope you're ready for it~
But know that there can never be anyone like you for me...
/my eyes go watery once again, your words too touching for me not to choke up/
and y-you will be... always... and I will be there for you too... I promise I always will want to see you, even if I run away in the moment... I will come back...
/I sigh when you cup my face, it feels so warm, and safe/
yes... I won't forget it...
/chuckles/ the fans who imagine us together...
/my whole face go red at your question/ look, I don't know alright... it's just become such a word these days... so hearing you say it does things to me...
/smiles/ I know you won't, you don't have it in you... but of course I'll tell you if you hurt me... I hope you'll do the same?
/I blink as you stand up, instinctively reaching out to take your hand/
I think I ate enough...
and what do you mean? /I ask curiously/

@Choi Seunghyun Mmhmm~ my pumpkin~ /I keep teasing you, loving the colour on your cheeks, although it's no doubt matched by mine when you return an equally embarrassing nickname. I thought I wouldn't care for stuff like this, but turns out if it's you, I find everything adorable/
I happen to like strawberries, yes... are you holding it against me now?
/I kiss your hands when you cover your face/
that's because you are cute~
you're my baby and you're the cutest~ get used to it~
ahhh my ring is not made to be on though... /I say as I let go of the candy gem with a little pop, just to come back and it/
I think you prefer it when I on something else, mm?
So you're passionate about me, mm? It makes sense though... as you say, we are a power couple. Black card power couple.
Yah! You can't say that when I was the one who suggested Okinawa! /I protest, I don't consciously notice the way you move closer, but I'm doing the same, I just want to feel you against me, even if all we end up doing is talk/
I would have followed, blindfold or not!
/I look at you confused, I never thought you could feel invisible when I was always in your space, , even when you weren't around I was kissing and hugging reproductions of you, did you never see that?/
you were never invisible to me, Seunghyun... since the day we met, you became an indelible part of my life... if I believed in it, I would call it fate...
/I press my lips to your tear, brushing it off your skin/
I should be the one thanking you... you have no idea how many times I fantasised about having you as a boyfriend- /I trail off when I realise what I just said, how creepy it might sound/ I wasn't obsessed... just... liked you a lot... /I try to explain, cheeks burning red/
/I brush my fingers through your hair as you bury your face in my arm/
You can be quite the flirt, can't you? I imagine I am one of the guys you lead on...
/I kiss that half moan off your lips before I pull back to address your more serious concern/
I had to leave the room because I didn't want to cry in front of people... I didn't want to show my feelings so blatantly... I'm used to hiding them... and things have been pretty difficult between us, the tension was... overwhelming sometimes... but it was never because I hated you... it was more because I wanted to let you go on with your evening without having to deal with me being hurt...
deep down, I always hoped you would follow... I never shut you out completely or refused to talk to you... so it was never a rejection... I hope you can believe that...
I will do my best not to do it again... but... if things get heated... I wouldn't want to stay in public... I don't think that can change very easily...
/I whimper softly at the deeper kiss, my hand clench in your hair, I don't want you to stop just yet/
did you have it custom printed? /I ask although I have a feeling I know the answer to that question already/
/my jaw almost drops at your tease/
is it bad if I enjoy you calling me that?
/frowns/ you might have been more angry... but you protected me from bullies... you never treated me badly, Seunghyun... /scratches my chin/ but I guess the timing wouldn't have been right...
/I grin, a little proud/
the only one, mm?
Good.

@Choi Seunghyun Not sure. Maybe being my pumpkin, or my cupcake?
/I tease you with a grin, I wonder just how cheesy I can get if things keep going like this/
Oh. You like baby? /I ask with a blush, I had let that one slip, especially when we were having . The fact you haven’t noticed how much I truly liked you is increasingly surprising/
I suspect I will call you that a lot...
/I laugh blissfully at the way you show off your candy ring, I had no idea you were wearing it and it’s goofy and sweet in equal measure/
Nu-uh, I love you more!
/I protest, and I take your hand so I can put the candy in my mouth with a mischievous giggle/
/I almost snort when you put a chocolate in my mouth, it’s impossible to think anything negative right now, you’re beyond adorable/
You didn’t seem to love them so much last time we fought... /I protest although it really doesn’t matter any more. I got you now. Here. With me. Knowing you have such strong feelings for me puts everything into a different light. Your jealousy and hurt makes a lot more sense. And maybe I was the blind one. It’s just difficult to believe the guy I was dying after finally sees me as I am./
/I snort at your joke and nudge you with my shoulder/
Isn’t your wallet the second fattest one?
I can’t believe you’re a gold digger after all these years...
/the way you talk about our unique connection makes me pause, it’s so beautifully put that I wish I could jot it down somewhere, but I don’t want to pull away or stop talking to you for even a second/
I didn’t even realise I did anything... but there’s nothing I ever wanted more than to be by your side, Seung... and listen to you... it’s always felt right to be your close friend... I never even saw anyone else when you were in the room... it’s like we were always in tune when we tried...
/my eyebrow curls/ toying with them? What did you do?
/I huff and puff when you put some cake on my chin, but I end up laughing when you kiss it away, I wrap my arms around your neck and keep you close/
You rascal! I want to eat the cake!
/I protest, kissing all over your face rather than thinking about revenge, I can taste the strawberry too and it just makes everything more special/
I don’t think I’ve ever been this happy, so I think your wish can happen~ /I tease you softly, I know it’s unrealistic to think that we can always be happy but I also know our world has changed drastically today. We will never be the same, for better and for worse/
And if you do make me sad, you can do this again and I’ll forgive you~ /I say with a grin, stroking your hair back/ I love you... /I just have to say it again/
Chocolate and almond, of course I see it... I thought you chose it on purpose...
/I lean into you as I think about the past/
I do recognise it... I looked for it those first years especially... I thought it was a girl... /I chuckle/
I look up at you, my gaze sweet and adoring/
You should have told me...
I would have jumped your bones a lot earlier...
/I try to joke although I know it’s true, I was dying to get a bit of a hint from you that you could be interested, but I never saw anything/
Should I be jealous of the others if you sent cards to them too?

@Choi Seunghyun I see... it's a... pleasant surprise~ /I lean up to kiss the corner of that shy smile. God. I just love you/ I might find a nickname for you too... something cuter than just: my love~
/I look into your eyes as you reiterate your feelings with even more confidence, and I just want to cry. I'm so happy I want to cry. How is that normal?/
You mean... Choi-Kwon Jiyong?
/I joke softly, because I don't know how else to deal with this, I don't want to become a snotty mess and I am too overwhelmed to return the words with anything coherent./
I love you a lot too...
/smiles at your suggestion/ you are right, we should focus on the positive now... and how good it feels to finally be your boyfriend...
/I look at the cake curiously, it looks very inviting, but it's impossible to think about eating when you start talking about me/
you made a list of bad traits there, and you say that's why you like me? /I comment with an amused smile, although there's a small pang to my stomach. That voice that tells me I am just 'difficult', and no one can love that./
you're the only one who sees the vulnerable part... /I whisper, finally stabbing the cake with the fork and bringing the piece to my mouth as I look down/
I think things are changing now that you got only guys around, mm?
But you are sensitive, you are deeper than any guy I know... so sweet and good... I wish I could protect your heart but life keeps throwing stuff at you...
/I nudge my nose into your cheek as you blush/
and this is just proof of it...
so thoughtful... I don't even know how you can think these up... you've basically been a sugar daddy?
/I kiss your lips/
from now on you can come directly to me about everything... I don't want to miss a thing...
you're making my day with this, my month, my year... I'm really happy, Seunghyun...
/I smile at the card, my thumb stroking the chocolate bar on the front before I open it and laugh at the glitter falling on my bare legs/
it's so pretty...
/I look at the signed 'T' and frown/
I've definitely seen this before... did you do it back then too? When we had few fans?

@Choi Seunghyun oh no, I love it~ I'm not used to it, that's all~ /I say with a big smile, it's not really something that has been on my lips much in the last few years/ Is that how you want to call me?
/my heart jumps in my throat as we kiss, it's quick, but just the way you pull me closer is able to make me dizzy. I had no idea it could feel like this, I had no idea I could look into your beautiful face and hear you say those words. It was nothing short of a miracle, and I can't remember the last time I felt so alive/
please say it a lot...
/I whisper against your lips, my cheeks burning red before I pull away and take another look around/
it is a lot, but in a good way... you.. make me feel special...
/I rub my stomach a little nervously as I admit something else/
I have been unable to think of you as 'just a friend' since the first time we... touched each other...
I tried to say it so that I wouldn't scare you...
But I think there's a reason why I wasn't able to be with anyone for long in the past...
/I take the cup of coffee, gratefully, moving on the seat so I can be pressed against your side, there's no way in hell I'm going to be far from you today/
so you... had thoughts about me... before...?
/I ask as I look up at you, my lips after taking a sip of coffee/
wait, you- you sent stuff to my fanmail?
/I repeat, surprised, taking the card in my hand and looking at the envelope. You are so thoughtful. I don't even have words any more to tell you just how much I appreciate you. I just hope you can feel how meaningful this is to me/

@Choi Seunghyun Sweetheart? /I repeat with a silly smile, I don't think you called me that before... but I wasn't your boyfriend before. Now I am. Ah./
/my shoulders relax when I feel your body against mine, it's actually nice to feel you close. I didn't realise just how nice it felt to be by the sea, the sound, the air, it was all so perfect, especially because you were close/
/I sit down and cross my legs. I can feel the very mild swaying of the boat as we stepped on it/
/I turn my head from one side to the other as I hear the movements, I am pretty sure there's someone else on the boat, but I don't know if it's someone I know/
thank you Seunghyun's friend~
/I say at some point when I hear the footstep growing more distant, grinning to myself when we start to move/
I still need to keep this on?
/I protest after a while, frowning when I hear something bubbling, wondering what it could be/
/I sit up straighter when you say you are ready and I first look at you with a grin when the scarf is gone, just to the turn to the boat and gasps softly at the way you've decorated everything./
this is amazing...
how...
/I look at the spread, the candles, the ribbons and flowers, this is so much more than I could ever even imagine./
you did all this... even though we weren't even together yet?
/I ask, my eyes going a little wet/
you know, no one has ever done anything like this for me...
I never even imagined anything this romantic...
/I move towards you and wrap my arms around your neck so I can pull you down for a kiss/
I love you...
if I hadn't told you already, I would have blurted it out now...
I love you and you're amazing...
/and I look down at the card you slid on the table/
right... I should open that?

@Choi Seunghyun /I wear a tight swimsuit and a loose white shirt before I let you drag me out of the hut. I debate for a long time whether to bring the ring with me or not, but I decide to leave it in its box in the safe, because if I lost it on the beach or in the sea I would never be able to forgive myself/
/I wear a ton of sunscreen, and run after you around the room while you finish getting ready to make you wear it too, and by the time we're walking on the beach, I am beaming and leaning into your side, happy like never before/
I did wonder why you'd wear a scarf at the beach...
/I look up at you/
ok-
but don't scare me, please?
/I say with a little pout, hoping this is a good surprise and not a prank/
I trust you too much for my own good...
/I say as I help you blindfold me/

@Choi Seunghyun /I can’t help the way an idiotic smile takes ownership of my face at your words, you’re just too adorable/
You can have the title of great boyfriend when you schedule in the as well~
/I comment, popping my head around just in time to catch a nice view of your . Mm. That doesn’t help./
I need to wash my hair.
And get rid of the you caused me.
/I say as I get back into the bathroom, shaking my head/
I think the fish prefer it when we’re clean, hyung~

@Choi Seunghyun A few hours? Are we sailing to Hawaii??
/I protest, the pout only growing deeper as an insistent blush spreads down my neck and I wrap the shirt around me a bit more/
Fine, whatever...
/I turn away from you to jump off the bed and gather my swimsuit and a towel/
I’ll have a quick shower then...
/I head towards the bathroom/
Wish you were this proactive when we had to finish the choreos for the tour-
/I mumble unimpressed, wondering what I’ve gotten myself into. It’s difficult to be seriously upset though when I know I now have you as my boyfriend. And I will be sure to exact my revenge when we’re back in bed/

@Choi Seunghyun /the way you look at me makes my body tingle excitedly, it's definitely not what I am used to seeing and I feel like I might just come apart. Is this because now you know I'm yours?/
what?
/I mumble surprised as you pull away, still a little dizzy when you kiss the inside of my wrist, but I snap out of it when you reach for your phone/
/my hair is a mess, your shirt is now hanging down my shoulder and you can probably tell I am not wearing any underwear/
you booked it this early?
/I protest, biting on my lower lip, I was hoping we'd have time to have , so when I realise it's not going to happen, I end up pouting/
I can't believe I'm like this and you're making me wait for it...

@Choi Seunghyun /you say you're happy too and it feels so good, what kind of magic is this that has finally put us both on the same page?/
/my breathing hitches as you push me back against the pillows, the necklace hangs between us as you lean over me and I shiver when I feel the orb dip between the layers of your shirt and touch my skin/
good...
/I whisper, blood rushing as we join in a longer kiss, I feel dizzy when you hold my hands down/
I love you too-
/my voice shakes as I attempt to express my feelings in between the kisses, a different kind of urge rising as you press your lips to my ear/
Seunghyun~
/I whimper, my leg trying to wrap around you and pull you closer/
show me how happy I make you~
/I add mischievous, my eyes glassy and filled with feelings, but I still tease you/

@Choi Seunghyun It's not- /I protest, my hand gripping your arm, the ring catches the light and it's just... so beautiful/
it's overwhelming in a good way...
I'm happy, Seunghyun...
/I help you move the box, I need to be closer too, I want your warmth to confirm the words we just exchanged/
/the touch on my neck makes me giddy, and I chuckle into the kiss, my heart is well past the point of crazy/
don't thank me...
you're giving me exactly what I want, Seunghyun...
/my smile becomes so wide as you repeat the words, I am not imagining this, this is real/
It's only been a few seconds, but I think you're doing well so far~
/I try to joke, the look of adoration in your eyes is only mirrored in mine. Is there anything more perfect?/
My track record is bad too, Seunghyun...
But I will do my best to make you happy...
I'll get you there or die trying...

@Choi Seunghyun I love it, Seunghyun... /I smile, overwhelmed, there's something blooming in my chest that feels a lot like happiness. It's an unfamiliar feeling nowadays, but it spreads everywhere you touch. And as I realise you really gave me a ring, the feeling just doubles and bubbles, it's taking over and it makes me reckless. I could cry too, get lost into your sweetness, but I am in for so much more now/
you went to a lot of trouble for it...
I think you beat my candy rings...
/there's a little chuckle, but it disappears into the tension of the next moment./
/I regret the words the moment I say them, but not because of what they mean, more because I should have been nicer. I should have asked you, politely, I should have begged you, I shouldn't just order you around. But it's too late now, the truth is out and I guess the way the words formed on my lips, it's clear how much I need this./
/Yet my request stills in the air for what feels like forever/
/I don't know if you're debating your answer, or looking for words, but I am scared when you don't even smile. What would I do if you said no?/
/I am just about to deflate when you say 'okay'. I blink furiously, trying to understand whether it's an answer or just a segue into a different topic. My eyes burn as I see you move off the bed, and I swallow hard when you take out a letter/
/As you start to talk, I sit back on my ankles and I just... listen. My heart the only thing accentuating the paragraphs of your poetry./
/I never thought I'd ever be confessed to in such a way. I never thought someone could love me so deeply. I have always known you were probably the sweetest man alive, but I've never felt your whole being so completely tuned into mine/
/I don't even know what to say because I don't want to ruin the beauty of the moment, nor I want to take away from the words you're saying by throwing on you all I have felt in the last 20 years. Neither of us would exist if we hadn't met, it was our connection that created who we are today, and now that I know, I have to trust it/
/I move close, I rub my hand over your chest, I feel the beating of your heart before I cup your cheeks/
Choi Seunghyun...
you have lived in my head and in my heart since the moment I met you...
you'll never be just a moth to me...
/I your jaw with my thumb/
you have such a beautiful soul...
and I can't believe I am so lucky as to be loved by you...
you...
you are better than all of my wildest dreams put together...
/I look into your eyes, so you can see how serious I am, so you can memorise it/
I love you, too.
I love you, Seunghyun...

@Choi Seunghyun /it's not that easy to shift my attention from your face and your warmth, to the box you have in your hand, but I do it nonetheless when you hand it to me. I don't really expect anything, but when I open it, my heart explodes. It's a ring. You got me a ring?/
Seunghyun...
/I stammer your name, my lips staying parted as my fingertips trace the path of the rubies/
it's so beautiful...
/I am shaking again as I take the ring out the box and slip it on my finger, surely... surely this means what I want it to mean? You want me to have a part of you, but me wearing this means that you own me... do you know that?/
/I fall silent as I look at the ring on my finger, and the box with our pictures, your words soothe me, but inspire me in a different way as well/
Be mine then.
/I exclaim eventually, finally looking up, my eyes desperately searching yours/
Be my boyfriend.
/I said it. I said it and I could faint right now, but I couldn't keep it in any more. I've bared almost all my cards and I don't want to leave this island without being sure that we're together. I want you. And I can only hope I am reading this correctly, or I've just ruined our weekend./