Seunghyun's Villa

@Choi Seunghyun /I chuckle at your words/
I know -you- think I'm cute, so why wouldn't I use it to get me all the kisses you got?
/I say while I try to be cute, wrinkling my nose because I want more kisses/
/I cup your cheeks and wipe away the tears/
it's a matter of practice... rather than let yourself think like that, you have to stop and tell yourself it's unfair to think of yourself that way... at some point the thoughts will go away, I promise...
/I tilt my head to the side/ well, it's hard to stop myself from kissing you sometimes...
/I keep a steady hold on you as you talk on the phone, I don't really listen to what your father is saying because I am completely focused on you and your reaction, when you hang up, I pull you into my chest and rub your side/
ok... what do you want to do?

@Choi Seunghyun Am I?
How cute do you think I am?
/I ask while smiling wide so my cheeks pop out a bit/
You can be a hypocrite if you want, I just want the truth...
I suffered from depression as well... would you think I am inferior if I had done what you did? Would your opinion of me change?
/I nod/
Of course. I’ll be your best friend that day and hopefully I can refrain from making out with you in front of him~
/I smile and nod/
I’m very curious. But I don’t want you to do anything that you don’t want to do... you lead and I follow in this case~

@Choi Seunghyun Mm, I would say that was my best decision to date~
/I kiss your laugh, and smile at you/
You better.
/I squeeze your hand/
I know. And it’s ok.
But if someone else came to you, having done what you’ve done, would you judge him in the way you judge yourself?
/I kiss your knuckles/
If anyone doesn’t accept who you are, it’s their fault, not yours...
/I give you a small smile/
If he’s like you, we’re be very lucky... because he’d be a warm hearted human being we can respect...
/shakes my head/
You don’t have to let anyone in. You can ask to just meet only him at first.

@Choi Seunghyun Sometimes? Make that always.
/snorts/
I hope you mean to say you’re crazy for me? /wiggles brows, just for tilt your chin so I can kiss your lips before I listen to the rest of your words/
Seunghyun...
You have nothing to prove to him-
And he can’t judge you when he hid from you for so long...
/it’s not an easy situation, and I wonder what’s the best way to approach it/
I think you should forget about the fact he’s your father... think of him as a new friend... you get to know him and if you click you keep him, otherwise you move on...
Rejection is always an option but the fear of it shouldn’t keep us from doing things...

@Choi Seunghyun I wouldn’t mind that... I’m good at sussing out people~
/I chuckle and nip at your jaw/
You must be crazy not to find yourself y
You’re breathtaking sugarplum~
/eyebrows rise at your words/
And that’s it? You never mentioned him to her again?
/I frown/
If you still got questions... maybe you should meet him and ask them... rather than obsess over them in your head...

@Choi Seunghyun Naaa I would frame it only if I was there too~
/I smile when you grin and continue the little kisses/
were you? Too good at sarcasm, I can’t even hear it
/I sit back against the sofa/
Did you... ask your mom?
/I give you back the business card/
Do you want to meet him again? Talk more?

@Choi Seunghyun What do you think I’m gonna do with it?
/I keep kissing your cheek as you pout/
It’s the truth, why do you think it’s funny
/I take the business card as I listen to your explanation/
So he didn’t say why he wasn’t there when you were a kid?
/I tap the paper/
Did you try to Google him? Or find him on Facebook?

@Choi Seunghyun /I turn towards you at your reply/
Can’t I enjoy it?
/leans in to place a kiss on your cheek/
You know my favourite is still you without clothes~
/I try to think about it/
There are many reasons
He could have been in prison! I don’t know! I would have asked him that. He’s the only one who can give you the answers. Unless he’s like you who doesn’t like to talk about sensitive stuff.

@Choi Seunghyun /I take the phone and look at the picture, my jaw almost dropping/
Oh wow-
Damn you look good in a uniform...
/frowns a little/
I don’t think people choose to stop loving someone...
But just because the relationship ended doesn’t mean that he stopped loving you...
Why would he come round if he didn’t care...
/my eyes widen at your words/
I think if he was after money he would have turned up earlier, don’t you think?

@Choi Seunghyun /I smile a little when you snort, because I think if you can laugh about it then we are going to be ok/
Just like you?
That’s hot~
/tilts head to the side/
People do very stupid things sometimes...
So what happened? Did you just tell him to go away and not get in touch?

@Choi Seunghyun Are you saying he wasn’t as handsome in real life?
/I try to tease you, tentative as I don’t know how you’d take it/
So you...
Don’t care what kind of person he is?

@Choi Seunghyun /frowns and moves even closer, as if that could help in any way/
So you... liked him?
/bites on my lower lip/
It’s not your fault you didn’t know though... was it your mom who said he was dead?

@Choi Seunghyun /my hands cling harder to you when you say you need me more/
I’m here. Always.
/the way your thumb moves over my knuckles calms me, but I know not to get distracted from what you’re saying. I never imagined you met your dad, so many things happened when we were apart, but you sure like to keep your secrets close to your chest/
And then...?
You’re telling me what happened but not how it made you feel...

@Choi Seunghyun I... it’s ok... I’m scared of losing the happiness I acquired, that’s all...
/I kiss your hands/
I can wait for when you feel like you can talk about it...
/my brows lift in surprise/
Was this... before you overdosed?

@Choi Seunghyun /I frown a little at your words, I didn’t quite expect it/
What did you want to do differently?
/I squeeze your hand, letting you go on/

@Choi Seunghyun /I sigh at your reassurance, and I curl closer to you/
Thank god...
/I cup your hand with both of mine and nod/
Ok...
You want to talk about what happened now?
/I ask softly, my voice calmer and gentler now that some of the anxiety has subsided/

@Choi Seunghyun You’re scaring me, Seunghyun... are you trying to break up with me?
/I blurt out, leaning closer to look into your eyes, I need to know this/
I do remember, yes.

@Choi Seunghyun Yeah, I got that much
/I scratch the bridge of my nose/
About not wanting to get married...

@Choi Seunghyun /my jaw clenches and I look down at my hand in yours/
ok...
is it.. bad?
I don't understand...
/my voice cracks a little, worried/

@Choi Seunghyun mm- /swallows hard, just to then bite on my lower lip/ on.. the couch...
/I'm suddenly nervous, because you are nervous and I wonder now if Dae really knows more than I do/
please... just... say whatever you want to say...
/I mumble sheepishly, my heart hurts in worry/

@Choi Seunghyun /I am deep in thought for the whole of the trip home, I am determined not to be bothered by Dae's words, but they still linger in my head and I can't push them aside/
ah... no, I'm too tired... I think I'd end up falling asleep right away if I drank now..

@Choi Seunghyun Lucky me I do well in tests~
/I keep stroking your cheekbone, gentle, careful/ I know you do... but you also know me... don't forget all you've learned about me just because of anxiety... cling to me and our reality... and if you need me to reassure you, I will...
/I kiss your chin/
I have to admit... I also thought of that when I saw him cry... and I got scared, thinking of when you will decide to stop dating...
/I admit sheepishly/ I get scared too... especially when I care so much...
/I slip into your arms, squeezing your body/
But that doesn't mean it will happen, right?
/I pull back a little/ Dae asked you out?

@Choi Seunghyun /It feels good to let my body slot against yours as you tuck us in, your skin feels even softer after the we shared and I don't think there can be a more perfect ending to our evening together/
/my eyes flutter open at your words, I wonder what they mean, did you really not finish usually?/
You'll always finish with me...
/I whisper softly, kissing along your chest and brushing my lips to your /
I wouldn't have continued if I thought you didn't enjoy it...
/I look back up at you as you speak, my leg settling in between yours. I wish I could really be your missing piece. You feel so perfect for me, but I don't know if you'll ever feel the same/
I'm glad you enjoyed it... you felt really good, Seunghyun...
/I admit even though I'm trying not to read too much in your words, they are so sweet... they make me hope/

@Choi Seunghyun /snorts/ were you testing me?
/I trace your cheekbone with my thumb, touching you helps me ground myself, it's the only way I can show you my affection other than with words, the only way I can reassure you I'm here for you/
I'm not like anyone you've ever dated before, Seunghyun...
I might get jealous but it won't be of your friends...
and I will never punish you for it...
I care for the people you care about because they help you and make you happy... and I know Jackson is nothing but a sweetheart... and you're not chosing him over me... you're just helping out in an emergency... I understand that...
/smiles encouragingly/
you won't drive me away unless you really want to...
and I do want to visit... I'm not uncomfortable... I am just being careful, considerate... but I do want to be there for you in such a situation... unless you think not having me around will help...
/nods/ I thought he reminded me of you sometimes...
/chuckles when you mention Daesung/ it does... do you think they would match? I don't know what Dae's type is at all... I didn't even know he was gay...
yeah, let's rest... /I sigh at the sweet feeling of your hand squeezing mine/ I guess it's good we found each other, mm?
/chuckles at your reaction/
I leave the spoiling to you then, since you're the expert~
/I leave a kiss on your kiss/
let's go...

@Choi Seunghyun /I brought a towel with us and I try to dry our skins as well as I can while also getting into the warmth of the bed. The room is a good temperature so I am sure we'll be ok, but I still snuggle against your side once we're under the blankets/
/I dry your hair and place the towel under your head, leaving a few kisses on your face before I settle back on your shoulder/
/once the quiet satisfaction of the intense leaves me, I can feel the soreness in my backside. It feels deliciously tingly as I relax and my fingers draw patterns on your chest. We've never been this close before. You were inside me. And it feels so right./
/I look up surprised when you speak, a half smile on my lips as I wonder what you were thinking about/
Glad you liked it~
/I whisper, my eyes clear and honest, right now I'm untouched by worries/
I thought it felt amazing too... /my index finger trace a heart on your pec/ you felt amazing...

@Choi Seunghyun /my eyes widen a little at your retort, and I can't help the surprised chuckle/
I don't think you being biased towards my smile means I am trying to impress anyone... unless it's you I'm trying to impress... in that case it checks out~
/my expression softens, and I your cheek with my thumb. For the umpteenth time I find myself thinking just how sweet you are/
I know... but I also am not in a hurry to become your other friends' best friend, you know? I won't be forcing myself into the group... I'll be by your side whether I'm part of that group or not...
It's not... if you want to share that part of your life with me, of course I'll try my best to be part of it... but the poor boy is heartbroken, he doesn't need strangers to loom over him... you as his friend can make him feel better... me? I can just buy food... /I say with a chuckle/ and that's ok too... we'll be able to become better friends later on...
/lips stretch in a thin unfelt smile/
You didn't know better either... you and Jax are both very trusting people... I can see that much...
/chuckles/ Maybe he doesn't have a type... I think we just need someone nice and sweet, and patient, someone who won't run away...
oh you will be driving it? /smiles/ I trust you, hyung~ I think you care about preserving my life more than I do...
/nods/ I was thinking more like a korean souvenir, but I guess a painting is good too... you're so high maintenance /I joke with a grin/

@Choi Seunghyun /I can't believe this is happening, I can't believe you are inside me and I can't believe you feel so good. I am drowning in a wave of overwhelming pleasure, lulled by dreamlike bliss, tethered to earth by the undeniable reality of your body pushing into mine. You really are here, you want me, and when I completely bury my hands in your hair, I can feel the way you push deeper into me, how you can make me moan harder and how you are losing control as well/
/there's nothing more perfect than the way your voice moans my name, I could find pleasure in that alone, but with everything else it just pushes me further and further into my /
Seunghyun-
nnnnnggg SEUNG
/I shudder as I grip your hair tighter, I think maybe I should pump on my , but you keep hitting exactly the right place, I just want to take it, the tip of my keeps rubbing against your chest as I ride you and it's surprisingly enough to drive me completely insane/
ahhh-
/my eyes widen as I feel you inside me, my hands clench as my own insides wrap more tightly around you. And I begin to spill my seed onto you, and whimpering as my hips snap backwards and forward one last time/
god-
/I whisper as I crumble against your shoulder, shaking. We did it. We had . And it was so much more than amazing./
/I don't know how long I take to recover, but when I move, and your slips out of me, you still look a little dizzy yourself/
I think we need a bed now... and sleep...
/I say with a small smile, my brain light with post-ic bliss, I just make sure you are ok as I get us both out of the bath, which is a complete wet mess, and towards the bedroom. I think I'll sleep very well tonight./

@Choi Seunghyun /I got an amused look on my face at your words, my cheeks a bit red/
I think you're very biased in this...
/I kiss your jaw/
I will help anyway though... in any way I can...
ah- I see... he seems like such a sweet guy, pretty sure he didn't know she was the devil...
/smiles sadly/
I'm glad someone was around for you... I'll always be grateful to him...
maybe we should set him up with someone good...
/I had no idea you gave it such thought, and it makes me so happy, I can hardly speak without gushing/
I love it, yeah... that's a great idea!
Should we be taking some souvenirs from Seoul for your friends?

@Choi Seunghyun /shakes my head/ I do want to help... just don’t want to stick my nose in when you’re the ones who can actually help...
/blushes furiously/
Did they?
Seems like they are smarter than the two of us put together...
/eyes widen again/
What? No! Don’t cancel! We can do those!
God, I love that!
You rented a boat??

@Choi Seunghyun Ah- /I grow a little nervous at your words/ I’m sorry if I sound stiff when they are around...
It’s hard for me to let other people in...
/I chuckle/
They think the world of -you-... I am the guy they need to keep an eye on...
/my eyes widen a bit at your words/
What?
No that’s not why I said it
/I protest loudly, my hands on your chest/
I just want to spend it with you...
We don’t need to do anything...
U-unless you want to...