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@✶ ji hyang who said anything about feeling guilty? i just..
*trails off, brows furrowed pensively*
it's not wrong, but...how sustainable is it? how long are things gonna go on? a few more months? weeks? forever?
*leans back against the near wall with a sigh, a little frustrated at the lack of order with my own thoughts and the nagging, tiny bit of guilt knowing someone else clouds my thoughts*
it's been a while since we started like this, i just want some clarity

@✿ park haneul ᵍᵉᵘⁿʸᵃⁿᵍ /eyes your back when you exit the showers, watching your every movement as I set my phone aside, flashing a genuine grin when you hand me the cup of coffee you prepared, although the smile quickly faded, confusion running through my mind at your words
w-why? thats what we stated, no strings attached, you don't have to feel guilty or anything, you know...
/sips on the coffee and focuses my gaze on the window and the scenery outside, trying to ignore the troubles
we're not doing anything wrong.

@✶ ji hyang *comes out of the bathroom a short while later, towel secure but lax around my hips. clearing my throat from any overnight blockage, i get to work on distributing the finished coffee into two of the cheap cups*
you know we can't keep doing this
*is the first thing said, with a hand extended and offering the other cup - prepared just how you like; i ought to know that much by now. i also know what we're doing isn't healthy, so i repeat the same sentiments from every single time*
noona, let's stop

@✿ park haneul ᵍᵉᵘⁿʸᵃⁿᵍ /only when the shower starts running do i open my eyes, the warmth of your presence replaced by the coldness of fluffy bedsheets; rubs my eyes and sits up, grabbing whatever piece of clothing i could find to cover myself somewhat, which happened to be your buttoned up shirt.
/just sits at the edge of the bed, watching the coffee maker do its job while playing with my phone, trying to think of what to say when you were done washing up

@✶ ji hyang *groans softly as i wake up, unwittingly stirred by the feather light touches. my eyes remain shut, clinging to the embrace of a rare night's sleep for just a few more moments before relenting and making quick work of my surroundings...landing on you*

*curses quietly before sitting up. the sudden movement invites a wave of dizziness, reminding me of the previous night's catalyst. unable to ever find it in myself to just disappear the next day, i slip out of the plush bed and get the cheap coffee maker going before going to at least shower*

@✿ park haneul ᵍᵉᵘⁿʸᵃⁿᵍ /rays of sunshine peeked between the blinds, rousing me from my sleep; squints and turns over before my heart jumps a little at the sight of your sleeping figure, then sighing in content as I snuggled my bare, body into yours, equally , underneath the sheets.
Hyang... you're crazy..
/chides myself for having succumbed to temptation once again, your touch making me feel like a teenager which lead to whatever happened the previous night; you were a constant now, though it never really did develop due to circumstances... and fear. but whatever.
/traces a finger across your jawline before pressing a chaste kiss onto your lips, then sinking back onto the pillow as i tried to go back to sleep.