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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HOXgKgZTs3I

❛ 〆 inspiration notes : 0:00 - 2:52 [the rest of the song is good as well, but these time stamps refer to the sections applicable to his character.] i see this as one of his responses to the fallout between him, his sister and her husband (his ex-lover). "my love is the killing kind," as in, it was his love that tore everything apart. if he hadn't given into his desires, if he hadn't allowed himself to be persuaded by the husband into a secret, torrid affair behind his sister's back, none of what followed would have happened.

(he has terrible sleeping habits, verging on near-insomnia. in the dark with his eyes closed he finds himself back in the halls of their family home, wandering like a ghost. he peeks into rooms and sees the past: his sister and her husband on their wedding night. the first time he let the husband get closer than a brother-in-law should. crying from somewhere within the home when everything came to light. the floorboards creak beneath his feet; he wishes they would open into a jagged gaping maw and swallow him whole.)