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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,HYUUNG!!!

@Ren Wow... /hums looking beyond the wall behind you/ those are some high praises you got there Yoongi Hyung... /mutters then smirks tilting his head slightly, being playful/ as long as you don't think sobi's real like our ARMYs do, I think you're okay /grins then frowns lightly, actually thinking about it Yoongi after so long/
But it's weird...me an Hyung have /barely/ talked to each other /frowns sipping his icy water/ think he prefers messin round with Tae now... /hums sipping then blinks/
oh! I forgot-do ya want anythin to eat or drink, minki-sshi? /straightens up, about to call another/ this /is/ a restaurant after all...~ /laughs nodding, beckoning the waiter over to at least get your drink order/

@Ren /is sipping on ice water waiting then slightly widens eyes as you finally appear to his eyes, smiling when you talk about vocal practice/
Course! It's cool, ya can't miss work after all~/chuckles holding out hand for you to shake/ Hoseok, Jung Hoseok
/smiles settling back down then lifting a brow/ really? What's he said? /smiles eagerly, with chin resting on both of his hands, forgetting what's his first step in making sure you're the right boyfriend/ ya know...~ bout me... /grins pointing to himself, eagerly leaning forward to hear from another source/

[personally, I think you did! :P /nods thumbsing you up/ XD]

@Ren So I'm sposed to meet this guy here at 6pm right? /chuckles looking at his watch as he wondered what's taking you so long/ that's what Yoongi Hyung said...
/grins as the phone changes to 6:01/ ooh...Bad first impression...~ /coos smirking and being a good bandmate by grading you hard as the first person who shall look at Yoongi Hyung's new boyfriend/
/still...he's definitely intrigued that the guy's actually /outside/ of our band than inside like last time Yoongi Hyung had fallen in love/
/but definitely, there's that pro that if you two ever break up, there won't be much drama and tension in the dorm which could lead to bandmates leaving for long trips in recovering a broken heart/
/sitting as he only orders ice water, earning a light glare from the waitress he had just smiled off as he waited for this mystery man/

[hopefully, this works? :P that u can match this? /nods/ ]

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@herSSi NOT LITTLE.
*Confesses with an annoyed tone, hating being reminded of my height.*
*Growls at you but stops to blink, touches my hair.*
Sticky, why would it be sticky and it isn't sticky.
*Pushes you away.*
Maybe its your hand that is sticky and tyour nose can't smell properly.
*Clicks my tongue and looks away.*
Whatever you have your own place, than you are cheap.

@herSSi *Hisses like a demonic creature.*
Nooooo I will call you stupid and butthead and many insults.
*Whines again and headbutts your chest.*
Stop touching my hair~!
*Folds my arms.*
Or maybe because you are too poor, you should get a job.

HAPPY 8 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY JJJB!!!!

@JaeDaddy /those ring really attract my attention, i touch it and it feels real, the shape and all, why i have the same ring with you? My eyes avert to stare at your eyes deeply and meaningfully as you said that words. I seriously curios and want to ask your more about the ring but unfortunately that we are on the set. The director order really caught me out, I give him the protest look when he ask you to take it off, but i cant do anything just laying down there as i stare at the ceiling, wondering about the ring that i just saw. My head keep ringing in pain but i just dont really feel it even when the cold sweet start covering my whole body. I jolt and back to focus again when i heard the director shout at us/
/We start it all over again but when this going further, the pain inside my head is going hurter/
argh!!! /I struggle,wriggle and kicking around due to the pain i have inside my head more than what you actually did to me. It's like flash by flash i could see the dejavu inside my head, i see someone going to me and it makes me shivers in fear/ !damnit! stop!!! argh-hmmpph!!!! /i struggle so hard to escape but once your lips get contact with me, the time seems pause so suddenly. What this feeling? I feel suddenly freeze, my pain suddenly freeze and i feel calm gradually. What's wrong with me? I grunts and hums while scrunches my nose at the taste of your lips but the magic is you could calm my head by this kiss. It tastes so bitter yet so right. Why i feel like this? why my heart suddenly skip a bit. Why? why it's like my whole body react to your kiss? I still in daze even when you break the kiss, i feel like you just my soul. My mind telling that it's so disgusting getting a kiss from a man like this in front of all people and being shoot too, but my heart tell me different things. It keeps beating faster and like going to scream something. Something that i dont know the answer and seem the answer is you. My thought get interrupt when you continue the act and i feel dizzy when you bang my head, but then i hate it, i hate it the way you touch me that seems like my body love it and react it by it's own, moreover my heart seem like crazily beat by its own.I just close my eyes and let you hump at me,I could feel something big presses against my and strangely i dont feel it's weird, why i feel like i used to get touched like this? why? why i cant really know myself? why your existence now is giving me confusion? I cant lie but i like the way you give me this butterfly kisses, my back arches,my eyes shut tightly and all i do just breathing in haze, without i realized i murmur something spontaneously when i heard you say those words/ jae...hyung.../i feel like drown inside what my heart tells me, how could i call you like this? why this seem not new things for me? And once it stopped, i feel like i lose something really precious to me./ s-sunbae.../i open my eyes just to see that you are shaking on the bed, i grunts cause feel dizzy when i try to get up, casually i hold your hand and it feel warm, it's really caught me that i'm dont feel disgust at you even when my mind feel like going to explode with million questions to you, my mind keep telling that i just did something disgusting with man but strangely i cant let go of your shaking hand,instead of i pull it and hug it on my chest/ ssshhh....a-are you ok,sunbae? /i look at your with worried look, but instead of everyone help you, they rush to me and bombard me with a lot of 'are you alright?' questions.For god sake the one that work so hard is you but seem the director scold you for over acting on that part. My eyes keep staring at you, i really hate this feeling that wanting to hug you tight but then my manger comes and distract me. He helps me to get up and cover my shirtless upper body with bathrobe/ "Let's get out of here..I will directly bring you to Dr.Kang..." /He lead me to my room and then wipe my cold sweet then give me my pill, seem he already know that i bear this headaches alone./ "But how about the set? we havent finish anything yet and we just started hyung, i dont want to work unprofessional like this...let's finish that part first.." /I take the towel to wipe my face by myself before i take the pill and lean my head on the armchair/ "I already told the director and we agreed to skip this part, the director said he already have enough picture for your both,so we will end your part for today, That jaejoong is the main actor so he will work more for his other scene and we already get the director permission, so let's concern with your healthy first..go change, i will wait you in the van.." /I just nod slowly, feel kinda disappointed to know that i will out of the set now..just sighs and start changing back to my casual outfit while looking at my pale face that reflected on the mirror./

@JaeBaby [H] /the director asked us to go back to our previous scene, he gave me direction about the angle that he gonna shoot us, I nod briefly before going back to the bed, hovering on top of you we with one hand wrapped your neck, I look down to see your face and keep myself emotionless, my mind is traveling somewhere, to the Christmas night when I asked you to marry me before almost you, your hurtful expression when you look at me in the mirror and those scared eyes when we met again at your house, when you ran to locked yourself at your own room, your father looked at me in wonder and at that time he started suspicious about our relationship, he could never seen me as the same man again, moreover since I know his close relationship with JYP, I' m sure he already knew everything between us from that man, though I don't know with your mother, does she still fangirling over me after she knew what I'm done to her son/
/my trails of thought interrupted when you suddenly touch the ring on my necklace, the world seems pause for a moment as my heart skip the beat, I blink before looking at you in surprised/
It does a beautiful ring.../"as beautiful as you and our relationship, don't you rememberit Jaebummie?" I want to say those words to you but what left my mouth only short sentence as my red drunken eyes start to watery again until my ears perks as I hear the sound of fake cough when the director warn us to stay focus, he asks me to take off my necklace because it's not the part of this movie and could distracted my character, I close my eyes and inhale deeply before pulling out my necklace and give it hesitantly to my manager after send him my meaningful stare/
"ALRIGHT NOW ACTION!"
/he shouts at us and I turn my attention at you/
"Spread your legs for me just like your mother, since you both are ..."/I grin menacingly before crashing my lips against yours into forceful kisses/
/I breath shakily like a hungry dog as I sink my teeth on your bottom lips before quickly darting my tongue to invade your sweet cavern, I can hear the sound of the girls crew gasps loudly at my action, this is actually our first kiss since you wake up from your long sleep in hospital bed, it's supposed to be a sweet kiss from a prince to wake up his princess from her deep sleep like in fairytale, but real life is irony, our feels bitter as it taste of tobacco and alcohol that mixed with our saliva and nothing else/
You love me right, Junnie?
/I break the kiss and look down at you again with mischievous smirk, my other hand traveling to your lower stomach in frantic move before pulling down your boxer, only to expose your pelvic bone which going to be shoot by the camera/
Then show me how much you love me and be a good boy you are, heh! /chuckles darkly as I look at you with lustful eyes before turning your body around so you lay down with your stomach against the matress/
Say that you love me, Junnie! Say it! in say it!/I shout at you repeatedly right on your ears as I grip your hair then bang your head against the pillow/
Why? You can't say anything now, huh? /I asked you with sarcastic tone as I hook my one arms around your neck, darts my tongue out to your ear shell before tugging your earing with my teeth, the same thing I did to you in that Christmas night, that if you still can remember it/
/my bathrobe slips from my shoulder as it reveals my topless, I reach out my hand to press your head against the pillow while humping you dryly from behind, I can feel my groin start to grow as it brushes against your clothed , this feeling is really frustrating me until I forget that the camera and the crew still watch us/
/I lean closer so my chest muscle presses against your back, i don't know if its because the air conditioner or because I start to but my perky s brushes against your skin, the warmth of your body that I really missed so much, I close my eyes as I shower your nape and shoulder with butterfly kisses passionately, something I supposed to not do since I should only be rough and violence at you not showing affection like this/
I love you jaebummie.../I whisper at you softly almost inaudible which i hope nobody but only you who can hear it, my movement while humping you dry become desperate until I hear the familiar sound of.../
"CUT CUT CUT!!!!" /from the director, my eyes open widely as I snap back to reality, my heartbeat thump faster and cold sweat runs down my forehead as I realize that I just make a huge mess on the scene, my body's trembling as I pull away from your body then sit on the bed, I look down at my shaking hands and suddenly feels guilty, shame and disgusted at myself/

@JaeDaddy /get serious when you take the script and scan it briefly but then toss it away on the table,my eyes still staring on the script before i avert my gaze to look at you who sip your drink so casually like that, frown somehow my heart twitch like telling the fact that i dislike it and more to i worried about you, doesnt know how this feeling coming again but i just feel like hurt seeing your state that look thinner and once i scan your face you look way like a depressed man even when you in the middle of the set. My heart cries for that as i see you with glistening eyes but my mind get confused with what i just i feel now, why am i like this? why i feel like this? why i worried about him? this headaches slowly come over again as i see you laughs like that, i just stay silent while letting you said everything cz i'm too busy to question myself rn while i look at you. i fist my palm on my tight,trying hard to handle the pain in my head, i dont want to look unprofessional in front of you and with you telling me what i should do is kinda harsh cause you seem like take it easy on what i ask, i just nod although i dont really know how to act something like that, will you strangle me again? and now i feel shudder thinking that you going to tug my boxer down in front of all people here,even if they wont shoot my lower part, but means i need to act and be touched by you on the set, and i feel not ready, i'm here to try to put my effort to build my chemistry with you but you seem so nonchalant and cold to me like that. I dont really know how could i do this part after this, i'm so nervous as moreover when your manager comes and tell us that we should be ready. I get up and bow to you and say yes when you invite me to go now on the set, but i remind silent after that and just stay on my spot for awhile, dont really get it what your manager said to you as i just shoo that away, for now what i need to do is to focus on how i could pass this scene with you with the fact that you dont really help me at all and just being cold to me, how rude. Just sighs and take my script glance to your alcohol bottle and shake my head in disbelief,before i get out of your room, back to the set where everyone already wait us. I change back to wear my boxer only and i lay down on the bed with you hovering me again, somehow when i see your eyes so close like this, i could see that you have a sad stare, cold but the sadness is too deep reflected on your eyes. Then suddenly a necklace sprung down right in front of my eyes and i could see a ring on it, i narrow my eyes but then widen it when i recognize the ring on your necklace, i realized that you have the same ring with me, the ring that jinyoung told me to hide it and never show it to anyone cz he said that the ring will help me to revealed everything. I dont really know what he means but why you have it with you? it's cartier limited edition couple ring and once i check it on the cartier shop they just said that it's a special ring that been made for a certain order of the customer and when i ask who order this ring they said they dont really know about that. My eyes keep staring on the ring, make me zone out then i forget to even act, what i do now lift my hand and grazing my fingers on that ring/ what a beautiful ring... /i said that without i realized/

@JaeBaby [H] /the smile on your face show nothing only respect toward me as your sunbae and nothing else, when you sit across of me and push the glass on the table, my gaze drop to your fingers which no longer wear the ring I gave for you, I smile bitterly to myself thinking that maybe somebody has tossed that ring away for you, could be your manager, JYP, your parents or yourself, they must be worked so hard to erase me from your memories/
You're not drink? Oh what a same.../chuckles lightly as I try to be as friendly as possible though I'm not in the mood for now, that's why my manager left me in this room because when I'm in the bad mood I rather to be alone/
/grabs the paper form your hand and scan it for a while before sighing deeply as I look at the part that you've been marked, frowns deeply as I listen to your insecurities/
Chemistry? Yeah I agree with that.../nods gradually as I toss the script on the table next to the glass, I tilt my head as I look at you, crossing my legs casually and continue sip my drink though you might judge me right now for drinking at work time/
You never been love a man, huh? /bursts out sarcastic laughs until the beers spills from my lips, quickly wipes my mouth with tissue, tears start brimming on my eyes but I just pinch the bridge of my nose as I pause my laugh and trying to get back to my sense and stop my self pity/
Why you think you have to love a man for understand this script? This is not a gay romance movie, as you see your character is a naive young man who look up to his older brother and loves him brotherly not romantically, but his brother betrayed him and only used him as tool for his own purpose, this ual scene is pure violence, only rage and lust and there's no love in it, so what you supposed to do is being scared, shocked, hurted, disappointed and disgusted and use those feelings for the next part when your character gonna kill mine for revenge, that's it! /shrugs nonchalantly as I look at you with cold expression, completely in bad mood that I'm afraid I can out of control in front the scene, worse than before/ so is there anymore questions? /I ask you but before you can even answer my question, the door swing open and it's my manager who informing about the next scene, I nod at him quickly before getting up from the couch/
It's the time Jaebum ah, come on! Let's go! / moves my head to the side, gesturing you to follow me as I walk ahead of you/
"What are you two doing there, JJ? Remember stay focus with your job and forget him already!"
/my manager glances at me before whispering that words/
Yeah, i know... i know.../I just hurried my steps and heave frustrated sighs, hoping that you're not hear us/

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/kinda startled when you suddenly open the door and see me with that stoic expressions of yours that seem kinda pissed i maybe disturb you, that's what i think.Then I just smile awkwardly when you ask me if i'm ok, I just nod briefly and smile reassuringly/ It's ok,sunbae..I know it's all just act you i dont mind beside you look so professional while acting it out../smile politely as i express my respect and admire to your acting skill/ so this things is not supposed to be worried, i'm all ok, sunbae../rubs my neck and show you that i'm alright expressions/
ah- alright, excuse me../get in slightly in awkwardness but it's better cause we could practice our next scene and build the chemistry together too since i gonna ask that from you. But then once i get in the smell of strong alcohol hit my nostril, kinda scrunches my nose and rubs it cause dont really like the smell of it, try to act cool cz afraid if i make an expressions that gonna pissed you off, it's going to be ill mannered tho. I sit on the couch across you, see you pour the alcohol for me so casually and i just stare at it blankly, thinking how could you ask me so casually like that? just smile at first but then push the glass slowly away/ I'm sorry sunbae but i dont drink when i'm on the set like this..and thank you anyway../rubs my nape sheepish and bow my head to you to apologize in case you think i reject your offer is kinda rude/
and.../rubs my hands in nervous as seem our atmosphere suddenly feel awkward and quiet,moreover with the way you stare at me intensely with a longing stare like that make me more awkward somehow, does why you stare at me like that? try to shrugs it off that kind of tho and focus on what actually i wanna ask to/ oh- this../show you my the scrip that i hold on my hand for this long/ the director asked me to discuss the next scene with you,sunbae...cause i believe we need to build the chemistry together to make this part shoot the right feel,i guess../quirk a brow/ so..umm..i dont really know how to act it out cz, honestly i never been in a real love line with a man before and they ask me to do this bed scene part is kinda shock me out../nods as i try to express my worrisome to you and be honest to you too/ so..i would be really glad if sunbae could help me with this..what should i do for this part..cause i dont want to look like amateur actor with you working all this alone../nods and bow my head respectfully/

@JaeBaby [H] /I was sitting on the floor with my back leaning against the door, my hand is shaking as I pour the bottle of pills on my palm before shoving it to my mouth, I gulp it down with the bottle of beer on my another hand before wiping my mouth with my sleeves/
/I arch my neck and look up to the ceiling, thinking what I've been done in the set to you, it's almost like the same situation when I almost you at the Christmas night, the same fear and hurtful looks in your eyes just makes the pang of guilt risen on my chest/
/my trails of thought end up as u hear gentle knock in the door and someone's calling my name, my eyes widens and I feel like stop breathing as I notice that it's your voice, my mind start thinking the reason why you call me at this moment, could be that you want to ask why I hurt you more than necessary, and I need to find the answer quick since I can't explain it to myself at this moment/
/I get up from the floor, rubs my face to put back my stoic expression before turning around to unlock the door/
Yes? /answers you back almost in monotone voice as I swing open the door, my brows furrowed as I look at your face before my gaze drop at your neck, the red mark of my hand still printed clearly there, I gulp down my saliva and try to force a smile/
I-I'm sorry for cause that... A-are you okay?/I stutter a bit as I reach out my one hand toward your neck but then I retreat it again awkwardly, i clench my fist on my side, my hands twitches wanting to touch you so badly and hold you tightly on my embrace and tell you that you're mine, mine only! but I see from the corner of my eyes some of the crew was watching us and whispers at each other which makes me curious, I swing the door wider and decide to let you in/
Alright, get in... Do you want some beers Jaebum ah? To boost your confidence? /i glance at you with a small smile and chuckle a bit as I talk to you casually, trying hard to melt the awkward atmosphere surround us as I flop down on the couch and pour the liquid into the glass, my heart beat faster as I feel so damn impatient and agitated for you to start to speak/

@JaeDaddy /Jolt in surprised when you shout at me, glad the camera is actually shooting your face cz it will be NG if it shoots my expressions right now. But the suddenly you strangle me, wanna shout in protest what is this cz it wasnt attach on the script i look around in confused as i wiggle around when you pin my hands, i cant do anything, i just stare at you with my confuse and begging eyes, and why all people let this go? does it mean the director agree on his act? ugh...i dont have any other option than just getting along/ ../my head keep banging in pain but you add it more by slamming it on the mattress/ argh...h-hyung.../once you let go of my hands i directly tug your hands, my lips keep opening widely to breath in and out, now i feel so much suffocated but i keep trying hard to act. I look at your face and you look so scary, you seriously drown into your character, my eyes start tearing from lack of oxygen but in the camera it's like i act so sad. Suddenly i zone out when my head clutch so painfully when i see someone strangle me inside my brain, his face is blur and dark, i cant see it but i could hear that he ask, will i love him if he me? who is it? who this memories belong to? why i feel like dejavu?/ argh!!! my head.../i squeals in pain but then snap back when i feel like you gonna move to next scene when you me/ no! dont do this hyung..jae hyung.../i cought in desperate when you gonna tug down my boxer/
"CUT! it's enough Jaejoong ssi...its too much, you already hurt him..."
/the words from the director help me out and i snap back. What just happen? cough more and i quickly breath in deeply as i could take a breath freely again/
"Jaebum ah..are you alright? do you feel hurt somwhere?"/all people come and approach me in worried, i rub my neck and just give them all a brief smile/ "I-I'm ok...dont worry it's all just act and i believe jaejoong sunbaenim do this totally because it's all just act and he is being so professional.." /nods to all people/ "I'm ok, director-nim.." /i get up and bow to him then cough again as i keep rubbing my neck/
"Let's take a short break people, you could be ready for the next scene and please you should cooperate with jaejoong ssi act, you two need to build chemistry more for this next scene..please work properly.." /said the director and i nods and bow to him politely. I go back to my chair and my manager bring me water, i drink it first slowly then look at him./ "Do you bring my pills,hyung? i get headaches again..let's go to that psychiatrist again, i wanna consult what i just see to him..." /i said at him seriously/ "Oh i bring it in case you need it, and try to not think too much.. you should do what the psychiatrist told you, just forget it all the bad memories that come to your head..you need to focus to be back to the Im Jaebum like before, so dont try to remember something unnecessary..ok,jaebum?here take this.." /my manager gives me my pill and i take it, take a seat on my chair and wait until the pill kick on my system and calm me down from the headaches. I look around trying to find where you are cz i need to build the chemistry with you for this next set. I rose from my seat and head to your waiting room, i knock the door gently/ "Jaejoong sunbae? could i get in? i need to ask you something..." /stand in front of the door as i wait you to respond me back/

@JaeBaby [H] /my heart skip a beat when you turn around to face me and speak to me for the first time, those beaver smile that decorated your face is nothing than just feel awkward, I frown deeply as I look into your eyes and what I see there's just confusion, there's no longing no lovely stare like how I used to see from my Jaebummie, you're not him, you're just a stranger, if only I could forget you easily like how you forget me, I close my eyes and sighs deeply before looking at you with Stoic expression/
It's okay, let's work together.../I say shortly as the director give me warn to focus and start the acting/
/I stand near the glassy window with my back facing you, two fingers holding a cancer stick before slipping it between my lips as you start your speak, pretend that I listen to you though my focus is to the taste of this cigarette, it's bitter as bitter like how I feel right now/
Who the hell you think you are, asking me to stop, heh? /I turn at you and talk in slur tone before chuckling sarcastically/
/"Hyuk hyung?" My heart clenches when you called another guy name like that, though it's my character name in this movie/
Stop being sentimental, it's only for those who weak and stupid, Junnie.../laughs softly before blowing the smoke to the air, my gaze turn cold as I look at your half body which looks like just got beaten, the purple bruises and scars looks so fake but yet you still look y and , I walk closer to you and stop right in front of you who still sitting on the bed/
How could you know if they go to heaven? /my lips curls into mischievous smirks as my two fingers grab your chin to look at me, I tilt my head from side to side like examining your face/
You think that you're just killed innocent guy, heh? Ahaha... /laughs dryly/ there's no one innocent in this life Junnie, so stop in tell me what to do! /talks to you through gritted teeth as I pull your face away and look at you with malicious expression, completely unaware that I use too much cursing words than what's written on the script but there's no sign of NG so I just continue the act/
Love? /that love words that coming from your lips feels like a sharp knife that stabbed my chest, knowing that it's so fake, it just a line from the script, but you don't know how that words could affect me, my eyes glistening instantly but wicked grins forms on my face as I toss the cigarette carelessly to the floor before lowering my hand to grab your neck, I push your body against the mattress, using all my strength I pin you down and straddling you as I look at you with both anger, despair and also frustration/
WHAT THE HELL YOU KNOW ABOUT LOVE, JUNNIE? YOU THINK I PICK YOU UP FROM THE STREET AND RAISE YOU BECAUSE I WANT TO?! HUH? /shouts at you as I slam your head against the matress countless time, my hands is shaking and my eyes turn red as I already drown to my crazy character/
YOU IN WRONG!!! YOU'RE THE SON OF A WHO KILLED MY PARENTS! DO YOU REALLY THINK YOU JUST KILLED INNOCENT GUY? HUH? HUH? NOPE! /shakes my head and looks at you with lunatic eyes as my hands still strangle your neck tightly/
Let me tell you something... THE GUY WHO YOU JUST SHOOT IN THE HEAD BEFORE IS YOUR FATHER! HAHAHAHA!!! /my maniac laughs echoing the whole set as I don't hear anything only my shouting voice and your breath/ AND YOU KNOW WHAT, JUNNIE? YEAH, you're right my mission is done! /said to you with dangerous tone as I lean closer to sniff the scent from your neck/ All I want to see is how you kill your father with your own hands, and you do great job Junnie! /grins widely as I pat your face with my other hand/
But then you said you love me, don't you?/quirks my brows as I look at you with lustful stare/ Now, spread your legs for me just like your mother since you both are in ! /chuckles darkly as I slip my one hand to tug down your boxer/
"CUT! it's enough Jaejoong ssi...its too much, you already hurt him..."
/the annoying voice of the director snap me back to reality, my hands still shaking uncontrollably as I release your neck, noticing that I still hovering you and make you suffocated under me, my heartbeat thump faster as I muttered/ I'm sorry/ looks down and sighs deeply, has no courage to look at you in the eyes as I get up from the bed set, the coordi noona and cameraman also your manager quickly approach you, checking your condition as I drag my feet to walk away and go back to my waiting room/
/"that pills, I really need that..."I wrap my arms around my body feels shuddering and thirsty for something to cure my pain, thinking that the next scene which I supposed to ually attack you gonna be super hard to do/
/I smile bitterly as I look at my own hands, why my first time touching you must be hurting you, I'm such a pathetic bastard/

@JaeDaddy /I keep encourage my manager to try to ask the director to change the scene i should play right now but my manager just glare and shake his head. I lose my hope and what i should do know just try my best to act good in this part, sighs but then jolt suddenly in surprised when i heard a gentle voice call my name, somehow my heart feel shaken in weird feeling, like if that voice is so familiar for me, curios with the person i turn around to find that it was you./ ah- yes, sunbaenim../i give a brief and polite bow while i smile beaverly at you/ please help me to do this part, i feel so nervous cz it's our first time like this, i will say my sorry in advance cz i believe i will make a lot of NG, sunbaenim../I look at your glistening eyes while rubbing my npe awkwardly but then this feeling come again, my heart clutches so painfully like it's being stab by someone when i see your sad doe eyes, why you see me like that i have been hurt you? what did i do? or it;s actually working with an amateur actor like me make you feel sad?/ I-I..I promise I will try my best to act good so jaejoong sunbae could stop being worried../nods quickly and i nods again at your words cz right now i still wear my boxer with a 'beaten' make up display on my face, i should act like after get beaten since in the script tell that i get beaten by the mafia because i try to protect you from being caught being a betrayal for the gang cz you are the underground policeman but in the end you gonna betray both of them to do your personal revenge/ everyone get ready now...!!! /i go to my spot and sit on the side of the bed with a painful expressions/ -and...ACTION!
" You should stop doing this hyung, I dont want to spill more the secret from our gang to you, I beaten up so well already.." /say it in sarcasm as i grunts in pain as i hold my tummy/ "..damn it! /pants like a dog in pain as i look at the ceiling, shut my eyes to hold the pain/ "I dont want to hurt you, hyuk hyung...let's stop this and we can live in peace in our little house on the side country..let's do that,huh? i dont want to kill other innocent people and i dont want you to do that too.../I start act to crack in tears/ "I miss our old moment in the village...we once are innocent kids on the countryside..I will catch a lot of fish and you could cook it for me.." /wipe my tears with my sleeve then i look at yo using my begging expression/ "Your umma and appa in heaven will be sad looking at you like this...I may be a kid that you found on the street..but i do this to you cause i love you like my own hyung..now, let's stop this,hyung.../this weird feeling comes again even if it;s all just act but the word 'hyung' that i say to you it's like i already get used to call you that way. Suddenly i feel like a pang hit my head when i see your face when i call you hyung, i close my eyes and feel like i saw something blurry inside my head 'Hyung, I really love you, I only love you..' I see myself calling someone and saying love to someone but i dont know why i have this kind of weird memories, do i love someone and it's a man?/ argh.../i hold my head and try to bear the pain as i chew my lips and put my acting face still. I dont want to get signed as an amateur actor in front of you and all people here, I-I'm jaebum got7 could do this./

@JaeBaby [H] -DON'T IN BABY ME!!!-

/I was sitting on my chair, flipping the script on my hands since I've been read it so many times, I arch my neck to look up to the ceiling, heaves a deep sighs before massaging my temple in frustrated, the memory one month ago still printed clearly in my head, I was with you, drowning in the sea, I hold onto your body like my life depend on it, it just one step away we could walk together to the altar and married each other, but everything turn into a complete chaos, a nightmare that never end even when I already wake up, the fact that you've got amnesia and forget every memories about me just make me feels like lose my hope for living, but God give me a chance also torture me by keeping me alive with this memories, your condition is worst than Taeyong, at least he still remembered me as his attacker though for him I'm just his nightmare, but it's better for being somebody's nightmare rather than being nobody like how I am in your eyes right now... it's dead, I'm dead for you, in your heart and in your mind, I smile bitterly at my thoughts until a pat on my shoulder wake me up from my reverie/
It's your time Jaejoong ssi.../I glance up to look at the owner of the hand, it's my manager, I rose from my seat and follow him to approach the director, I was only wear a bathrobe since we're going to shoot the bed scene, my gaze drop on your back who was busy talking to your manager now, I quickly avert my gaze as the sound of my manager clears his throat signalling me to keep focus on my job, I already make promised to the CEO of my company that I'll keep professional at least until my contract is done, and this movie with you would be my last work in this entertainment before I decide to retire and focus with my other business outside the showbiz/
/this movie supposed to be stared by me and Taeyong, but that kid's debut time hasn't been confirmed up till now, even though I heard that he's already completely heal from that accident, but I don't know with his mental health, it's not like I'm sane anyway, up till now I still feel that I'm unstable as well, the accident with you just make it worst, you don't know that now I drown myself not only into alcohol but the drugs as well/
"You know what to do right, Jaejoong sii?" /the PD nim said to me as he hands me the handcuff and chain before smirking meaningfully, I just look at him with stoic face before looking at the bed on the set, I couldn't help but smiles bitterly, this gonna be my first time touching you again after a long time, but ironically I have to touch you in front all of people while they shoot us, I'm not sure if JYP will allow their idols to act in explicit movie, especially since he hired some men to beaten me up and threatened me to not see you again ever, but right now we're gonna make ual scene on the screen, I'm not even sure if my Yunjae shipper will ready with this, but I don't care anyway since this gonna be my last movie, I have to all out here and make it at least memorable before I'm being forgotten in this industry/
"Jaebum-ah...are you ready?" /i call your name awkwardly and flash you small smile, my eyes glistening as I look at your face, your cute handsome face and those pretty kissable lips that I missed so much, I clench my fist on my side to hide my nervous and hope you won't notice it, I'm your sunbae and I have to act professional in front of you/
"Don't worry they won't ask us to reveal everything..." /I said again shortly trying to assure you, though actually I'm trying to assure myself, God, it's hurt, it's really hurt to pretend that there's nothing ever happened between us, but this is life, I smile bitterly before my ears perks as I hear the word/
"ACTION"

@JaeBaby [H] (i decide that I will only continue to reply this tdlr plot, since this is the future and I thought that the rest of the plot as their past that we can go flashback)

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@JaeDaddy ---TIME SKIP,BABY!---

/It has been a month i come back alive from my death-that's what actually people around me told me. I dont know what happened actually, it's like God bring me to the future after got7's come back, all i remembered is the memories before i do the got7 if you do come back and the weird memories i ever have that is when i open my eyes i see Jaejoong JYJ's sunbaenim hold my hand, i feel so much weird why the hell he holds my hand? and even now i'm in the middle of the drama set, they told me i already sign the contract for this sick 'bromance action' drama, why the hell i sign that? why so much changes happen in my life? why no one seems care to explain things to me or what i wonder is true-that i was send from the past to the future by god? why i feel like all people hiding something from me and what i believe as myself is actually not myself as what my member said./ Yah, Jaebum ah! /someone slap my back and snap me back from my reverie, i look at who is it and it's actually my manager hyung/ yes hyung? /i try to act like i read the script/ PD nim said we will start from the bed scene, could you do that? /he ask with a kind worried face/ what?! /shout loudly then he quickly cover my mouth, i quickly smack his hand/ i cant do that, how the hell i could do this scene with Jaejoong sunbaenim, that will be hella awkward hyung! and-and my acting is not as good as him, i will make a lot of NG and we will never finish this../no i keep hitting my head using the script i hold/ why the hell i should do this stupid drama? why? why no one seem care to say what actually happen? /i give him the protest and angry look then hiss before the coordi noona call me and ask me to get ready for the bed set/ aish, i dont know, this is crazy!

[sorry if it's short and kinda godmod your chara]

@JaeBaby [H] /I was driving my car to pick up the girl to her place, I just find out that she's an idol as well, no wonder if she's really pretty, she said that she was there runaway from her manager after her photoshoot schedule, I actually don't want to add any scandal with her, moreover she know about my last scandal with Taeyong kid, but I can't leave her alone in that restaurant after she pleaded on me/
/the journey feel so damn boring, though the scenery surround us looks so lovely since we're passing the beach resort, but not until I feel the tug on my sleeves and makes me turn to look at her/
Omo, Jaejoong ssi! Look at there!./she points her finger to the sea and my eyes follow her direction to look at the view on the glassy window/
Does that guy crazy? It's too cold to swim at the winter, he's gonna freeze to death! /she said again before looking at me with worried and disbelief expression/
/i squint my eyes to get a better view but then my eyes widens intantly and my face pale in shocked as I see the guy she talked about excatly looks like you from behind, your clothes, your hair cut, your shoulder, it's you!/
Jaebummie.../I gasp and call your name weakly, my heartbear thump faster as cold sweat runs down my forehead, I quickly twirl the steer make crazy maneuvers to park the car, makes the girl shrieking for surprised but I don't care, what I care about right now is you!
BUMMIEEEE!!! JAEBUMMIEEEE!!!! /I shout your name once I storm out from the car, running as fast as my feet can do to chase you who now already sink yourself around your neck/
JAEBUMMIE!!! WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING? ARE YOU IN NUTS!!!!
/I shout at you louder as i run against the wave, the cild water hit my skin makes me shivering to the bone, I shout your name once again out of my lungs but you seem doesn't nitice me that I was there, from your gesture of your body makes my heart clenches as I see the horror things happen once again in front my eyes, this is exactly the same situation when that kid Taeyong committed to jump from the hotel and suicide/
No, Jaebummie! You can't do this! I thought you're stronger than Taeyong, I thought you're stronger than me.../I break down to cry out desperately as I reach out my hands to pull you from sinking deeper, the water already over my head as I hold my breath to dive, wrapping my arms around you from behind, holding you tightly and desperately like you're my precious things in this world, even more precious than my own life, completely forget that I couldn't even swim/
/"if you want to sink then let's sink together, Jaebummie.." that's what I thought as I feel everything surround me fade away, the water start to fill my nostril, mouth and my lungs as i feel choked, my blurry vision is turn to darkness, the sound of the wave, the sea and my heartbeat is getting vague until I couldn't hear it anymore/

@JaeDaddy /blink may times when you keep rejecting my call then keep calling you until the voices tell you cant be reached, hiss madly and think what are you doing actually? decide to call Junsu hyung to look for you and beg him to help me and also tell that we fight. I kinda regret leaving you like that to go back to the church before, and why you didnt follow or wait me? why? does you really not love me? does your love just like that? does your love just need me as your lust? I hug myself as the breezes keep hitting me makes my body shudder more, I stare at the ocean blankly, it's so quiet at the beach right now, i can barely see people around. I feel suffocated now cz i dont have anyone to hold me to tell me that it's going to be alright, to calm me down and i need you the most but seem you never know that, start crying louder and more, i feel all alone now, I cant face my parents and also I cant face God..you are the one that i need most now but you leave me like this, where are you Kim Jaejoong? I hope you dont do something crazy outside, If you do, I could never forgive you and myself again, and better I see God right away. I chuckles bitterly as i hiccup in between my loud cries, stand up and start walking slowly to the water, i walk slowly to the deep area, the wave start hitting my knees, walk more slowly, i stare the sunset blankly, in this state i cant think straightly and my heart feel numb, keep walking until i drown myself up to my chest. I decide will see God soon cz i dont think i could handle you and this live more, i think there is nothing left for me, i'm all alone in this world, pauses as the water already on my neck, my tears keep brimming my cheeks, good bye all, good bye my beloved parents, good bye my lovely kim jaejoong, then i close my eyes and start drowning myself into water/

@JaeBaby [H] /I feel ease once i confess all my sin to him, he heard me all to the end and let me calm myself first, he just said that God not as cruel as what I imagine, God also full of love that what he keeps saying to me although he doesnt answer what i really need to know. I decide to calm myself first before i see him again next other time, i try to cam myself and clear my throat and also practicing to smile beaverly to you but once i get out to look for you i dont see you car/ Hyung? /I frown/ Hyung where are you? /shout around cz i dont know where is it since i dont really know much places and it seems out of town as i realized that the church is actually near the beach, the beach when i remember you confess to me at the first time. I smile sheepishly slightly and decide to sit there on the sand while my gaze staring to the ocean, i take my phone and decide to call you, doesnt know why but i feel kinda worried with you and have the have feeling too with this/


/when you were calling me, I already inside a restaurant, order some soju, my phone vibrates for many times and i take a look a the call id it's coming from you, but I don't feel like want to answer you, decides to turn off my phone and continues to drink my soju, thinking that i won't go home tonight, i glance over my shoulder and my gaze met random pretty girl who sat in the corner, i flash her a small smile and i see the blushed in her face, i straighten up from my seat and decides to approach her, blame it to the alcohol, I'm drunk in love for you but you seemed not ready with the idea to love a man like me, never ready, God hates homoual but not heteroual right? Its been a long time i don't sleep with any girl since i date you/
"Hey, I'm Kim Jaejoong... and you...?" /i asked betwern hiding my hiccups as i reach out my hand at her/
"Nana..." /she said shortly as she took my hand and smiles shyly/

@Vernon /kisses you back passionately, smiling in the kiss
/pulls away to catch my breath and smiles at you
So should I finish the song or do you get the point?
/twirls you again
My y love~
/I sing while twirling you

@Wenhan [H] /spins around as you do and hugs you even tighter, not caring about the audience all looking at us and actually falling in love with your somg just as I do
/moves to the beat a little almost crying from the perfection of the moment
/pulls away lightly, not caring that you are in the middle of singing and pulls you to me to kiss you fully on the lips, earning a loud cheering from the crowd in the hall

@Vernon /chuckles when you slap the other person's hand and glare at them
/continues to sing as you hug me
I'm so addicted to him, he's the sweetest drug
Just enough~
/twirls you around and back hugs you with one arm
Still too much say that I'm simp and I'm sprung all of the above
I can't help she makes me say, oh oh oh~
And I just can't think~,
of anything else I'd rather do
Than to hear you sing~,
sing my name the way you do
When we do our thing~,
when we do the things we do
Oh, baby boy you make me say, oh oh oh

@Wenhan [H] /laughs at the situation lightly and walks up to you with a shy yet amused smile
/smacks the hand that held you and glares at the person and slips my hand in your and walks up to you to give you a tight hug
/lets you to continue singing while hugging you very tightly just about to cry from happiness
I love you so much
/mumbles against your neck

@Vernon /holds out a hand to you from the stage while I sing but someone else grabs it
/eyes goes wide while I signal for you to come save me, awkwardly continuing to sing the song
y love, boy the things you do, oh baby baby
Keep me sprung, keep running back to you,
oh baby I,
Oh I love~ making love to you
Baby boy you know you're my, y love...

@Wenhan [H] /opens my mouth wide almost dropping the flowers and stares at you in the stage
/the way the suit looks on you and the way you sing just makes my heart beat faster and my legs go weak
/covers my opened mouth with my palms and starts blushing and giggling
I have the most wonderful boyfriend on the earth
/whispers to myself and watches you with teary eyes