@Jaedaddy [H] /rolling back as i lay on my back and stare up to the ceiling when i hear you answers me one by one, you could here a loud disappointed sigh when i here you gonna back next month, i seriously dont know whats to do other than just doing my routine with my bandmates and do performance for JYP Nation while waiting for you to come back to me, when you said its late, i glance to the clock on the wall, its not really late, even i still could here the kids joking around so loudly outside my room/ its not really late, i still want- /but then you just casually cut the line and it makes me frown deeply, quickly i stare on my phone and blink in dumbfounded/ what just happened? /mumbled to myself/ is he really busy until he doesnt have time to talk to me longer? heol...daebak..Kim Jaejoong../said it in sarcastic tone/ now you dare to end the phone as you want, huh? /dead glare to my phone/ ARRGHHH!!!!! YOU STUPID OLD MAN!!! /shout crazily as i toss my phone aside, feel mad as i kicking around then punch the pillow to throw away my anger out/ you never know how much i wait the moment to hear your voice and you just-you just..STUPID BALD OLDMAN!!! IM GONNA EAT YOUR JJ UNTIL THERE IS NOTHING LEFT!!! THE WORLD! /scream loudly but then i hear someone bangs my door/ ARE YOU OK,JAEBUM HYUNG? ITS JACKSON!! YOU STILL REMEMBER ME RIGHT? DONE GONE MAD..OMG JINYOUNG CALL 911 JAEBUM HYUNG GONE CRAZY EVERYONE!!! /jackson shout to other panickly and i just throw a pillow to the door/ GO AWAY YOU DORK, DARE TO BOTHER ME, YOU GONNA FACE MY WRATH LATER, GO SLEEP YOU KIDS!!! ARGHHHH!!!!
@Jaebaby [H] What? Me? Of course I'm fine... /makes an exaggerating cheerful voice as I answer you then rubbing my nape, chuckling awkwardly/ why you think I'm weird? /frowns deeply, pretend to be dumb/ and yeah, I'm happy to hear your voice, Jaebummie... /heaves a deep sigh as I try to relax, leans my back against the seat and eyes looking through the window, I keep listening to you but don't really pay attention at your questions/ yeah, I'm still busy... /nods slowly, gives you tired voice and yawn/ I'm not sure Jaebummie, maybe I'll go home next month... /smiles weakly and gulp down hard as I lie to you since up till now I'm still at Seoul, I still have two days more before my flight/ it's okay baby, we can celebrate it next time... /smiles weakly before sinking my teeth on my bottom lips to hold my disappointment/ and yes, I'm gonna miss you... But now, it's been late night... /glances at my wrist/ don't sleep too late, Jaebummie... goodnight... /says softly before I shut the phone without even wait your answer/
@Jaedaddy [H] /my smile turn wider when i hear your voice greets me, but then hearing your tone makes me paused and wonder whats wrong with you/ oh hello hyung...are you alright? /frown as i say it in full of worried tone/ why you sound so weird? /blink as i say it bluntly/ dont you like hearing my voice? /chuckles softly just to melt down the awkward moment/ I`m good hyung, and what about you,hyung? when will you arrive? I keep staying alone at the dorm since some of my members have schedule and my task just to get recover first so i always staying alone at the dorm.../whines as i pout even if you cant see it, roll to the left as i face the wall/ are you still busy there, hyung? we missed our weddingsary../sighs/
come back home fast hyung...I really miss you../keep bombarded you with nagging and asking when you will come back/ dont you miss me hyung?
@Jaebaby [H] /I was driving my car, passing through the Han River's Gare when my phone vibrates, from the ringtone I can tell that it was you, I sigh loudly as my mind start battling should I pick up the phone or no? Somehow after what I saw tonight I'm kinda lazy to pick up your phone, but the other part of me curious at what are you going to talk about, besides that I can't lie if I'm not miss you so and want to hear your voice so badly after a long days parted from you/
/the song of the ringtone almost over I finally pick up the phone, I clear my throat to ease the awkward tension in me as my other hand pull the brake to park my car carefully on the side of the road/
Hello, Jaebummie... What's up baby? /I manage my cheerful tone as I put wide smile on my face, pretending like there's nothing happened that disturb my mind which makes me so hesitate to answer you/
@Jaedaddy [H] `Woa I got ice cream guys`!!! /I hear youngjae shout from the kitchen direction, guess he find out about my last ice cream then after that all people seem like possessed craving for ice cream, they start making some fuss on the who should eat that ice cream, sigh and just shake my head/ yah yah..just go buy some more outside../hush them to not fight over an ice cream, but then i hear jinyoung shout/ `Kids!!! Jaebum hyung said gonna buy us some ice cream!!!` /widen my eyes when i heard that/ h-hey!!! /make a protest look to jinyoung/ `yah kids, go sit down all of you and ask him nicely` /order jinyoung but i give more dead glare to him, he lift his hand and ask me to take out my card/ tch.../roll my eyes as i sigh then take out my card then give it to him with a burden look/ yah..if you go crazy buying it, be ready to face me../said it sternly with poker face, but once i let go of the card all people cheers happily, shake my head/ just go, and give my card back quickly, i give you 10 minutes, if not give it back to me now../quirk a brow as i smirk, but then suddenly they quickly runs out of dorm to save the card and their asses/ aish...why should i always buy them something? they think im rich? geez!! /mumble to myself as i walk back to my room, lay on my bed as i check my phone, actually waiting for your call then after awhile decide to call you/ hyung please take my call../smile as i wait you to take the call/
@Jaebaby [H] /I can't believe what I'm doing here? Sitting in the driver seat and watching your dorm quietly like a sasaeng when I can just go up there to see you, I was about to pay surprise visit before I leave you in a long time, a bunch of plushies, lingerie and toys already on the backseat, I bought it as surprise gift to celebrate 4th monthsary of our wed but then I see the glimpse of a man that just come out from your dorm ruin my mood instantly, he's the man that i don't wanna see close to you ever because I know that somehow you have a feeling toward those guy even before we met and you admitted yourself as gay, why? What is he doing here? I know that he's the sunbae from the same company as yours but still I hate the fact that he has more chances to see you in your workplace than me as your husband/
/I can tell that he notice my present when he look at my direction, the lamp of his car blinking like giving a sign "hi" but I just lean my back against my seat and pretend that I don't even pay attention at him, I put my focus to one room with the light that still on, I wonder why your dorm so quiet for noisy group like yours, my eyes widens as I see your face behind the curtain, your smiling face, why are you smiling? And for who? And where's your other bandmates? So many thoughts start racing in my head until I don't realize that you already run to the parking lot, i don't know what are you doing, boulder be that you're notice that I'm here or you may want u o chase the guy who just left your dorm, my trails of thoughts end up as I see another car get inside your parking lot and it was your manager hyung and the rest of your bandmates, and at that moment I feel like someone just turn on the light inside my brain, you've been spent the time with him, and only him in your dorm, my hands is shaking uncontrollably as I place my palm on the steering wheel, I decide to leave your dorm as well when I see you get back to your dorm with your mates, I chuckle wryly along the way as suddenly feel so damn stupid that maybe what I've witnessed tonight not only just happened once, who knows you two may just talking about music project or something but why? There's something bothering me inside and this just make me feel want to distance myself from you for a moment or I don't know how long/
@Taecyeon /been smiling to myself for awhile after you go but then blink and quickly open the curtain to look outside the window, to check if you already gone or not, smiling as i waves my hands stupidly at your car who start speeding up out of my dorm apartment area. Keep smiling for awhile until my eyes spot someone there, my smile disappear and quickly press my face against the glassy windows/ Jaejoong hyung? /frown slightly at what i saw out there, blink and wondering if my eyes see that slight of figure correctly between the dark of the night/ why he is there? is that really him? /murmur to myself but then quickly dash out of the dorm and go downstairs, run as i look around where i saw jaejoong hyung before, but i dont spot anyone there, instead someone tap my shoulder and i yelp in surprised/ Argh! my God! /jump in shocked as thought that it was a ghost but its end up to be../ Jaebum? why are you outside here? /that guys is my manager hyung and i just grins while rubbing my nape, pretend to be cool/ ahhh..hahaha..i just look for some stars on that beautiful night like this, dont you thinkits such a nice view up there,hyung? /grins as i look up the sky, but ...there is no stars there/ are you nuts? its going to get rainy soon, come get inside and lead all people to get their rest../he looks at me with a weird expressions as one by one the got7 members get out of the fan car and start throwing some jokes at me as i lead them to get inside/
@Taecyeon /yelp when you slap my hard/ YAH!!!! YOU PABO HYUNG THATS HURT!!! /screams right on your ear/ my room is that- hey-hey hyung! /confused when you suddenly get inside jackson room/ i cant believe if you have eyes, hyung..you can see that its surely jackson room../sighs dramatically but then get tense when you put me down, i thought you gonna toss me but you are being a gentleman and put me down gently/ omo~ thank you~ /kinda make fun as i act like a fangirl to you but then my face get smack with the pillow you throw at me/ geez..aish!!! /rubs my face as i glare/ alright just go away..im okay sleeping alone..good night hyung.../ get up and walk to my own room quickly/...and thank you../smile after i close the door and its like whispering to myself so you cant hear it/
@Taecyeon ugh! /rubs my eyes as you awake me up, stumble cz hasnt been get in my full conscious when you pull my arms/ yah../whines in a sleepy lazy tone/ yah! yah! /quickly open my eyes so wide when you lift me like a sack bag over your shoulder, wriggle as i swing my legs and it keeps kicking your chest/ put me down,hyung...oh come on../whines but actually afraid it you gonna toss me on the back cz scared if my backaches come back again/ can you put me down slowly? i just want to sleep peacefully.../sighs when you seem doesnt really hear me/
@Taecyeon hey we dont have party everyday tho, so dont expect us to have that soju around../keep my ice cream, there is one more left on the plastic bag, but my stomach already feel cold, decide gonna save it for later, my eyes staring on you when you come then sit beside me/ hm? my bandmates? i dont know../shrugs, checking your body in quick, finish my ice cream then lean my body on you/ ahh..you have too much muscles hyung..thats why your body feel like a stone../slip down as i rest my head on your shoulder/ lemme sleep..im sleepy and tired../slowly close my eyes/ stay still or you going to make me get headaches if you keep moving../slap your arm then hold it as im ready drift to sleep/
@Taecyeon I dont really know about that slang words since im not basically gay other than i just love my hubby../shrugs/ i dont think knowing that word and its meaning is important for me.../look at you with bored expressions/ and why you concern what my daddy taught me../stick out my tongue to make a funny face/ then just dont eat that ice cream i will eat it all by myself.../chuckles as i snatch back the ice cream from you/ and i dont think we have beer..we arent that love to drink tho../shrugs and just let you go to the kitchen as i enjoy myself eating the next ice cream/ ahh...why my dorm feel so quiet..where is the kids? /look around, then look at the clock before checking my phone/
@Taecyeon Ouch! /scream when my hit the floor/ ohh? hyung? /make a fake surprised expressions/ im so sorry hyung..i dont know if you are there../playing dumb with a silly expressions/ i thought it was just a big brownie giant teddy bear laying on there../shrugs as i try to hide my laughs/ yah!! /catch the ice creams bag when you throw it to me/ my baby ice creams../make a fake pouty sad face as i look at you with a fake puppy eyes/ you know i went to buy my baby ice creams, geez..why you still here? /put the bag on the table as i toss you one ice cream, hint that its for you/ huh? gift? /look at the way you point to the stuff, blink/ no, i dont know if i get that..perhaps its not for me../shrugs/ but thanks tho..its cute../laughs as i see it then to you/ eat that ice cream../toss a pillow of the chair to your face as i toss myself on the couch in front of you and get an ice cream again to eat/
@Taecyeon /walking back to the dorm while bringing the plastic bags full with ice creams as i eat the popsicle while walking, still thinking the way i could out of JYP and wondering why Jae hyung hasnt call me back yet, sighs as i keep the popsicle. Open the door of the dorm, spotting your shoes still there/ why he is still here? /frown as i approach the couch and see you are laying there, decide to play around/ ahh...im tired../causally toss my right on your abs, basically sit on top of your stomach as i keep my popsicle/ woa..this couch seem get more comfortable../grins as i purposely bouncing on your tummy, toss the plastic bag right on your face as i smirk/ hmm...hha~ /stretch then sighs in please/
@Taecyeon /see you are laying down and kick your thigh gently/ yah yah...go get out of my dorm and sleep on your own dorm hyung, your dorm is much better than mine tho../shrugs/ and hey...dont you have any other schedules? how about your drama? /quirk a brow/ ahh...forget it..i dont care tho../shrugs/
alright i will go to buy some ice creams and when you get out of here dont forget to close the door../turn around and wave casually as i walk out of the dorm to buy some ice cream, rubs my chin as i concern on what ice cream i should buy, sighs when i remember its been a day i dont see jaejoong hyung and need to stay in the dorm so i wont be alone and feel lonely/
@Taecyeon ugh.../glare when you tuts my forehead/ and hey..i ask hyung about how could i get out from JYP. and you give suggestion for other matters..i know hyung just love to tease me..geez /hiss and look away/ and huh? you ever said you adore yoona snsd back then when 2pm so famous../shrugs/ what should i do now? /sighs/ I want to buy ice cream now..do you want some? /look at you as i stand up/
@Taecyeon /nods when you asked if i want to sneak out, look at the way you sip the juice, lean to wipe the remaining juice that drool on you lips casually/ yeah i want to get out because im afraid if people know my marriage they will hate me and its going to be bad for got7..and i dont want my group to disband../shake my head/ i dont want my members to suffer bcz of my scandal../sighs as i fold my hands on my chest,lean my back on the couch and imitate you to put my legs on the table/ Hey you cant help me hyung../shake my head/ i know its not only because of my love and the bed things but you know..? the urge of seeing your love,hugs him and kiss him, get spoiled and being lovey dovey or live fight with him..thats what i really miss..perhaps hyung could understand it like when hyung fancy that yoona snsd..something like that../look at you and quirk a brow/ so..you cant help me hyung../shrugs coldly/
@Taecyeon /nods when you asked if i want to sneak out, look at the way you sip the juice, lean to wipe the remaining juice that drool on you lips casually/ yeah i want to get out because im afraid if people know my marriage they will hate me and its going to be bad for got7..and i dont want my group to disband../shake my head/ i dont want my members to suffer bcz of my scandal../sighs as i fold my hands on my chest,lean my back on the couch and imitate you to put my legs on the table/ Hey you cant help me hyung../shake my head/ i know its not only because of my love and the bed things but you know..? the urge of seeing your love,hugs him and kiss him, get spoiled and being lovey dovey or live fight with him..thats what i really miss..perhaps hyung could understand it like when hyung fancy that yoona snsd..something like that../look at you and quirk a brow/ so..you cant help me hyung../shrugs coldly/
@Taecyeon /go to take a juice and pour it on the glass before serve it on the table for you as i wait your reaction then i decide to sot beside you, and sighs/ no..no..its not run away...i will finish the concert and i will go after that../nods/ i think you will help me cz you are the sunbae and you know how that Jay sunbae could get out of JYP...even if it with scandal..but i want to out of JYP peacefully.../sighs/ you cant understand what i feel hyung...just give me some suggestion../nods
@Taecyeon please take a seat hyung.../said that politely/ there is no one around...im sorry i drag you here suddenly...i know you are busy and going to go to the shooting place..but-but..ugh you are the person that i could reach for now...umm..i want to know about something...but dont get surprised..i want to know about how could i get out of this JYP? i mean...you know my hubby jaejoong gonna go to Japan..and i want to follow him../rubs my nape as i nods
@Taecyeon /drag you to go to this dorm/
hyung..can you accompany me here? I just...I just want someone around.../when i have something to think, not let that words slip out of my lips/