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*Volunteers and organizes/restocks the books*

@ᵇ daniel☪k。 Sunggyu regained his conscious after few hour. He groaned and sat up and wiping his face. Looking down at the floor and his clothes he grimaced slightly as memories flashes on his head, reminding him to search for his student, daniel and apologize to him. He pull his bag, rummaging inside and puling out a small towel before proceeding to clean the bloody mess. He let out a relieved sigh because no one noticed his lapse.
He stood up and gathering all his things; ignoring his stained shirt and walking toward the washroom on the corner not far from his position. Sunggyu washed his face, cleaning it from the blood trace and then exited the bathroom and out of library; in search of his student.
"He probably either still in the campus vicinity or already home." he muttered to himself while walking down the stairs in front of the library building; noting that it already in the evening. Sunggyu decided to start his search from the campus class room first and begin his search; luckily no other students noticed the stained shirt.
After looking almost the whole school building, Sunggyu finally found his student. He slowly and carefully approached the man. "Daniel-ah." He called softly, hoping his student will still give him chance to talk; to tell the student his past. The things that is still hidden even from his mates.

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@ᵇ daniel☪k。 Sunggyu stay frozen; head down as reddish tears trickled down his face. "I'm sorry..." he whisper the words over and over to each word spoken by his student. He knew, his words hurt his student deeply. But he can't do anything except saying sorry over and over again. He can't tell his student the truth. He didn't want to burden anyone with it. His student have enough on his plate without sunggyu adding his problem to it.
He keeps his head lower, hiding another fact of him from his student. The fact that every times he cry, he will cry blood. His tears will be red. He tighten his grip on his thigh as he can feel a dull pain that now become sharper as the time passed, on his chest intensified. His breathing slowly become ragged as blood trickled down his mouth.
The sound of the door slamming resonated on his head as his student make an angry exit. And as the door closed fully, he finally lose his composure. His body sliding down the chair into the floor with harsh thud. One hand gripping on his chest and the other on his head. Blood keep trickles down from his mouth and nose as more bloody tears flowing them and stained his pale face red. He gasped for air but he inhaled nothing. He writhed in pain as blood keep flowing. His lips keeps mumbling the words 'no' and 'I'm sorry'. He crawling toward the book, picking it and clutching it on his chest tightly as his other hand blindly looking for his sons picture. He found the picture and slipping it inside the book and clutching it tight as he gasped loudly almost howling it out when another pain wrecking his body. Blood keep trickles down as he writhing on the floor before everything went black and he finally lose his conscious.

@ᵃ sunggyu⌘k。 The fact that the male had said something like that in front of his student who gruesomely lost his parents not even a year ago, even Daniel found cruel. He loved his teacher, yes, but the fact that he could say something like that so carelessly in front of him, it was something that completely tore him apart. Telling an eighteen year old something like that wasn't even a thing Daniel himself would do, no matter how much of an some people would see him as.
"Being a mate for two people at the same time is bound to be trouble. Humans are wired like that. We might be werewolves but we're still part human, humans are selfish beings, we don't like to share and never have been ones to share. If you decided to break that bond, then honestly it's better to forget, stop loving them and find someone better." He mumbled before getting up and packing his things as he held back from lashing out on the male, he didn't deserve it no matter what the latter had said. He didn't want to hurt him he really didn't but if he didn't leave at this second he most likely would considering how pissed he was.
"If you think moving on is forgetting then maybe it's better that way. If they don't love you anymore there's no need for you to love them." He said before taking his things and walking towards the door, stopping in his tracks, not turning around but still wanting to say one last thing.
"Next time, don't pity yourself and be all sad when you're not planning on doing anything about it and letting go of them. You know how ing horrible it is to find your parent literally torn apart so at least try to show some sympathy yeah? I lost them not even a year ago and had just turned 18. How come I have an easier time accepting the truth than a full grown teacher, hm?" He muttered before walking out, slamming the door to the point where it almost broke, filled with so much rage he couldn't control his strength at this point.

@chanwoo l。 Leo made a sound of agreement and nodded. That was also his name so he didn't see a problem with that. After a few moments of reading, he looked over the top of his book to Chanwoo. Seeing thy older male so interested in books meant for children, ones he probably hasn't read in a while, and sitting on the floor, too tall to go under the table, seemed a little funny to the boy. Before Leo realized it, he started to giggle, hiding his face with the book. It only took a moment for him to notice but he couldn't help it. Only until his stomach growled, did his giggling stop though not for long.

@daniel k。 Sunggyu sit frozen for a bit, realizing his words has hurt his students feeling. The rule is applied for himself. He was aware that moving on is needed when you lose someone precious but it doesn't mean that you have to forget about them. But, in his circumstance, it never applied like that. His is a special case. A rarity that probably wouldn't making any sense or ever been found on others. Because for Sunggyu, moving on really make him forget. Making him detached to the world and he wouldn't remember anything as if his memory are wiped out. Just like how he didn't even remember how both his deceased parents look like. He still can remember how they abandoned him at the age of five after four grueling years of being abused physically and mentally. About how he shunned from his village because of it. Of how he almost lose his life and about the scars that adorned his body that hidden behind his clothes. Sunggyu didn't relieving the emptiness; hollowness he felt after he found both his parents bloodied carcasses; killed by the hunters, and although he recognized them as his parents, he didn't feel anything; just emptiness, because he couldn't even remember their faces. And because he decided to move on.
Sunggyu, he have some gruesome past but he hiding everything with his smile and his aloofness. And if he moved on then his memory about his mates wiped out, he won't be himself anymore. And he definitely will go crazy and no one can save him; not even himself.
He looked at the student who giving him his back. His eyes saddened before he masked everything and looking down again. And the soft whisper of "I'm sorry" passed his lips. He knew his student only wanting to help him and his answer will only hurt his student but he can't help it.
And then his mind fleeting back towards his adopted children. A small smile adorned his lips for a brief moments as his mind flew back. It's his dream to have family. He never talked about it except for one person. His true mate. And to have children is what they are wished.

@ᵃ sunggyu⌘k。 Daniel looked away once again, biting his lip. For the first time the males words had actually got to him and almost pissed him off a bit. "I'm moving on from finding my ing parents dead in my house without warning, does that mean I'm forgetting them all together? No. I'm slowly learning to accept what happened and moving on with my life. Take this from someone who knows, it hurts to lose someone, yes, but try finding your parents dead expecting them to be at home waiting for you to arrive to celebrate Christmas." He said, possibly sounding more pissed off and irritated than he had intended from the beginning but the more he thought about it the angrier he got. He had never really been an aggressive person but when someone really said something in the way the latter had, he couldn't help it.
"Once again I'm not saying it's wrong, I'm just shocked because I didn't think you would adopt a kid seeing as I've never heard you talk about one." Sure he could understand the pain of losing a mate, but he couldn't imagine it being as the latter had made it out to be, especially not worse than what he had gone through before arriving to the school.
"Trust me I if anyone knows it's hard and depressing and whatever. I'm still a teenager yet I have to take so much responsibility I shouldn't have to. Maybe I didn't tell you before just how bad it was and why I came here. Firstly I didn't choose to, I found my parents dead when I came home thinking I was going to celebrate Christmas, I was chased by a hunter only seconds later and ended up here by chance, I didn't mean to and honestly I was thinking of just letting him take me." He said, almost wanting to scream before turning around, his back now facing the male as he wiped his tears.

@♡ eunsoo s。 Nodding once more Chanwoo scoots in as close as he can but yet doesn't go under the table he look over the book he had grabbed from the stack.
Suddenly hearing the boys name Chanwoo turned towards him a bright smile on his face as he does "Eunsoo..or Leo huh..um I'll stick with Leo is that ok?" He asks getting his answer he turns back to the book a slight look of curiousity sits on his face it had been so long since he's held a childrens book let alone read one he was so used to reading heavy, more paged books that had more words then pictures.
"Hmm? Oh the book...good Im glad Leo approves of it" giving a chuckle Chanwoo looks back down and begins to read it.

@chanwoo l。 The little boy was still a little tense but, for the most part, he had relaxed. There didn't seem to be an immediate danger, the boy concluded. He raised his own hand, giving a small wave back. "I'm Eunsoo. .. Or Leo.." There was the tiniest hint of a smile on his face after introducing himself. He moved a little closer to sneak a peek at the book Chanwoo had picked out. He gave the man a slight nod of approval at his choice. "Good book." Eunsoo nodded again before he sat down to read the book Chanwoo gave him.

@♡ eunsoo s。 Chanwoo didnt want to hurt the boy he justed wanted to make sure he was ok although it was evident that he was. Being confirmed that it was ok Chanwoo smiles and sits closer although he couldn't fit under the table like the boy.
As he had finally spoke Chanwoo blinks a little it was the first time he had heard it,
"Oh um..Im Chanwoo- Hi~" he smiles and waved slightly smiling. "What about you? Whats your name?" Giving a smile Chanwol takes a book from the boy's stack

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@chanwoo l。 Eunwoo cautiously stared at the man and was conflicted. Should he let him? Looking down at the book, he shrugged with a nod. It wouldn't hurt to let the man read with him, at least he really hoped not. Eunsoo then looked back up, a alight puzzled look on his face. He just note realized he hasn't asked the man his name yet. The big tilted his head, "Um. Name?"

@♡ eunsoo s。 Chanwoo stares at the boy he felt a bit bad for him he was worried to say the least. He watched at the boy hugged the book smiling softly he gives a nod letting the boy know that he wouldn't be bothering him with those questions anymore.
"Ok then~" he nods once again at somepoint Chanwoo had to point out the similarities between the boy and himself.
They both don't like loud noises and prefer to be by themselves, "do..do you mind if I read some books with you?" He asks with a soft voice smiling towards the boy

@chanwoo l。 Eunsoo fixed his stare to the floor, not wanting to answer the first question. He then looked away, hugging the book close to him. He started to shake his head but shrugged instead. ".by myself and..loud." It wasn't that he didn't want to go but there would most likely be too much noise. And the little boy didn't very much like noisy places, especially when he was alone.

@♡ eunsoo s。 Chanwoo looks at the little boy.he couldnt help but smile softly not wanting to give off a scary image to the boy. Letting out a gentle sigh he nods back at the boy as he had taken the book smiling happily he couldn't bring himself up he wanted to talk to the little boy but didnt know if that was considered to much for him- still he tried and speaks in a spft mellow voice.
"Sorry if I..seem creepy but- if I may ask and you dont have to reply, why...are you alone? Dont you want to go to the wedding?" He asks tilting his head he had seen that many other kids were playing and eating cupcakes and other things that hype them up to run around like crazy.
"Don't you want any of that? " he adds as hw now sat down his legs crossed

@chanwoo l。 There was moment or two of silence and Eunsoo started to relax. The man must have left, so everything was safe, or so he thought. Just as he let out a sigh of relief, there were legs in front of his face. Eunsoo's eyes widened and he jumped back barely missing hitting his head on the table. He squeezed his eyes shut and lowered his head to his knees. His heart was beating fast as he peeked up, only to see the man's face. Eunsoo took a few calming breaths as he glanced at the book then back to the stranger. Well, since he received an apology, he might as well take the book. He bowed his head slightly in thanks before reaching out and grabbing the book that was offered to him.

@♡ eunsoo s。 Taking. Seat at a rather long stretched table Chanwoo opens up one of his books humming softly his eyes move about the words.
Suddenly he hears the movement of little feet across the carpet floor he slowly looks up spotting the little boy he chuckles and cracks into a smile tilting his head slightly as he watched the boy scurry back under the table he shakes his head a little. Letting a breathe he stands to get another book as he walks around he manged to move behind the table the little boy was under slowly he approached with a book for kids hmin hand.
"...excuse me...I um..I saw that you had gotten out of your hiding place..sorry if I scared you..here I thought I'd recommend a book to you" He smiles as he had squated down looking at the little boy

@chanwoo l。 "This isn't a good one.." Eunsoo whispered to himself. He let out a deep sigh, not really wanting to come out of his hiding spot. But seeing as not many people were around, he guessed it wouldn't hurt. Crawling out of his hiding spot, Eunsoo looked around only to spot a new person near him. Panicked, he quickly hid under the table again after managing to get another book. He set it down next to him and pressed his knees to his chest. He really hoped the person hadn't seen him and would move somewhere else or leave.

@♡ eunsoo s。 Chanwooo had barley arrived here he was a bit uncomfortable really there was a wedding going on and he had little to no clothes for such an occasion and let alone did he have the mind to be in parties. Taking a deep breathe both hands clasped behind his neck he hums softly as he walks past the noises rooms turning the corner then seeing a rather large sized door he walks over to it slowly pushing the door nothing but quietness in there it was a library, his favorite place. Immediately he walked in and decided to make himself at home if you will, but as he walked around, chose a couple books he turns a corner only to see a small boy under a table..
Strange...very strange now a bit conflicted why wasnt the child in the party, or sith his parents or friends at least- Chanwoo was a bit stumped should he go over and help the little guy- but yet what if he wanted to be alone. Chanwoo tool a breathe and walked around just a distance away from the child not wanting to offically bother him.

@chanwoo l。 Eunsoo was content. There wasn't that many people around as he entered the library. The peace and quiet was exactly what the child needed. He grabbed a few books from one of the shelves as soon as he went in. He glanced around the room before moving to a table in a quiet corner. He laid his books down and took one from the top of the pile. Glancing around once more, the child nodded to himself before crawling under it. Eunsoo figured no one would bother him under there as he started to read the book.

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@daniel k。 Sunggyu looked down as he twiddling with his fingers. He shakes his head. He understands what the younger was saying. But he simply can't. He didn't have the ability to do that. "Moving on mean forgetting, daniel-ah. And with that it's just the same as being dead. I can't. I bonded to him for eternity. I can't let my mates suffer." He said firmly.
"And adopting is the right way to help myself, you know..." he murmured. He hung his head low. He hit the bottom of his life once again. And with his separated from his mates, it's make the pain become almost unbearable compared to before when it's only himself that he has. The pain is too much that he almost going insane moreover when he feels through the bond the longing and anguish that his mate feels. The pain wreaking havoc on his life that death looks tempting. But he can't do that. Thinking how his mates will be devastated and his woohyun will definitely blaming himself while his jeonghannie will feeling guilty and will tried to leave again. No. He can't make that happen. He can't make his mates suffers more than this. And adopting kids make him at least a bit sane. It's a way to reminder himself that he is still needed and that he need to stay alive.

@ᵃ sunggyu⌘k。 Taking a deep breath Daniel looked away, barely even being able to look at the other male at a time like this, he hadn't told him to forget then, had he? "I know you are, but I'm not telling you to forget them, I'm telling you that you should at least try and move on, you can't live in pain like this..." He said before looking at him, slowly taking the book and placing it on the table, wrapping his arms around the other in a warm embrace, hoping it would at least help a little bit.
He had known the male for a while and thought that he seemed so strong and stable but the closer they got, especially now, he saw more and more how his friend was in so much pain he couldn't help letting himself be reminded by close to everything, this having been proven thanks to the book. He knew how the other was, how he wasn't anywhere near selfish and would always put his loved ones first, especially his mates which was understandable.
"I may not know what it's like to be abandoned but I know damn well what it's like to lose the ones I love, heck I found my parents dead right before I came here. It hurts to lose someone that you love so I know where you come from and I'm happy you got a kid, but the thing is you're not thinking about yourself. You're in so much pain right now and you're not doing anything to help it, you're not doing anything to help yourself..." He said, sighing. He knew what heartbreak was like, he knew it but losing a mate he couldn't even imagine considering he had never had one. He hated seeing this, he hated seeing the pain the other was going through yet he felt helpless, he knew he couldn't help him no matter what he tried to do. Just the thought pained him, but the one thing he could do was talk to the other and hold him in hope it would be at least a little bit comforting.

@daniel k。 () thank you ^^

Sunggyu gripping the book tightly, holding it toward his chest when his student tugged on his arm and forcing him to sit. He looked down but never letting the book go. "We are bonded...." he whispered softly. "And forgetting about them will hurt me more..." he murmured again, head still down. He bites his lips. He know he, himself, isn't okay. No. He is almost going crazy to be exact. He is dying slowly. The separation not only affecting his body, but his mind too. Especially when he know how his mate feeling.
He know and understand where his student, daniel come from and why he said that. But he can't do that. No matter what, he can't. He can't let himself be selfish and hurting others, especially his mates. He will even take extreme measures if it can make his precious people happy. Including killing himself.
He let out a deep sigh. "I know how it feels to be abandoned by your own parents, shunned down by peoples, and in the end become an orphan because someone kill them. And I can't sit still knowing that I can help them to become happy and feeling complete by taking care of them. Providing them with love. I know the feeling of longing to have a family. And I don't want them to experience more than these." He answered. He know he is still lacking to be a parent and probably will never be a good parent or a good mate, but he can at least try as much as he could to be the one. Though it probably kind of twisted way by sacrificing himself. But he will do anything to make his precious people happy.

@ᵃ sunggyu⌘k。 () aww, I hope you get better soon!

Closing his eyes before taking a deep breath Daniel stood in front of the book and stared at the male. He couldn't accept this, he couldn't accept his teacher reliving the horrible pain he had felt for days on end because of that book. "They might still be your mates but you're in so much pain you don't even know what to do so why do you keep pushing yourself into it knowing how much you're hurting already so I'm not letting you do this." He said and grabbed the other males arm, pulling him away from the bookcase and back where he had been sitting earlier, hidden away from people and around fiction books. "You're not doing fine, I know you're not so don't lie to me." He said, forcing the male to sit on the chair next to where he had been sitting before, sitting down next to him.

It hurt him, seeing the male like this, he had known exactly how much he was hurting yet it was like the male was closing himself out. "You know exactly why I came here, you're the first person I told here about finding my parents dead in the house and being chased all the way here. Why are you hiding it when you're well aware how ing bad it to lose the ones you love?" He said, looking at the older male before leaning back in the chair, sighing as he heard the males next words. It wasn't that he didn't trust him with a child, he knew his teacher loved kids and would do anything to take care of his own, he just couldn't understand why he had done it when he was in so much pain. "You did? Don't get me wrong I trust you with it just, why?"

@daniel k。 () nah, it's okay~ ^^ I end up sleeping because slight fever

Sunggyu looking down at the book in his hand when the younger asked him why he take that books instead of avoiding it. He smiled slightly looking at the tree's picture and two wolfs underneath it. Though it pained him to go separate way with both of his mate, he still love them. Wishing something will work maybe will make it too far fetched, but he just can't stop his feelings of loving both his mates. Because woohyun is his true mate and Jeonghan is like his precious brother and woohyun's mate too.
He looked up towards his student and smiling again. "Because I miss my mates. I still love them. And even if we go separate way now, they're still my mates." He said as he looks down and caress the tree and the small white wolf that etched on the cover. For him, the picture symbolizes his mates and him. The tree, it's represents his woohyun, his home and the small white wolf represents jeonghan. While the black big wolf with scars is him.
"And I'm doing fine," he replied still smiling. "I just adopted a kid."

@ᵃ sunggyu⌘k。 () otl sorry I thought I had replied already :(

Hearing the teacher mumble the name of his past mate had confirmed what Daniel thought he had been thinking about when looking at the book, making the question as to why he picked it up confuse him even more. No one wanted to experience that type of pain for a second time, so why had he picked it up only to take a trip down memory lane?
Sighing and shaking his head as the male put on a smile e frowned. "Yes I came to study but that's not the point. Why are you looking at this?" He asked, he had known about it for a while, of course he didn't know all but enough to understand why he was hurting so badly. "You're supposed to avoid these things, not drag yourself into the pain over and over like this.." He said, sighing once again, wanting to hug the male but not knowing if it was appropriate, the latter was his teacher after all and not all that close to his own age.
"How are you doing, Sunggyu..?"

@daniel k。 Sunggyu keep staring into the book cover though his mind already far away, and didn't even realize what happened around him. He traces the tree's picture, eyes glassy as he bite his lips. "Woohyunnie..." he murmured almost breathlessly as he feel a sudden jolt of pain crushing his chest. He shuddered lightly, biting back his sobs. He is so focused on maintain his emotion state, that he is unaware that someone been approaching him. At the call of his name, he froze and hurriedly wiping his face before turning around facing the man with a smile displayed on his face.

"Ah, hello, Daniel," he said; face smiling. "Come to study?" he asked the student, trying to be his cheerful self. He briefly looked at the book in his hand before putting it behind his back. "So, how was it? Any progress yet?" He asked again, still smiling.

@ᵃ sunggyu⌘k。 It felt like he had been there for hours, just staring into the book and trying to take notes but to no avail, giving up in the end Daniel threw himself against the back of the chair, ruffling his hair and groaning in frustration only to be 'shushed', understandably so as he had been rather loud when showing his frustration in not being able to get the words stuck in his head for the next text. Looking around as he had decided that there was no idea to keep trying if he wasn't going to learn anything, proven by not even writing down two rows throughout the whole two hours he had been there, staring at the same book and not understanding anything. As he was looking around something caught his eye, a very familiar figure which he guessed was his literature teacher, Sunggyu. The older male hadn't seemed to noticed him, quite understandably so as he has been sitting quite hidden away from most people as he really wanted to make it through school without a single F for once. Packing up his things before standing up he decided to go talk to the male, curious as to how he was doing and what had taken him to the schools library.

About to tap the males shoulder he stopped himself when he saw what the book he was looking at was. Seeing the word 'Mate' om the front cover he frowned, wondering why the male had picked it up in the first place.
"Sunggyu..?"