— jungkook's home (that xuanyi secretly lives in)

Yoongi loudly knock on the door in a obnoxious manner *^*

@jeon jungkook /chews on my bottom lip, somewhat nervously as I listen to you shoot questions at me/
'Xuanyi'... is me, the real me, the me that..that isn't filled to the brim with people's expectations, the me that isn't living just for the sake of other people's dreams, their wants, their expectations. 'Xuanyi' is the me that somehow, for some reason, I decided to show to you. She's the raw me who isn't putting up facades or masks.. She's the me who can easily hurt, the me who feels so much raw emotions that it's scary.
/my eyes tearing up ever so slightly at the overwhelming emotion you made me feel with your words, the sense of actually belonging somewhere, belonging with someone filling me. The feeling that had been missing for ever so long. The feeling that I thought I would never find ever again, let alone in this small town. I finally decide to meet your gaze once more, searching your eyes for traces of sincerity in your words, my heart thumping loudly against my chest while a voice inside a head yells at me to get a grip, to stop, to just throw everything aside once more and run away but the voice inside my heart sings a way different song, it sang a song that asked me to just pause and think, not with my mind, not with logic but with my feelings. It sang a song that asks me to give you, give us, give myself a chance and it's a song that overcomes the dark voice ringing inside my head, pushing it to the very back of my mind. finally raises my hands to gently place them on your cheeks as I look at you, a lone tear rolling down my cheek from the internal debate I'm having, a debate that my heart had won hands down/
but wouldn't you regret us? I.. I'm not that girl that would be as sweet as honey, I'm not good with words..and I'm even worse at expressing my own emotions. I'm that girl....who can't even achieve her dreams anymore. I can't even run like every other girl probably could. They'd be able to run with you by the beach, maybe even share almond milk with you. I have so much flaws that they don't. I'm not perfect. I'm off by a long shot to being perfect. Hell, I'm probably on the opposite spectrum of perfect so are you sure, Jungkook? You do realise you're asking the least perfect girl in the world to give you, give us a chance, right?

@wu xuanyi // your words unravel but I find only uncertainty arising with each one. It's clear you're revealing yourself to me, but I'm left with far more questions than answers. Suddenly, this doesn't seem so much about the kiss at the shop anymore, and a nervous trill snakes its way in my bones. I've been sure since I got here that people in this town might come, not just for a change of pace- but a change of life. A fresh start, a happier ending. It's so terribly relateable, and yet I never dreamed the girl before me could be among them. //
I see. I mean, that's perfectly fine but- What do you mean? Is 'Xuanyi' not... you?
// the reality that settles between us is a frigid one, impending and tense in the way that it looms between our chests. I'm struck with the sudden urge to draw you nearer because suddenly you feel all too distant. A lonely ship set adrift, cast out in the waves of a life I know nothing about. //
How convenient, because that's never what I wanted. Never WHO I wanted. I want you for you, for your wit and your sincerity. For your kindness and your light.
// At the moment, I think of every time you've quipped a nickname my way, every threat, every promise. I recall the boldness you took in stepping forward and seizing the kiss that still plays out against my tingling lips. You're brazen and unending, but words like "innocent" or even "broken" could never befit someone like you. I my lips, settling my hold around your waist in my struggle to find the right words again. //
I want that too. What we've had, but- also something more. I want a chance, Xuan. And you're right in that I wouldn't deserve it if I knew nothing about you...
// we could take it slow, start off easy like a sappy sort of honey sweet romance- but I don't think I'd mind it so long as there's still hope. //

@jeon jungkook /lets out a soft, almost inaudible sigh as you guide my gaze back to yours, a small smile tugging up on my lips at your words, the thought ever so wonderful, ever so welcoming. my eyes squeezing shut at your question, wanting so badly to just curl up on the floor as I lightly shake my head/ it wasn't my first..but it's my first ever since I came to this town, ever since.. I decided that I would be known only as Xuanyi. /lets out a shaky breath as I forced myself to meet your eyes/ Y'know.. I began to look forward to seeing you, look forward to our childish bickerings, look forward to attempting to make you soft, make you smile, make you.. /pauses, a soft chuckle escaping me/ make you malfunction but.. /pauses once more mid-sentence, a small bitter smile creeping up to my face/ Jungkook, I'm not that girl that you probably think I am because of how I behave. I'm not that pure innocent soul that every other girl here probably is. I'm someone who's broken on the inside, someone who's afraid, so afraid of being hurt again and as much as all that sounds inviting, as much as I want it, God- I want to keep what we have right now so bad that I'm scared. I admit, I really really do like you but as much as I do, I'm scared of what you'll do once you find out just how I am on the inside.

@wu xuanyi // my stare follows after yours, messy fringe tossing about beneath my beanie as I shake my head in rebuttal //
I mean, you ARE though. An idiot, I mean. Not that you can help it.
// by then, I'm closing the distance-- already finding unease in the way those restless eyes refuse to meet mine. I lift my hand until my palm encases your delicate jawline, fingertips aligned against the silken skin there-- guiding your gaze back to mine //
I was supposed to do it the right way, y'know. Take you someplace nice with candlelight and a balcony. Laugh at pictures of your pet on your phone.
// the thought alone draws a smile to my face but I'm quick to erase it all the same, to reclaim the stony facade because I'd rather enforce my energy focusing on your own //
Meet your eyes. Kiss you under moonlight if you let me. If it felt right.

But that-

Xuan. It wasn't your first, right?

@jeon jungkook /follows after you, my wrist in your grasp though I'm walking behind you willingly, my eyebrows slightly furrowed from confusion, blinking at your sudden words, my eyebrows furrowing even more/ I- how am I an idiot? Was I pulled here just to hear you hurl insults at me again? /bites down on my bottom lip, my hard gaze faltering slightly as you look at me, that gaze of yours ever so gentle, inwardly scolding myself to calm my racing pulse, telling myself it was just because of the speed we were walking, mumbling my next words as I choose to look away/ I'm not an idiot.

@wu xuanyi Okay-
// gently guides you in by the frail cusp of your wrist, idly wondering when the hell I'd taken it to begin with, and heaves out a sigh. I find my purchase leaning against the door the moment I shut it, eyes closing, a slight furrow of my brows to form that telltale crease just between them. //
So--- Just so you know, you're an idiot.
// I open my eyes to regard you, my words warring against the softness embedded in my eyes. And though my lips remain firmly pursed, my hand still claims its hold on you-- gentler now, thumb tapping against your pulse point nestled just beneath it. //
You got that?

@jeon jungkook [] in that case ok it's jungkook x xuanyi's home now :D

@wu xuanyi [ l ac es my fingers together, tota l l y not stopping you ]

@jeon jungkook [] renames it to jungkook and xuanyi's home ba dum tss

@wu xuanyi [ "that xuanyi secretly lives in"

kook, waltzing down the hall in his pajamas and bed hair: aye, what's for breakfast? i know you're here.

s H OT ]

@jeon jungkook [] I accept payment in love