@☆ yukhei w。 oh, trust me. my decisions are all guided by my gut. i always follow it. and it has been quite good so far actually. so i am glad of that!
my home? right..i guess i could..or i will swing by his place or or..we go cruising in my car! we could go get take out and go to the beach and make out.
oh and..we make out, that i can and will tell you. i just want to get more..intimate. i should let him know..thanks, bro.
flowers! that's what the date was about..collecting flowers in the forest! you think he'd appreciate flowers?
@☾ jeno l。 upon seeing your frame gradually laxing, heaves a relieved sigh, flashing a toothy grin. I can only pray for things to work out in your favor and offers a gentle squeeze on shoulder.
yes, that's the best way though sometimes, I believe, it's best to follow your guts. might sound sillly but who knows it might work??
oh... it's still not too late, I assume. if you can't enjoy it outside, try at your home? and
coughs, nudging you slightly in the ribs.
you can make out....I mean, it's the best course of action. little by little.. it's upto you.
want to pick some flowers for your bae?
@☆ yukhei w。 sighs a bit in content when you pat my shoulder and looks at you as i slowly ease my shoulders, running a hand through my hair.
right..baby steps are very important. at least i have gotten help now..that way i can't make bad decisions or do i will regret.
i wanted to take him out on a date in the forest..we were going to collect stuff. but i forgot what..but yeah, i guess he was just busy because..we never got to it..
mumbles and frowns a bit, looking down.
@☾ jeno l。 pats your shoulder lightly, hoping somewhat it has some soothing effect.
baby steps are most important. no need to rush and I'm sure the ones who care will never pressure you to do anything you are uncomfortable with. you've begun and that matters.
hmn...then bring it up and when you can. you might never know what the other party is feeling themselves. may be take him out on a date or something to sweet for the two of you
@☆ yukhei w。 well this isn't just "at some point in my life". this has been my whole life. i don't talk about stuff because i feel like a nuisance. a burden. and i know it's not easy at all, this is so ing difficult. it is so difficult. but i guess i am taking baby steps. baby steps is a begin already. i'll be fine eventually. just let me take my baby steps.
i can't say the same. but that's because i haven't had any ual contact, i guess. hm, well when i talk with renjun, i guess i could bring it up. and of course i'm ready.
@☾ jeno l。 that...at some point in my life, I had difficulties explaining or asking for things. for myself or them, it seemed impossible, jeno. I suffered. sometimes worst than bearable. I know that feeling of being the odd one for thinking something different or wanting too. I'm not saying it's quite easy to get these deep feelings out. harder even bare for others to see. the pressure and everything. but you've to try. I'm not the best and you might not feel comfortable cause we know each other for a little longer but I'm on ears. I'll try to help as much as I can.
I... that's something you should sit down and start discussing with each other. not bragging but I know where mark and I have a standing at now... people say intimate touches aren't necessary but they're lying. it's a big part of the relationship.
but mostly, are you ready?
@☆ yukhei w。 i guess i should. and i know you guys aren't psychics or know-it-alls. but i never said you guys were either. so..yeah. you don't know how difficult it is for me to talk about stuff, lucas. i barely talk about my emotions or my concerns. just earlier this week, i at least talked about my feelings to someone very close to me. so this, this what i am doing now, is really really hard for me.
ual life? what ual life? there's honestly not really a ual life. i don't know how to start that.
@☾ jeno l。 not outside of the relationship.
then you should talk it out with renjun, jeno. we're not psychics nor blessed by some divine powers know-it-all. if you keep bottling up your emotions and concerns, it'll blow up and I bet you don't want that. so ask him.
and what about your ual life though? have you two talked about that as well?
@☆ yukhei w。 what i want out of this relationship? i am not sure what renjun wants but i just..i want to stay together with him for a long time. marriage? settling down. unless you meant like..outside of this relationship.
@☾ jeno l。 jeno--
reaches out, grabbing gently onto your wrist and brings you to more secluded place to the corner.
no, you're not burdening me and second of all, don't think that.
I know I don't know you that well and we're just beginning... but I am sure you're more than that.
ask him if he feels that way? communication is key and.. I... not my place to say but, do you guys know what you two want out of this relationship?
@☆ yukhei w。 looks at you and rubs the back of my neck slowly, nodding at you.
ahh, yeah..i am just..afraid that it might end between renjun and i. because i feel like i am boring for him. hah..sorry to burden you with my issues!!
laughs softly and looks at the flowers, stepping forward to sniff them.
@☾ jeno l。 tragic romance.
shudders. I'll not go for that then. god forbids anything like that happening to any of us.
drags you to the area displaying vibrant flowers.
.. I forgot what flowers..
@☾ jeno l。 laughs ,shaking head full of mirth.
that's true. looking at them... I mostly will buy anything so I need opinion to choose what actually looks good.
@☆ yukhei w。 sure thing, sure thing!
i will help you out with whatever you need me to do, lucas! but i guess i don't have to do much besides look at the new flowers with you..
@☾ jeno l。 sweat not jeno. I'm quite aware what I need. I just gotta see the new flowers and how they look before buying the seeds.
after that we can head to cafe?
A flower shop! I don't have my own shop in this new town, maybe I could come work here for now. "Is there anyone here" I called out to this seemingly empty shop, hoping to get an answer back.