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@shαwn mєndєs /lets out a soft hum when you call out my name, the kiss cutting my words off when I start blabbering, blushing faintly from embarrassment.
Well, I just want this weekend to be perfect though. I am sorry if I worry too much. Heh.. I will prepare my things later on.

@чσσn jєσnghαn Jeonghan~
/I say softly, leaning in to press a long kiss to your lips to quiet you, releasing a gentle chuckle.
My love, you're fine, it's just for a couple days, just the duration of this weekend, it'll be fine. You only have to take a couple pairs of clothes and anything else you want that would keep you entertained. I'm getting all the main stuff, so you just really need some of your clothes, it wont take long. You're not a burden, dont panic, babe.

@shαwn mєndєs Oh right, the trip. 630? Wait, so that'll be in a few hours. I should be sleeping by now then. But even if I sleep right now, I don't think I will be waking up by that time. I gotta get my things as well. Oh no..
/looks up to you and juts out my lower lip.
Will you be okay with that? I don't want to be a burden..

@чσσn jєσnghαn Alright Jeong, I'll believe you ♡
/Nods my head shortly, looking around as I stare up at the ceiling and I briefly daydream for a short while.
Today is the trip, I almost forgot, we leave I think at 630 this evening, or well, that's the morning for you so if you're asleep by then, I'll carry you in the car and let you snooze on the way to the location, haha.

@shαwn mєndєs /my eyes briefly closes to relish the kiss, a soft sigh slipping past my pinkish tiers after we pull away.
I am doing okay. I actually took a nap this afternoon to make up for my sleepless night. My body actually gave in to the nap. So I am fine now, my love.

@чσσn jєσnghαn /Leans in and presses a gentle kiss to your lips once more, giving you a gentle squeeze.
I'm excited, I also have to ask how you're doing via sleep? I know you're probably really tired and in and out of your sleep since last night you didnt end up getting any rest..I hope you're well..

@shαwn mєndєs So it's actually been a while since we first met.. Wow, time really goes by fast. But then again, It actually does when you spend it with someone you love. You tend to enjoy so much that you aren't able to track the time anymore.
I can't wait to be with you as well, Shawn. I might have said it already but know that I really mean it.
/presses myself closer to you, arms wrapping around your torso with my face buried against the fabric of your shirt, inhaling your scent.
I am very happy too. And like what I have said, anything for you to make you happy always.

@чσσn jєσnghαn When I was checking my calendar, I noticed that today, after some time I forget the time I actually came here, but sometime today it'll be finally two weeks, it's always the second week around that drags on and on when I'm totally in love with you, god, I can't wait to be with you.
/I lean up, and turn entirely to you, and I lean back forward to wrap my arms around you and hug you tightly, pressing you to my body as I trap you in my warm embrace, exhaling out once.
You've brought joy to me, I'm so happy, thank you so much for being here when I needed you..

@shαwn mєndєs Those are what you have to remember, my love. You don't deserve to dwell in this feeling. I am happy to know that there are other people who helps you go through this situation as well. I should be thanking them for not letting my baby be eaten up by this mood. Go do what you think will help you move on, and do it in whatever pace you prefer. Fast or slow, that's alright, as long as you will be fine in the end.
/brings your hands near my lips to give them the same treatment you did to mine, smiling up to you after.
Even though not still not officially, please know that my heart is already yours. It feels so incredible to have you in my life too. I will do whatever it takes to keep you happy. Your happiness is my happiness too.

@чσσn jєσnghαn Your words really do mean a lot to me, Jeonghan. They're fantastic to my ears and they are what needed to be heard. A few others have said some really great things as well, helping me cope through it. The inky thing that's really left is to, purge everything and get rid of a lot of the photos of my old muse, and I need to take a break from listening to certain songs my certain artists because heck, I'm a crybaby, I'll cry a lot, but that's the part of living through it right?
/Holds your hands, bringing them to my lips and I kiss both of them, happily squeezing them.
You're an incredible addition to my life, I could never be without you at this point, and though not together just yet, the days are getting shorter..soon, you'll be mine, all mine.
Not that you already are of course, haha.

@shαwn mєndєs /my eyelids fall shut and i press my lips against yours firmly, placing small peck on them before completely pulling away.
I love you so so much too, honey. And I won't let anyone make you feel like .
Yes, sometimes they do have qualities that we like but.. If we are always hurting because of them, then why should we still stick to them? It's like.. torturing yourself, which is not right. We all deserve people better than that.
It's okay to be broken though. They became a part of our lives at some point, but we should know how to move on from it. People do come and go, that's normal. And all we gotta do is move on because it will take us a step closer to those who really will stay by our side.
I will always be here for you, my love. Please remember that, hmm?

@чσσn jєσnghαn It went on for so long honestly, they were toxic before, they were still toxic now, why didnt I listen to my friends when they told me to cut them out? It's a bit of my own fault I ended up still being broken hearted but, what else was there to do, they were at the same time amazing, and I was so blinded by their ways that I couldn't see how bad I was hurting inside, and they left me so broken like this.
Frig, it feels like I'm talking about an ex, technically they are now pretty much, and I can breathe, but when I do, I choke on my tears. My mental stability for broken hearted stuff like this, but..bad things happen to good people hm? I just..need help getting through it, and I'm happy that you can help me, I know you're mad, my sadness will eventually turn into anger but, that's why I've got you..I'm thankful.
/Gives a lengthy speech, leaning close to plant a kiss on your lips after cupping your cheek meaningfully kissing you with deep passion.
I love you so much, I know I love you, my heart is burning so deeply for you..

@shαwn mєndєs You don't have to apologize, Shawn. No.. I am just fine. Tonight is all about you and I will stay here for as long as I can until I make sure you are okay. Damn, I am just so.. so.. mad? That someone had the audacity to hurt you like this. I will never have a guts to do that..
/gives your hands a soft squeeze before I am joining you on the bed, laying next to you. wraps an arm around your waist as I scoot closer, head tilting up to press kisses on your neck and lips.
I will always be whenever you need me, my love..

@чσσn jєσnghαn I'm sorry to bring this all upon you so fast, I..I needed you, I should be caring about the fact that you got no sleep, but I understand of you didnt, I'm just really happy you're here with me now to be by my side through this really big struggle.
/I say in a shaky voice, keeping my hands held over yours and I lean down to kiss your forehead before you guide me to my bedroom, where I close the door for added privacy and tug on your hands, wanting you to join me in bed.
I'm so happy you're here..

@shαwn mєndєs /my fingers card through your thick locks, massaging against your scalp gently. i repeatedly kiss your head, wanting to erase the sadness from you even just a little bit of it.
Hey, that's pretty long of a friendship now. But like.. The reason why you aren't able to reply properly is valid but why can't they understand that. My love, you don't deserve this. This is too harsh of a situation.
/pulls away from you for a second before i lead us to your room, wanting to comfort you there.

@чσσn jєσnghαn I'm so weak ;;;;;

@чσσn jєσnghαn /Holds my face gently down against your chest, exhaling shaky and I wrap my arms around you, grasping you and giving you a squeeze so I didnt let go. I hide my shame and my sadness from you, not wanting you to see such weakness in me.
W..we were friends for two years I know it doesnt seem like that long of a while but we had an in character thing happening, like you know how attached you can get to someone's character, and then they left...I cant..I cant believe all of this.

@shαwn mєndєs w.. what? wait, why would they do that to you? i— shouldn't they understand that you were sick? oh my, honey.. you don't deserve that kind of treatment. /immediately brings you in for a hug, pulling you down to me and hugging your head gently, placing a soft kiss on top of your head.

@чσσn jєσnghαn I...I had something happen with a toxic friend, I was sick a couple days ago right? Well, they kind of argued and got mad at me and called my actions and replies careless and accused me of being lazy. So i stopped talking to them for a couple days, i came back today to try and be okay with them but they still got mad at me, and they told me to off and left me stranded, and i think they blocked me. I'm sl mad I'm so upset, i couldn't stop crying...what is wrong with me?

@shαwn mєndєs /my eyes are suddenlly filled with worry after hearing the way your voice sounded, scurrying over to you almost immediately. Why, honey? Did something happen??

@чσσn jєσnghαn I-I...I need you here..for a moment something bad happened to me and i-

@shαwn mєndєs Oh, you will hear that more often because guess what? .. You are mine and mine only.
/my voice falls into a soft whisper when I say the last sentence, tracing my index finger on the angle of your jaw before tapping on your lower lip, brushing our noses in an eskimo kiss after.
Yup, we shall take our time. You still have time to skedaddle away if you ever change your mind on me. God forbid though.
It'll be the start of our forever once we make anything official between us. But I must admit that I am more than happy about what we have at the moment.
/i admit, watching you with adoration as you seem to get lost in your imagination, quite enamoured that you are already thinking of our future together. though the words that slip past your lips left me surprised, eyes wider than it should be and my mouth gape open with a gasp. my heartbeat starts to speed up, rising the temperature of my body that causes my cheeks to redden. it takes a while before i am able to compose myself, biting on my lower lip.
Shawn.. I—
.. I love you too..

@чσσn jєσnghαn It sounds adorable when you call me yours, you should say that a lot more often.
/Hums out a little chuckle, and I press my hand to the back of your head, holding it there while I gently rub our noses together, exhaling once in complete enamourment.
It's a deal then, I have to keep remembering I cant make it official with you just yet, at least not for another day or two I think, but when that time comes, we'll be cuffed to each other forever. I like the sound of that, especially what the future can hold out for us, dont you think?
/Daydreams slightly of future events happening between you and I, and I close my eyes a little in happy thought, turning my head down to you once more.
...I l..
I love you, Jeonghan.
/I stammered at first, pausing in between before I could finish my sentence, before continuing with a dark red blush set on my cheeks.

@shαwn mєndєs That is alright, actually. I like being small next to you and being buried into your embrace whenever you hold me.
/gives your cheeks a soft squish before brushing our noses together with a soft hum.
Well, no one can get to you now. You are mine. Anyone who will try to check on you will be in a big trouble. No matter who they are.
/moves my head in a firm nod before chuckling, placing another kiss on your lips, and then another one until the fourth time.
Damn, Shawn. You are making me fall for you even more. I am a er for gentlemen. I love that you respect that. And I could say the same to you. I respect you too and you can do whatever you want.

@чσσn jєσnghαn I swear I didnt mean to make you look small compared to me, and y e s i am real i promise you.
/I laugh with you while residing into the warmth of your hands, exhaling through my nose once with a gentle murmur, and I open my eyes again to continue.
Y e a h, it was a little scary, so I just kinda avoided it, and I'm glad it did since it brought me to, someone closer to my age.
/Gestures to yourself as I give your lower back a gentle pat, soon pressing a brief kiss to your lips, and my heart races when I stare at you again.
I'm glad, then I wont change my ways anytime soon, but I wont control you despite acting older, you're your own person and I want to respect that with you..

@shαwn mєndєs Yeah, maybe it's the genes. You got lucky. Meanwhile, there's me. I have actually gained muscles at this point but I still look tiny next to you. Imagine if you meet me in my thinner days.
I actually think you aren't real. Well, are you? You are probably something I just made up in my dreams.
/i joke around, cupping your face and feeling it as if trying to know if you are real or not before dropping the act, bursting into a series of chuckles.
I mean, there are some people who are strict at age differences though. Wait— You have encountered that here? How come I did not know about that? Then again, large age difference between partners is a thing too but I am pretty sure it's not for you knowing for the fact that you freaked out there.
And yeah, for some reason, you act like the older one sometimes. But that is fine with me. I love seeing that.

@чσσn jєσnghαn /Quietly wheezes out a soft laugh at a few of your comments, finding them to be humorous to me, and I lift my shoulders casually in a light shrug.
I have no idea what makes me so large I side, perhaps it's how I am genetically, plus working out quite a bit during school and when I'm not performing, some people think I'm not even real.
/Laughs a little more, pushing back my curled locks with the largeness of my hand, and I stop briefly to glance at you.
Jeong, you're not that much older than me, it's only 3 years, i dont mind it one but, it's not like we have a 10 year difference, then something would be wrong here, when I first got here there was an older man that wanted to "spoil me" and they were in their 30s and it kind of freaked me out a bit..haha. So no, i dont mind our age difference, it's pleasent, despite me acting like I'm older for some reason?

@shαwn mєndєs Oh, it's not annoying or anything of some sorts. It's actually quite endearing. That you are proud to be stuck with me. And yes, you heard it right. You are gonna be stuck with me. Forever. No matter what.
/brings you closer, carding a hand through your hair at the back of your head, stroking the area whilst chuckling softly.
Well, I sure do possess that. And yeah, I am older than you for like three years. You are even younger than my two groupmates who were born in 1998. Then again, you look so big for your age like.. What do westerners eat to be like this tall and well-built at this age?
But doesn't matter anymore. You are younger but that doesn't make me like you any less. But.. Are you okay being with someone older than you though? Just asking.

@чσσn jєσnghαn Whoops, well, I feel so much more confident with these good things happening to me, I'm not too over the top with it, I hope. If I am i know how annoying it could be.
/Grows a little shy, a soft blush dusting across my cheeks, and I try to hide myself when i tuck my nose gently into the crook of your neck, exhaling softly.
A little bit of it wont hurt, surely, or well I hope, you have some of that too, especially with your level of talent and beauty, so angelic. I can't believe you're older than me by a few years as well? You'll never age, you'll keep drinking from that fountain of youth, but even if that, it's a promise of mine to grow old with you..

@shαwn mєndєs Yeah, I have always loved that story. It is really sweet and it makes you think that maybe we all have that one person destined for us. It's just a matter of time. Well in my case though, yeah I agree to that. I think mine is connected to yours.
/my fingers trace random patterns against your chest through your shirt before laying my hand flat against the area as i bring my gaze back to you as my golden locks are tucked away, leaning a little closer to place a kiss on your chin.
Here goes his confident self again. But yeah, I am quite lucky to have someone like you wrapped around my finger. The Shawn Mendes falling for someone like me? Just who am I to win over those girls who are linked to you.