⚝ ooc。

hello everyone!! i wanted to take a moment to officially announce that i will be leaving this roleplay by tomorrow. if anyone has any last minute requests before i leave, please tag or pm me your request. thank you all for the good memories, i've met some wonderful people here. i am sincerely sorry for the sudden departure. after some consideration, i have ultimately decided to leave due to personal reasons. please take care of yourselves, always, and stay hydrated. ♥

- felix/christopher

hello everyone, i apologize for my absence. i will get to replies this weekend. i appreciate the patience ♥
- felix/chris

let me make this a group pm

is everything okay??

what happened?

i really did it this time TTTT

shorter, softer threads are what i can handle at the moment so i only intend only replying to those - and i do also intend on posting a blog post tomorrow to keep everyone updated.

my childhood wasn't picture perfect by any means. we had our moments as a family but in the end, ny nonna and nonno ( grandma & grandpa in italian ) were 99% of my childhood. every sunday up until my 16th birthday we went there for lunch. all as a family. sometime my aunt and her husband would stop over. sometimes it'd be their kids, my two cousins. either way, my nonna's cooking always brought everybody together whether it'd be on sunday's, birthday's, or holidays. my nonna is fading as well, being on her last stage of dementia. my nonno, however, seems to going quicker and... i have no idea how to handle it. up until now, i thought i'd be prepared but... who is? all i can do now is hope the new medication he's on works, and we're able to see him a bit longer. when my father brought it up to me, i could tell he had done visitations while i had lived in my previous living situation because his exact words were "just be prepared... he's not like how you saw him last" and he was just staring at a wall while saying that. my father, who was emotionally unavailable growing up ( but is coming around in the more recent years after my mental health took a turn ), is now in the process of watching his own father slowly leave. i only knew the sudden deaths of two family dogs, and i knew that if a death in any of my close family would happen, 'she's a wreck' would be an understatement. i'm not sure when but i know my dad is trying to get a weekend off soon so that we can go visit him.

it’s definitely not easy,, watching someone slowly lose themselves is just as painful as a sudden death. >< make sure to spend as much time with him and/or your dad during this difficult time! don’t worry about being here. focus on family! we’ll be around when you’re ready to come back, but for now, look after yourself. :< lemme know if i can do anything!

aw bubs ;; forget about rping for the time being unless it makes you feel a little better. i hope you're able to have a chance to see him! i'm not sure if you looked up to your grandpa, but Alzheimers is hard to see someone go through. i hope you know through and through he loves you, and you're a gentle thought full of so much love.

not me thinking i'd be better to get back into rping only for my depression to kick in full gear when my dad told me that my grandpa's organs are failing... he is 98 and on his last stage of alzheimers... i'm not ready for this yall

she rly is @ ____ @

JSHDJS SHE'S SERVING IT ALL

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me, not proofreading my replies: have fun : D

but i hope you had a good holiday too, my love <3

i didnt celebrate it akfjdnfn i just had to work all day and then unexpectedly had a friend wanna hangout for the rest of the night so i didnt get home/in bed until nearly 1am after being up since 7am :woozy:

hope you had a good holiday!

apologies for low activity today - stressful and busy and now that i'm finally home (it is 12:23am) and finally free, imma just head to bed akdkdkfl i shall get to replies and regular activity lvls tomorrow <3

if someone is intimidated by me, i'd be so confused osdjosjd personally, i don't see how i'm intimidating but maybe my writing can be -- i am known to get carried away when it comes to length, but that's beside the point. i usually only ever had more than one alt if i have a lot of muse for the rp which is a considerably good sign seeing as i struggle with muse in general most of the time ; ^ ; it just means i am comfortable there, personally. however, i've always been more mindful of other people. no matter what, i just want people to feel comfortable and if i contribute to them feeling uncomfortable in anyway, i try to tamper down somehow. i was thinking of even bringing in a third muse here for like,,, m o n t h s but i've been so hesitant because of this particular issue osjdosdj

well you are!! uwu < 3 and too much green??? i would be so happy to see any admin as active as you are, and not only that, how else are you going to ENJOY the rp while doing your best to take care of it??? you have the characters because you're obviously doing well keeping up with rping with them and making connections! those who are uncomfortable either don't want to be caught doing some stuff they know is out of line. they could be shy too, which i understand, but usually you would get over yourself and know an rp admin is a person too. continue having your fun, bub! don't let people who let silly stuff such as that ruin it, and i know you try to be as welcoming as possible so they must be intimidated by you for real.

this is obviously something i'm still thinking about, so nothing is final!!

but thank you i really do appreciate everything you said ♥

sdojsodj the way i don't think i'm any of those things :skull: the reason why i even considered stepping down was because of complaints of admins having too many alts,, i'm in several rps where i'm an admin and a few of them are places where i have several alts and i'm normally a talkative person in the chats so i've had people complain to me about there being too much green in the chats and how it made people feel discouraged to come into the chat. while i've never had that complaint here, it's happened frequently enough to discourage me to continue admining ; ^ ;

WE LOVE YOU AS A COADMIN : salute: you've done this rp justice for real and you made it fun for both new people and those we have left! i appreciate you so much bc i love this rp so much ❤️ my best moments on here have been with this rp and i thank you for being the coadmin for so long!!! you really did your best with events, activity checks, and overall bring supportive of all of us. we love you!!!!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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so after some thinking, i think i came to a conclusion. i love serving this rp, and i want to thank you all for having me as a coadmin but i think it will be best if i step down. if anyone has any requests, please send them my way before the end of the week (5/10). thank you all ❤️

me too dhdkdh

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