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@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ "i...right. i don't want to be alone. i actually /hate/ being alone, chris. especially during storms, but you already know that. i'm sorry. it's not my intention to make you feel like i'm pushing you away or refusing your help. it just worries me that you'll get annoyed or something and leave since i always talk too much or ask for a lot." i mumble quietly with red cheeks, embarrassed at my own actions. maybe i needed to tone things down. "i mean, i understand that, but some families aren't functional, yeah? some families are so broken that they don't even want to be around each other. that makes me sad. however... i know what you're trying to say, and sometimes the kinds of bonds that are like the one we have can be stronger than blood. at least, i believe so." a slow inhale. "i'll remember the quote, though, chris. as much as i can." when you jolt, my fingers instinctively splay out against your thigh, digging in ever-so-slightly. "you're okay. it was just a chair. hopefully, they'll call me soon so we can get outta here."

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ “i try not to be. i’m just always afraid of being annoying or a bother to others. even though i grew up royalty where people /served/ me, i was still like that… my butlers and maids were shocked that i treat them differently than other members of my family. i didn’t like being in charge of my own kind or feeling helpless.” noticing your leg, i pause, then carefully rest my hand on your thigh and gently pat it in hopes of providing some comfort. “hm? no, no i don’t know that quote. what does it mean?” shifts my gaze to your face, studying it carefully.

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ “no…?” i blink a few times, letting your words sink in before i let out a soft sigh. “either way, i’m sorry. i was only joking, but… i suppose i can do what he did. sometimes i ask fans about things, too. although, i don’t always know if they’re telling the truth or not.” relaxes a bit, feeling your hand spreading warmth throughout my entire body as i let myself be steered towards the chair and then carefully lowers myself to sit down. “i’m…okay. i really appreciate you coming with me. you didn’t have to.”

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ instantly frowns and visibly flinches when you stare at me like that, not saying anything at first before shifting my gaze away and lowering my head. “i’m sorry. i shouldn’t have said it like that. i know you’ve been through a lot.” murmurs softly, rubbing absentmindedly at my arm before i shuffle forward towards the hospital, feeling more nauseous than i was when we started our way over. once inside, i look around before approaching the middle aged secretary sitting behind her desk. “um, hi….” after explaining what happened, i watch her peering at me weirdly before telling us to take a seat. “right, uh, thank you!”

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ “really?” i tilt my head, trying to piece together what i’ve heard and seen from the angel and the werewolf’s relationship. “huh…sounds like i need to injure myself and do stupid things more often, that way i learn.” laughs a little at my own joke before i pause and peer at you with wide eyes, looking like a deer caught in the headlights. “i- er- well-“ i stutter out, stumbling over my own words. “no…? i’ve just never been carried like this before.”

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ “oh,” is all i breathe out, remembering your distaste for the favored party drink and how sick i’d gotten trying it for myself when i was alone in my apartment. “this ‘learning’ is putting me in bad situations, though. sometimes i feel like i shouldn’t even have left home. at least i didn’t screw up there.” bites on the inside of my cheek, gently rolling the flesh between my teeth before releasing. “i…well, no…but isn’t this a bit much? my legs aren’t broken! what if i vomit on you? you’ll hate me!”

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ () you’re fine !! no rush, ever ❤️

“a birthday party? that sounds fun! but, ah, if you don’t like them then… i can see how you’d want a way out. i guess my dumb self came in handy for once, heh.” i flash a weak smile, about to hoist myself to my feet but you beat me to it, and i have no choice but to be pulled up. a ‘thank you’ is on my lips, but when i realize you weren’t done, it fades away and is quickly replaced by something akin to a squeal. “chris! i…i can walk!” i whine while holding onto you. “aren’t i heavy?”

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ the familiar hum of a motorcycle broke me out of my daze, blinking a few times before i lift my eyes to meet yours. “chris, hi,” i mumble softly, the embarrassment of the whole situation again hitting me like a ton of bricks as my cheeks flush. “you… look really fancy! and nice, of course. i hope you weren’t in the middle of something and i made you c-“ but a sudden wave of nausea washed over me and i threw a hand over my mouth, wincing a bit. “sorry, uh. i feel like my stomach is turning itself inside out. this is worse than when my cousin made me try raw jellyfish tentacles.”

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ 'stupid, stupid, stupid,' i chastise myself in my head while shaking it, as if somehow, some way, that would eliminate all of the dumb things i've done since moving out from the ocean. no doubt, everyone thought i was some sort of airhead, constantly putting myself in danger and causing trouble. with one last 'stupid' directed towards me, i let out a long, frustrated sigh and stare out into the apartment complex's parking lot. surely, the hospital staff has heard sillier stories, right?

@yixing z。ᵖᵉʳᶦʷᶦⁿᵏˡᵉ Sehun swore if he heard one more alarm go off in this hospital, he'd lose his mind. It had been one of those typical days; no breaks, no lunch, and he'd barely managed to sneak away once for a quick trip to the bathroom. And, on top of everything else, it seemed like every single family member, doctor, case manager.../everyone/ needed to speak to him. With a loud, frustrated sigh, the exhausted wendigo practically collapsed into one of the chairs at the nurse's station before scanning his badge to unlock the computer in front of him. Maybe, just maybe he'd have a few quiet moments to himself where he could chart on events and changes in his patients' conditions that had occurred throughout the day.

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ The merman visibly relaxed at that, relieved that someone else felt the same way. Ever since he's come on land, he's felt more alone than ever despite attempting to make all sorts of new friends and keep up online with his fans. Did that help provide some comfort? Of course. Did that replace his home, his family? No. But he'd made this decision on his own, and he wasn't going to turn around and head right back to the underwater kingdom. Not when he was starting to grow fond of how things were up here. "See? So, let me be company for you when you don't have anyone else. It'll make us both feel pretty good, hm? Hey...I'm getting there! I did run pretty far and there hasn't really been any issues! That's something to be proud of, I think, heh." Chris's smile was easily returned with one that mirrored it, two rows of pearly whites shining brightly. "I'd like that. I will need...lots of assistance, though, since I've never worked out before. I'm sorry in advance for the patient you'll have to have. Mm, deal! We'll look out for each other!" Watching the other male start to stand, Yeonjun sprung into action and helped him up, not letting go until he was positive Chris was steady on his feet. "Well, if that's where you'd like to go, then yes, we'll head to your apartment. I'll assist you inside and make sure you have everything you need."

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ *hugs my tote bag to my chest and tries to hide my smile behind it as you try to explain yourself, again, finding your shy actions and words endearing, never having seen someone getting so timid and flustered by something I said*
It's understandable and completely natural for you to react like this when you're not used to being praised. Guess I'll have to keep complimenting until you get used to it~
*notices how you get lost in your own thougts, emitting a light chuckle and decides to take a seat on the chair next to the bed, grabbing my tails so I don't sit on them, playing with them a little while patiently waiting for you. When you snap out of your little trance I welcome you back with a warm eyesmile and is instantly relieved by your words, happy that you don't think that my traits are freaky* You're right. I'll try to embrace them more... After all I inherited them from my beloved mother and she was very proud of her qualities. You should listen to your own advice and embrace how amazing and unique you are, Chris~ You're very kind, but you need to be kind to yourself too, you know.
Anyway... Since you're so curious and fascinated by my tails, do you want to touch them~?
*pulls the chair closer to the bed, lifting my tails and gently poking your arm with them, encouraging you to touch them*
I promise you won't regret it. They're very soft. Also, it's not everyday that you get to touch a forest kitsune's tails!
*watches you with big eyes and my head tilted to the side with anticipation, eager to know your thoughts on the tarts since it's my first time having someone eat something I baked. It's not that I'm bad at it, my pastries are really good actually, but I wasn't confident enough to offer them to someone else until now. I built up the courage to bake something that you really like to maybe help cheer you up while you're recovering from the surgery and I'm really proud of myself for that. I started baking after the death of my father to distract myself from the pain and sadness of losing him to cancer and since then it became one of my favorite hobbies. Sweets have always brought me comfort in the toughest times so I wanted to try doing the same for you, maybe it will work, maybe it won't, but it's worth the try. I genuinely put a lot love and effort into the things I bake so I'm really hoping you like them* I-I brought reece's too since you said they're your favorite! You don't have to eat those if they're not good, you can have the chocolates instead.

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ Hearing his name called like that caused the merman to duck his head a little in shame and rub at his nape. "I'm sorry... I know I don't like being alone, so I don't want anyone else to be if I can help it! Besides, I really am fine. I think it's my legs... I'm still trying my best to get used to even having them, heh. That's why I mentioned possibly trying to work out. That would help build up their strength, yeah?" Yeonjun tried with a quiet laugh, rocking back and forth on his heels. "Chris, I didn't have surgery. You did. I didn't mean to make it seem like I was any less significant; I was merely pointing out the obvious..." Still, it did feel rather nice that someone seemed concerned over his well-being. Since he's been up on land, he really hasn't had anyone looking after him. The independence was a lot to take in and adjust to. "Okay, okay. I won't push it. Just don't like hearing that you're hurting." A pause. "Um, anyway, the car should be here in approximately five minutes!"

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ A sheepish little grin formed on his lips as he looked up to meet the other's gaze. "Yes? But not the whole way. I just...didn't want you to be out here waiting by yourself for too long. I felt bad that I took as long as I did." Yeonjun finally straightened himself up, swept his hair away from his forehead, and offered a wider smile to Chris this time. "I'm happy you're well enough to be released." At the touch to his shoulder, he let out a soft little laugh. "I don't think you should be the one asking if I'm okay, Chris. You're the victim here, not me, silly." Yeonjun slipped his hand into the front pocket of his shorts and tugged out his phone, immediately pulling up the Lyft app for their ride away from the 'evil' hospital. "Are you sure you don't want to take home any pain medicine? Not that I...know really anything about it, but I really don't want you to have to suffer. You just had surgery! I imagine you're in a lot of pain..." He said, lips jutting out in a prominent pout.

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ *nibbles on my bottom lip as I watch your reaction and although I was feeling shy as well after blabbering on like that (that being a habit of mine that I really hate), I let out a soft giggle, finding it all very amusing and even adorable; from your flushed face, wide open eyes and mouth to the way you try to hide under the blanket* Too much, right? I'm so sorry, Chris~ Just know that I really meant everything I said.
*tilts my head to the side and blinks several times when you pause and look at me like that, trying to figure out what made you react like that so suddenly. Follows your gaze and my lips make a small 'o' when I find what you're so fascinated about* Oh! Right! M-My tails haha... Yeah, currently I only have two since I'm pretty young. I can retract one or try to retract both of them if they freak you out- *purses my tiers and hides my tails between my legs, feeling self-conscious and very insecure about them now, thinking that maybe you find them monstrous and freaky, a thought that crosses my mind regularly even after seeing so many different creatures throughout my life* I wish I could make them disappear completely but I never learned how to. I still try though

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ *my ears perk up with surprise the moment I hear your accent but it just makes me find you more interesting and unique. Apparently, you'll never stop surprising me since there's so much of you to uncover. Shows you my sweetest smile as I listen to you, trying to soothe the frustration that came with each stutter and even though I knew that the reason behind it was very tragic and sad, I inevitably found it endearing and I seriously don't know how to feel about that. My gaze continues to trace your features and when my lavender colored eyes, with a hint of hazel in the middle, meet yours, I become just as timid and look away as well, my ears flattening against my head once again* B-But you are. And I'm not just talking about your tattoos, even though they're the coolest I've ever seen. You're also very talented. Your eyes are amazing too, it's the first time I've seen heterochromia in a human. I usually see it in dogs like huskies and some cats... Sorry, I keep saying embarrassing stuff- *fidgets with my tail and looks anywhere except your face until I remember that I have something to give you* Oh! I-I brought you something, Chris! *looks in my tote bag and pulls out a container with mini custard tarts in it, holding it out with both hands and flashing you my brightest smile* I really hope you like them . I apologize in advance if they're not perfect since I made them but I tried my best!


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@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ *my big white kitsune ears shoot up the instant I hear your voice and lets out a deep, nervous sigh, anticipating the state I'm going to see you in, before finally entering the room. Closes the door behind me quietly and slowly approaches the bed, greeting you with a small bow and a warm smile once you're in sight. Though soon my mind is filled with thoughts of sadness and concern when I see that your condition is much worse than I thought since you kept minimizing it whenever I asked how you were doing, and although I try to hide these emotions with a smile, my true feelings are given away by my ears that are now flat against my head* Chris, hey~ It's so nice to finally see you! How are you feeling? What did the doctor say about your condition? *asks as I step closer to the bed and tilts my head a little bit to the side as I examine your features with curiosity, intrigued by every detail from your scars to your tattoos and your piercings* Whoaaa... So cool... *thinks out loud but quickly realizes and dies a little from embarrassment, cursing at myself in my head* I mean- T-This situation is not cool at all! Y-You are. You're seriously so cool. Sorry, it's just that I've never seen anyone with characteristics similar to yours... You're very unique.

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ *today is my day off and I finally get to visit you at the hospital. While getting ready I changed outfits at least five times, being the overthinker and perfectionist that I am, none of those outfits made me feel satisfied enough. It's not that I didn't have nice clothes or a good sense of style, it's just that this was my first time meeting a friend outside of work. So it's a big deal for me! After almost an hour I finally decided what to wear; a pair of black high waisted dressing pants with wide legs that were a bit too long for my short stature, black converse that were a little worn out and a beige cropped sweatshirt to contrast everything else. I also pick a couple of golden band rings as accessories and the necklace of the same color with a small lavender flower pendant that I always have on. It was my late mother's and I have never taken it off since she passed. Steps out of the apartment once I make sure that everything looks perfect and heads to the hospital, walking as fast as I can as if that could compensate all the time I had made you wait for me. Unfortunately for me, my place was quite far from the hospital so despite my effort, it still took me a while to get there. Once I arrive I look up at the huge building and as I enter I let out a heavy sigh, having so many bad memories of this place. Walks up to the reception counter to register my visit and goes to search for your room after asking for the number. As I get closer to your room, I grow more and more anxious due to the simultaneous excitement and fear I am feeling at the thought of meeting you face to face for the first time. Stands in front of the door when I find it and fidgets nervously with my tote bag but only for a minute since I didn't want to make you wait any longer. So I finally gather up the courage to knock on the door, slowly opening it just a few centimeters to call for you softly but loud enough for you to hear* Ch-Chris? I-It's Changhyun~ Can I come in?

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ The trip to the hospital took Yeonjun longer than he thought it would despite him hurrying as fast as he could. He didn't want Chris to have to wait long, especially when the other quite literally just had surgery and had been feeling a bit of pain. After apologizing to a few people he bumped into along the way and dodging a woman with a baby stroller, the merman finally reached the hospital parking lot and actually sprinted up the sidewalk until he spotted his friend out front, just like where he said he'd be. "Chris!" Yeonjun called through a few ragged breaths, his hands coming to rest on his knees as he bent over to try and take in some air. "Sorry it...took me...so long..."

@felix l。ˢᵖʳᵉᵃᵈᵐʸʷᶦⁿᵍˢ "Of course, we can!" Panacea scoffed, tossing her long blonde hair over one shoulder. "And, yes, I'm fully aware of who we're going up against. Besides, I'm not sure I'd say any god is ordinary... They all have their own unique attributes that make them worthy, and, well, dangerous adversaries. The fate of the planet would be unfortunate, truly, but if we constantly think about the consequences that come after, we'll never be ready to battle him. We need to defeat him first, and then worry about the outcome!" The squeeze Felix have him snapped Sehun right out of his gloomy thoughts, and his eyes shifted down to where their hands were still resting on the angel's thigh. "But...?" He questioned when Felix stopped mid-sentence, wondering what his friend had been intending to share about the homemade crystal. Everything seemed to freeze for Sehun, though, when their fingers were intertwined because all of a sudden, that rage slowly felt as if it was leaving his body. Maybe...maybe this was what he needed when that monstrous other half of him threatened to take over. Maybe he needed the comfort...the touch... of a dear friend to ground him. Before, with all of his other transitions, that wasn't available to him. He had been more vulnerable back then; no way to fight /him/ off. But now, in this town, Sehun had close, trustworthy people in his life, which was rare. Perhaps...perhaps they could keep him calm. "Oh, the police sheriff? Yes, I've met him quite a few times. I mean, it wouldn't hurt to try? But if this person isn't in Magnolia, I'm not sure how much information Officer Park would have about them."

@sehun o。ᵒʰˢᵉ "Can we really do that..?" Felix asked quietly, almost hesitantly. Fighting a God? Was that something he'd be prepared for, especially with everything that's been going on as of lately? The angel takes a quick glance towards Sehun and studies him for just one second before ultimately deciding that, yes, he would be more than willing to fight a God. He may not be as strong as him... but he sure as hell knows him best to know all sorts of weaknesses and secrets that man held under his sleeve. "Y-Yes, I have no doubt against that, miss, but... this is Fa--/God/ we're talking about here. He isn't an ordinary God - he created all of this. Everything on Earth, he's responsible for. Raging a war on him could... essentially destroy this planet. The battle between Heaven and Hell nearly destroyed us all, but a battle amongst angels? Felix frowns slightly at Sehun, concerned, and gives his hand a gentle squeeze as though to try to offer some sort of comfort to him. Not that... it would help with this current situation. There's probably nothing he could say or do to help ease Sehun's burdens, and he hates himself even moreso now that he's become one of them. "It is a powerful crystal, yes, but..." He trails off, unsure of what else to possibly say. There was nothing else /to/ say. So he glances back up at Panacea while shifting Sehun's palm just enough to tangle their fingers together as though to try to keep the other anchored. "Yes, that was my natural guess... I couldn't think of anything else but a werewolf. I was considering on bringing it up to Chanyeol, honestly. Him being an officer and another werewolf, maybe he'd heard of him somewhere. But... I- he's not- he's not here. He's not here in Magnolia... Not yet, at least. He's getting really close, though..."

@felix l。ˢᵖʳᵉᵃᵈᵐʸʷᶦⁿᵍˢ "That is something else we can use to our advantage. Anger and fury often make people slip up. Perhaps, that will happen with God and leave him vulnerable...or, at least, a part of him." Panacea instantly thought of her aunt, Aphrodite, and how someone had ruffled her feathers so much by insulting her features that they'd managed to sneak a few love potions right out from under her nose. The poor god ended up looking for them for weeks. "Of course, I wish to battle him! And yes, we've just met, but I 'go to battle' for my patients whom I've just met on a day-to-day basis, Felix. It might be new to you, but it's not for me. You have Sehun and me who are willing to do everything within our ability to keep you safe. Mhm, exactly...all of them are like that, including my father. He's a sweet soul, who still to this day dedicates himself to practicing medicine and caring for patients, but...well, he has his moments, too." She sighed, shaking her head dejectedly. Since it was his livelihood to help people, Panacea always had hoped he would be different and not be thirsty for power, but it unfortunately only took one particular event during her teenage years to change her mind about that. Sehun had to take a few, slow deep breaths to calm himself down enough to be able to utter another word. Even amongst his ire, he'd felt an all too familiar searing pain shooting through his very core and the gravity of the situation finally came crashing down on him. He couldn't...he wouldn't...let /him/ take over. "No, it does not freak me out, Felix. I am just trying to learn as much as I can about this crystal. I guess I did not realize how powerful it would be." He uttered, voice almost sounding strained and rough. Hearing Sehun struggle, Panacea was quick to jump in again. "A werewolf? A werewolf is what killed you...? And they're...hunting you now...my goodness." She lifted a hand and rubbed at her forehead. "It sounds like we need to get the police involved. They'd be able to help collect records on all of the werewolves in town. Maybe you could identify one of them? Or at least see if your headaches get worse when they are close to you?"

@sehun o。ᵒʰˢᵉ "That I had no doubt, miss... Our many arguments would probably not even compare to how much I frustrate him. I feel like I'm more of an annoyance to him than anything else." Felix curls his fingers, having completely forgotten that one of his hands still lay atop of Sehun's and was practically holding his hand at this point. "You wish to... battle Father? On my behalf? I... I- I don't know why you wou- I mean, we've just met, miss. I can't ask you to fight this battle - /my/ battle. But... I can't argue with what you've said. A lot of other gods i've come across had been power hungry. The measures they'll take to ensure that they come out victorious in the end is... enough to fuel nightmares. Endless nightmares." The guardian's attention shifts towards Sehun when he hears him speak up. He nods softly in affirmation then looks down at the crystal as a heat spreads across his cheeks. "Well... if the emotion is strong enough, then... yes. You could feel it, and so could I. It could be anger, sadness, happiness... and, from what I've heard, sometimes even love if it reigns true. I'm... sorry if that freaks you out, Sehunnie. Like I said when I gave it to you, you could always not wear it. I know it's... a lot." That was certainly not the reaction he'd expect to see from someone was calm and stoic as Sehun. Anger. The sudden flash was strong enough that it felt like a hot sting trailing down his spine. Hot. Searing hot. So that's what Sehun's anger would feel like through the bond...? "I... I- I don't know who they are, I just... The first images I ever saw was a flower, snow and bare trees. When I looked it up, I saw that the flower was called wolfsbane... And then the dreams progressed - I started seeing myself, covering laying in a pile of blood soaked snow. I don't remember who or w- what it was other than... claws... and fangs. Dark... fur? A- Almost... canine, but... bigger. Much, much bigger..." His heart skipped a few beats at the recollection of such images. Wolfsbane. Fangs. Yellow eyes. sharp claws. "Werewolf... It... It was a werewolf, yeah, uh... I do think they're still alive. It feels like every time I get a headache, they get 10 steps closer... I.... I've been feeling I'm being hunted lately..."

@felix l。ˢᵖʳᵉᵃᵈᵐʸʷᶦⁿᵍˢ "So, if you're the only angel with humanity...that makes you even more of a threat to him. You cannot be controlled as easily as the other angels. I'm sure that frustrates him to no end." Panacea murmured softly, deep in thought. Yet, when Felix's head whipped up, that snapped her attention right back to him. She blinked slowly, head cocked a bit to the side, waiting for him to voice what was on his mind that caused such a reaction. "Well," she began, "in my previous experience, I've made every attempt to beat gods at their own game, trap them in their own web... it's the last thing they expect - to be outsmarted by those they think are lesser than them. We'll need to figure out how to do that before even attempting to face him. This will be my first time going up against this particular god, but he can't be much different than the rest, hm? They're all power-hungry and will do anything to get it." While Panacea had saved other beings from the wrath of gods in the past, each situation was unique, and she always took extra caution in order to protect those in danger. And, she would not rest until Felix, and possibly, Sehun, were away from God's greedy hands. As Felix's gaze met his, Sehun let the crystal rest once more against his chest, feeling the warmth radiating from it seeming to travel throughout his entire body. There was more to this pendant? The wendigo knew from Felix's explanation back at his house that this was extremely important, extremely symbolic, but...he didn't expect /this/. "As long as I am wearing the crystal, we can feel each other's hearts beating? And...emotions, or just fear?" He asked, but those questions all of a sudden faded away in his mind once he heard Felix mention death. More specifically, the angel's death. "What?" He huffed, brows knitted together in anger, though the burst of fury, of course, wasn't directed at Felix. "We are not allowing you to die, Felix. I will put myself between you and God if that is what it takes to keep him from claiming your life. But this...this previous death - who killed you? Are they still alive?" That rage only continued to build, and in that instance, Sehun completely neglected to think about what could happen if he became too riled. "I...do you think that this person, whoever they are, is in town...or somewhere else close, and that could be having an effect on your visions? Maybe God is using them to take care of some...um, unfinished business." Panacea offered, eyes worriedly looking towards her friend. She'd never seen him so upset before.

@sehun o。ᵒʰˢᵉ That's a question Felix wasn't entirely prepared for. And yet it was one with a very simple answer. "Yes," he confirms after a moment of silence. "I was the first angel that was originally human. Angels are usually manifested. Created, almost. It's like an energy that possesses the body of a devoted and willing human. As far as I know, I'm... I'm the only one who was human, yes." Panacea's next words truly knocked the wind out of him, though. His head snapped up, blue eyes wide in surprise. He wasn't expecting someone to actually say that they needed to fight back. Hell, Felix was convinced this was /his/ problem and his problem alone. So, naturally, he figured he'd be dealing with it alone. The last he wanted was someone to be caught in the crossfire, and yet... when he saw the determined look in her eye, Felix could feel something... mend in his chest. For a while, there's always been a hollow crater there that brought a sense of loneliness for some reason, and feeling as if there wasn't anyone in his life that would be willing to fight a battle like /this/ with him was astounding... He was stricken. "Why... I... W-What could we even do...? What we could we even do to knock him down like that?" This was now a battle of morality on his end. Felix, who never condoned or encouraged violence and doesn't have a mean bone in his body to even hurt a /fly/, is now faced with the fact that in order to regain who he once was, he has to fight. Not only that, but he has to fight the person who guided him through many milleniums. As a hand touches his shoulder and a voice reaches his ear, Felix takes another shaky breath before noticing the blinking crystal. Unable to contain himself, he lets out a soft chuckle that sounds more bitter than humorous. "That... when I gave you that, I told you that I'd be able to tell if you were in danger, but... that wasn't the full picture. It connects your heart beat to my senses and that... t- that crystal is /my/ heart beat in return. When it glows like that, it's registering and showing that my heart is racing not out of anxiety... but out of fear." Letting his gaze linger on the crystal for a second longer, he glances away and meet Sehun's gaze, ignoring the pendant seems to pulse a little faster as his next words become voiced. "The flashback I had earlier - I was killed. I know that much now. And Father... is the type that /will/ kill to get his way. If he's gone this far to prevent me from remembering, causing damage to my health to the point where I black out, then... the next headache will be something I won't be waking up from, Sehunnie. He'll... He'll make it so."

@felix l。ˢᵖʳᵉᵃᵈᵐʸʷᶦⁿᵍˢ "Have all guardians had humanity at some point? Or...or are you the only one? It makes sense why he would try to squash out all of your human qualities, so he'd be able to control you easier and you would never find out the truth about who you were. To him, it's dangerous for you to have your memories back." Her dark orbs filled with determination. While her own father was a god, Panacea always enjoyed messing with the all-mighty beings whenever she had the chance. This now seemed like a perfect opportunity, while also obviously helping out the angel who Sehun brought to her for help. "So, we need to throw everything we've got at him; we need to knock him off of his high horse and recover your memories, no matter what." This time, Sehun caught the glance Felix cast in his direction and furrowed his brows. He had something to do with this whole situation? Simply by just being, well, /him/, and it wasn't necessarily his fault, but still...the wendigo couldn't help but feel responsible. And even though he was already going to, Sehun would assist both of his friends however he could with this 'battle' against God. Frowning at the expression Felix had on his face, Sehun moved his hand up and touched the angel's shoulder instead. "Felix...?" He called out, voice softer than usual. But just then, something else caught his attention. He did, indeed, have the gift Felix had given him around his neck and tucked under the safety of his shirt. Retracting his hand completely from the other male, Sehun reached inside the collar of the shirt he was wearing and pulled out the glowing crystal. It pulsed in his hand, mimicking the quick beating of a heart, and Sehun once again looked to Felix for an answer. "Is this...supposed to be blinking?" Panacea visibly appeared confused as well as she glanced between Sehun, Felix, and the beautiful, but unfamiliar object Sehun had in his hand. "What do you mean, 'a second time'? What's happening for a second time?" She inquired in response to the angel's sudden, shared thought.

@sehun o。ᵒʰˢᵉ She was right. There was too many unknowns and missing pieces that it overwhelmed him. The itching, gnawing feeling in the back of his head constantly alighting a fire that the headache always seemed to snuff out; no matter what came at him, there seemed to be something resilient, almost, the refused to back down. "Humanity," Felix realizes slowly, crystal blue eyes widening as it dawns on him. "That's it... It's my humanity. I mean, I- I always knew I had a human life. That was one of first things Father told me when we first met, and that's why he spent decades trying to get rid of it. These nightmares? And everything I see during the headaches? They're all memories. It's my own nature trying to resurface, fighting back against Father, who clearly does not want that to happen." That brought on another realization that made his eyes go downcast, expression pinched. "The headaches are more frequent... Stronger each time. Which means its winning and Father doesn't seem to be able to contain it much longer. Perhaps being on Earth and interacting with beings that aren't robotic angels started that fire... and I wonder if my realization made it alight." Another glance towards Sehun and Felix finds himself distantly wondering if the other still had it; the crystal pendant, that is. Ever since he /made/ that necklace, the headaches were instantly more intense. Ever since realized his own feelings and realized the need to protect was the strongest, the headaches were enough to make him lose consciousness. "That means two things, then... The 'war' is getting worse, and that just means that Father is getting desperate. To have his way, at least. He's... resorting to... other methods..." The more Felix spoke, the heavier the words felt, the more he realized what that meant. He, of all people, knew that man best. And he knew, in that exact moment, that Father has always had his way because he /has/ the power to make it so and will do anything it means to gain the upper hand... Even if it meant taking the life of a guardian. The dawn of gradual realization shows on Felix's expression and the way he was staring at Sehun with shock before going through all five stages of grief in a split second. And he swears he feels his heart stop for a second - perhaps it even sounds through the pulse monitor that was on his finger - before quickly picking up speed. By the time Felix hits acceptance, his eyes are now downcasted. The bad feeling he had was right. That's why he spent so much time acting as if he's trying to say goodbye when the next headache that comes, and it will come... he won't wake up from it. Swallowing thickly, Felix takes a slow, deep breath as his eyes mist over with fresh tears. "That's... Yeah, that's... a lot... for the lack of better words." Was the crystal glowing, wherever it was? Was it giving a dull vibration with the pounding of his heart? He always wondered if it was myth, being able to sense when the other realized they were in danger. Sehun had yet to ever experience something horrific, so Felix didn't know what it felt like. In the lore he read once, it was always said that it was something akin to being overwhelmed with how terrified the other felt. They could feel each other's fear levels, essentially... And right now, Felix was absolutely terrified despite acting so completely fine with it. "A second time...?" He distantly wonders aloud.

@felix l。ˢᵖʳᵉᵃᵈᵐʸʷᶦⁿᵍˢ As most people were aware. Sehun wasn't the best at the whole 'comforting' thing. Yet he took Felix's response to his gesture as a positive one, that it was helping with some of his anxiety. "No, no. There is absolutely no need to apologize. I can't imagine how overwhelming all of this is for you when there are so many unknowns and missing pieces of information..." Panacea sighed while rubbing at her face. The whole situation was causing her head to throb, and she wasn't even the one who was being affected by God's immense power. The doctor's heart ached for the little angel; she wanted so desperately to have an answer to fix everything. She didn't miss the look Felix gave to Sehun after she asked her question, which caused her curiosity to pique even more. "Ah, really? You don't think that has anything to do with it...? It can't be a coincidence that the headaches and you finding the person you're bound to protect happened around the same time, right? I'm not sure - I'm just...throwing out ideas, but..." She once again rubbed at her face, then slowly shook her head. "It might feel like you are, but I assure you that you are not. You're making sense, it is just...well, a lot, for lack of a better word."

@sehun o。ᵒʰˢᵉ The silence unnerved him. Felix found himself glancing between the two of them, uneasy and unsure of what to make of the looks they just exchanged. Had he said something wrong by chance? Or he just making himself out to be as crazy as he legitmately feels? The squeeze to his thigh brings him back to the moment, and he relaxes some at the gentle touches. Felix reaches out to tentatively lay a hand ontop of Sehun's and lets the pad of his thumb idly glide across the bumps of his knuckles as a way of silently thanking him. "I apologize, miss, but... that's about all that I can offer at the moment. Father is, well... he is quite powerful. I'm not sure how much strength he's using but he's persistent on not letting me see this memory. However, this memory also seems persistent on getting out so it's like a battle between two forces." Felix stills for a brief second and casts a glance towards Sehun before diverting his gaze, timid and nervous all over again. "I, uh... I have, yes. But I don't think they have any ties to it. Maybe they do, and I just don't realize it yet. I don't know how far these headaches will go, in all honesty, but they get worse every time. A part of me thinks that... the next one I won't wake up from. I just feel like I'm losing my mind, losing all sense of reality and not knowing what's real or what's not. These headaches - they're messing with my senses and morphing moments of time. Sometimes, I'll wake up having trouble recognizing where I am or ever /who/ I am... Like I said, I just feel like I'm losing my mind..."