⚝ direct messages。

@chaewon p。ᵖᵉᵃᶜʰᶜʳᵃᶜᵏ [ message to: unknown ]

+ wow, illusion level 100, huh?

@chaewon p。ᵖᵉᵃᶜʰᶜʳᵃᶜᵏ [ message to: unknown ]

- I
- see
- everything
(Typing...)
- but I'm also curious
- what are my teeth good for?

@chanyeol p。ʳᵉᵃˡ―ᵖᶜʸ [ message from: unknown ]

• doofis < 3 c:<

@tyler y。ᵇᵃᵏᶦⁿᵍᵖᵒʷᵈᵉʳ [ message from: unknown ]

• .....
• you don't!
• I CANNOT BE TRICKED LOKE THIS
• LILE
• LOLR
• LIKE*
• you didn't see that human u n u
• i need your teeth

@chaewon p。ᵖᵉᵃᶜʰᶜʳᵃᶜᵏ [ message to: unknown ]

- what if I already know?
- and it is YOU who walked into a trap? ;)
- what then, nameless?

@tyler y。ᵇᵃᵏᶦⁿᵍᵖᵒʷᵈᵉʳ [ message from: unknown ]

• >:o
(...typing...)
• YOU NOT NEED TO KNOW MY NAME

@chaewon p。ᵖᵉᵃᶜʰᶜʳᵃᶜᵏ [ message to: unknown ]

- new phone, who dis?

@tyler y。ᵇᵃᵏᶦⁿᵍᵖᵒʷᵈᵉʳ [ message from: unknown ]

• YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE SAFE BOY HUH?

@felix l。ˢᵖʳᵉᵃᵈᵐʸʷᶦⁿᵍˢ { message to: spreadmywings }

+ im not injured dw!
+ be safe getting here bUT HURRY

@chanyeol p。ʳᵉᵃˡ―ᵖᶜʸ [ message to: real__pcy ]

- to the wOODS??? sdojsoj
- oh my god babe i hope you're not injured istg
- shoving my shoes and running out the door now hh

@felix l。ˢᵖʳᵉᵃᵈᵐʸʷᶦⁿᵍˢ { message to: spreadmywings }

+ bABE
+ as soon as you’re able, come out to the woods !!
+ it’s an emergency !!!!

@chanyeol p。ʳᵉᵃˡ―ᵖᶜʸ [ message to: real__pcy ]

- heh uwu make me
- well i meant more like,, being the one to take the pictures ovo and sodjsoj honestly?? if the guy does anything in front of you,, go ahead and swing-- but,, ah,, that's,, considerably much more complicated to explain than i thought
- because so much has happened that it's,, really hard to explain or know where to start honestly
- but just know nothing was pleasant. nothing was ever pleasant, as far as i can recall. i've been an angel for quite sometime, i don't remember how long exactly but.. thousands upon thousands of years, i'm sure. every waking day up there with him and the other angels was.. hell, to put it bluntly. it was hell. every single day up there was hell. i never, ever want go back up there..
- one of them bit me T ^ T

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ [ message to: moonshine ]

+ chris, i know many people probably tell you this, so i understand if you're wary, but i will NOT disappear on you. people have pasts...they have stories... and even though some might be painful, i'm not someone who just up and leaves when i hear something i don't like or something that makes me sad. i'm probably too curious for my own good, and i always want to try to help, no matter who the person is.
+ no...you didn't tell me much thus far, but that's okay. i would never rush you into sharing something you were uncomfortable with until you were ready...IF you were ever ready.
+ ah, so both of them were involved in your past. i didn't know that. i mean, i did know they meant a lot to you, and i'm sure they still do, but... leaving you so suddenly and so easily was definitely wrong, and i'm sorry you had to go through that. :< you are never nothing. i'm sure you feel that way sometimes, but you aren't. you mean something to everyone you come into contact with, i can promise you that. ♡ you're amazing, selfless, and so, so much more, chris. it's a shame you can't see it for yourself. ><
+ you have to leave that up to me. you have to put your trust in me because, well, you can't possibly know how i'm going to view things. don't group me with others who may have judged you prematurely or who were just...ugly. i see the world differently. i see people differently.
+ it's natural to need space, but- i don't think it would be a bad thing for you to monitor me? i tend to...well, we both know that i don't always end up in the best situations, so :'D but chris, you can't blame yourself if something happened to me...just like you can't blame yourself for the crash. your parents wouldn't want you to keep beating yourself up over that, right? they'd be happy that you lived. any parent would. :<
+ they did. i honestly think they still do. which, wouldn't necessarily be terrible since that would help my kingdom. but of course, i would prefer to choose my own partner. my parents wouldn't marry me off to someone cruel or incapable of love. they've met multiple times with the other royal family and raved about the princess. even still... i dunno. i want to do it on my own terms. :> is that so bad?
+ oh... i- well- what would make you want to step away from those feelings?
+ i didn't mean to imply that that's something you would do. >< i just,,,,, it's the first time i'd ever like someone who likes me back, so i'm a bit scared,,, i'm sorry-
+ does it? ugh, that's awful >< i've seen both the good and bad sides of alcohol... oh, i definitely won't see him again. at least, i won't try and meet him on purpose !!!
+ are you sure? i wouldn't be intruding? i wasn't in a great state of mind...and, honestly, i probably looked like one big mess. :/

@felix l。ˢᵖʳᵉᵃᵈᵐʸʷᶦⁿᵍˢ [ message to: spreadmywings ]

+ excuse me??? >:( you BETTER listen to me, little angel!
+ behind the camera? i could watch, yeah- can't promise i wouldn't punch the photographer in the face if he started acting up, though. :x i've always been super possessive and protective, almost to a fault. i don't like anything about him, but... what happened?
+ snakes :o okay, okay, i'll be out in a sec! catch me chucking them right over the fence-

@chanyeol p。ʳᵉᵃˡ―ᵖᶜʸ [ message to: real__pcy ]

- ,, and i should listen to you? okno sodjsodj
- okay well,, what if you were BEHIND the camera then? oh- wait, really?? hh why am i surprised at that ><;; having someone who is protective and possessive is,,,, certainly extremely new-- father was... oh goodness i better not say you will NOT like it
- you're welcome uvu
- good!!!!! :D also babe hh i need your help in the garden-- i found some snakes and got scared T ^ T i ran inside

@yeonjun c。ᶦᵗˢʸᵉᵒⁿ [ messages to: itsyeon ]

- there is a lot of me though.. im not worried that you will break, persay, but.. im worried you will disappear too..
- i dont think i ever really told you much about what had happened but.. changbin and i have known each other since middle school, we were childhood friends. he was there when.. things took a turn for me.. and he was one of the people who found me on the bathroom floor surrounded by pills.. he was also one of the people who dragged me to rehab, but then he disappeared and we had no idea what happened until he suddenly showed up in magnolia. he got turned by his ex and.. when we had reunited, he attacked me. he didn't have full control over himself and just slammed me against the wall. he took it pretty hard and packed his bags and left town immediately. he didn't even react when i was literally on my knees begging him to stay.. he still left though.. and then yixing-- he was my therapist when i was in rehab. he disappeared after my confession on christmas- i only found out he left town when i went to go visit his place after not hearing from him only to find out his apartment was empty. i cant tell you how i felt standing there in middle of his apartment......... they both left me so easily.. like i meant nothing..
- so no.. im not afraid you will break.. im afraid you wont like what you see
- yeon... you are not a burden. the only reason why i wanted you to do it on your own was because i knew i would try to ing monitor everything... my anxiety and overworrying would probably end up hindering you, sometimes my friends say that i have too intentions but that i "hover" too much and that is can be suffocating when im always right there watching them... but its only because i know life can taken away from you just like that and im worried if i let anyone out of my sight, something will happen and it will be my fault. just like that day. just like the crash.
- so your family wanted to set you up in an arranged marriage?? i do recall you saying something like that once or twice i just didnt know th extent of it.. you wanted a marriage with affection and love, they wanted something more political of sorts to happen from it.. your happiness matters most- you deserve a marriage with love, everyone does
- no they........................ they are still here yeon............. these feelings dont seem to want to go anywhere any time soon im just-- frozen in place unsure whether to step towards them or back from them
- omg yeon dont-- you are not "next best" or whatever tf you just said. this is not a "oh well he showed me kindness when i was low so now i 'like him'" situation and it is not a replacement or even a rebound situation either. im not like that. i dont play with people like that. when i say i like someone, im being serious. no one else matters to me but THEM
- i... thank you ♥
- ........yeah that guy is lucky i wasnt there tbh the smell of alcohol brings my ptsd out so quick but uh-- yeah dont see that er again yeah?
- also if you get scared like that again... dont even bother calling or texting me just show up at my door

@felix l。ˢᵖʳᵉᵃᵈᵐʸʷᶦⁿᵍˢ { message to: spreadmywings }

+ because i said so uvu
+ ahaha no no, i don’t belong in front of a camera. well- it doesnt take much for me to go all protective and possessive over you. >< you can blame my wolf for most of that,,
+ thank you. :x
+ oh, i definitely will !!! :D

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ { message to: moonshine }

+ chris, i don’t want you to hold back. i don’t want you to feel like you have to hide away pieces of you because i’d really love to know about anything and everything… no matter how horrible or gruesome or…or scary it may be. i’m not a doll that needs to be treated differently because you’re worried i might break.
+ something else i don’t want…is to do this on my own. i need support now more than ever. if that’s going to be too much to ask of you, because i know i’m a handful,, then tell me. being a burden is something i hope to avoid.
+ i mean, i know what feelings are to an extent,,, i’ve always dreamed of having them towards someone, a lover that i can cherish and appreciate and devote my life to. my family just…wanted to strengthen an alliance with another underwater kingdom by marrying me off to the princess. it sounds cruel, but my parents are anything but. they just wanted me to find eternal happiness like they did when they were betrothed and, then after, married.
+ …you had feelings for me? so, they’re gone? what,, what kind were they? how did i mess that up?
+ chris, i’m so very sorry that those you treasured left so abruptly. i can’t replace them, but i can do my best to fill in the voids that they left. all i ask is that…well, i’m not thought of as next best? if that makes sense?
+ and yet you’re still doing it. you’re still getting up and existing and making wonderful music that you show your extreme talent through. i know it’s hard, but you’ve come thus far, haven’t you? you can do this, chris! i believe in you. <3
+ good or not, i want to know.
+ hey, stop that! you’re not selfish. if you don’t want me to have contact with that man, then i won’t. quite honestly, i’d prefer not to lay eyes on him again.
+ i didn’t mention this yet, but…
+ when i was about to get out of there, he stopped me near the door, and…he kissed me, chris. not,,,,,,, not on the lips or anything- just…my cheek, but it still freaked me out. he was so close and smelled heavily like alcohol and cologne and,, and it made me want to vomit. i was so scared and i ended up running back home. ><

@chanyeol p。ʳᵉᵃˡ―ᵖᶜʸ [ message to: itsyeon ]

- D: but why not???
- oH sjdosjd i mean i'm sure you would look gorgeous babe but i definitely won't pressure you!!!! but yes hh for some reason i,, like it when you get really protective--
- hh i promise i won't go there alone again!!! i will make sure to let you know when i have another shoot coming up >///<
- hehe good u////u mark me all over please ♥

@felix l。ˢᵖʳᵉᵃᵈᵐʸʷᶦⁿᵍˢ { message to: spreadmywings }

+ no, you lil naughty angel :/
+ it’s not a dumb idea !! i just thought you were suggesting that i model too,,,, SHSJDH. but i’ll come! especially if i gotta keep you safe from that guy e n e
+ no more going there alone, okay?
+ good boy. mhmmm, of course, i’ll keep marking you. ❤️

@yeonjun c。ᶦᵗˢʸᵉᵒⁿ [ message to: itsyeon ]

- osdjsojd its a whole,, ah nevermind it is so hard to explain lmao
- well... if you are sure then...
- my thing is... i am constantly having to hold myself back because i know you need to do this on your own. this is something you need to discover on your own and i guess i felt like i would be... pressuring you or something, by telling you that i had feelings for you when you barely understood what feelings were so i just kept telling myself to shut up and not say anything and just let you be... even though now all i wanna do is tell you to never see that man again but-- selfish. that is selfish. i can't be selfish, i have no right to be. changbin left. yixing left. i'm terrified of these feelings that i once cherished. and i'm tired of fighting a fruitless battle where i just keep getting beaten down to the ground no matter what i do or say. so i just sit here. silent. in my room, insisting things are fine because talking is exhausting when there is so much to be said but no energy to say any of it. and every day, i'm finding less and less and less reasons to get back up. the song 'deep end' recently really symbolized that- i cant seem to find the meaning in anything right now and it makes me just wanna never leave my bed.
- i never said anything that goes on in my head is anything good :) but i think that is enough for now... i already said too much
- i can understand. it is nice to be touched... but like i said- you need to do this on your own, yeon. the only one who can decide things like that is YOU. i need to work on not being so selfish and letting things go.

@chanyeol p。ʳᵉᵃˡ―ᵖᶜʸ [ message to: real__pcy ]

- ye but i wanna hear you say it uwu
- i mean... yeah? i... i thought you would like it, ya know- watching me get dressed up and all... is that a... dumb idea?
- forget i asked hh it sounds silly now
- y...yes? ono my manager got stuck in traffic and wasn't able to arrive on time
- i-- o////o okay alpha,,, butyouwillstartmarkmeright??

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ { message to: moonshine }

+ olympic?
+ yes, i really wanna know, chris.
+ i thought so??? im not sure. i still don’t understand that whole thing…
+ wait, what? what’s wrong?
+ it just…felt nice to be touched, i suppose. no one’s told me they ever wanted to or even tried to touch me before- my parents kept me away from all of that,, im pretty sure they STILL want to keep me away from all of that.

@felix l。ˢᵖʳᵉᵃᵈᵐʸʷᶦⁿᵍˢ { message to: spreadmywings }

+ you know whaT
+ wait,,,,,,, huh? come with you? like, coming with you to watch?
+ ALONE? you were ALONE with him?
+ hell no. no modeling while you have marks on you,,

@yeonjun c。ᶦᵗˢʸᵉᵒⁿ [ message to: itsyeon ]

- ........a lot
- if overthinking was a sport i would be an olympic gold metalist atp
- do you really wanna know what goes in my head...?
- oh you felt a connection? i see...
( . . . )
( . . . )
- i dont think i can offer something solid tbh
- my head is... not where i want it to be right now but... yeon you can be with whoever you want to be with in the end, alright?

@chanyeol p。ʳᵉᵃˡ―ᵖᶜʸ [ message to: real__pcy ]

- w-what??? o///o
- hh but babe here's the thing sdosdjods i want you to come JOIN ME when i do these photoshoots
- the guy was pretty creepy so i don't wanna be alone on set anymore :(
- well, yes but... they saw it in THAT moment babe
- they won't see the new marks you'll create, now will they?

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ { message to: moonshine }

+ what were you overthinking about??
+ no, i wanna know what’s been going through your head.
+ it’s just strange. i felt a connection, but if he just wanted to… “hook up” or whatever you called it, then…yeah.

@felix l。ˢᵖʳᵉᵃᵈᵐʸʷᶦⁿᵍˢ { message to: spreadmywings }

+ e n e
+ it’s up to you in the end. i wouldnt stop you from doing something you enjoy, but-
+ the director sounds like a vampire or just some weird dude :/// hhhh.
+ exactly, but now others can see it too.

@yeonjun c。ᶦᵗˢʸᵉᵒⁿ [ message to: itsyeon ]

- oh,,
- not me now realizing that im just overthinking
- pls ignore me
- do you,, wanna talk about it or no?

@christopher b。ᵐᵒᵒⁿˢʰⁱⁿᵉ { message to: moonshine }

+ off? off how???
+ i dunno, i guess i was just thinking about that guy from last night. i can’t tell if that’s bothering me or not.