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*sips as she is still here but giving the two their space, glad she doesn’t have that kind of drama anymore but sympathetic because of her past*

*Your confusion made the smile even brighter, and he giggled again, fingers curling in your shirt. Of course, you didn't know. He observes, gently twitching in your hands, trying to hold back another soft giggle. Yet, no. You didn't understand.* You don't understand, don't you? *He tilts his head, resting his cheek on your hand that was still around his neck.* You tried so hard to change yourself. To be nicer, mellow yourself down. Yet, this… this is your true self. *He lifted your chin up to gaze into your eyes, looking into intense, cold eyes.* This felt good, huh? Feels right to snap from that 'nice' act. This Taehyung I know. This is Taehyung, caught my heart all those months ago.
*His tongue moved over your thumb playfully. His eyes warm. As if Hoseok were waiting for this moment for a very long time.* My smile? *He smiles even brighter.* Thank you. I guess you like it?

*Taehyung’s eyes twitched when he forced you to stay even if he was painted as the villain. Yet…his eyes furrowed at your brighter eyes. You were supposed to apologize. Supposed to act subservient to his demands. Yet..you laughed? He stared in confusion but let you continue. As you pushed his hair awa to take a gander at his face, he blinked in yielding hesitant confusion. Yet your presence was warm. His cold eyes refused to warm instantly yet they were threatening to. He was confused when you said welcome back. His throat was parched yet he his lips and tried to answer back in his deep voice.* I’m home… *his cold eyes lingered on yours..* …wh…at…? *he didn’t understand yet continued to hold you like some part of him did. Why are you acting like he was gone when he was here the whole time? Were you assuming things…? Or were you seeing something he wasn’t even sure of? All he knows is that smile. He thumbs your lips slowly pushing the plush* you look beautiful when you smile…

*Hoseok gasped at sudden, rough treatment. His neck so fragile in your hands, your lips pressed hard against his own. Yet it felt faniliar. Calming. That was something he know. This was someone he knew. When you spit the words at him from between your teeth he observes you amazed, curious. He reached out to push the hair out of your forehead to see those cold yet burning eyes. Then he smiles. That heart-shaped smile as his head leans back and he laughs softly. * Oh, welcome back Taehyungie. Finally. How long it has been? Months? *He asks softly, in his quiet voice.* Where have you been exactly? *Somehow, he relaxed in your harsh cold, his body recognising yours. The actions not lost.* I never wanted to be a villian, I just wanted you to be yourself. To find yourself. You finally did.

*the breath in him felt knocked out when you pushed his hands away. It stung. His eyes furrowed, confused why it hurt. No. This wasn’t how it was supposed to go…he thought as he gritted his teeth while listening to your words insulting him, your attitude. What did he want? Exactly? Nothing? Something? And who gave you the right to talk back to him. Without thinking, he grabbed you by the neck before kissing you clashing his lips in a forceful firm kiss then pulling away* don’t even dare brush away my intentions like that. Make me out to be a villain in your eyes *he growls as he looks into your eyes, smirking at the helpless hoseok* fine, if you want me to be the villain…You’re mine. *growls* even if I don’t have feelings for you, you’re mine, Hoseok.

*He pushed your hands away. Not wanting to be touched.* Suddenly you care about hurting me? Oh please. I was fine till you started playing with me. Who gave you permission to kiss me? You knew about my feelings. Did you think kissing will help me? I was okay till you started it. I was dealing with it slowly.

Don’t you see? *turns you around to look into his eyes* you answered your own question with your lips. Exactly. How could we be friends or try to if you are constantly being hurt by my nature. Not only that but your feelings for me as well?

But why that matter? If you knew why kissing me? Why playing with me? Did you get what you wanted? *He sighs heavily.* You are just giving me reason to avoid you. I wasn't planning to act or any of my feelings. I was trying to be your friend. Nothing else.

I can tell why you kissed me back, Hoseok. It is because you still yearn for my touch and to be kissed by me. It’s quite clear. It is true I may not know who you are with others but then again, that is none of my concern. I only need to compare you to who you are with me. Or were.

No Taehyung. You read my actions as romantic because you never, actually saw me with my friends. Jeongguk is Jeongguk. He is special in different way. *He sighs, shaking his head.* I gave up on the idea of us long time ago. I don't deserve to be replacement for yet another person. The feelings, they are there, but do I act on them? No. You kissed me. I don't know why I kissed you back. I can't tell you that. But do I expect anything from? No.

So you admit it then? You cannot think of me as nothing but romantically.

And that was my mistake, but I wouldn't just kiss anyone. You are not just anyone.

First, I would not consider anything of that word. And yet I asked a question. I expect an answer to that question as you said yourself. You were lonely enough to just feel like kissing me back

Do you think I am so kind of naughty ? *Asks, frowning.* Why would I kiss a stranger?

*looks at hoseok, waiting for an answer*

*Hoseok says nothing, raising his eyebrows and waiting for you to realise how stupid that question was.*

I see…so you would kiss a stranger back if they kissed you then…?

Why? It's a burden and nothing else. *Yes you do and yet you kissed him.* but it was the only way to meet your needs. So I did what Needed to be done so I could be avaliable. Because I care for people and want to help. *He looked at the wall.* I don't know? You surprised me? Because it was nice to be kissed? Because I am very lonely? But mostly because you caught me off guard and I went with it? I won't give you a clear answer because I dont know myself, but I learn from my mistakes.

In your current state? Unfortunately, I cannot ask for anything more. Do not say that when humans value emotional things such as these, Hoseok. *yet he grows quiet when you bluntly brush off the fact he has his own capable mind to make decisions based on* …that is not ideal either. Shunning feelings as just as unnatural as overembracing them…*his voice is almost but a whisper.* …tell me. Why did you kiss me, Hoseok.

Yes. I do know you and yet I don't get it. What do you want from me? *He ask so very tired.* It doesn't mean anything because it is my problem that I need to deal with. Not you. I was the stupid one, not you. So why would that matter to you? *He sighs heavily.* I am trying to be as feelingless around you as I can to not make you uncomfortable and just be supportive friend you need. That what I have been doing. Kissing me doesn't help me achieve that so let me ask again. Why did you kissed me? You know I have feelings, why do you toy with them? Is this fun for you? What is the reason.

Hoseok, don’t act surprised. You knew me more than anyone knows me. More than I thought I knew me. *his eyes glint in confusion* why does it not mean anything…? It means something. I don’t believe realistically any human being could get over such things. But who knows. Maybe I continue like this, you may truly end up hating me and not being able to forgive me. Wouldn’t that be nice for you? You would have a good reason to give up on helping me

*He moved away, lips pressed into thin line.* Playing tests and games on me? Why? *He composed himself quickly. Preparing for a blow. * I do but it doesn't mean anything. They are my responsibility. Not yours. I am no longer offering my heart to someone who doesn't want it. If you are worried about them, don't be. I am letting them fade. Why did you kiss me?

That is quite similar to those idol anime shows. *he did the most horrible thing to you. He kissed you to test your reaction. You kissed him back.* I see…so you still have feelings for me, hm?

*Hoseok didn't really knew what was happening. He obviously stare at you, wondering what's going on. Why you were changing? * Beautiful Hoseok? *He tilted his head to the side curiously. Were you still Taehyung? Or were you someone he no longer knew? * It is. It is beautiful. It has a meaning you know. I am your hope, you're my hope. I am J-Hope. *He gives you that perfectly warm, gentle smile. Yet when you kiss him so suddenly, out of blue he gasped at first, wide eyed. He leans in, accepting the kiss but his heart doubt. He did his best to give you all the space you could possibly wants. He stopped wanting himself. He just moved forward. So why? Why did you kiss him? When he was never soneone you needed or wanted? What changed? *

*his eyes grew colder at the joking romantic but still purses his lips in a pressed lip smile. Yet then blinks when hoseok grows serious.* not just hoseok. The hoseok. The beautiful hoseok… *his voice grew distant* j…hope…? Is that your popstar name? Peculiar name. Popstar names should be pretty names right? Like Grande? Swift? Carpenter? Drake? Lamar? *stares into hoseok’s eyes* I am *presses his lips to yours*

*Giggles at the pouts and after another sip he once again handle you a coffee cup.* Romantic *He wiggles his eyebrows, jokingly. He then grow more serious as he takes your hand and squeeze it.* Hoseok. Sorry I am just Hoseok. J-Hope. *He gently thumbed your knuckles.* Are you alright Taehyungie?

*pouts lightly when you took his coffee away. He was planning to drink more of it* Oh- indirect kiss *giggles deeply and rectangularly. It sounds familiar yes. I’m not sure… *he says, his voice suddenly growing colder as if returning to thinking deeply* are you…?

*He observes in quiet amusment.* Street dance mostly, hip hop, popping, house. Sounds familiar? *Accepts the coffee back.* Indeed, I need sugar to keep my energy high since I didn't eat. Usually I prefer less sugar as well. *Nods, sipping the coffee slowly and smiles back with his heart shaped smile.* Oh? Why? Are you okay?

*with eyes wide, resembling the deceased’s expression, he takes the cup carefully and sips more before holding it away to talk* its very sweet. I tend to prefer my coffee black. But I suppose sweet is still delicious. *smiles grinning rectangularly* thank you hoseok Hyung. I’m not sure what I’ve been. What kind of dancing do you do?

Because I felt like it. I love dancing. I was practicing. *Smiles at your eagerness, giving you the whole cup.* Finish it my tall coffee addict. *Chuckles * How have you been Taehyungie?