❀┊jihoon’s studio

@park jimin sorry! but yes i would like to keep this

@lee jihoon herro herro, fellow churrrooo!
this room's been out of srrvice for quite some time now.
pls respond back if you'd like to keep it. you have 24 hrs!
thx -- pjm, the landlord

@yoon jeonghan by the time everything is fully saved and the computer is shut off, screen now black, a wave of dizziness hits me when i stand up straight. i close my eyes and clench them tight as i try to regain my bearings. the last thing i wanted to do was actually pass out standing up in front of you. that would end in disaster and panic. however, i could feel myself slipping. "i.. i can't." i murmur, voice growing weaker, like i was out of breathe. i had no confidence in my body much less in my balance. i was teetering standing up as it is and despite my entire body feeling like a thousand bricks, my legs felt like numbed jelly, head was spinning and foggy, and i was once again beginning to see everything in doubles. i feel myself about to fall just as you crouch down to situate my smaller form on to your back. i go without protest, arms hanging limply around your neck as my chin rests on your shoulder. only after a minute of being carried around do i realize that i was slipping in and out of consciousness, succumbing to darkness for a short amount of time to awaken then slip back under for a longer duration. my vision is swaying like i was on a cruise ship in the rash seas of the ocean when i dully make out the interior cube of the elevator, your sturdy by shaking hands under my knees, holding me up on your back and refusing to let go. but then i'm slipping right back under once more.

@lee jihoon i keep a hand gently pressed against your back, ready to catch your body if ever it started to feel the aftermath of having no sleep and food at some point. i am actually in a state of panic right now even though i look composed on the outside. it still shocked me how lifeless you are right now even if i already expected it. soon i draw my hand away from the mouse and just let you save all your work yourself. "come on, let's go home. we're just gonna ask them to clean this place up. can you walk? are you feeling dizzy?" i ask in a gentle voice, running my hand through your disheveled hair to see your face clearly. i did not wait for an answer though and i immediately turn around to crouch and bring your arms to wrap around my neck, picking your legs up by hooking my hands under your knees. while carrying you on my back, i exit the studio immediately, spotting a maintenance man on the way and kindly asking him to clean your studio, not missing to remind him to be careful when doing so. after that, i quickly make my way to the elevator to bring us to the ground floor.

@yoon jeonghan rest sounded really good right now, i thought to myself while steadying my weakened body into your side. i could barely hold myself up right at this point. too exhausted, only living off of energy drinks for the past few days on an empty stomach was finally taking its toll. i needed rest and a few proper meals before i could get back on my feet or even consider continuing where i left off. hell, it seemed as if i didn't even have the energy to protest, not that it'd be much use anyways. i look back over at the computer screen and reach out, gently nudging your hand away from the mouse so i can take over and save the files. once everything was saved, i turn the computer off.

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@lee jihoon i want to get mad at you and scold you for not taking care of yourself properly but i know how weak you are and you don't need those right now. i keep myself stern though and i am not gonna let you say no to anything i am gonna say and i am thoroughly surprised that you did not do anything to rebuke. it's better than having to argue with you though. "okay, okay. we are going home. you need to rest.." my voice is gentler this time, but full of worry still. with attentive eyes, i watch you attempt to move from your chair and i immediately wrap an arm around your waist to hold you up, letting you lean yourself against me. "we gotta save where you left off first, hoon. you might lose your files." my free hand reaches for the mouse, looking at the software displayed on the screen to see what i can do. "how do you do this??"

@yoon jeonghan it's almost as if i'm debating whether or not i've fallen asleep or if i'm still awake when my brain processes you standing in the doorway looking half concerned half pissed. either way i shouldn't be surprised by your reaction to the state that i'm in. not just that, but the empty cans of redbull littering to my side, some on the floor. truth be told, i didn't drink /all/ of them in the same sitting. some of the cans were from the day before. however i go against trying to defend myself, knowing that it wouldn't paint a better picture for my cause. so with a deep sigh, i close my eyes as i let your fingers softly comb through my hair, the action alone putting an ease to my quaking body. "alright.." i murmur after a few short seconds. despite my body greatly protesting and feeling as if weigh a thousand pounds, i manage to slowly lift myself up out of the stair, staggering a little but quickly catching myself.

@lee jihoon my eyes scan all the empty cans of red bull scattered on the floor, nothing but those red bull cans, which immediately makes me assume that you have been drinking them with an empty stomach. i turn back to you a few moments after and what i quickly noticed is the dullness of your face and the bags under your eyes. it's heart-breaking, every inch of me started to fill with even more worry because of your state right now. "what are you trying to do? you're gonna ing die if you keep doing this!" i say as move closer to you, glancing at the computer screen for a moment before looking down at you, running a hand through your hair. with a soft voice, i start talking again. "we're going home, jihoon. whether you like it or not. i am not gonna let you continue this. you are sacrificing your health.."

@yoon jeonghan ( gonna tag if thats okay
also sorry if this reply is i'm on mobile and half asleep )

i remain in the same position for a good few minutes before i'm moving again when i hear a small ding coming from one of my monitors. removing my hands from my face, i lean forward to take a look at the notification that had popped up; the song i was just finishing up has finished syncronizing together. another one down, two more to go. i reach out for the can of redbull at my left and just as i'm about to bring it up to my lips, when not only do i realize it's practically empty, but the stench of the drink has my queasy stomach churning. i flinch a little and cover my mouth, hand trembling as it lowers the can back down. my head is spinning and my heart is beating so fast it hurts. i was beginning to see double of everything, so i figured a quick power nap is well deserved. folding my arms on the desk in front of me, i rest my head down upon them, feeling every ounce of energy slowly bleed out. i don't even register you walking in until i hear the sound of your voice, commanding yet worried. slowly, my eyes open halfway to stare up at you in silence.

i did not bother to respond to the staffs that greeted me as i walk through the company building, doing long strides towards the elevator. few days locked up in the studio? sometimes i already think you are being insane already. knowing you, i am pretty sure you haven't eaten anything nor slept even a blink. with a worried mind, i enter the elevator once it opens, immediately pressing the number of the floor where your studio is. the elevator ride is sickeningly slow for my uneasy self and i hurry out of it the moment it finally reaches the floor, wasting no time and making my way to your studio. i am quite thankful that our manager know its passcode and told me to check up on you because even himself is getting worried about you. my fingers hastily press the combination on the door, pushing it open when i hear the soft "ding". i don't even care anymore if you will get mad at me for barging in and disturbing you on your work but i am not just gonna stand here and do nothing. i have to use my power as your hyung this time. "jihoon."

as i have been cooped up in the studio for quite some time already, there was at least 13 empty energy drink cans off to the side that i have yet to toss out. all of the songs i needed to finish were nearly done and i suppose i could count that as a victory, however i still had about two more to go. with a deep sigh, i lean back in my chair and run my hands over my face. i still feel phyiscally sick, the urge to throw up is strong now that i could taste the bittnerness crawling up my throat the redbulls weren't helping either. i could feel a fever beginning to tick in as well, making me groan into my palms.