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@wang yibo /a lewd but curt whimper automatically leaves my lips with the controlled grind of your hips, chest slightly heaving despite trying to remain the stable one out of the two of us, being a lot more sober than you of course
/ignoring your useless plea, i don't however deny the urge to cover your protruding adams apple around my lips, only lightly since i'm rather mindful of the kind of noises it would make and frankly i'd rather not have a surrounding third party when you're whining so desperately like this
behave
/the interrupting words of the driver pull me out of my trance, an obnoxious noise sounding as my lips latch off of your skin, loosening my hold on you only to silently gesture for you to leave first with a quick pat to the small of your back before i rush to pay the poor man, leaving a rather generous tip for him to keep
/without a glance back, i grip at your wrist and drag you inside, barely even passing the door before i have you pinned up against the wall, hand under your thigh as i hike your leg up, lips passing your awaiting ones to continue marking up your neck, the new angle allowing me to feel much more of your tent already hard under the confinement of your jeans
i'd have done you in an alley if we didn't get here fast enough, you know-
/i comment in a low mutter, pulling back to admire the pretty red work i'd painted along the side of your neck with a satisfied smirk before eyeing you down with my rounded orbs, almost looking innocent for the moment i remain expressionless
tell gege what you want, yibo

@xiao zhan /quick to oblige I take your warning into account and roll my hips as I'm told, its effortless and light from years of dance practice, I'm proud of how easily I move atop of you, graceful and frustrating - like trying to catch water between your fingers
If that's what hyung wants then I'll do it
/whispers before soft pants begin leaving my lips, another whimper leaving me but this time as you latch onto my neck and begin mark it up, softly crying out but its smothered by the noise of the radio being turned up by our driver who also goes just a bit quicker
But hyung...
/my head tips back in your hand entirely, that long neck you love so much stretched out in front of you, illuminated by passing city lights as my adam's apple bobs each time I swallow and just barely stop myself from drooling when the fire bubbling up inside of me only increases
/the taxi coming to a halt has me leaning forward and clinging onto you, my flushed face hidden against your neck as I half listen to the fare total, half kiss your own neck and whisper the word 'hyung' over and over again by your ear, urging us on

@wang yibo /being so forward myself, i had no idea you'd do the exact same, watching with wide eyes as you straight up plop down onto my lap so shamelessly without a care for the extra company we have just a metre away from us
/my smile that was once so smug disappears upon seeing just how serious you are right now and in a split second, my fingers press tighter into your skin, nudging you that little bit closer so your is perched onto my lower region, digging my teeth into my bottom tier as i hold back a threatening grunt from how pliant and needy you've become
too impatient, wang yibo. rock your hips, but slowly, okay ? i don't want us to be kicked out onto the streets-
/i mumble into your ear just before the tip of my tongue traces around the outer shell while the pads of my thumb graze teasingly against your perky s
don't you dare ever drink if i'm not with you, oh my god
/my mind becomes full of possessive-like thoughts, wondering if you'd been so bold with someone else like this, but it leaves just as quickly as it arrives, releasing one hand to tug at your short hair, forcing your head to the side for me as subtly as i can to mark the neck of yours i'd grown obsessed with, myself forgetting that we are very much not in the privacy of our own home as my hand sinks lower, hanging by the hem of your pants, completely high over how easily you yet still stringing on the little ounce of decency
just wait a little longer, baby. can't have someone else seeing the mess you make here, can we ? it's just for gege

@xiao zhan /nods my head in agreement, so easily, so pliant and willing to agree with you, i'd do anything if you asked me to, sober or not
anything-
/answers a little too quickly, my lower lip wobbling before i glance down at your hands, slipping under the fabric of my shirt and so close to where i need them but so far
i'd do anything...
/trails off as i look at you, my eyes shining just a bit, shifting against you on the seat to straddle your lap, ignoring the glances of the driver
/arms wrapped around your shoulders i stare down into your eyes, lips parted as a whimper, half a whine more like, tumbles from my lips in response
hyung...
/calls softly before i lean down, hiding my face against your neck, hot and flustered, i squirm around in your lap looking for some kind of relief for the growing ache inside of me

@wang yibo you become even more flattering when you're tipsy, yibo ah..
/i voice my observation aloud followed by fond laughter, not-so subtly beckoning my eyes down to the part of your body i had just covered, seemingly against your will judging by your reaction, though i'm thoroughly relieved by the darkness of the night, along with the lack of roaming souls that such eye candy is all for me to see
/having moved into the taxi, i let the driver know of our destination without compromising the hold i've had on you ever since we were in the bar, my wide eyes becoming slightly more hooded as i face you, lewd images of your pale skin against the complimentary accessory flashes in my mind
it was wasn't it ? yibo wore that just for me. he wanted me to notice him looking so pretty for gege even before we were together
/the more i speak, the huskier my voice sounds and your current appearance doesn't do much to help my self control, leaning in just that little bit to trap your bottom lip between my teeth while my nimble fingers run under your shirt, just shy of the nubs perked due to the cool of the night
what else can yibo do secretly in public, just for gege ?
/i ask now whispering my words, finishing with a tilted of my head, my smile familiarly mischievous

@xiao zhan gege is the only one worth looking at. so handsome...
/mumbles as you bring me outside, shivering once at the cool air before your fiddling with my hair, leaving me to look up at you with those big brown eyes of mine
does gege only look at me?
/asks curiously, glancing down at my shirt and frowning at the sight, even buttoned up its gauzy, practically see through and doing nothing for the pert, peach coloured buds beneath
mmh
/leas into your side when you're done fussing over me, leaning my head against your shoulder while you hold me, my fingers curled into the fabric of your shirt as i do so
do you remember the diamante thing i wore, gege?
/questions as i'm huddled into the next taxi, clinging onto your side once we're inside, skin still flushed but a slight chill to it thanks to the night air
wore that just for you
only you-

@wang yibo /despite keeping your arm squeezed into my side, my expression remains rather smug as i lead us out swiftly, though not before shooting a sharp glare to the two familiar faces i had seen lingering by us just a couple minutes ago, nodding once in response to your question
mh, good. and i want to be the only one to see my baby in such a state
/a gentle smile makes its way upon my face as my eyes fixate back onto your blushed face, loosening my hold to carefully fix the random messy strands of hair of yours
there. as pretty as ever. wait-
/now being outside in the cold makes me more mindful of your exposing attire and so with that in mind, i close up a couple buttons of your half splayed shirt, though i can't deny the possessive reasoning bothering me in the back of my mind also
there. all better
/now satisfied, i pull us closer to the curb with my hand reaching out to hail us a taxi back home

@xiao zhan mmh...
/hums softly under my breath, not really at anything in particular, just enjoying these stolen moments with you and knowing i'll cling to as many as i can get
/my fingers on the other hand are drawing light patterns against the inside of your thigh, about to pull it away when i suddenly find my back meeting the seat behind me
ge-
/but i don't even get to finish my word let alone sentence, whimper turning into a moan as even feel the warm of your hand at my hip causing a familiar heat to pool in the pit of my stomach
/when you pull back i'm too dazed to even follow, leaning back still while blinking slowly, staring at you in my flushed, hazy moments for now
/i simply, if slowly, shaking my head in agreement to your words, finding my feet but not without holding your hand, practically a limpet latched onto the side of your arm while we make our way out after paying
were people really looking, gege?
/asks with a small pout as my cheek squishes against your shoulder slightly, looking up at you with those soft, brown eyes as my fingers tighten among your sleeve
i only want gege looking at me...

@wang yibo /the window of opportunity i get as your head tips back has me moving on impulse, the tip of my finger gliding down along the expanse of your neck, particularly taking my time over your protruding adam's apple, taken aback by your comment but also unable to deny the truth
/before i get the chance to retort, your hand moves slyly, gripping so intimately at my thigh which leaves me squirming in my seat, originally one to feel rather shy in such situations, but catching the eyes of the couple males lingering right by us gives me another idea
/i reach out to grip tightly at the front of your shirt, pushing you up against the cushioned booth before i meet your lips for a passionate kiss, my free hand rubbing at your hip, this time wanting to be watched by our personal audience, wanting them to know exactly who you belong to
/eventually, i pull away with a satisfied smirk as i watch the males scurrying away from the corner of my eye, humming in response as i finish with a soft peck to your rosy tiers
mhm, let's. can't have these lusting men staring so intently at my boyfriend while he's looking all pretty for me, now can i ?

@xiao zhan /positively blooms when you tell me you think i'm y, tipping my head back long after you're done kissing it, hair tickling the sides of my skin that you love and adore so much
its only worth hearing if you say it though
/states matter of factly before i tip my face down, looking at you as you stare at me, blinking owlishly as if i've suddenly turned into an alien
why not?
gege doesn't dislike it
/states simply, sliding one of my hands over your knee and then up to the inside of your thigh, giving it a small squeeze as i lean in, nuzzling your palm still with a grin and hooded eyes
i can tell
/chuckles lightly under my breath before i lay my head on your shoulder, a patron or two passing by our booth and hesitating, eyes lingering on us, or perhaps its the flash of skin i still have showing from my semi open shirt, or maybe they heard what i murmur next and the suggestive tones underlying it;
take me home, gege

@wang yibo surely you're not asking me because you don't believe that yourself. you just want to hear it from gege don't you ?
/i ask with slightly narrowed eyes, almost a hundred percent sure that my hunch is correct unless you give me a reason to believe otherwise, but i give in to your silent wish anyway just for your satisfaction
in that case, yes, wang yibo, you are incredibly y. especially..
/my words trail off as my eyes lower to your exposed neck, ducking my head enough for my lips to leave their delicate touch onto your skin
/the contrast of your actions in comparison to your comment has me feeling all sorts of things within seconds, almost having to do a double take to make sure i heard that correctly, wide eyes blinking continuously
how are you doing this right now ??
...you drive me insane, baby
/just seeing you in this state has that protective side of me urging to show again; this is something i want all to myself, your childlike youthfulness as well as the irresistible, though strangely natural seductive side i can't get enough of
you shouldn't say such things while we're in public, yibo

@xiao zhan what about y?
is yibo y too?
/questions as i look up at you, so close to me i'm only too happy to be surprised when you kiss me, my lips lingering sweetly on your own as i eye the cute mole just below your lip
/i kiss that too before i nod when you mention looking after me, liking it when you baby me even if i pretend i don't, we both know i'm lying
mmh...
gege is right, don't tickle me. but... you should have said how capable these fingers are of bringing me down to my knees
/lifts your hand between my own as i speak, lightly grazing my teeth over the back of your knuckles before i'm giggling all over again, turning your hand over to nuzzle my cheek into your palm

@wang yibo i do..
/i whisper loud enough for my words to be heard by you, ducking down to gently kiss your inviting lips as silently requested, leaning back with a crooked smile as i nod my head in response to your question
yibo is gorgeous, so pretty
/i speak with my eyes fixated on your glowing features prominent under the neon lights flashing around the room, now winding my arm behind your waist given that you're practically clung to my side by this point, the back of my thumb dragging up and down by your hip in a soothing manner
mh, we can stay here for a bit longer if you want, as long as i can take care of you
/my head tips with curiosity, the new angle allowing me to see your face clearer as you so childishly play with my hand, your little giggles causing an impromptu domino affect as i find myself laughing softly along with you
you find it funny, eh ? stupid. this kid doesn't respect his elders
/i say jokingly, eventually leaning in with a cheeky grin on my face, lifting my hand in a threatening manner
they may be small, but my tickles are deadly-

@xiao zhan /as you cup my cheeks i find myself looking up at you, puckered tiers looking for a kiss though i doubt i'm going to get one from you, not when we're in public
mmh... does gege think i'm still pretty?
/asks as i pull up a bit, touching my cheeks with the back of my hands before i sigh, my gaze drifting over to the waiter when i see movement coming out way
/but he seems to change his mind and leave, making me frown before i look back at you, much closer now too and making my skin heat for another reason
okay, gege
/obediently agrees to stop drinking, but it doesn't stop the pout or the cute mumbling i seem to be doing, my head leaning against your own after another moment as i cuddle up to you some more
do you want to go home...?
/asks hesitantly, knowing if you say yes and we do that its one step closer to tonight being over, and i don't think i could deal with saying goodnight to you quite yet
hyung is so perfect for me
look
/i'm speaking about our hands, one of mine having found your own, holding it lightly before i press my bigger palm against your smaller one, laughing quietly under my breath at the difference in size
so small...

@wang yibo ah ?
/i tip my head to the side, wondering where you'd heard that, though i just reckon it's a bit of your prideful younger side coming out more while in your drunken state, so i don't pay it anymore attention, shaking my head dismissively
/i keep my eyebrows raised as it seems like i'm watching you in slow motion and though i normally would express a protective side, i do find you remaining adamant about being sober rather amusing, but i try to maintain my poker face, simply humming in agreement
hmm, it is quite hot isn't it.. look how red your cheeks are now, ah..
/my hand reaches over to gently cup your warm face, though as soon as you undo your buttons my eyes automatically shift down to your exposed neck and i naturally pull myself closer to you, the clinginess on my part now more possessive than anything else
/i spot the waiter approaching our table and before he gets any closer, i gesture for him to skip the pleasantries with a simple wave of my hand
if it's uncomfortable you should stop drinking now, eh ?

@xiao zhan hmm? no no-
cocktails are stronger, right? ...right?
/mumbles more to myself or perhaps the glass in my hands as i scrutinise it, squinting somewhat before i end up downing it anyway, adam's apple bobbing as i do so
/covers my mouth as i set it down on the table, sitting upright and blinking a few times with prolonged breaks in between, lightly slapping at my cheeks before i look at you beside me
see?
i'm fine. just a little hot
/tugs open the front of my shirt slightly as i say so, popping a couple of buttons before i'm left wafting the fabric a little, making me feel a bit cooler at least
gege likes old man drinks...

@wang yibo /i'm stuck in a trance just as our eyes meet once again, so rounded and bright and now you start speaking without a filter and i'm drawn into you that much more, lips slightly parted as i lean in, expecting to meet you halfway, but you duck away on my shoulder again, leaving me to sigh loudly, a fond smile settling on my face despite the tiny disappointment
ah !
/you move before i can stop you, grabbing a hold of my drink that's still pretty full, brows raised slightly in concern
yibo, uh, that's a bit stronger than one of your cocktails.. i don't think you want to..
/i trail off with a murmur, slowly extending my hand to try and pry it out of your hold

@xiao zhan Mmh... I know. And gege is all mine too
/whispers as I press my finger to my lips, grinning at you playfully for a moment before I lean back, staring at you in silent awe, eyes big and a soft brown that may as well be full of stars
Pretty...
/leans in like I might kiss you, only to divert at the last moment and lay my head against your shoulder tiredly, breathing softly as it looks like its nap time - if it weren't for my sudden outcry
Another drink!
I can handle them-
/my hand reaches for one of the ones on the table, managing to at least grab it though taking an actually swig of it is going to prove a bit more difficult

@wang yibo /it's pretty obvious that you're a little out of it right now after only the couple of drinks you'd downed, but i find it pretty adorable nonetheless, especially since i notice how similar it is your charming character in the drama, so i bask in the moment, chuckling in amusement at your childish actions and encouraging you on by holding you tightly in my hold as you pull me towards you, palms splayed across the top of your back
i know baby and gege loves you so so much as well, okay ?
/the cute little giggle you release is awfully rare and just the sound of it makes me giddy enough to press multiple kisses to where i can reach by the side of your face
mhm, this cute little baby is all mine
and he also isn't allowed any more drinks-

@xiao zhan /whines when you only peck me back after the kiss, aching for more but i know i shouldn't though it doesn't stop the want i have either
/pouts as i look up at you with my flushed cheeks and disappointed expression, leaning in again to steal one more kiss after nibbling at your finger against my lip just before
mine...
/sighs against your lips before i lay my head on your shoulder instead, closing my eyelids as i slide my arms around your waist, hiding my flushed face against your neck
i love you soooooo much, gege
so... so much
/giggles softly to myself, melting into a sigh that's happy, content and shows just how i feel right now, safe and happy and content beside you

@wang yibo /taking note of just how much my words mean to you, seeing the waterline of your eyes rim with tears; it's a sight that's rare for you to show, so i know just how much this means for you
/i shake my head reassuringly, voice lowering to a murmur for just your ears to listen to, despite being in our own privacy as we shift even closer to one another
we're never gonna wake up, baby
/a smile flashes for you to see just before you lean in to initiate such a passionate kiss and i adapt to your changing pace as you like, a muffled noise sounding between my lips with each subtle tip of my head, reluctantly pulling back, my large eyes still slightly hooded before i finish it off with a final peck
and you seem to kiss me a lot fiercer when you're a bit tipsy-
/i add teasingly, my smile widened into the cheeky grin you're so used to by now as i loosen one of my hands to tap lightly at your mouth with my single digit

@xiao zhan you're right... and it sounded ridiculous the first time i even realised it. i tried- ... i tried really hard to rationalise that it wasn't possible
it had to be something else. loneliness, physical attraction, admiration-
anything but love. not a love as instant as that anyway. trust me. i tried until i was run down to the bone and dog tired
/murmurs before you take my hands, looking at the way yours envelope the sides of my own before i lift my gaze, to finally meet your own that's been looking over my own features so intently
...but i know what you mean. especially now since you've agreed to, well, love me back
i'm terrified some day i'm going to wake up and this is going to be nothing more than a lie...
/its hard to swallow when you tell me i'm perfect for you, biting at my bottom lip lightly before i do manage to swallow finally, biting back tears because hearing you call me those things is perhaps all i could ever want - beside your love of course
i don't want to wake up yet, gege...
let's dream a little longer
/whispers as i just stare into your eyes, seemingly not going to do anything else until i lean in, my lips pressing against your own gently at first, but it turns into something desperate, needy, stopping short as i break the kiss and softly pant against your lips, my fingers slipping between the spaces of your own as i whisper
i love you too, xiao

@wang yibo /i shake my head dismissively, ridding of such thoughts that i'm only speaking out of guilt and instead it's more to do with genuinely speaking from my inner emotions, since i normally have a hard time trying to decipher what i feel into coherent words, just to make sure you, at this point, know just how i feel about you
it's not that i don't believe you, yibo, not that. it's.. i guess it's all just.. overwhelming ? and it's not everyday someone can say that they fell instantly, you know ? it all sounds like a fairy-tale and there's something in the back of my mind that's terrified of waking up from this dream
/reaching forward, i take both of your hands in my own, squeezing them tightly to gain your attention, my brows furrowed as my eyes fixate over your softly chiselled features
because you are, really, perfect for me, yibo
though it took me a while to realise it.. you really are my best friend, my soulmate and my lover all in one and i couldn't imagine feeling like this for anybody else. ever
we'll be together for a long time, didi, i don't know anybody who tolerates my stupidity as much as you've done
/i finish with a soft chuckle, head tipping to the side as i wait for your eyes to meet my own before lovingly mumbling;
i love you, yibo

@xiao zhan /when you tell me there's no way there's a pained smile tugging at the corner of my lips, it feels like you're calling me a liar and i know you'd never, but that doubt resurfaces so many old feelings i thought i could ignore by now
/while you're going through everything i order another drink from the waiter passing by, asking him for another cocktail and a shot, that of which i drink almost as immediately as its put down in front of me
/i wince at the burn and taste but i need the reassurance, sitting back as i feel my cheeks rush with heat, the same heat starting in my lower belly and back like it always does when i find myself drinking
don't-
don't say anything then. i didn't tell you so i'd hear something in return. you'd find out at some point, it just so happened that now was the moment
i'm glad i told you. but you really don't have to...
/trails off as i hear you doing just that, bowing my head a little and then finally lifting it to nod when you finish what you wanted to say
i know, gege. i know
and i knew you wouldn't believe me. but i didn't tell you this to make you feel bad or wrong or anything bad really
/gestures vaguely with my hands before i run them down my face, sighing as i lean back and let my arms slump in front of me onto my lap
every day... working with you, learning from you, just... being beside you
it did more for me than you could ever know. that's... that's all. so don't feel bad about not knowing or try to make up for it. i didn't need you to love me back, not when i found my soulmate. but the fact you did - you do...
that's the biggest surprise and pleasant benefit i'll ever experience
at least in this life with you

@wang yibo /your witty response leaves me giggling childishly, my hand lifting up to cover my mouth as i do so
/when you eventually start to tell me what you'd hesitated on for the past few minutes, i find myself nodding naturally to your couple questions at the beginning, the speed of it slowing as i grow more aware of where exactly this is going
/my hand isn't even holding the glass at this point anymore, both of them on my lap as my eyes remain glued to yours in complete shock, lips trembling a little, eyes darting as i attempt to sink it all in
there's.. there's no way
/still frozen in place, i simply stare as you down the last of your drink and perform these cute, minute actions all while i feel stuck in time, literally not understanding at all how this happens to be the truth, but you're telling me this with confidence and from the bottom of your heart, so i actually do believe it all, i do, especially with how well you've been treating me for over 2 years now
yibo.. i- don't know what to say..
/my whisper sounds rather raspy as i try to stop myself from choking up, wishing i had the words for such situations and maybe a romantic way to react, but my head is completely blank, just blurring out what i feel in my chest
although it may not have been as long as yours, my love for you now couldn't even fill the oceans, wang yibo and i will do my best to make all that silent suffering of yours worth it, alright ? so, keep thinking that it's me. it's me even when i do the stupidest things, even when i accidentally hurt you.. it's always going to be us

@xiao zhan Oh. So you read me like you're open book. Again
Not sure if I should find that more y or annoying... will keep you updated on my answers
/nods to you before I stop fiddling with my glass and take another drink from it, the both of us apparently needing it as I see you take a swig as well
Oh I know what you meant
But still don't think you would believe me if I told you when
/brushes my fingers through the cool droplets running down the side of my drink, rubbing my thumb over my fingertips after before I look at you, giving you my full attention
Do you remember the first group reading we had for the show?
Everyone with their scripts. You with whole pages highlighted and me with one or two lines in comparison?
/I begin smiling about it a bit more as I think, revealing what's a very fond memory for me, or has become so over the years at least
I was watching you put in so much effort and love for this one character. You were... inspiring
Stunning
I couldn't stop watching you, I was so taken. And then you looked at me and smiled and said "lan zhan" and-
This... this feeling I'd never experienced before washed over me. It....was warm and exciting but also a little terrifying. It made me feel like I knew you before, but whenever you were around it would return and...
Well i knew. I just... I just knew it was you. It had to always be you otherwise there would be no point in anyone else for me
So i was fine settling for being alone
/ruffles at my hair but its not enough to dull my embarrassment, lifting my glass one last time and downing the remains of my cocktail, covering my mouth when I'm done and wincing at how sweet it was before I finally dare glance at you from the corner of my eye
You don't believe me, right?

@wang yibo you did that.. that judgy thing with your face-
/my hand gestures towards you as i try to describe how you looked at me when you turned to face me directly all of a sudden just a few seconds ago, not sure if 'judgy' is the right word, but it's all i could think of
this is fine, baby. i just haven't had a drink in a while
/i turn with one leg folded on my seat to face you directly as it shows my deep interest and curiosity, the arm leaning on the table keeps a hold of my glass as i take a longer taste of the alcohol, brows furrowed objection from your response
eh ? why wouldn't i believe it ?
i know it's all the way back during filming at least, but /when/ ?
/this time i ask with obvious emphasis on the word, not wanting you to keep it from me at this point any longer

@xiao zhan ... I didn't say anything
Did you read my mind or something?
/scrunches up my nose when you describe me as cute and cuddly, knowing you're really not wrong but I'm not trying to be like that right now, and I worry you see me as cute far too often
If you want another drink let me know. I'll order it for you
/offers before straightening up in my seat some more, looking at your hands and then face before I'm shaking my head to brush off your concern
Don't do that-
I don't want you feeling guilty. It's pointless
Especially since we're together now
/turns my glass around between my fingers, staring at the brightly coloured liquids mixing like some kind of alcoholic lava lamp that doesn't burn me when i touch it
Well... you can ask
/lifts my gaze slowly, the corner of my mouth tugging up into one of my semi smirks that's perhaps all too familiar for you to see at this point
But it doesn't mean I'll answer
Besides, I doubt you'd believe the answer anyway

@wang yibo j- pda is different-
/i confess quickly while patting at your arm, not wanting to make you presume anything else in hope that you realise i was thinking of doing something more than sitting calmly beside you in that short moment
you say that, but under your hard mask that you like to show at first is this cute and bubbly little kid with the sweetest heart
see ?
/i ask as you decorate my ear, grinning wide before cooing over you in a cheesy manner
/my stronger drink to take a sip and slightly grimacing as i swallow it, though i keep my ears open, almost choking at your words
wh- that's why ?? oh, baby..
/my hand fans at your face, lips pressing into a line a little out of guilt for having caused this suffering against my knowledge for so long, though it makes me curious as to why and when it even happened in the first place
didi, can i ask you when you even realised you.. liked me ?