-taps my fingers along the wooden railing of the dock, it’s reminiscent to striking the keys of a piano. I stare out at the moonlit water. Earbuds gently planted in my ears, listening to instrumental music that makes me feel some type of way-
-my head tilting slowly from left to right-
@❀┆ s. kang。ᵃᵐᵘʳ ˡᵉᵒᵖᵃʳᵈ another soft laugh is could be heard slipping from the younger male. remembering the unfortunate confession of him and doors. he shook his head softly, "it is the doors fault for being in the way. I was just trying to get through." yoonsu said in a nonchalant tone.
unbeknownst to the deer, he didn't see elder's tranced gaze at him laughing. all he could think of was the leopard peering off to the side, completely ignoring his friends to come over to where he was. this only fueled more of the laughter, which caused the pain in his side.
concluding the ridiculous tormenting and conspiracies, he shrugged his shoulders softly. "oh I was suppose to be consoling you? for being a pseudo creep?" a wide smile was permanently formed onto his lips after that from his teasing of the man under him. his fingers sliding perfectly entwined with kang's. the warmth of the man cradled in ways that he could only describe as revitalizing. he loved it.
watching the handsome beneath him, applying kisses to his knuckles affected him in ways he couldn't explain. the red before creeping onto his cheeks now, painting his face a pretty pink that turned purple under the blue hue. "comfy. very comfy. you make a great chair." yoonsu smirked at the man, leaning down to press a delicate kiss to his temple.
"as for the dates, since are here... I want to go ziplining and jump off the cliff by the waterfall." he said humming in thought for the dates they could do together at the park. "safely of course. another one would be, making something with you. carving wood or making smores." he finished, now pulling the leopards hand to his lips, pressing a soft kiss.
@✿┆ n. yoonsu。ᶜᵃˡᵃᵐᵃᶦⁿ ᵈᵉᵉʳ "a rudolph that rages continually over an innocent door." the alpha countered rather flippantly, their recent discussion galloping to his forebrain.
there is silence settling, ephemerally, on kang's end while he remained spellbound at the younger's appearance, looking vernal due to the budding smile. he derived an unspeakable pleasure from yoonsu's laughter.
why did he like seeing the male laugh?
frankly, he has no clear answer. except for the sounds poured into his eardrums like raw honey, its sweetness imbibed every fibre of his body. and kang liked that, immensely. however such proclamation would be tightly locked away in a box and stored in the deepest corner of his wilful heart.
he hummed in agreement, wanting to conclude their ridiculous conspirations.
kang shook his head. "well, you're doing a poor job of consoling me, little fawn." and god. was he giggling? that cherubic sound causing his brain to go haywire. wordlessly, kang cradled the beauty on his lap. his left hand s behind yoonsu's back to support him while his free hand casually hold the latter's hand which rested on his chest, interweaving their fingers.
"after you tell me what type dates you have imagined in that pretty head of yours, sweetie." he brought the younger's hand up, close to his mouth, just so his idle lips could plant small kisses on each knuckle. "comfy?" kang asked soothingly.
@❀┆ s. kang。ᵃᵐᵘʳ ˡᵉᵒᵖᵃʳᵈ a delicate scoff left yoonsu's lips, playfully rolling his eyes at the tease. "ha ha, have your laugh. I don't look like a cherry. maybe rudolph but a cherry no." the younger then to was joining in, not minding to take a stab at himself. it wouldn't be a first time.
during this, his lips were formed into a soft boyish smile as he leaned to one side of the chair. getting a better look at the elder perched closer to him now. his eyes glazing over the leopard's features as he did so. before turning away to rub his chin with one of his hands. yoonsu's eyebrows furrowing at the other's answer.
"well that is true. or, it would be the most logical one... ambulance and helicopter picks them up and takes them away?" the younger's tone sullen as he deviated from the conspiracy and went with the logical answer as why there wasn't a cemetery.
cackling a little more as the other explained more. at this point the younger was holding his sides of his stomach and almost shedding a tear. something about the other having to explain the situation was more hilarious. "I mean yeah, I was just trying to make you feel better." yoonsu giggled a little before sighing, trying to catch his breath after the laughing fit.
"hmm then when are we going to have our first, 'official' date sir?" the younger glanced at him before smoothly getting up then placing himself on top the other's lap softly. getting comfortable the man's lap, he leaned against kang's chest and wrapped an arm around the back of his head. resting his hand on his shoulder, setting this as his permanent position.
@✿┆ n. yoonsu。ᶜᵃˡᵃᵐᵃᶦⁿ ᵈᵉᵉʳ kang sat up again, right elbow perched atop the wooden armrest, nestling his chin on his upturned palm. his torso leaning forward, towards yoonsu's direction.
"I didn't know it was cherry harvesting season. I should have brought a weaved basket along." he commented rather impishly, his cadence interwined with apparent willingness to tease the little fawn, despite its naturally calm tone.
his chuckle is stifled by the press of his lips in a tight line, taking a couple of passing moments to ponder upon your conspiracies. "that sounds like a cumbersome way to deal, though. assuming they have to restrain the cadaver with chains and boulders to prevent it from floating back on the surface." he answered thoughtfully, inspite of the silliness from where such a topic of discussion was based on.
his brow arched, quizzically, non-verbally asking why yoonsu was staring at him with such intensity that if could bore a metaphorical hole into his body and soul. frankly, a veil of embarrassment covered his consciousness when the latter admitted to his odd habit.
"I swear, i wasn't being weird. I just wanted to know what you were doing all alone, here at the docks." the leopard sputtered haphazardly, quite eager to clear his name off the 'biggest creeps list'. "adding attractive to the creep doesn't make it better, little fawn." he explained, head hanging low as he pinched the bridge of his nose, although he was still smiling.
"unofficial impromptu date." kang corrected, lifting his head once again. "calling this our first date would be unacceptable. but come here. you're too far." he said, patting on his lap while extending his hand to you.
@❀┆ s. kang。ᵃᵐᵘʳ ˡᵉᵒᵖᵃʳᵈ "I can't hide nothing can I?" yoonsu scoffed in mock irritation from being exposed for blushing. however, the thought of embarrassment upon seeing the alpha's smile that reached his eyes. a expression that he never really get to see with kang. the stoic embellishment on his features was the most common expression on the man. a soft shiver also left his body at the soft touch to the shell of his ear. making the redness even more prevalent on his skin.
"oh I know!" he raised a finger as his features contourt to a excited one. "what if, they throw the bodies here at the lake? since I don't think they have either here. why would they have a crematory or cemetery?" yoonsu said conspiratorially. of course, his interest in conspiracies showing as he humored the other.
yoonsu couldn't help but to pause and give a pregnant silence as he gazed at kang. that was before he bust out laughing and shaking his head. "you do sound like a creep. but hey, at least you are an attractive creep." the male said still having a fit of laughter.
turning towards the other, he flicked the small radio on causing it play the cassette tape. now with the soft tunes playing he sighed softly. "so this is our first date huh?" yoonsu lulled his head to the side, smirking softly as he positioned himself like the other next to him.
@✿┆ n. yoonsu。ᶜᵃˡᵃᵐᵃᶦⁿ ᵈᵉᵉʳ "your asian flush is acting up again, bambi." kang taunted, observing his companion through his hooded lids, the characteristic daytime sluggishness dissipated from the inherently noctural attribute. his eyes shining brilliantly but there is an undeniable elfin gleam beheld within them. his dominant hand lifted to rub the flushed earshell, plainly visible because of the excessive lighting.
"do they incinerate the body here? how come they have no cemetery here?" it was rhetorical, of course.
"I was out for drinks with a bunch of friends, while i was returning i noticed a curious little fawn waddling over here, alone. on hindsight I sound like a creep." he groused when self-realization dawned upon him, the same hand raised to curl around the back of his head.
sighing softly, he made his way around. taking a seat on the adjacent chair, slouching comfortably with his long legs overlapped one over the other. his head lolled backwards until it met with the backing of the chair and rested upon it.
@❀┆ s. kang。ᵃᵐᵘʳ ˡᵉᵒᵖᵃʳᵈ his body lurched almost an inch from the chair he was perched on upon hearing a voice behind him. however, yoonsu body settled back once he realized the who's succlulate voice it was. with that he chuckled softly, smiling to himself, contemplating the words in his head.
the silence wrapped around them once more as he heard the other breathed in the cool autumn air. the deer did the same as he gazed across the lake before him. wondering what in the world did he do to deserve the opportunity to be able to rest and take the time breath in fresh air and relax. from busy schedule to busy schedule, it seemed that he would never get the chance.
another smile formed on to his features from the kiss to his cheek, before leaning his head up to look at the other. "Ah, yeah true. But this one seemed a little easier to obtain since, I believe there isn't a cemetery around." he chuckled softly. a soft blush creeping to his ears as they are illuminated from the blue hue the moon produced.
"now, what are you doing here? how'd you know I was going to be here?" he asked curiously, the confusion seeping through his words. yoonsu was puzzled from how the other could have possibly found him. he didn't tell anyone he was going to be here, nor does his body produce a potent scent.
@✿┆ n. yoonsu。ᶜᵃˡᵃᵐᵃᶦⁿ ᵈᵉᵉʳ "the concept of heaven is human construct, though." came the careless little remark, his casual voice originating from behind the wooden chair where yoonsu was seated, kang with his towering height looming over head.
his obsidian like irises held the warmth of freshly made-caramel, lambent because of the surrounding spherical solar lights. his eyes turned crescents, crinkled at ends, while his mouth curled into a broad grin. he leaned forward, using both of his arms to press against the backing of the wooden framework, just so he could support his torso.
his lungs inflates with the briny air, before the long exhale. beneath the constellations and radiant moon, he stood in awe to admire the picturesque scene presented before him, although his eyes swiftly found another subject of admiration who remained sat in front of him.
"hey, bambi." the sacchrine tone said, swooping down to greet you with a quick peck on your right cheek. "I thought we were supposed to visit the cemetery for our first date." he added, playfully.
@✿┆ p. jongseong。ᵍʳᵉᵃᵗ ʰᵒʳⁿᵉᵈ ᵒʷˡ okay.. you too
don’t stay out here too long, you’ll get sick
pushes away from the railing and tugs up my hood
thanks for meeting with me
@❁┆ k. sunoo。ᵏᶦᵗ ᶠᵒˣ mm.. it’s best if we both kind of
settle alone for the night and try again.
I agree..
make sure to stay warm and don’t think too much
okay?
@✿┆ p. jongseong。ᵍʳᵉᵃᵗ ʰᵒʳⁿᵉᵈ ᵒʷˡ okay… okay
rubs at my face to quietly clean away my tears
it’s probably best to take a breather for tonight
so we can start fresh, hm?
@❁┆ k. sunoo。ᵏᶦᵗ ᶠᵒˣ purses my lips and inhales deeply, slowly turning away for a moment
mm. alright..
I’ll respect your decision.. and see how things start out from then on
@✿┆ p. jongseong。ᵍʳᵉᵃᵗ ʰᵒʳⁿᵉᵈ ᵒʷˡ hyung i really didn’t realize you felt that way, and i’m so sorry i made you feel like i wasn’t here for you
i thought giving you space was what you wanted, but i see now that it only made things worse
i was never trying to make you feel like you weren’t a priority, and honestly, it hurts me that you thought that… you mean so much to me
i don’t want this to end, and i don’t want us to just give up without trying to fix it so i’ll make more time for you, and i’ll be better about showing you how much i care.
please don’t feel like you’re alone in this, hyung. i’ll be here, and i’m ready to make things right
we can get back to the way we were… if you’ll let me try, but you also need to be more transparent with me? so i can.. can avoid something like this again
i'm not perfect, and neither will our relationship be but hopefully you can see past it and realize just how much i love you
@❁┆ k. sunoo。ᵏᶦᵗ ᶠᵒˣ I’ve tried and I don’t know what to do anymore.
the ball is in your court-
if you don’t want to give up then we move on to the next day.
if not, then we just say our goodbyes and hope for the best.
like I said.
you decide whether you really want to keep us together or not.
@✿┆ p. jongseong。ᵍʳᵉᵃᵗ ʰᵒʳⁿᵉᵈ ᵒʷˡ so you don't want to try anymore?
hyung- i didn't.. i don't want to just give up-
tugs at my sleeves, eyes rising to gaze at you
that's it? i find out and the same day we break up?
@❁┆ k. sunoo。ᵏᶦᵗ ᶠᵒˣ that’s it.
distancing yourself. the moment you did that, in my head I figured ‘oh. maybe he’s just not invested as I am… if that’s the case then I’ll just let it be’
we’re suppose to be together. doesn’t matter if you horde me, im your boyfriend. regardless I would’ve preferred that than being out there looking like I don’t have one. and being out there alone too often made me think if that’s the case then .. what… what am I at this point. like I see your mates out often of course but do I see you? not barely and im here thinking that maybe I can lure you out too but obviously my theory was wrong… so im just - wiping my hands and .. you choose what you think it’s best
cause right now .. my motivation to keep trying dwindled every time and I stood out there and had to go back into hiding.
@✿┆ p. jongseong。ᵍʳᵉᵃᵗ ʰᵒʳⁿᵉᵈ ᵒʷˡ listens to what you have to say and softly exhales a breath
so you feel like i do not consider you a priority, compared to my friends? but hyung i don't really have many.. i come out when i can, and chat with whoever is hanging out and then go when i have schedules.
i am busy most during the day and not as much in the morning or at night, and on the occasion i do see you, you haven't seemed interested in talking to me. for example the other night with that chat with wonbin, or even a couple days ago when i was trying to interact with you and it just went nowhere-
nudges the floor some more, sinking into myself.
i can do better with those things, hyung. it's not like i can't, but it is unfair to let it fester like this for no reason when all you had to do was tell me. i asked you so many times what was wrong and you continued to say nothing and let me believe things were okay when they were not. that isn't good communication
i always want to be around you, there isn't ever a time where i don't. honestly if anything i have been distancing myself because i don't want to horde you away from others.. and obviously now i didn't feel like you wanted me there.
@❁┆ k. sunoo。ᵏᶦᵗ ᶠᵒˣ raises my brow slowly and shakes my head a little as I lower my eyes to the ground
you miss me mm. two weeks ago you were out and about and whenever I caught you and would make efforts to talk to you.
I’d throw myself out there often and wait to see if I’d catch you but to no avail I just stopped trying. You barely saw me- I was everywhere at multiple points..
and I’ve been interacting to keep myself from feeling like im waiting for nothing.
it just hits a point to where … I think im not much of a priority and so I just go on out and go back lingering per usual before.
so if you just want to interact with me because you’re bored and don’t have others to talk to then what different am I to everyone else.
@✿┆ p. jongseong。ᵍʳᵉᵃᵗ ʰᵒʳⁿᵉᵈ ᵒʷˡ mm… um, i did wanna talk about how i’ve been feeling lately, between us?
takes a deep breath, shoving my hands inside of my pockets and looking at your shirt to try and get through it fully.
i feel like things aren’t the way.. the way they should be. i.. i'm not sure where the disconnect is coming from hyung, but i miss you. the you i know? i dunno it just seems like you don’t feel how i feel about you and maybe that’s because i am not providing what i should be, but i can’t fix that if i don’t know… and whenever i ask if you’re okay, or if you’re upset with me you just say yes or everything is alright but.. but i’m not a child anymore hyung. i can tell that something is bothering you.. i mean two weeks ago you and i were practically inseparable and now i barely see you.
stares at my shoes, nudging the wood beneath them.
if it’s something i'm misunderstanding or maybe not doing well.. i’m more than willing to work on it. i don’t.. i don’t want to just give up. but i’ve felt so… invisible.
@❁┆ k. sunoo。ᵏᶦᵗ ᶠᵒˣ shifts my eyes and gives a small shrug, not sure really how I’ve been.
I guess same old.
nothing really eventful so it’s repetitive everyday..
@✿┆ p. jongseong。ᵍʳᵉᵃᵗ ʰᵒʳⁿᵉᵈ ᵒʷˡ hey hyung
looks up from the water, looking over your face with a soft breath and standing up to face you, leaning against one of the dock rails.
yeah… how have you been?
@✿┆ p. jongseong。ᵍʳᵉᵃᵗ ʰᵒʳⁿᵉᵈ ᵒʷˡ sunoo sits at the edge of the dock, his feet hanging slightly as he kicks them back and forth. he was gazing out at the water, his eyes traveling along the trees in the distance, watching the sun set while waiting for jay to arrive.
Hands stuffed into his pockets, kicking a stray rock along the path. The moon shining brightly in the cool night, the sounds of creatures chatter in conversation. Each step that Yoonsu took had a soft crunch in the grass and gravel. Pleasing to the ear, he continued his trek down to the docks. Purposely making this trip longer than needed, Yoonsu gazed at the stars twinkled softly above him. Even though he was craving warmth from a fire, something about the cold biting at his cheeks soothed any anxiety stricken thoughts rushing through his head.
However, all good things come to an end. Arriving to the docks, seeing two lawn chairs perched on at the edge with a small table in between them. His light feet patted down the wooden dock, creaking ever so slightly with each step. The subtle gush of each wave as the wind pushed the current; creating a new amsr for him. Silence, and nothing but the sounds of nature bringing the man into a euphoria. Sitting down in one of the chairs, he leaned back. Now fully gazing at the night sky. "Is this what heaven feels like?"
It’s a cloudy afternoon, different gray hued clouds blanketed the sky. A cool breeze occasionally seeping across the campsite. Even brushing along the water and mimicking small waves. There are crispy, dead leaves plucking themselves off the branches of trees and scattering around. No one destination in mind, only ending up where they do. A short distance away there’s the campfire, the smoke from burning logs swirling into the air. Crafting that familiar campfire scent. It was nice in the moment, but not when you realize it’s clung to your clothes and hair.
Jaewook steps onto the dock, standing near the end of said dock with his hands tucked into his coat pockets. Dark spheres gazing into the water and watching a few fish peek out of the water, their mouths seemingly doing endless amount of exercising. Closing and opening as if it’s eating at an endless buffet.
@❁┆ l. felix。ᵒᵗᵗᵉʳ He contemplated putting the shoes on, he really did but as soon as Felix said the ground was mostly safe the whole idea went out the window, he was sure he'd be fine honestly. Without really thinking his hand reached out to gently tuck some of the wet strands over Felix's ear, finding himself smiling dumbly right back. He followed the Omega down into the house, admiring the shells, feathers and charms as he wondered if the other had set that up himself or if it was already here. Honestly, it was cosy. He could probably spend some hours here and be quite comfortable, he could tell Felix had worked hard to make it more homely. "Someone had to .. there's no way this was just here for nothing.." He looked across to where Felix was pointing, eyes curiously as he nodded in agreement before carefully leading the male from the house, "Yeah let's go take a look. Have you been over there before?"
@❀┆ k. taehyung。ˢⁱᵇᵉʳⁱᵃⁿ ᵗⁱᵍᵉʳ "You can put on the shoes if you want," He tried to glance down at their hands subtly smiling, but nothing is usually subtle about a smile from Felix. He rubbed the drips from his hair, off on the shoulder of the shirt he put on. "You don't have to wear them though," He guided him up the half spiral stone of steps that bridged the gap between the house and the hill, "But I know you don't like shoes. Which is fine, the ground is mostly safe." There was a worn half door on house, Felix had taken it upon himself to string up shells and feathers and other tiny charms from the entrance. He brushed those out the way as they stepped in. There was a tiny little fireplace and windows all around. A broom in the corner showed that Felix had done some tidying of the place. A woven basket with a few apples sat at the table. the only structure besides the table in the house. "Its not much, but it means someone HAD to have live here right ? The stories gotta be true. " Taking Taehyung to the window at the far end of the house he pointed to a barely noticeable stone highlight by the moon, between the swaying weeds in the distance. "I think that's the grave, should we check it out?"