Ꮺ beomgyu

@beomgyu sleep took me before I knew it moments after we spoke, stirring awake with blinking eyes as my they still felt heavy from sleep. the pink around the room catches me off guard but I remember last night, that’s when I start to feel the pressure of your hold on me, my own arms still wrapped around you. once my eyes have grew less heavy I lift a hand to gently brush away your strands of your fringe.

@hyoseop -lips parting before biting my tongue as I snuggle more against you instead. tucking my face on the crook of your neck as I tangle my legs with your own-
I hope you sleep well when you do.. and really hope i get to see you when I wake up

@beomgyu it’s a bit more complicated than that, but let’s just enjoy this. bringing things like that up may sour the mood and I don’t wanna do that.
when I feel you tugging against the blankets I reach to help you, pulling them up to our shoulders, seeing your eyes close makes my own fall shut.
I hope you’ll be able to sleep through the night and that you sleep well whenever you do succumb to it

@hyoseop -lifting my head as you move as it makes me shift as well. looking into your eyes for a moment as you speak before smiling a bit as I shake my head-
sounds like there's something on your mind you want to say that you know I won't like. it's okay. I will just settle and be contented with cuddling with you like this
-eyes closing again as I attempt to tug on the blankets to cover us properly-
I probably should.. sleep on some thoughts. and I hope sleep takes you fully soon

@beomgyu glances down feeling the slight pressure at my chest and in that moment I catch how your hand begins to search for mine, my digits falling in suit with yours. I give a small yet firm squeeze to your hand, slightly shifting in my position to slightly lay on my side.
I’m not too sure what you want from me, really. Though you’re not to blame, my confusion is also partially my own fault… I don’t want to solely focus on this though. We may end up saying things we don’t mean or worst, say things that hurt each other.
the reminded of the time makes me gently knock my forehead into your head.
I should sleep, but I’m not that sleepy yet. What about you?

@hyoseop not like I didn't try..
-mumbles more to myself before nipping lightly at your chest. searching for your hand that isn't wrapped around me to lace our fingers together as I rest them beside me. eyes fluttering close as I sigh-
until you get taken again. which i have a feeling will be soon. is late now. not sleepy yet?

@beomgyu peeks down at you when you get close to me, the arm rested behind my head removing itself from the position so I can wrap it around your body, gently resting my cheek against your head.
That’s true, can’t remember the last time.
silently listens to you, the arm wrapped around you squeezing gently against your frame.
I want us to be comfortable around each other.

@hyoseop I would hope so
-smiles a bit before shifting to snuggle against your side. one arm thrown across your torso as I rest my cheek on your chest-
been a while, though. and now I'm tip toeing.. not wanting to cross boundaries you might not want crossed.. but also not knowing where they are

@beomgyu I guess so, I was just curious to see how you’ve decorated. It fits you.
when you’ve exited to the bathroom I stand up and decide to take off my pants to get more comfy before I slip under the covers, looking at you return with said water. takes a bottle to take a few sips, once set back down I rest an arm behind my head.
Does it? I mean it’s not like I’ve never been in your room before.

@hyoseop wouldn't you agree? with the pink and plushies? mostly bears. and you might get thirsty while i cling on you. who knows
-taking a quick trip to the bathroom to change and brush my teeth, bringing a couple of water bottles just in case and leaving them at the nightstand. opening one to take a sip then climbing on the bed after putting it back-
kinda feels like bringing a friend home for the first time

@beomgyu Omega looking room?
the reference causes a chuckle to emit, shaking head in amusement before deciding to take a seat at the foot of the bed, pulling off my hoodie and setting it down onto the floor near my feet.
All good, I don’t think I’d be able to drink the water much either since you’ll be clung onto me most likely

@hyoseop is just a simple, omega looking room
-sticks my tongue out when I notice you looking around before shrugging as I walk to my closet for an oversized t-shirt and shorts-
I don't mind. just want you to be comfortable, you know? lemme go change and.. should I bring you some water?

@beomgyu once inside I take a look around in a quick observation before looking at you, humming in thought.
Well, that depends on you. Do you not like wearing outside clothes when in bed? If that’s the case I can just stay in my shirt and boxers. Ah— I’ve been wearing my hoodie all day too cause it’s been cold so my shirt under is clean.

@hyoseop -guides you by your hand to my room, letting go once we're inside-
I probably should have asked if you wanted to change and meet me here but.. I have some oversized clothes that might fit you? though you want to leave so maybe not necessary...

@beomgyu though he appreciates the thoughtful gesture of finding ways to help him out, each idea is met with a small grunt, struggling just by thinking about it.
thank you, hyung... really. i hope i get to help you out just as much as you help me..

@wonbin -hums in thought as my fingers drum on your back, listening to you as I try to come up with something-
if it's too hard to say it.. maybe write it? write a note to people you wanna get closer to so they can't misunderstand you? or text them. maybe not having to face them makes it easier to communicate? it's worth giving it a try, baby

@beomgyu but i.. i can't approach them.
wonbin eventually admits, almost as a whine in self pity.
even when i feel like im ready it sounds so difficult for me to just... come up to somebody and say that im locked in or something ;; does that make sense..? but it's not like i expect people to read the room for me, and it doesnt help that i apparently look scared pretty often... im really just a recipe set for faliure, i think..
he laughs then, laughs but his frustrations were apparent in his tone.

@wonbin mhm. I try to keep an open mindset even when it comes back to bite me. cause i know despite the bad, there's a lot of good too
-smiles at your words cause I have seen it for myself but I just curl up more around you, protectively-
you aren't wasting anyone's time, baby. you're worth the love and attention. and i do have seen it.. and felt it but im still here, aren't i? and there's more people too wanting your affection too. its probably hard to see it but they're there, waiting for you to feel comfortable enough to approach them. cause they understand you aren't rejecting them but are just a shy baby

@beomgyu he listens with close attention as you'd carefully go through your answer, responding with soft hums every now and to show that he was listening.
i know you're not fully comfortable yet, hyung.. i dont think anyone ever is. but i really admire how you pursue things knowing that hiding from what bad can happen is also hiding from the good.
i think i struggle with getting comfortable because i just.. would hate to feel like im wasting somebody's time. makes me feel bad for them and feel bad for myself both at the same time. i end up shying away a lot, and even come off as disinterested or maybe even uncomfortable.. to my detriment haha. because if people feel like i've rejected them they.. don't come back.

@wonbin -hums in thought at your question as I nuzzle my face against your soft locks that have gotten quite messy by now-
I might seem very bold and confident but I really am not, you know? but once I'm comfortable, I start testing the waters, see what feels comfortable for both but I also need a lot of reassurance that it's okay.. sometimes I get too much in my head and can't even approach people I love for the simplest things like holding their hand because I feel like a bother.. so.. I wouldn't say I'm fully comfortable but I keep trying. most the times I just.. try not to think about it and just go for it, you know? and regret it later.. I have had my fair share of rejections but.. if I focus too much on those, then I would be closing myself for something better to come so I try to keep pushing

@beomgyu a small puff of breath escapes him as bumps of shivers trickle his skin, his sensitive frame untensing only when the warmth of your hands rest still.
how.. how did you get yourself comfortable with... yourself? his tone curls then, wondering if his question made any sense to the older

@wonbin -theres an inevitable pout forming on my lips but I nod, even if you can't see me in this position. fingers trailing down your spine before sneaking under your shirt to press my hands on your back, just resting there without moving-
what would you like me to talk about, baby?

@beomgyu nervous laughter occupies his answer to your question, so much that even your gentle touch seems to be unable to soothe him as he expected it to
that's.. a lot. can you - maybe um... talk about yourself a little first, please? maybe i can um.. follow along.

@wonbin -I don't mind the silence as I stay holding you close, playing with your hair and enjoying your company but as you start speaking, I open my eyes as I listen attentively. humming in thought for a moment-
may I know which kind of things you're ready for? so i can know how to help you better

@beomgyu he stays oddly silent for a moment, carefully picking his words as he comes back to fumbling with your shirt once more.
.. i think i'm.. quite ready for a lot of things? wonbin begins and feels like shrinking again, his voice quieting as it always does.
it's.. asking, or initiating, that's a lot. getting started, too... is a lot.

@wonbin you got nothing to apologize for, binnie. love you the way you are and I won't push you to cross boundaries you aren't yet ready to cross. I'm very patient, you know?
-bringing a hand up to card through your locks as my eyes flutter close. it felt so warm and cozy being like this with you-

@beomgyu the way his face tucks into the crook of your neck is natural at this point, his own arms gently draping over you, squeezing a little. sorry.. sometimes i just - um..

@wonbin -smiling to myself as I can give myself an idea of what's on your mind but I don't push you. wrapping my arms tightly around you as soon as you lay on the bed next to me, letting you hide your face on my shoulder again-
I have missed you

@beomgyu his frame is as little as he could make it, hunched over, feeling much like an intruder entering your room for the first time. the color nevet leaves his cheeks, even as he slips into the spot you've opened up for him

@wonbin *takes your hand in mine, guiding you to my room. kicking my door close behind me as we get in and only letting go so I can crawl under the blankets and hold them up for you-
come here