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@♂ p｡ jin Taeyong smiled thankfully at his friend. He wasn't complimented so he wasn't sure how to react and decided to go for a simple 'thank you'.
"Thank you Jin... Hopefully I'll get there someday! I wish the best for you though.."
He said patting the other's shoulder softly.
Taeyong felt really thankful to Jin for a lot of things. He had joined the group and started to deal when he was only 16, and Jin was already a part of it when he joined.
For some reason Jin had kinda taken Taeyong into his 'responsability' and often would help him and defend him if their boss yelled or threatned him for doing something wrong.
Jin had really taken good care of him during all the years they spent together, and yet, Taeyong was never in a stable state of mind.
He had trust issues and was scared of being abandoned so it had been really hard for Taeyong to let the other get close to him, and even when he did, he sometimes got his mood swings or anger issues and he'd yell and snap at the other, but Jin never once got mad at him for it.
And Taeyong didn't thank him before leaving, not only because he didn't have the chance but also becaus he had never been good with words or expressing himself.
But he was really thankful to the other.
"Thank you Jin... Honestly.. I really missed you.." Taeyong replied in a small voice looking down at his drink and playing with it a little before putting it to his lips.
Taeyong looked up at the other when he sipped his drink, smiling amusedely at the other's comments.
"There is definitely vodka and orange juice in there. There's a little bit of tequilla too.. But not whisky!" He said scrunching his nose a little showing his distaste for the drink.

@⚣ l｡ taeyong ✓ Jin smiled sadly at the smaller. He understood what he was going through, but there was nothing else he could do, so he just nodded slightly at him. "I see, but I think you'll do great Taeyong-ah, you have potential". Jin had seen Taeyong dance before, and he had been amazed to say the least, even more so when the younger told him he learned to dance on his own, not having taken any classes. Jin knew then that if he ever wanted to chose dancing as his main career he would be sucessful.
The older also understood when he said he didn't want to tangle things, as he had been there. At first he found no other way, but dancing and dealing didn't really go together, so Jin tried to do it as less as possible, always trying to make his way around it, so he felt he could relate to the dealer's feelings and thoughts.
"Don't thank me, I'd like to help you" Jin kept his small smile on his face, wanting to somehow encourage Taeyong that things would be fine, that he was young, things would change and his life will still have big turns along the way. Jin wasn't much older, but he had been Taeyong's age, and when he was younger, everything seemed a lot harder to deal with than when you're grown up, so he wanted Taeyong to know that better times were ahead of him.
He considered Taeyong one of the only friends he'd ever had. He was one of the closest to him in their old group due to their common interests and he was also one of the boys he missed the most. Him leaving the group before him made Jin's decision to leave a bit easier to make, as it would be one less close friend he'd leave behind. He felt like he needed to protect Taeyong, he saw Taeyong as the little brother he never had, because the boy was so young to be living that kind of life, and he felt like a disappointment, both to himself and tonthe smaller one, for a long time, and seeing Taeyong now, safe and sound, lifted a big weight he'd been carrying with him since the smaller left.
Jin watched suspiciously as Taeyong order his drink on the waiter's ear and waited patiently for the bartender to prepare. When the drink was placed in the counter in front of him, he took a sip, trying to tell flavors apart from flavors. "There's defenitly vodka in here... and I think tequilla. And is that orange juice?" Jin took another sip, feeling another wave of flavors in his mouth "Whisky?"
He looked at Taeyong raising both his eyebrows "Am I failing completely?" He chuckles softly looking at the young guy.

@♂ p｡ jin Taeyong gestured with his head in grattitude offering him a smile.
"Yeah I guess so..." Taeyong tilted his head slightly scrunching up his nose a little. He was thankful for the others words but he knew it would be difficult for him to make it.
He had never had classes and had learnt how to dance by himself at home, Jin being the only person somehow connected to dance that he knew. He knew it was nearly impossible for him to make a living out of it so he just stick to what he knew would give him enough money to make it through, even if it was risky sometimes.
"Thanks.. But I guess for now I'll just stick to it.. if I ever want to try out for dancing, I really want to quit the business as not the tangle things... But I can't really do that right now.. Not stable enough to stop quit for dancing just yet.. maybe someday.. but thanks bro.."
He replied with a sad smile before raising an eyebrow at him and turned to the bartender.
He leant in pulling the bartender and whispering to the bartender to mix in some of Taeyongs favourite drinks befor the other moves away to make it at the back out of Jin's line of sight.
"You'll have to guess what it has on it!" He said with a challenging smile.

@⚣ l｡ taeyong ✓ Jin nodded in agreement at Taeyong's words. Jin remeber that night like it happened yesterday, he had never been more scared in his life.
"Yeah, but it's never too late to try and do what you want to do right?" Jin gave his friend a weak smile, knowing exactly what he was going through. Jin had spent rough times when he first tried to make a living out of dance, and though he now managed, he would often be found selling drugs in the street for money during quite some time. "Are you trying to make it big or want to just keep dancing on the streets? I can recommend you to some crews and companies if you want, I mean, I know you're talented enough" Jin wanted to help his friend, though he couldn't do more than he offered and he knew most of the times recommendations didn't go past that.
He allowed the younger to push him towards the bar, taking a seat next to the smaller before smirking to him "Surprise me"

@♂ p｡ jin "We do..." Taeyong said, the other's face on his mind as he nodded with a small smile.
Taeyong listened to the other nodding in understanding. Of course he hadn't been the only one getting scared that one night. None if them wanted to spend the next years of their lives in jail. They were mostly young boys in their twenties.
Taeyong nodded in agreement softly raising his eyebrows.
"Yeah I guess you could say that.. But it's too late to whine about it now so I gotta do what it takes.." He said softly with a shrug of his shoulders sharing a knowing look with the other.
Taeyong smiled up at the other "Hopefully I can do something that I like that doesn't keep at a constant risk.." He whispered with a chuckle before looking down at the other's glass as he waved it in front of his face.
He let out a small laugh before pulling the other towards the bar.
"Okay okay! What do you wanna drink?" He said taking a seat at the counter.

@⚣ l｡ taeyong ✓ "We kinda own him our lives don't we?" Jin laughed dryly looking down, shaking his head slightly before looking back at Taeyong "Don't worry about it now, I do understand why you did what you did. We all got really scared after that, none of us had gotten that close to be going to jail before, we laid low for some time, but eventually got back on the streets" Jin shrugged. He himself had gotten really scared that night, and spent loads of time wondering if their business and their group was worth going to jail for. Eventually he got to a conclusion and that was when he decided to just leave.
Jin chuckled "It is indeed. It's hard even if you did finish high school, so I guess you're having double the work finding something that is not..." Jin looked at all the people around before leaning closer to Taeyong "... illegal" he leaned back once again with a small smile "I guess you can call me lucky. Not everyone gets to do what they love, but maybe someday you will too. Though I do understand you have to do some things in order to survive" Jin stays silent for a while before looking down at his half full glass before looking back up at Taeyong "I guess you own me a drink?" Jin said as he showed his cup to Taeyong, chuckling a bit.

@♂ p｡ jin Taeyong nodded slightly with a small smile.
"Yeah... The hacker was actually a great help at that time... Thanks to him we all made it" Taeyong said as he thought back to his match, considering telling the other that he was at the moment matched with the same actor but unsure if the other wanted him to keep his identity a secret, so he decided against it.
"I was... scared at the time.. I though that if I went back the cops might trace us back and we might get arrested.. and I thought if I kept contact with any of you same thing might have happened so I just cut it off... Sorry about that.." He said lifting his hand to rub the back of his neck.
Taeyong wasn't sure if it were the long months they had been away or if the other had actually grown even taller, but he looked huge compared to himself, not being very tall.
Taeyong nodded in reply to the others next words. He himself hadn't bumped into any of the others, except for Jin himself at this right moment, so he had no idea where they were or what they were up to, but honestly, he didn't want to get involved. He was doing well on his own, which was much easier to do his job, and was never even close to getting close.
He smiled a little at Jin's words a part of himself feeling happy that Jin had gotten a bit away from the dangerous business.
"I do... It's really hard to make money or get a normal job if you haven't finished high school.." He scrunched his nose a little eyeing the other.
"But I'm glad you're trying to go for something you actually like doing.. Hope it works out!" He says with a smile "I really like dancing and I dance at the streets for some mone.. But it's not nearly enough to survive so... i have to find the money elsewhere!"

@⚣ l｡ taeyong ✓ Jin analyzed Taeyong's features, noticing the boy had become even more handsome as time passed by. Jin hadn't heard from Taeyong since the boy took off after that one night they had almost been caught, and him and his friends spent a lot of time worrying, thinking something might have happened to the small guy when he tried to run way from the cops. As months passed by the boys and even Jin stopped thinking about it, having more things to worry about other than Taeyong. Jin left the group shortly after, wanting to step away from that kind of life for a while, wanting to able to walk around the streets not feeling like a criminal, like every moment he might be arrested for some crime he had committed. "Nobody got arrested that night, we all made it... we thought for a long time something might have happened to you, you know?" Jin looked around the bar, before setting his eyes back on Taeyong "I left the group, some months after you did so I have no idea what happened to those idiots to be honest, where they could be right now" Jin laughed dryly thinking about all the things they had been through together, and about how much had changed since then. Jin struggled to hear what Taeyong said as the small guy whispered, and the music was still loud, so he had to take a time to think about the others words before he understood what he had been asked "Not really, only sometimes. You know I loved to dance, I guess I focused more on that. I'm trying to make a living out of it. I still do though, you know what they say, desperate times call for desesperate measures" Jin chuckles softly, and looked around once again before looking back at the boy "Do you?" Jin asked, raising both his eyebrows in curiosity.

@♂ p｡ jin Taeyong noticed as a smile formed on Jin's lips and felt a bit relieved that the other remembered him and didn't hold a grudge that he abandoned the group without saying a thing.
They had almost been caught and arrested by the police, and thankfully they had been working wth a hacker at the time that was able to get into the system and warn them about the cops plans to catch them just in time for them to run away as the cops arrived at the place.
He had decided it had been way too close and he'd get away from the group before he ended up in jail.
He had started his own business making sure not to keep any type of contact with any of the other's not wanting the cops to trace him and relate him to them if they ever got caught.
Thinking of all of this he hoped Jin had done the same and hadn't gotten caught, he hadn't seen them since the night they separated.
He lifted his eyes to meet the other smiling sadly up at him.
"Yeah I know.. I thought you guys might have gotten caught and been arrested or something.." He said honestly rubbing the back of his head.
"I've been good.. What about you?" He asked looking a bit around them before meeting the other's gaze speaking in a hushed voice "Are you still in the business?"

@⚣ k｡ hyungsoo ✘ It was unexpected— but this is one time I don't mind being the center of attention for a moment. /as we walk arm-in-arm toward the door, I gently lean back against you, my head briefly tipping toward yours as we leave the bar with thoughts of tomorrow firmly in my head./ That sounds perfect, yeobo. I think aegi-ah would like a little bit of the attention, too. Let's go home, my love.

@⚣ k｡ donghyun ✓ i think i may have already done that, with my proposal even though the wedding is set in stone. /humming softly, i dip down to smack a playful kiss to your cheek once more, instantly following after you; glad that you offered to lead, i slip my free hand around your arm, leaning into you with a loving demeanor
very very special. now, how about i give you a little belly rub, and we can drift off in each other's arms, and wake up just a few hours closer to the time i get to call you my wife?

@⚣ k｡ hyungsoo ✘ I think we probably should before we stand here much longer and cause a scene. /with my hand safely in yours, I give it a small squeeze and nod at your gesturing to the door; rising onto the balls of my feet, I make an attempt to look taller for a brief moment./ I'd rather aegi-ah play nice with us on our wedding day. Hopefully he or she understands how important tomorrow is for appa and eomma. Let's go, yeobo. I'll lead. /I murmur, giving our arm a light swing before I take the first step./

@⚣ k｡ donghyun ✓ ah- we really are, aren't we? maybe we should head home, to start trying to get to bed. /chuckling softly, i lean in to plant a kiss on your cheek, then one on your lips; gently, i move to clasp your hand in mine, gesturing towards the door with a tip of my head
let's head home, jagi. if we dont get to sleep soon, aegi-ah might be restless tomorrow and make you feel all nauseous and icky, and we dont want that on our wedding, do we?

@⚣ k｡ hyungsoo ✘ I feel like we're just repeating ourselves, but I can't help it. /in your arms, I tip my head up slightly, admiring your face; my lips purse slightly, hoping for a kiss as you kiss my cheek, though I settle for the soft, brief touch of the tip of your nose against mine./ We have to sleep enough so that aegi-ah isn't affected by my excitement, right, yeobo?

@⚣ k｡ donghyun ✓ you are, and im going to be your husband. /wrapping my arms tightly around you, i bring my lips to your cheeks to kiss the soft pink that dusts your cheeks before i gently pull back, smiling widely and booping your nose lightly with my own
i know... i dont know how much i'll sleep tonight. but we have to sleep well enough not to fall asleep at our own wedding.

@⚣ k｡ hyungsoo ✘ I'm— Jesus, I'm really going to be your wife. /as your palm presses gently to my stomach, my eyes fall shut even as I tip my head down; a hint of a shy flush colors my cheeks and I press my chest gently against yours./ Part of me wants to go home and go to sleep now, just so it will be tomorrow sooner, and part of me thinks I won't be able to sleep at all tonight because I'm just thinking of us... married... at last.

@⚣ k｡ donghyun ✓ how could i not? you're going to me my wife. my world. my everything. /reaching between us, i press my palm to your stomach in a sort of soothing way, tilting my cheek into your touch with a smile, eyes locking on yours
exactly, that's how i feel, jagiya. no matter what, i will be attracted to you.

@⚣ k｡ hyungsoo ✘ I hope you still think so after tomorrow. /supported by your arms, I let myself rest briefly against you, unaware that I've unconsciously brushed my clothed stomach against yours in the moment; as I look on you, bringing a hand back to your cheek, I brush my thumb over your cheekbone, appreciating the texture of your pores beneath the pad of my thumb./ We'll get through it together. Our eyes will be swollen shut tomorrow night, and we'll spend our honeymoon with swollen faces and sore throats. But I'll be even more attracted to you than usual, because you'll finally be my husband after all these years.

@⚣ k｡ donghyun ✓ mm, no, i think you'll be beautiful, gorgeous, everything. you'll never be unattractive to me, jagi. never. /rubbing your back softly, i rest my chin on your shoulder, cradling you gently in my arms; only slightly aware that my performance may have brought attention to us, i smile widely, glad to have you in my arms
ten years of being in love and having no real idea... only to now officially become husband and wife... i think i may end up literally crying my eyes out.

@⚣ k｡ hyungsoo ✘ You're giving me too much credit. I won't be so gorgeous when my eyes are swollen shut. /as my cheek gently presses to yours, I hum softly and let my eyes fall shut; the feel of being in your embrace, regardless of the fact that anyone in the bar not too drunk to hold their heads up has passed at least one glance our way, is the most comforting feeling I've ever felt in my life./ After ten years? I honestly think I might faint after our first kiss as husband and wife.

@⚣ k｡ donghyun ✓ my beautiful, stunning, gorgeous sobbing wreck, nonetheless. /once more moving to hold your waist, i hum softly and rest my damp cheek on yours, sighing in absolute bliss; with a soft sigh of content, i squeeze you gently, my lips curled up with a gentle smile
kissing you as my fiance has been amazing. but just imagine, kissing as husband and wife. after ten years.

@⚣ k｡ hyungsoo ✘ I'm going to be a sobbing wreck, but I'll be your sobbing wreck. /a soft laugh escapes my lips as you comb back my hair, and I move my hands to your sides, my fingers curling lightly in the fabric of your shirt; nuzzling back, I can't help the little whimper as all I can see, or think of, is you and only you./ We're the luckiest. I love you too, yeobo. But I have to say, kissing you as my fiance has been really nice too.

@⚣ k｡ donghyun ✓ if you cant handle this yeobo, how are you going to handle tomorrow? /chuckling softly, gently teasing you, i give your waist a soft squeeze and lift my hand to comb through your hair, pushing it back from your forehead to plant a small kiss there, nuzzling our noses gently
we're so lucky to have each other, jagiya. i love you, really. so very much. and i cant wait to hold you in my arms, to kiss you, as my wife.

@⚣ k｡ hyungsoo ✘ God I love you— I love you so damn much. I don't know how to handle all this. /lifting an arm from about your neck, I bring my hand to my face and lightly dab at my eyes, trying to dry some of my tears; my arm slips back about you as you take over, though my fingertips briefly brush over your cheeks and sweep some of your tears away./ All of our lives, just you, and me, and our little ones to come. How did we get this lucky? How? How can this be? /in awe, I lift my head to softly kiss your lips once more, then go back to returning the light nuzzling of our noses./ I love you too, Hyungsoo-yah.

@⚣ k｡ donghyun ✓ /holding you up, my hands resting on your back, i let out a soft sigh against your lips, utterly pleased and madly in love with you and all you have to offer me; bringing a hand up, i gingerly brush my thumb along your cheeks, wiping your tears away with the brightest smile i have to offer
we're getting married, starting a real, loving relationship for the rest of our lives... we're going to have a baby, we're going to have all of our lives to be together. forever, yeobo. forever. /my voice drops to a whisper as steal another kiss from you, nuzzling my nose against yours
i love you so much.

@⚣ k｡ hyungsoo ✘ /as your lips crash on mine, I dip slightly beneath you, my body feeling almost weak by the passion in your kiss; moving my lips beneath yours, and letting them part slightly so that the tip of my tongue brushes along your lower lip, I cling tightly to you; as you draw back, our tears having blended on both our cheeks, I chuckle softly in reply to your laugh./ We're getting married and we're going to be a family. I love you too, yeobo. All my heart loves you. All my heart has loved you. Omo— I love you so much!

@⚣ k｡ donghyun ✓ /i look on you with awe, with love surging from every action, and once i finally set you down, my lips crash into yours, passion laced with each and every movement of my lips against your own; my fingers weave into your hair, holding you close to me as my tears meet yours, and i cant help but laugh softly
it's happening. you and me, we're getting married. i love you, i love you so much. i cant deny it.

@⚣ k｡ hyungsoo ✘ /my hand trembles in your grasp, in a way seeming to match to your own shaking; as you slip the ring on my finger, my tears overflow, spilling down my pale cheeks even as I look to you with a broad smile; the knowledge that all of this has become real, genuine, and that you actually love me in return, is enough to make my heart feel like overflowing; as you lift my in my arms, I wrap mine about your neck and look down on you with a truly happy smile, in spite of my tears./ I love you too, yeobo. You mean so much to me. And this is— this is all really, happening.

@⚣ k｡ donghyun ✓ /much like when we discovered the life inside of you, a soft, joyous laugh leaves my lips as you say yes, and even with both of our hands trembling, i shakily slip the ring onto the ring finger of your left hand, and instantly i spring up to wind my arms around you, lifting you from your seat and twirling you; nothing could have made me more happy than to know that, even despite the circumstances, you wanted to marry me
i love you, yeobo. i love you so much, more than anything. you are my world, my life, the air i breathe. i love you.

[] i went back to the rp to find it ;;

@⚣ k｡ hyungsoo ✘ /through my own tears, it's difficult to discern your own, though as you dab at the corner of your eye, I'm certain you must be feeling like I do; as you approach me, I lower my hand from my face and press my hand to the top of the table; when you speak, my tears just feel renewed, and I can feel my hands tremble; once you reach one knee, I nearly whine aloud, unable to really speak as I offer you my shaking hand, with tears still in my eyes, at the sight of the ring./ Yes, Kim Hyungsoo, of c-course I'll marry you. You're my whole world. I can't imagine another day without you, and tomorrow I won't have to.

[ ] My eyes sting- it's too sweet-